Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Scared ❯ Sleeping and Inner Anger ( Chapter 7 )

WARNING: Alternating POV!

 

 

Scared

 

Chapter 6

 

Oh dear god I was blushing. Now to cover it up. "Er...yea, thanks..." I stood up only to be tugged back down by Kurama. I blinked and turned to look at him. "Can I go please?"

 

"Your mother told us of your stepfather Yusuke...and that he abused you..." Kurama said. I visible flinched and looked away from them, my eyes darkening. "Yusuke, please talk about it. Don't hide from your past." I guess he was right. Hiding from a past that I can't run from is stupid. I watched as Hiei walked to me and sat beside me, his sword on the ground. Kurama crawled over and sat on my other side. I stared out into the lake begging and wishing that they would disappear.

 

"We aren't going anywhere Yusuke," Hiei said. "I suggest you talk before I get impatient." I sighed. So much for wishing, I'd have to tell them one day soon anyway right? Right, now to actually talk.

 

"Relax and take your time..." I heard Kurama say. I nodded and looked up at the sky with a wistful look.

 

"I was just a kid when I was in his custody. As soon as I was able to walk and understand things I became his slave. I don't remember how long I've been abused but, it has been that way since I was with him. He would whip me, punch, kick...try to beat me with anything he could get his hands on." I brought my knees up to my chest and hugged them. "I would lie to the teachers and kids saying I got into street fights." I laughed lightly. "That's how I got my rep. Anyway...after I got away from him I kept with the reputation and skipped school every now and then." I put my hand to my face and laughed. "I know a few times I would actually hide in the trees near my classes and listen in." I laughed almost insanely. "I tried to run from it I even made Keiko forget...but I can't run from something that's engraved in me can I?" I continued to laugh as hot tears poured down my cheeks.

 

"How did you make her forget?" Hiei asked quietly. I wiped my face trying to calm down.

 

"I knew I had some kind of power...but when I used it to erase that bit of my past from her mind. It left me until I got hit by a car." I chuckled at that. "If you think about it...almost everytime I died it triggered a change in me. Maybe I should do it again." I know I might sound insane, but hey it is true. And I was a bit on edge from my memories. I laughed a bit.

 

"You are insane..." I heard Hiei murmur. I smiled and nodded.

 

"I've been told I'm a mistake and a bastard child too, anything else?" My smile widened as tears came down my cheeks again. Hiei stared at me with a frown. HA! Didn't expect that did you Hiei? I'm being a bit harsh I know...but cut me some slack. I started to laugh again at Hiei's face. "Really? Is there anything you want to say Hiei? Like stupid hanyou or something of the sort?" And I thought Hiei's face could look sadder. I continued to laugh until I was pulled back into an embrace. I froze not knowing what to do.

 

"Stop talking like that Yusuke..." Kurama whispered in my ear. I shivered at his closeness. He wiped my tears away. "Don't be so harsh with yourself. You were just a kid you couldn't have had the strength to protect yourself." He pulled me into his lap and rested his chin on my shoulder. If I didn't know any better I would say that Kurama liked me, but I know that he likes Hiei. "But now you are stronger, right Hiei?"

 

"The fox is right Yusuke..." I looked at Hiei. I think my weariness showed on my face because I suddenly felt tired. "I think he's tired..." I heard Hiei say as Kurama lifted me up and headed to Ying.

 

"Yusuke can you get on the horse?" The fox asked me. I nodded slightly and stood. I put my foot in the stirrup and pulled myself up and threw my leg on the other side. I reached down to Kurama. He smiled and took my hand. I pulled him up behind me and looked at Hiei. "Come on Hiei, take a small ride with us." Hiei snorted and looked away, but held his hand out to me. I smiled and pulled up in front of me. My hands were on each side of Hiei holding the reins. I turned Ying toward the estate. I clicked my tongue a few times as I kicked his sides lightly. He walked off toward the estate not caring about the two new passengers. I yawned and started to drift off. I felt Kurama wrap his hands around mine on the reins.

 

"I'm fine..." I murmured. The fox behind chuckled. Oooh I hate him...sneaky...always knowing...I yawned again. Dammit!

 

"I got it Yusuke...go to sleep." I really didn't want to. I was afraid of the dreams, so I shook my head and tighten my grip on the reins. "Don't be afraid..."

 

"I'm not..." I said without thinking. Natural reaction...so sue me.

 

"Stop arguing with him detective and just go to sleep." Hiei said as he leaned back into me. I guess that meant he wasn't going to throw me off the horse. So I did what they told me. I let go of the reins giving them up to Kurama. I put my hands around Hiei's waist and leaned back against Kurama. What I felt was something that I never felt before except in my mother's arms when I was a kid. I felt safe...I had cried all I needed to for the past I didn't cry for and I found out a little about my own emotions. I leaned into Kurama further as my grip on Hiei tightened. I didn't want them to leave me, I don't want to be alone anymore. Not with myself anyway...too many things going on to trust myself alone.

 

--- (Normal POV)

 

Atsuko paced back and forth in the garden. 'Where are they? I'm worried Yusuke did something stupid!' She looked up at the black sky. "Yusuke..." She whispered hoping her son was still alive. 'The last time he got like this was around him being 10...when he became suicidal...but I don't think they knew that...not even Koenma.' She turned as she heard footsteps from behind her. She turned and smiled in relief. Kurama was looking down at a sleeping Yusuke in his arms. Hiei was beside him with his arms crossed. Atsuko noticed his cloak was around Yusuke who was shivering despite being in Kurama's arms. Both demons looked up at Atsuko. Kurama smiled at her.

 

"We have to get him inside, before he catches a cold." Hiei said as he walked past them into the house. Atsuko knew Yusuke wouldn't want them to see his scars on the back.

 

"I'll dress him when we get to his room." She said as she led Kurama to Yusuke's room.

 

"Are you sure Atsuko-san?" Kurama asked as he laid Yusuke on the bed.

 

"Don't you think Yusuke will find it embarrassing if he found out you or Hiei dressed him?" Atsuko asked with her hands on her hips. Kurama chuckled.

 

"Yes, I suppose he would. I think we embarrassed him far too much today..." The red haired boy stood up and walked out allowing Atsuko the privacy to dress Yusuke. She looked at him and sighed getting out an over sized button up pajamas shirt out with new boxers and the pants.

 

"What I do for my boy..." She said as she began to undress her son.

 

--- (Yusuke's POV)

 

I felt warmth...safe. I snuggled into that feeling not wanting to let it go. There was a time that I was left alone in the darkness, but I would search for my warmth. It stayed with me, sometimes disappearing but only for a few minutes at a time. After a while I felt myself being lifted from the darkness.

 

That's when I woke up. I blinked and stared at the ceiling for a while before realizing where I was. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. Getting to my feet, I walked out of the room letting my button up shirt fall off my unscarred right shoulder. I headed to the kitchen. I felt extremely hungry. As I approached the doorway, I heard laughter. I started to rub out of my eyes again as I entered. "What's with the laughing?" I opened my left eyes, which I wasn't rubbing. I heard a click...no...I looked at my mother to see her holding a camera.

 

"Ha! I got it!" She said victoriously. Not really in the mood to complain I continued to rub my eyes trying to actually wake up. I walked to Kurama and Hiei and sat beside them. They were both chuckling.

 

"How long have I been out?" I asked. They all got silent and looked at me. I looked at them through half-awake eyes and sighed. "Just give me a damn answer."

 

"You've been asleep for..." The Kitsune looked at his watch as he sipped his tea. "Six days now." I removed my hand from my now wide eyes.

 

"S-six days...?" Kurama nodded. "Wow...I must have been really tired."

 

"Those nightmares take their toll Yusuke..." My mother said as she drank her coffee. She pulled out her pack of cigarettes. Taking on out and placing it in her mouth, she held the pack to me. "It happened when you were younger remember? You got a fever remember?"

 

"Not really..." I took the cigarette and took the lighter from her after she lit hers. "So did I scream this time?" I asked while taking a drag from my cigarette. Oh nicotine! How I need you so!

 

"Actually you were relatively quiet. Only murmuring when Hiei, Atsuko-san, or I left your side." Kurama answered with a small smile. I immediately blushed. Oh geez....please tell me I wasn't groping for them because they were my warmth. Oh god...

 

"Here Yusuke..." My mother said pushing a plate of fruits toward me. I nodded and grabbed a peach and began eating it.

 

"I didn't know you were a healthy eater Yusuke." Kurama commented. I rolled my eyes and turned away from him. I left my back to him and Hiei as I continued to eat and smoke.

 

"I did that..." My mother smiled. "Eating healthier will help you sleep right Yusuke?" I coughed. Putting the peach down and the cigarette in the ash tray, I began to cough until the sweet juice of the peach cleared from the wrong tube. I'm hope I'm the only one who caught the double meaning. My mother and I had compared our own 'tips and tricks' of what to do in the bed. She, trying to get me to get laid. Me, trying to outwit her from what I read from smut books. I shook my head and stood up.

 

"Er...I'm going to make use of the dojo..." I said. As I headed out I started to mumble. "Six days asleep and when I see her, she says that....always count on my mother to get me ruffled." I quickly went to my room and changed into a fighting gi. When I got into dojo I saw that Lin's sword collection was on show on the far wall. I froze at the door for a minute. Swords...big swords...I've always been frighten of them since Takimori killed that woman in front of me. On my first mission, when I learned that Hiei had the sword, I had mentally freaked. I never wanted to be near another sword. Though I had taught myself when I was younger how to fight with a sword. I had discontinued it after I was 10, but I picked it back up after Sensui. I stared at the twin blades she had. Walking silently, I found myself being dragged in front of the swords. I didn't touch them, instead I looked knowing I could buy one off Lin.

 

I smirked when I saw it. A black dragon was engraved on the blade and silver fire on the hilt. I sat there thinking. To repay Hiei for all he's done, I might as well get him a new blade. I shook my head and stepped away from the dangerous blades. I walked over to the stereo that Lin had hidden in the corner and crouched by it. Beside it were a few CD cases. I picked up the one that had my name and put it in. As it began to play I walked out to the middle of the floor rotating my arm. Closing my eyes, I breathed slowly. I quickly centered myself before beginning to practice my martial arts. My mind closed everything out but the music and my breathing. So even if a gun went off, I wouldn't hear it.

 

I started to go into combos. Punch, Punch, uppercut, kick. Back step then kick with the same legs, then left punch, right rounding kick. Going into my more difficult combinations I got lost in my own world to the American song 'Dragula' by Rob Zombie. My punches and kicks became faster. My momentum cared me into all sorts of flips and handsprings. I felt my body heat up, my adrenaline pumping my body. Sweat poured down my back. I could actually feel the heat ride from my shoulders and back.

 

I know I should stop, but I don't know what compelled me to continue. Maybe it was my anger against the only man I knew as a father. The way he treated me...the way he used and abused me! I felt my demon side claw at the surface, raging to get out and vent my inner anger and stress. As I did a roundhouse kick I started to think. If he was still alive...would I have killed him when I first began being Spirit Detective? I seriously doubted I could then, but now is another story. I've taken one innocent life, why not take one evil human one? If he was alive I mean.

 

I snapped out of my dazed state when I heard footsteps closing in on me. I turned to see Hiei grab me. "Whoa! What's wrong?" I asked blinking. All Hiei did was ignore me. He put his hand to my forehead as he held me still with the other. His hand was ice cold against my scorching hot skin. I felt my eyes become hazy as I leaned into his hand.

 

"Is everything alright Hiei?" I heard my mother ask from the doorway beside Kurama.

 

"Hn...What happened detective, that your body would burn this way?" Hiei asked me coldly. I just stood there, I blinked the haze from my eyes.

 

"What are you talking about?" I pulled away from Hiei's cool hand. That was a mistake. My head swam causing me to fall down on my ass. Great...I over exhausted myself. "Whoa..." I murmured holding my head. I guess Kurama deemed it safe to come near me, since he allowed my mother to walk to me. "Damn headache..."

 

"Yea, blame the headache when it was you." My mother said crossing her arms. I smiled goofily and stood up. Dusting off my pants I looked at Kurama and Hiei.

 

"So what made you two come running?" I asked. It was then I noticed Hiei's headband was missing. I turned my head snorting. "Spy..." Kurama smiled.

 

"Yes, we were just making sure you were alright Yusuke." I stared at Kurama. My mom had turned off the music as I scratched my head.

 

"And why would I not be?" I wondered did my drowning experience spook them too much.

 

"Your mother talks too much..." Hiei said turning his back on us.

 

"My mother...." I turned to see her hiding behind Kurama. "What did she say this time?"

 

"I never knew you were scared of swords..." I blushed. I was embarrassed but thankful. At least it wasn't something major. Hiei glared at me. "No wonder you never touched the things."

 

"I wouldn't say that..." I murmured rubbing the back of my neck. Hiei must have heard me because he looking at me with a raised eyebrow. I smiled at him.

 

"So what now?" Kurama asked.

 

"Well, I'm energetic. So....I don't know." I said looking at my mother for help.

 

"Why don't we show them down the trails?" She said with a smile. I didn't like the smile and looked at Kurama.

 

"Sure, I would love to see what plants she has here." Good, fox boy agrees with me. I turned to Hiei and looked at him. He shrugged not caring. I took that as a Yes.

 

"Alright...let's go pick out some horses." My mother said her smile widening. I knew that smile...she had something planned.

 

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TBC

 

Yea...this is it...What does Atsuko have planned hm....