Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Scared ❯ Hiding the Truth ( Chapter 11 )

WARNING: Might be Alternating POV!

 

 

Scared

 

Chapter 10

 

I felt Kurama take a step toward me. I stepped back and kept out his reach. They stared at me with confused expressions, or at least Lin did. Kurama and Hiei knew of my father raping me at a young age. I guess they knew what my reaction would be. I was so deep in my thoughts I didn't notice Hiei coming toward me. He grabbed my wrists and jerked me forward, getting my attention.

 

"Detective, snap out of it." He whispered harshly. I stared at him as though I didn't know him. Kurama grabbed my hand and led me to the ambulance.

 

"K-Kurama? What are you doing?" I asked hoarsely. He stopped in front of Taku and pulled me up next to him. Taku looked up at Kurama and huddled away. I remembered feeling the same way when I was younger. I remembered pushing Taku out of the way and getting killed. I knelt down, Kurama letting go of my hand, and smiled slightly at Taku.

 

"Who are you?" He asked frighteningly. Kurama nudged me to speak. I took a deep breath and looked at Taku.

 

"Don't tell me you forgot me Taku." I tilted my head to the side. "I did after all, get hit by a car for you." I said. Taku is one of the only kids I actually explained that I was in a 'coma' after I got hit. He blinked his tears away.

 

"Yusuke?" He asked. I nodded to him and he stared at me, before launching himself into me and hugging me around my neck.

"Kurama, tell Lin that I'm gonna talk with Taku privately." I said as I got up and headed to Taku's backyard. Taku clung to me as we got away from the commotion. His body shook as I set him down.

 

"I-it was..." Taku stuttered. "He...made me..." I patted his head.

 

"Sh...I know, but I got to show you something." I was always good with kids. I don't know, maybe because I didn't want to be like my stepfather. He looked up at me as began to take off my silk shirt. Taku looked at me strangely as I began to unbuckle my shoulder holster and slide it off.

 

"Y-Yusuke?" He asked. I saw fear in his eyes. I know he was trying to act tough that's why he was even talking. I know after I was raped, I didn't talk to anyone at first. Taku is special I guess.

 

"I'm just going to show you what happened in my childhood Taku..." I dropped the holster and turned so my back was to him. I pulled my shirt up till the back was up to my neck. Kneeling down I allowed Taku to see my scarred back.

 

"Wow..." I felt his hands tracing all my scars. "Is this from fighting?"

 

"No..." I closed my eyes. "I was beaten by my step-father when I was younger." Taku moved hand his all over my back then came to the acid cross scar.

 

"This one looks nasty..." He whispered. I smiled and opened my eyes as I put my shirt down and turned to him taking off my cuffs to show him my wrist scars. "You tried to kill yourself?"

 

"The cross on my back is an acidic scar. It will stay even if the others fade." I answered as he examined my wrists. "And yes after my father died about four years before I rescued you, I was tried suicide." He let my wrists go and I put my cuffs back on. I kept talking as I picked up the holster and buckled it back on me. "I was sent to the hospital and was diagnosis as a dangerous suicidal patient." I put my silk shirt of the holster and looked down at Taku.

 

"You suicidal?" Taku said to me. "Unbelievable..." I took Taku's hand and rubbed it with my thumb trying to comfort him.

 

"Yea...well, it is nothing I am proud of. I mean...the reason I was suicidal was because my step-father raped me." I whispered to him. Taku stared at me for the longest time.

 

"You...were..." I nodded and smiled slightly. "But...you're so strong..."

 

"Not when I was five..." His eyes widened. "A shock to be so young and be raped, I know."

 

"Do your friends know?" He asked as he grabbed my hand.

 

"The scars, no they don't know about them. About being raped...the two guys I was with do, not anyone else on the force." I explained as we headed back to the ambulance. Glancing in the house, I saw something I didn't want Taku to see so I just continued to talk. "Taku, I know you are trying to be tough." He looked up at me. "I know how you feel, right now you don't want to be near anyone because you are afraid. I know, because I thought that too."

 

"What did you do?" I stared at Kurama and Hiei as they talked with Lin.

 

"Since I didn't have anyone to help me, I didn't do anything. I didn't cry, I didn't let my emotions out. That's why I became suicidal when I was ten." I answered smiling as the two youkai were causing Lin to back away from them. "Don't hide your emotions. That is the best advice I can give you." Taku looked up me and looked at Kurama and Hiei.

 

"I'll try Yusuke!" He said cheerfully. "I'm glad you shared your secret with me. It made me feel not alone..." He said then smirked. "Now, I got a question for you!"

 

"Really, well what is it?" I asked as we got closer to them.

 

"Which one of them do you like?" He said making a small motion toward Hiei and Kurama. I felt my face flare up instantly as I let go of Taku and ran around the car to hide. "YUSUKE!" I heard him take off after me laughing. At least I got him laughing. This got my mind off the murder for now and him off his rape. Yep...I'm good with kids! "Stop him!" He called to Kurama, Hiei, and Lin. They watched as I slid over the hood of the car and landed on the other side.

 

"No way kid, that's not something I'll answer!" I said as I glared playfully at me as he got up on the hood of the car.

 

"Tell me or I will say it out loud! With names!" He threatened. I smirked, I knew he was playing around with me. Baiting me was one thing, threatening me in my own game was another.

 

"You wouldn't dare..." I said. Kurama, Hiei, and Lin looked at me.

 

"They're both went nuts..." I heard Hiei murmur.

 

"No, I think they are just playing around." Kurama replied. Someone who understands me! Lin laughed and agreed with Kurama. Two points for her for not making a comment.

 

"Yusuke!" Taku whined.

 

"Catch me if you want to know!" I said and took off again. Taku hopped off the car as I raced around it.

 

"No fair! You're tall than me and can run...and stuff..." He pouted as he continued after me. Kurama chose that moment to step in and help Taku. "Yay!" He shouted as I collided into Kurama's chest. His arms trapped me against his chest. I blushed as he laughed.

 

"So what was the question?" He asked me.

 

"Nothing!" I said quickly. Hiei shook his head and Lin sighed.

 

"Yusuke, the ambulance wants to get Taku to the hospital." I turned to look at Taku to see him go as pale as a ghost.

 

"Hey Taku, remember my advice." I said softly to him. He looked at me with fear in his eyes.

 

"Will I see you again Yusuke?" He asked shakily. I smirked and nodded him, winking.

 

"Get my cell phone number from Lin. You can call me when ever you like, and if I miss it leave a number and I swear I'll call you back." I paused then smiled. "We can talk about the question you asked when you do give me a ring." Taku ran up and hugged me. I patted his head then watched as Lin led him back to the ambulance. I felt Kurama's arms tightened around me.

 

"You are very good with kids Yusuke." He said as he leaned on my shoulder looking the ambulance leave. I shook my head and paled as it was out of sight, remembering what I saw in the house.

 

"What's wrong detective?" Hiei asked glaring at us. I stepped out of Kurama's protective arms and motioned them to follow me.

 

"Officer Kenji!" I called as I walked back him. "Come with me." I stated as I walked toward the back of the house. The good young officer jogged up to us as I stopped.

 

"What is it Urameshi-san?" He asked.

 

"Was one door locked in the house?" I asked. Kenji nodded.

 

"Why do you ask Yusuke?" Kurama asked. I turned and pointed to the window.

 

"I just found out where the insides of Taku's mother went." I whispered. Through the window, Taku's father hung naked from the ceiling by his wife's intestines. On his chest it read 'Victim 2'. His eyes and tongue like Taku's mother were cut out as well as his member. His hands were bound by the small intestines. I turned my head away. I couldn't see anymore gore today. Knives were embedded in his body all over the place. I shuddered as I heard Officer Kenji run off to most likely puke in the bushes.

 

"What maniac would do this?" I heard Kurama whisper. I wobbled toward the car away from the sight. Hiei followed me with a worried expression.

 

"Detective?" He whispered. I stopped and looked at Hiei with blank eyes.

 

"Hiei...I know I've seen...hell I've been worse as a Spirit Detective." I turned away from. "But these are humans, people I am suppose to protect. They aren't demons." I continued the car. I didn't want a reply. I was too emotional after all this. I put my arms against the hood of the GT 500 and took deep breathes. Hiei stood silently by my side as Kurama joined us a couple minutes later.

 

"They took pictures, Yusuke...said they'd give them to Lin." I nodded not trusting my voice again. I felt Kurama rub my back soothingly. "I'll drive us home Yusuke." His hand slipped into my front pocket and took the keys. Normally, I would have gotten aroused by that, but I was just too damn sick. I slowly stood up and walked around to the other side. Climbing into the passenger seat, I leaned it back so I was reclining slightly. Hiei and Kurama climbed in and looked at me worriedly.

 

"Yusuke...why did they call you to this murder scene?" Hiei asked. I closed my eyes as I felt Kurama start the car.

 

"The marks on the woman were not of a normal serial killer or rapist this precinct has seen. Plus, with the room the way it was and the hole in her stomach, I guess they thought we would be the best choice to check it out." I answered slowly.

 

"How do you do it Yusuke?" Kurama whispered. "How do you keep yourself going after your childhood? After remembering?" I opened my eyes a bit into slits and stared at into ruby red eyes. How did Hiei get into the passenger seat without me knowing?

 

"He's waiting for an answer Detective..." Hiei whispered. I stared at him then looked at Kurama.

 

"I-I don't know..." I whispered back as I closed my eyes. I felt Hiei lay beside me on the seat. I turned on my side and put my hand under my head allowing me to rest my head against his shoulder. He was cool. Was I overheated again? I nuzzled into his neck and put my free arm around him pulling him closer to my body. "Don't leave me alone..." I murmured in a half asleep state. As I drifted off to sleep I thought I heard Kurama say 'We'll never leave you Yus-chan' but it could have been my imagination.

 

=^.^=

 

My arms tightened around the pillow I had. I didn't want to wake up, but someone was shaking me awake. I groaned and pulled the pillow closer and nuzzled my face into it. I heard a grunt then a chuckled. I wondered what it was as I opened my eyes.

 

"Glad you decided to wake up Yusuke." Kurama said from the driver's seat. I looked down at my 'pillow' and blinked. The mass of black hair moved back as Hiei tilted his head back and looked at me with a glare. I stared sleepily at him.

 

"Hi Hiei..." I yawned and let go of him. I looked at Kurama then say up. I noticed we were back at the estate and yawned again.

 

"Have fun using me as a pillow Yusuke?" Hiei sat up and crossed his arms. I opened the door and climbed out, stretching.

 

"Actually, I did..." I said and turned to the two demons as they got out also. "No nightmares..." I said softly. We walked into the house and I headed upstairs and immediately started to pack. Wondering why I was packing? I had to get back into town by tomorrow afternoon. My vacation was over, seems my jobs always get in the way of pleasures.

 

I was done packing in about an hour or two. I left my bag by my door and lied down on the bed. I had removed my holster, but kept my silk shirt on. I curled up into a ball and shivered as images flashed before my eyes. My step-father raping me, Taku's mother, being beaten by my step-father, Taku's dad, the kid I killed, his blood on my hands as I held him waiting for back up. I held my head trying to get rid of the images. I heard screaming. I closed my eyes begging for the screaming to stop.

 

It wasn't until a few minutes later, when the door slammed open did I realize I was the one screaming. Kurama and Hiei were at my side instantly, but they couldn't get to me. I had some how managed to put up an invisible spirit barrier around my curled form. Hiei stared at me with wide eyes. I was crumbling before his eyes. The Yusuke he knew wasn't real...I think he was starting to realize that. Kurama was examining the barrier as my mother was crying and being held back by Haru. Kurama's voice was nothing but a whisper, I barely heard him.

 

"Yusuke...Yusuke listen to me, you must drop the barrier or I will have to break through it." He said. "It might hurt you...I don't want to hurt you Yusuke." For some insane reason, I couldn't lower the barrier. Instead it grew stronger shocking them slightly.

 

"Kurama...do it." Hiei said as he stared at me. "He's lost in his own mind." The kitsune nodded grimly and let his hands hover over the barrier. His spirit energy pressed against mine. I flinched.

 

"I'm sorry Yusuke..." He said as he pressed with unexpected force. A scream tore through my throat as my barrier shattered. Hiei and Kurama were instantly with me. Kurama was behind me and spooned against me and whispering to me that it was alright. Hiei was in my arms letting me nuzzle into him. "Atsuko-san...pack your bag, we are going to leave tomorrow." I heard the door close, nothing else.

 

"It was too much for him..." Hiei said. "He's too weak for this kind of work Kurama." I didn't care. I didn't feel like talking.

 

"Hiei..." Kurama whispered. "He's had a rough childhood, that's resurfacing now. Leave him be..." I was blank. My heart couldn't take this kind of abuse again...nor could my mind.

 

"He needs to toughen up Kurama. He won't survive if he doesn't." Hiei said harshly. I jerked and shuddered. He sounded just like my step-father. Both demons sat up, unsure of what to do. I stayed down lying against the pillow.

 

"Leave..."

 

"But Yusuke..." Kurama protested. I closed my eyes and breathed in deeply.

 

"If you both don't leave this room right now, I will use the spirit gun on you both." I said threateningly. When in doubt, threaten and be like the Yusuke they know. They stared at me before silently getting up and leaving to their rooms. I was glad, I couldn't handle them being here. Tonight...I leave tonight. God, help me I need some alone time away from them, before I do something I regret. Pleasurable or not....

 

=^.^=

 

TBC

 

A bit OOC I know, but hey...this is my story! LIVE WITH IT! It will get IC!