Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Scared ❯ Memories Part II: Magdalene ( Chapter 17 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
WARNING: Might be Alternating POV! and Slight x-over with a game. The songs are 'Soung the Bugle' By Bryan Adams and 'Have you seen the Rain' By Vanilla Sky


Scared

Chapter 16

I put the newly lit cigarette in my mouth as I sat in my living room with old books and papers scattered around me. Some where on the couch and others on the table. My mother had came back an hour after I laid Kurama to sleep. She said that as long as I stay in the apartment, that she wouldn't wake Kurama. Wanting the kitsune to get some sleep I complied. We had started to talk to each other. Pulling out the beer and cigarettes we camped out in the living room before my mother went to bed. She had kept all my old books that I had written in when I was younger. It is those books and pieces of papers I am going through now. I had one of my many CDs of American music playing softly in the room as I shifted through an old sketch book. Coming to one picture I remembered why I drew it. It was of a young child smiling in his father's arms.

Sound the bugle now - Play it just for me
As the seasons change - Remember how I used to be.
Now I can't go on - I can't even start
I've got nothing left - just an empty heart.

I was crying. I was only a child...five even. That didn't matter though. Age didn't matter when my father decides to rape me. This time it was worst that before. I stayed on the bed, only able to get the sheets over my body somehow. They were bloody, but they gave me what little warmth they had. More than my father ever had.

Tonight was different than any other night though. My father had invited a strange woman to watch. She has dirty blonde hair and enticing fiery blue eyes. She would instruct my father what to do to me. That is what made it worse than normal. My cuts were deeper and my pain between my legs was still throbbing, but only her eyes were in my mind. All I could think about was her blue eyes staring at my little body. Her eyes...staring into my soul.

I'm a soldier - wounded so I must give up the fight
There's nothing more for me - lead me away...
Or leave me lying here.

I took another sip of my beer as I put my cigarette out in the ashtray. I put the beer bottle with the rest. There was five of them. I pulled out the last beer from the case and glared at all the papers. "Dammit it all to hell..." Standing up I stumbled over to the sliding door leading to the balcony. Staring out toward the rain I remembered the first time I meet that woman.

Sound the bugle now - Tell them I don't care.
There's not a road I know - That leads to anywhere
Without a light, I fear that I will - stumble in the dark
Lay right down - decide not to go on.

"YUSUKE! GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE!" My father called. I limped slightly as I went downstairs. I straighten when I smelled a scent of another person. Once downstairs I saw that my dad's guest was a woman. She stood up when I came into the room and smiled. My dad smirked. "I'll leave you two to get accquainted." With that he left the room. I watched him leave before turning to the woman again.

"Hello Yusuke," She said. I stared at her emotionlessly. She looked and sounded innocent enough, but looks can be deceiving. I knew my role, stay still and behave or else the beatings would be worse tonight. "You can talk to me Yusuke..."

"Why are you here?" I asked. There was something about this woman that made me feel calm.

"Because of you..." She smiled and knelt before me. She pulled me into her lap. I tensed but relaxed as she rubbed small circles into my back. She was calming me. I sighed and pulled back enough to lay my head in her lap. "I am someone who will bring out the true you..." She whispered as she leaned down and kissed my temple. I think I imagined that part. I'm pretty sure I did.
"What's your name?" I asked.

"My name?" She asked. Smiling she replied. "My name is Magdalene."

Then from on high - Somewhere in the distance.
There's a voice that calls - Remember who you are.
If you lose yourself - your courage soon will follow.

"And so, the wicked revealed herself to me." I whispered into the beer bottle before finishing it off. I walked to the table and put it down the table. "The Judas of God...." I picked up a picture. It held a woman in a cloak that had a hood up covering her eyes. She had a halo and angel wings. On the back of the picture there was writing. 'I forgive her...as god forgives our step-father. Be safe Yu-chan'. I never remembered drawing this or writing this. I looked at all these pictures. Drawings of a ten year old child, yet they look professional. Most of them I don't even remember drawing. I grabbed a cigarette from my pack then tossed it onto the couch. Taking out my lighter I lit my cigarette, then but the put the lighter in my back pocket. I crossed over to the beer bottles and picked them up. I went into the kitchen and dumped them in the trash. Opening the fridge, I pulled out another six pack and set them on the counter.

So be strong tonight - Remember who you are
You're a soldier now - fighting in a battle
To be free once more - that's worth fighting for.

I opened the first beer of the case and took a swig. I picked up the case and headed back out into the living room. I kept my eyes on the floor as went to the love seat. I set the case on the floor in front of it and then picked up some papers and went to the sliding glass door. Sitting down in front of it I leaned my back against the cold glass. The track on my CD changed as I shifted through the papers again. Mini journals and sketches laid before me. Putting out the cigarette I quickly grabbed a picture. It was a drawing of Magdalene. Of her smiling...in her long skirt and her blouse, with a cigarette in her hand and a whip wrapped around her waist.

Have you ever seen the rain
Drops give to the earth, what the sun stole
Have you ever suffered pain
No one worry about you, you're alone

Magdalene blew smoke in my face as she pulled away from me. She had befriended me just to get my father to allow her to screw me. She sat up in all her glory. With the cigarette in her mouth she slipped her bra on then her blouse. I watched her every movement. Once she slipped her skirt on she turned and smirked at me. She blew the smoke in my face again. Taking out her cigarette she put it out on my back. I hissed but kept silent. She leaned down and licked the spot she burnt.

"You were trained well Yusuke...I was very pleased." She said huskily. Magdalene turned me onto my back. During her little 'session' she had tied my hand with her whip so I couldn't move. "Now...for a little more." I stared into her eyes. Her hand trailed down my body to between my legs. "I see you are excited about this as I am." She wrapped her hand around me. I tilted my head back and moaned. "I think little Yusuke has been enjoying my company." She kissed my neck.

"Magdalene..." I murmured arcing into her touch. She grinned and pulled away. I whined and tried to go to her but she moved away.

"You need to be punished Yusuke...for getting pleasure out of this." Magdalene said as she walked out of the room. "I'll go get your father." My eyes widened as I realized my mistake. "I'll see you again Yusuke." She said as she left. That made me relax. She would come back to me. She said she would...

I would like to stay with you just lying on the shore
And watch the moon until our heart won't suffer anymore

I was out the love seat before I realized it and was on the fourth beer of the second case. I was stumbling around the living rooms trying to gather the papers. I didn't want to remember that I had a crush on Magdalene when I was younger. She had raped me. But...how can you rape a young kid who wanted it but didn't at the same time. I finished gathering the papers and stuffed them into the cabinet that was nearby. I'd get them later. I turned and stumbled away from the cabinet. I took another swig of beer as I headed toward the guest room. As I passed the couch I slipped on a piece of paper I missed.

Have you ever stopped the time
Seen every little thing as it is

Two arms wrapped around me as was lowered to the ground. My face was planted into the side of their neck as they lowered. I pulled away and looked at my savior. Two dark ruby eyes stared back. I blinked trying to get the hazy feel out of my head. I put the beer bottle to my lips only to have it taken away.

"Hey..." I slurred. "Give that back Hiei..."

"You are drunk enough Yusuke..." Hiei said. I glared at the apparition before snatched the bottle back and downing it quickly. Hiei grabbed the bottle from me. "Get a hold of yourself Yusuke." He said.

"I have nothing to hold onto..." I said back. I thought back to when Hiei smiled at me before now....Why was thinking of that now?

If you smile just to be kind
that's enough to feel my hear with bliss

I stood up wavering slightly, but stood. I headed toward the case of beer on the floor and took out another one. I popped it open and took a swig.

"Why do you insist on getting drunk Yusuke?" Hiei asked as I headed toward the sliding glass door. I faltered in my step and braced my one arm against the door as I looked out into the rain.

"Because I have a right to be drunk..." I slurred out more drunk than before.

"You are too young to have that choice." He said. I took a swig of beer again and shrugged.

"I'm not in your little circle of protection anymore. I quit being a spirit detective." I cringed as my head started to throb.

I would like to stay with you just lying on the shore
and watch the moon until our heart won't suffer anymore


Finish my 10th beer I dropped the bottle onto the ground carelessly. I leaned further into the glass. Magdalene....she was named after the holy woman who was said to the 'apostle to the apostles'. Damn her...damn her for being so tempting. Stupid seductress. I closed my eyes. I didn't want to remember this. My forehead was against the glass as Hiei spoke to me.

"Yusuke, you drank ten beers? Shouldn't you be knocked out?" He asked. I laughed. It was an empty laugh.

"I have alchohol in my blood. I'm use to it."

"Detective!" Hiei hissed as he turned me around. My back was against the cool glass as I looked at Hiei. I slid down the glass down to the floor and tilted my head back against it.

"Oh god..." I murmured.

I would like to stay with you just lying on the shore
and watch the moon until our heart won't suffer anymore


"Yusuke...what's the matter?" Hiei asked kneeling beside me. I put my hand to my head and started to laugh hollowly. Hiei stared at me blankly.

"I....I enjoyed it....oh god...I enjoyed it." I admitted to myself more than to Hiei. He had no idea what I was talking about. Probably thought I was an idiot. My hand slipped from my face and fell to my side as I laughed emptily. My body shook with the laughter.

My face snapped to on side suddenly. My left cheek was stinging numbly. I stared blankly across the room trying to figure out what just happened. Hands defly grabbed my chin and turned my face back. My mouth was assaulted with a fiery kiss. My eyes stared into Hiei's as he slipped his tongue into my mouth. I moaned and raised my hand to his face trying to pull him closer to my body. Hiei straddled my hips as he pressed his body against mine. Hiei broke the kiss as looked at me. I buried my face into his neck as I regained my breath.

"Tell me..." He demanded. I shook my head slightly and shivered. "Yusuke...tell me..." He grabbed my hair and pulled my head away from his neck. He stared into my eyes glaring at me. "Now..." He growled. I whimpered.

I guess I deserve your eyes
I just can't reach your blind heart

"A woman....my father had invited to the house when I was younger. Befriended me....then screwed me." I whispered. The way Hiei was holding me reminded me too much of the way my father demanded me to tell him I was his whore. I shivered. "Hiei..." He leaned down and kissed me again.

"It's alright Yusuke..." He told me as he let go of my hair. His hands went to my chest. "You are cold..." He said as he leaned down to kiss my chest. I turned my head to the side. It felt good...his hands went to my waist at the tugged at the pants.

"Hiei..." I whispered. Hiei kissed my chest then wrapped his mouth around my pectoral. I moaned and panted at the sensation. He tugged my pants out from under me. He grinded against my naked groin. My breath hitched as my hands came up and wrapped themselves into his hair.

I would like to stay with you just lying on the shore
and watch the moon until our heart won't suffer anymore


"Don't touch Yusuke..." Hiei said unwrapping my hands from his head. He placed them by my side as he kissed his way down to my lower stomach. I gasped as he went lower and kissed my groin. His hands rested at my waist as he took my erection into his mouth.

"Hiei!" I hissed and tried to buck into his mouth but found out he was holding me down. I whined and whimpered in submission and held still. Oh holy mercy of god....please, I can't relive the past. Let me go. I winced as Hiei bit down on me. God! He is being just like my step-father. So rough....so... "Stop it please..." I begged. Hiei bit me again and I jolted up against the glass. My step-father appeared before my eyes laughing at me.

I just want to stay with you just lying on the shore
and watch the moon until our heart won't suffer anymore


I felt Hiei suddenly be lifted from me as my vision started to darken. "Yusuke..." It was Kurama who saved me. "I'm sorry, Hiei's in heat!" He whispered urgently to me. "Yusuke?" That's the last thing I heard before my vision when black.

I felt my spirit being pushed back into comforting arms. I looked down to see that the arms had the same demon marks as I did. It was my demon side, my Mazoku blood. I leaned into that side of me and allowed him to shield me, as he did when I was younger. "You will be safe Yu-chan...let the Little lion cub deal with them." He whispered in my ear brotherly. "Until then, come to my domain and rest..." I trusted the Mazoku with my life. How could I not? After all, he was me right? But...who was the little lion cub he spoke of? I didn't care...all I knew is. I didn't want to see Hiei turn into my step-father. I didn't want to relive the pain...the pain of losing another piece of myself for not being...My Mazoku lifted me as he 'stood'. I was being carried off to a safer place. A place...where I could forget...even for a moment.


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Yep, that's it! Fast Ya? And everything will be revealed in due time okay WhiteRose-Kurama. But until then here's a question for ya'll! If you get close to the correct answer I will enter your name in the story some how.

Q: From what the Mazoku said, and what was shown in this chapter. Who is 'The Little Lion Cub' the Mazoku speaks of?
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