Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Siren's Song ❯ Chapter 14
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By: MexicanJew 
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.04.2004 | Updated On: 09.05.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 4.3K | Visits: 348 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.04.2004 | Updated On: 09.05.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 4.3K | Visits: 348 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: I do not own YYH
My internet is back on, at least for now, but I still have soccer and work and school so it still might be some time between updates, sorry! Thanks for understanding! And thank you to Nenagh24 and Ryuko, my loyal reveiwers, it helps in writing knowing people like it enough to keep reading it.
Oh and sorry for OOCness that is in this chapter.
p.s. Go to www.fat-pie.com and watch the Salad Fingers episodes, its kinda creepy but its funny if you like sick/twisted humor. (I don't own that website or Salad Fingers)
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<Nyx>
I was walking around the forest, a little after midnight, thinking about where the time has gone. It feels weird thinking that it has two weeks, time went by so fast. I was also surprised at how close I had gotten to everyone. Yusuke, Kuwabara, and Kurama are like my brothers. I smile as Kurama's name floated through my mind. Him and Mika have especially gotten close, and I knew she had fallen for him, hard. She tried to hide it, she knew our presense was unstable, with our luck. The fact that nothing horrible had happened yet was freaking us out. Yukina was like another sister, she was so sweet. Kuwabara was so over the top in love with her, and she barely understood. It was really comical to watch him woe her, with Hiei in the background, scowling. I never understood why until Boton told me about her being his sister, but he wouldn't tell her due to the fact that he wanted to protect her.
Hiei, I didn't know what to think about him. I had feelings for him, that's for sure. But we fought all the time, and he was hardly nice. But he did seem to care a lot about Yukina, which was a contradiction to his uncaring nature. I remembered the first day of training and I laughed out loud.
~Flashback~
It wasn't so bad training with Yusuke, he wasn't that much better then me. Kuwabara's training was a joke, both Mika and I easily completed that, her more so then me though. But when we went our separate ways, her with Kurama and me with Hiei, that gut feeling was back, and I was nervous. He smirked at me, senseing my uneasyness. It went pretty bad, he was bruising me up, I was just no match for his speed. I knew it was revenge, and he knew I knew, further causing him to smirk at me. I, however did manage to block almost half of them though. Finally, after about the 7th time of him knocking me into a tree, I got pissed. The others had stopped training awhile back to watch Hiei was use me as a punching bag (he's hitting her with the blunt side of the katana) I shrilled out a short little song and it seemed to confuse Hiei, for about a second.
He kept on attacking me until he was hit from behind. He turned to glare at the others but they were just staring in disbelief. Then, as one, a flock of sticks rose from the ground and flying at Hiei, hitting him where ever they could. They ranged from the size of a pencil, to around the size of a walking cane. He tried to fight them off, but there was just too many of them. The others and me started cracking up, and then Hiei seemed to realize how it had happened. The others got a big kick out of the sight I'm sure that followed. Me, running around the yard, yelling harmlessly at the top of my lungs, a pissed-off Hiei running after me with a raised katana, and after him about 100 sticks trying to hit him. When he finally caught me, he held that cursed sword to my throat and ordered me to call them off. It was rather comical to see him threatening me, while trying not to wince at the sticks that kept hitting him repeatedly.
I told him that if he slit my throat they would never stop, and he slowly got off. I focused on the task at hand to try to forget the feel of him so close to me. I sang a little ditty, and immediatly all the sticks fell down, innocently laying in the grass. Everyone else was amused, and I tried to hide the fact that I was also. Even Genkai seemed to have to force back a smile. Hiei scowled, said we were done for the day, and promptly dissappeared.
~End flashback~
I sighed, he had stayed away for about two days, and I had felt weirdly sad in those times. He came back and pretended the incident had never happened, no small task considering Yusuke and Kuwabara threw it in his face every chance they could, well that is until he threatened to tie to a tree with their own innards then dump fire ants over them, and watch as they squirm in their last moments. I had to give him props, for all his silence he had an imagination.
The days after that had fallen into routine, wake up, eat, train, walk around woods, sometimes with Mika sometimes not, and then watch the moon rise till I went to bed to repeat the same process the next day. Training had picked up after the first day, and now I could almost defend against all of Hiei's attacks and could even sometimes catch him offguard and manage to hit him. He didn't seem as distant with me now, but that was only when the others weren't around. And one time he had actually complimented me on almost lasting a full hour fighting him.
I had managed to keep most of my emotions in check for the better part of the two weeks, but tonight they had gotten the best of me.
I had had the nightmare again, only this time instead of it reverting to the dream where I met my dad, it kept going, and got worse. After my sister pushed me off the cliff, I landed amoung the sharp rocks at the bottom, throughly breaking pretty much every bone in my body, not to mention the large gashes from them. Somehow my body was washed up to shore, and I was in intense pain. I looked up to see my mom walking towards me, and I remember feeling relieved. But when she got closer, she had a cold look in her eyes. Her voice came to me, as if in a strange echo. "You ruined my life, if I had never had you, I would have never have had to leave the others. The only good thing that came from having you, was it eventually leading to me having your sister. At least she is pure-bred, unlike you, an ugly mutt of a mix!" And then she spit on me and left me there, to the scavengers that roamed the beach.
I felt my violet-tented tears rolling down my face, this was my deepest fear, my mom and sister hating me for what I was. The whole time we lived with our clan, I didn't care what the others thought, as long as I had them. I woke up in a cold sweat, and knew I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep. I debated grabbing my guitar, but decided it was too big, so I grabbed my blades, stashed them under my coat in the back, slipped out the window, and headed for the woods. I stopped when I got back to the clearing with the small pond, something about this place helped calm me, even though it was kinda creepy that it seemed to have popped right out of my dream. I took off my coat and decided to let my wings out. I looked at them, the had grown slightly, but I could only tell because I studied them whenever I could. I knew they weren't growing right because I was worried and preoccupied, and it irritated me that I couldn't do anything until they were healed. I sat on the rock and mediated for a few minutes, to calm my nerves.
When my heartrate was down to normal, I concentrated on my spirit energy, letting it run its own course. I got this trick from Mika, I could never do it before and I believe it had something to do with us mixing our blood. She said it was the witch-doctor blood in her, it helped to focus your energy or something like that. Not many Voliant Sirens could focus at all, and I doubt I would have been able to if not for mixing my blood with hers. When I had concentrated enough, I listened to it, and a song played in my head and I started to sing it. I had never heard it before, that I was certain, and it was in a language foreign even to me, but I liked it. Everything around me stilled at the sound of my voice, and I could feel the wind sigh, with the emotion of my song, and I think that's exactly what it was, my song. (you can imagine a song to fit this senario. I looked and looked and couldn't find one)
When I stopped I didn't feel nearly so depressed, but I was definatly still sad. It's hard to explain, but it was a happy saddness. I got off the rock and layed back in the grass, with my wings spread out on either side of me. I contemplated on my song and what I knew about it, which was basically nothing except they are like fingerprints and everyones is different, and singing them reminds you of who you are.
I heard a slight rustling in the trees, and I blushed, realizing that Hiei had heard my song. He maybe didn't know how personal it was, but I did. Usually mates only heard eachothers songs, every once in awhile a mother would sing hers to her kids to help calm them. He always seemed to be there when I wanted to do something away from the others, like the time he had first seen my wings. I just kept looking up, but I knew he knew I had heard him. He suddenly appeared next to me. We sat in silence for awhile, and it somewhat amazed me how at ease around him I was.
During my travels I had been friendly for the most part, and had gotten close the the occasional person when I helped them or vice versa, but it was never like this. It felt...right. "Onna, what was that song?" I looked at him, still embarassed that he had witnessed such a private thing. I was a little startled to find his pulchritudinous crimson eyes gazing intently at me.
I forced myself to look away from those eyes, they seemed to see right past my walls and into my soul, and the secrets I struggle to keep hidden. "It was my song" That was the only answer that would make sense, and 'My Soul Song' sounded cheesey. I was a little surprised that I didn't mind having my wings out in front of him, I was embarassed when I took them out to check them with Mika around, but I had no such feelings with Hiei, even though I know it showed my weakness. It was probably blind hope that if he thought I was weak, he would stay away from me, then nothing terrible would happen to him.
<Hiei>
I have no idea why I followed the onna out here, I only ment to make sure she wasn't running away or attacked, at least that's what I told myself. But once she stopped and meditated for a few minutes, I turned to leave when I heard it, some strange melody in a weird language I had never heard before, but I didn't need to understand it to get the meaning. There was so much emotion in that song, it was sonorous and austere, sorrowful and lilting.
In my head, images somewhat came and flashed by, most too fast for me to see or comprehend, but some stood out. There was an image of a young girl with black wings, which I assumed was the onna, giggling and chasing an even younger girl with white wings, who I guessed was the sister she mentioned in her tale.
Another image was one of the onna, still young, being caught in the middle of a gang of white winged sirens, and they seemed to be taunting her. All these flashed and were gone before I could react, until finally they stopped and all that was left was the melody. It seemed it would stretch on endlessly, but it ended soon.
When it was over, I had this sense that I had known the onna for years, I felt like I knew her, but she was still a mystery to me. When I asked what song that was, she just replied that it was her song. My eyes strayed to her wings, the tips looked slightly longer, but not much. At this rate we would be waiting forever to go rescue her clan. "Why aren't your wings growing back?" The question came out harsher then I intended, and she tensed up and turned her flashing purple eyes on mine, but I guess she saw something in mine and hers softened slightly. Tentively she answered "I'm not entirely sure, but I know it has to do with my nerves and emotions..." she trailed off. How did that even make sense? Who ever heard of emotions causing you to heal faster? "Why don't you have Yukina help?"
"It's not something she can heal"
<Nyx>
His questions were throwing me off, wasn't he supposed to be the quiet, uncaring one? Maybe it was he just wanted to know because the sooner I healed, the sooner we could get out of his life. Oh well, I knew it was for the best, but why did I feel so...disspirited about it. I sighed, I could deny it all I wanted, but I knew I had fallen for him. How was the freaking biggest mystery though. At least I knew he would never feel the same way, so I didn't have to worry about anything bad happening to either of us, but it was a bitter relief. At least for now I could satisfy myself with getting under his skin, he was so cute when he was mad, which come to think of it, was a lot.
His only reply to my last statement was his trademark "Hn" I was curious as to why he followed me, but decided ignorance is bliss, and I wanted to keep things simple. "Well I think I'll turn in" I started to get up, and looked over, only to have my eyes meet nothing. I grinned sheepishly at talking to myself, the only difference from this time from the others is that I was actually trying to talk to someone. I shrugged it off and started walking back towards the temple.
When I got there I was surprised to find Mika up and in the kitchen. Normally she was already asleep. She didn't have the fate of HER clan on her, so I guess it was just easier for some people. I felt kind of guilty thinking that, she was going to help me free mine, at least that's what the plan was last time I checked. I had a sudden panicky thought that maybe she would decide to stay her, and not help me after all. I forced myself to calm down, 'she's my sister, she wouldn't do that to me'. She looked at me with questioning eyes and I just gave her a grin in response. She gave me that I-know-your-not-ok-look but didn't pry.
She knew I would tell her in my own time. I got out some ice-cream and sat down to join her. "Couldn't sleep?" Her sudden question made me start and drop my spoon. It clattered to the table and we both stared at it then started laughing. "Naw" "Yea, neither could I" She heaved a sigh.
"What's the matter with you?"
"Nightmares, you?"
I sighed, "Yea same"
We both reflected slightly on our own thoughts.
"You know what? I think we need to do something to get our minds off of...well our situation. How bout tomorrow we convince the guys to go out or something?"
Mika got a micheavious look on her face "Yea like karaoke?" We both started laughing again. "Yea, how do you think I earned money when I was traveling? Poor humans, never knew what hit them..." We started cracking up. "What you didn't whore yourself?" She had switched back to Japanese.
"Oh yea, I forgot about that, I just have too much good looks to waste on one guy" I flipped my hair and we started laughing again. "Cute, real cute"
"I try" I grinned at her.
"Well I think that helped, I'm going to bed, night Nyx"
"Night"
She left and I remained, slowing eating my ice cream. When I was done I got up and headed to bed. Tomorrow was looking to be a good day indeed.
<Hiei>
I don't know what constantly drew me to the onna, but it was pissing me off. Why did I care? Did I really like her? But I'm the Forbidden Child, I'm not supposed to lo-like anyone. I can't love her, can I? No, she's a Siren Demon, she probably just made me think that I like her, that has to be it. I was interrupted in my thoughts by the sound of laughter. I was about to ignore it when the next sentence caught my attention. "Oh yea, I forgot about that, I just have too much good looks to waste on one guy" I heard a growl, and realized it was me. Why did I care if she was with other guys? I would have to remember to ask that fox about this. The onnas left the kitchen and I settled back into my tree once again.
I was once again brought out of my thoughts when I heard whimpering. I ignored it but it persisted. If I was ever going to get any peace, I would have to find the source. I followed it to the onna's room. Now I was curious. She had made sounds like this before, but never this many. I quietly entered her room to see her thrashing around in her sleep. She was mumbling things I couldn't understand, and speaking in strange languages. I tried calling to her, but that didn't work. I shoke her lightly but all that did was just make her latch onto my hand. I tried to pull away but it was useless. I decided to use my jagan to see what was going through her head.
I looked in the onna's mind to see her on a cliff, it looked like her wings had been plucked, they were mere stumps and bloody. Around her calling out taunts were an odd assortment of people. Two were her own kind, and after seeing them it was no wonder she was considered an outsider like she said. Where she was dark, they were light. Their wings were alabaster and shone slightly golden in the sunlight. The older one was screeching out notes painful to hear, but judging by the way the onna was flinching, I guessed they hit her as physical blows.
One figure in the group I didn't recongize. He had dark hair with green streaks, anddark pink eyes. When he threw a note out to her I realized he must be her father or someone of the sort.
The other members of the group somewhat shocked me. It was the kitsune, her onna friend, the baka, and the dectective, each calling out horrible things to her. Every once in a while the detective would shot small bullets from his spirit gun at her, her onna friend would stab at her with her spear, never fatelly(sp?) though, Kurama would hit her with his whip, and even the baka who had an 'honor code' would lash out at her. But her attention wasn't focused on them, it was on a figure on the other side of her. Since my position was behind the group and the sun was in front, at first I couldn't see who it was.
I moved around and was astonished to see myself, glaring at her, while she looked up at me with her silver violet tears falling softly from her eyes. I was surprised to see how much hate was in my dream selfs eyes as he looked at her. Is that how she thought I saw her? Before I could do anything, the scene changed. The onna was alone, in a forest. She still couldn't see me, as she was looking past my hiding place, fear and anguish evident on her face. I turned around and was met with the site of everything in ruins. It looked like a fire had swept through, but no fire even left such managled bodies. Every one was dead, and cruel laughter filled the air. I decided to interfere, but not in the dream.
I softly exited her mind and closed my jagan. She had quieted somewhat but was still whimpering and crying softly. I shook her, but she still didn't wake up, and only clutched my hand tighter. She suddenly dropped my hand as if it was fire and I stepped back, trying to figure out a way to wake her without her knowing it was me. I realized that I liked being that close to her, and that was what confirmed my decision to go and get the fox and leave, when she whispered my name. I was slightly curious so I ventured closer. I leaned down and found myself brushing some of her tears away. She woke up with a soft cry and sat straight up. Sweat was on her brow and she grabbed her knees and began rocking slightly. She didn't seem to have seen me, but I didn't want to leave her this way.
"Onna are you ok?"
She looked up in surprise, and she blushed slightly. I unconsiously heard one of her thoughts. "How is he always around when I do something I would normally show no one?" Before her mind went off onto the crazy wheel that it sometimes takes. She finally whispered out her answer, but it wasn't the usual yes to cover it up.
"No I'm not alright" I could barely hear her and she looked up. Her eyes were brimming. "Did you see? Did you see my dream?" I considered saying no, but I didn't want to lie to her. "Yes" Her eyes saddened even more if it was possible. I sat down, "Onna what's really wrong" I was surprised I had asked, why do I care? Her eyes met mine breifly before looking away. "It's nothing, never mind"
"Onna..." I gabbed her chin and forced her to look at me. Her eyes were so sad. "It's just..I seem to ruin everyone's life, my mom's, my sister's, Mika's, I mean she still would have her dad if I had never befriended her at that bar, and now you guys are stuck with me, having to help us train and watch us, and there's other people that need help, and I feel like I'm wasting your time..."
"Onna your not wasting our time"
<Nyx>
I was in shock, he was actually being nice to me. It wasn't enough that he had to hear my soul song, or see my wings, but he also saw my nightmare. But he was trying to comfort me. But no matter what he said, I knew it was just to try and get me to stop crying. I knew I was a burden to him, he made it clear when I first met him and Koenma had given them the mission of helping us.
"Its okay Hiei, I understand. I plan on heading out in about a week, healed wings or not" He was silent for a moment.
"Onna, don't make me say it again, you are not a burden to us" I finally looked up to meet his gaze, and found out that he was telling the truth. What happened next I should have seen coming since it wasn't the first time, but I was still a little surprised at my actions. I threw my arms around Hiei and I hugged him.
He tensed for a second before his arms snaked around me, pulling me closer. I was shocked as heck, but I couldn't bring myself to pull away. How long we sat like that I don't know, all I remember is how comfortable I felt before I fell asleep.
My internet is back on, at least for now, but I still have soccer and work and school so it still might be some time between updates, sorry! Thanks for understanding! And thank you to Nenagh24 and Ryuko, my loyal reveiwers, it helps in writing knowing people like it enough to keep reading it.
Oh and sorry for OOCness that is in this chapter.
p.s. Go to www.fat-pie.com and watch the Salad Fingers episodes, its kinda creepy but its funny if you like sick/twisted humor. (I don't own that website or Salad Fingers)
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<Nyx>
I was walking around the forest, a little after midnight, thinking about where the time has gone. It feels weird thinking that it has two weeks, time went by so fast. I was also surprised at how close I had gotten to everyone. Yusuke, Kuwabara, and Kurama are like my brothers. I smile as Kurama's name floated through my mind. Him and Mika have especially gotten close, and I knew she had fallen for him, hard. She tried to hide it, she knew our presense was unstable, with our luck. The fact that nothing horrible had happened yet was freaking us out. Yukina was like another sister, she was so sweet. Kuwabara was so over the top in love with her, and she barely understood. It was really comical to watch him woe her, with Hiei in the background, scowling. I never understood why until Boton told me about her being his sister, but he wouldn't tell her due to the fact that he wanted to protect her.
Hiei, I didn't know what to think about him. I had feelings for him, that's for sure. But we fought all the time, and he was hardly nice. But he did seem to care a lot about Yukina, which was a contradiction to his uncaring nature. I remembered the first day of training and I laughed out loud.
~Flashback~
It wasn't so bad training with Yusuke, he wasn't that much better then me. Kuwabara's training was a joke, both Mika and I easily completed that, her more so then me though. But when we went our separate ways, her with Kurama and me with Hiei, that gut feeling was back, and I was nervous. He smirked at me, senseing my uneasyness. It went pretty bad, he was bruising me up, I was just no match for his speed. I knew it was revenge, and he knew I knew, further causing him to smirk at me. I, however did manage to block almost half of them though. Finally, after about the 7th time of him knocking me into a tree, I got pissed. The others had stopped training awhile back to watch Hiei was use me as a punching bag (he's hitting her with the blunt side of the katana) I shrilled out a short little song and it seemed to confuse Hiei, for about a second.
He kept on attacking me until he was hit from behind. He turned to glare at the others but they were just staring in disbelief. Then, as one, a flock of sticks rose from the ground and flying at Hiei, hitting him where ever they could. They ranged from the size of a pencil, to around the size of a walking cane. He tried to fight them off, but there was just too many of them. The others and me started cracking up, and then Hiei seemed to realize how it had happened. The others got a big kick out of the sight I'm sure that followed. Me, running around the yard, yelling harmlessly at the top of my lungs, a pissed-off Hiei running after me with a raised katana, and after him about 100 sticks trying to hit him. When he finally caught me, he held that cursed sword to my throat and ordered me to call them off. It was rather comical to see him threatening me, while trying not to wince at the sticks that kept hitting him repeatedly.
I told him that if he slit my throat they would never stop, and he slowly got off. I focused on the task at hand to try to forget the feel of him so close to me. I sang a little ditty, and immediatly all the sticks fell down, innocently laying in the grass. Everyone else was amused, and I tried to hide the fact that I was also. Even Genkai seemed to have to force back a smile. Hiei scowled, said we were done for the day, and promptly dissappeared.
~End flashback~
I sighed, he had stayed away for about two days, and I had felt weirdly sad in those times. He came back and pretended the incident had never happened, no small task considering Yusuke and Kuwabara threw it in his face every chance they could, well that is until he threatened to tie to a tree with their own innards then dump fire ants over them, and watch as they squirm in their last moments. I had to give him props, for all his silence he had an imagination.
The days after that had fallen into routine, wake up, eat, train, walk around woods, sometimes with Mika sometimes not, and then watch the moon rise till I went to bed to repeat the same process the next day. Training had picked up after the first day, and now I could almost defend against all of Hiei's attacks and could even sometimes catch him offguard and manage to hit him. He didn't seem as distant with me now, but that was only when the others weren't around. And one time he had actually complimented me on almost lasting a full hour fighting him.
I had managed to keep most of my emotions in check for the better part of the two weeks, but tonight they had gotten the best of me.
I had had the nightmare again, only this time instead of it reverting to the dream where I met my dad, it kept going, and got worse. After my sister pushed me off the cliff, I landed amoung the sharp rocks at the bottom, throughly breaking pretty much every bone in my body, not to mention the large gashes from them. Somehow my body was washed up to shore, and I was in intense pain. I looked up to see my mom walking towards me, and I remember feeling relieved. But when she got closer, she had a cold look in her eyes. Her voice came to me, as if in a strange echo. "You ruined my life, if I had never had you, I would have never have had to leave the others. The only good thing that came from having you, was it eventually leading to me having your sister. At least she is pure-bred, unlike you, an ugly mutt of a mix!" And then she spit on me and left me there, to the scavengers that roamed the beach.
I felt my violet-tented tears rolling down my face, this was my deepest fear, my mom and sister hating me for what I was. The whole time we lived with our clan, I didn't care what the others thought, as long as I had them. I woke up in a cold sweat, and knew I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep. I debated grabbing my guitar, but decided it was too big, so I grabbed my blades, stashed them under my coat in the back, slipped out the window, and headed for the woods. I stopped when I got back to the clearing with the small pond, something about this place helped calm me, even though it was kinda creepy that it seemed to have popped right out of my dream. I took off my coat and decided to let my wings out. I looked at them, the had grown slightly, but I could only tell because I studied them whenever I could. I knew they weren't growing right because I was worried and preoccupied, and it irritated me that I couldn't do anything until they were healed. I sat on the rock and mediated for a few minutes, to calm my nerves.
When my heartrate was down to normal, I concentrated on my spirit energy, letting it run its own course. I got this trick from Mika, I could never do it before and I believe it had something to do with us mixing our blood. She said it was the witch-doctor blood in her, it helped to focus your energy or something like that. Not many Voliant Sirens could focus at all, and I doubt I would have been able to if not for mixing my blood with hers. When I had concentrated enough, I listened to it, and a song played in my head and I started to sing it. I had never heard it before, that I was certain, and it was in a language foreign even to me, but I liked it. Everything around me stilled at the sound of my voice, and I could feel the wind sigh, with the emotion of my song, and I think that's exactly what it was, my song. (you can imagine a song to fit this senario. I looked and looked and couldn't find one)
When I stopped I didn't feel nearly so depressed, but I was definatly still sad. It's hard to explain, but it was a happy saddness. I got off the rock and layed back in the grass, with my wings spread out on either side of me. I contemplated on my song and what I knew about it, which was basically nothing except they are like fingerprints and everyones is different, and singing them reminds you of who you are.
I heard a slight rustling in the trees, and I blushed, realizing that Hiei had heard my song. He maybe didn't know how personal it was, but I did. Usually mates only heard eachothers songs, every once in awhile a mother would sing hers to her kids to help calm them. He always seemed to be there when I wanted to do something away from the others, like the time he had first seen my wings. I just kept looking up, but I knew he knew I had heard him. He suddenly appeared next to me. We sat in silence for awhile, and it somewhat amazed me how at ease around him I was.
During my travels I had been friendly for the most part, and had gotten close the the occasional person when I helped them or vice versa, but it was never like this. It felt...right. "Onna, what was that song?" I looked at him, still embarassed that he had witnessed such a private thing. I was a little startled to find his pulchritudinous crimson eyes gazing intently at me.
I forced myself to look away from those eyes, they seemed to see right past my walls and into my soul, and the secrets I struggle to keep hidden. "It was my song" That was the only answer that would make sense, and 'My Soul Song' sounded cheesey. I was a little surprised that I didn't mind having my wings out in front of him, I was embarassed when I took them out to check them with Mika around, but I had no such feelings with Hiei, even though I know it showed my weakness. It was probably blind hope that if he thought I was weak, he would stay away from me, then nothing terrible would happen to him.
<Hiei>
I have no idea why I followed the onna out here, I only ment to make sure she wasn't running away or attacked, at least that's what I told myself. But once she stopped and meditated for a few minutes, I turned to leave when I heard it, some strange melody in a weird language I had never heard before, but I didn't need to understand it to get the meaning. There was so much emotion in that song, it was sonorous and austere, sorrowful and lilting.
In my head, images somewhat came and flashed by, most too fast for me to see or comprehend, but some stood out. There was an image of a young girl with black wings, which I assumed was the onna, giggling and chasing an even younger girl with white wings, who I guessed was the sister she mentioned in her tale.
Another image was one of the onna, still young, being caught in the middle of a gang of white winged sirens, and they seemed to be taunting her. All these flashed and were gone before I could react, until finally they stopped and all that was left was the melody. It seemed it would stretch on endlessly, but it ended soon.
When it was over, I had this sense that I had known the onna for years, I felt like I knew her, but she was still a mystery to me. When I asked what song that was, she just replied that it was her song. My eyes strayed to her wings, the tips looked slightly longer, but not much. At this rate we would be waiting forever to go rescue her clan. "Why aren't your wings growing back?" The question came out harsher then I intended, and she tensed up and turned her flashing purple eyes on mine, but I guess she saw something in mine and hers softened slightly. Tentively she answered "I'm not entirely sure, but I know it has to do with my nerves and emotions..." she trailed off. How did that even make sense? Who ever heard of emotions causing you to heal faster? "Why don't you have Yukina help?"
"It's not something she can heal"
<Nyx>
His questions were throwing me off, wasn't he supposed to be the quiet, uncaring one? Maybe it was he just wanted to know because the sooner I healed, the sooner we could get out of his life. Oh well, I knew it was for the best, but why did I feel so...disspirited about it. I sighed, I could deny it all I wanted, but I knew I had fallen for him. How was the freaking biggest mystery though. At least I knew he would never feel the same way, so I didn't have to worry about anything bad happening to either of us, but it was a bitter relief. At least for now I could satisfy myself with getting under his skin, he was so cute when he was mad, which come to think of it, was a lot.
His only reply to my last statement was his trademark "Hn" I was curious as to why he followed me, but decided ignorance is bliss, and I wanted to keep things simple. "Well I think I'll turn in" I started to get up, and looked over, only to have my eyes meet nothing. I grinned sheepishly at talking to myself, the only difference from this time from the others is that I was actually trying to talk to someone. I shrugged it off and started walking back towards the temple.
When I got there I was surprised to find Mika up and in the kitchen. Normally she was already asleep. She didn't have the fate of HER clan on her, so I guess it was just easier for some people. I felt kind of guilty thinking that, she was going to help me free mine, at least that's what the plan was last time I checked. I had a sudden panicky thought that maybe she would decide to stay her, and not help me after all. I forced myself to calm down, 'she's my sister, she wouldn't do that to me'. She looked at me with questioning eyes and I just gave her a grin in response. She gave me that I-know-your-not-ok-look but didn't pry.
She knew I would tell her in my own time. I got out some ice-cream and sat down to join her. "Couldn't sleep?" Her sudden question made me start and drop my spoon. It clattered to the table and we both stared at it then started laughing. "Naw" "Yea, neither could I" She heaved a sigh.
"What's the matter with you?"
"Nightmares, you?"
I sighed, "Yea same"
We both reflected slightly on our own thoughts.
"You know what? I think we need to do something to get our minds off of...well our situation. How bout tomorrow we convince the guys to go out or something?"
Mika got a micheavious look on her face "Yea like karaoke?" We both started laughing again. "Yea, how do you think I earned money when I was traveling? Poor humans, never knew what hit them..." We started cracking up. "What you didn't whore yourself?" She had switched back to Japanese.
"Oh yea, I forgot about that, I just have too much good looks to waste on one guy" I flipped my hair and we started laughing again. "Cute, real cute"
"I try" I grinned at her.
"Well I think that helped, I'm going to bed, night Nyx"
"Night"
She left and I remained, slowing eating my ice cream. When I was done I got up and headed to bed. Tomorrow was looking to be a good day indeed.
<Hiei>
I don't know what constantly drew me to the onna, but it was pissing me off. Why did I care? Did I really like her? But I'm the Forbidden Child, I'm not supposed to lo-like anyone. I can't love her, can I? No, she's a Siren Demon, she probably just made me think that I like her, that has to be it. I was interrupted in my thoughts by the sound of laughter. I was about to ignore it when the next sentence caught my attention. "Oh yea, I forgot about that, I just have too much good looks to waste on one guy" I heard a growl, and realized it was me. Why did I care if she was with other guys? I would have to remember to ask that fox about this. The onnas left the kitchen and I settled back into my tree once again.
I was once again brought out of my thoughts when I heard whimpering. I ignored it but it persisted. If I was ever going to get any peace, I would have to find the source. I followed it to the onna's room. Now I was curious. She had made sounds like this before, but never this many. I quietly entered her room to see her thrashing around in her sleep. She was mumbling things I couldn't understand, and speaking in strange languages. I tried calling to her, but that didn't work. I shoke her lightly but all that did was just make her latch onto my hand. I tried to pull away but it was useless. I decided to use my jagan to see what was going through her head.
I looked in the onna's mind to see her on a cliff, it looked like her wings had been plucked, they were mere stumps and bloody. Around her calling out taunts were an odd assortment of people. Two were her own kind, and after seeing them it was no wonder she was considered an outsider like she said. Where she was dark, they were light. Their wings were alabaster and shone slightly golden in the sunlight. The older one was screeching out notes painful to hear, but judging by the way the onna was flinching, I guessed they hit her as physical blows.
One figure in the group I didn't recongize. He had dark hair with green streaks, anddark pink eyes. When he threw a note out to her I realized he must be her father or someone of the sort.
The other members of the group somewhat shocked me. It was the kitsune, her onna friend, the baka, and the dectective, each calling out horrible things to her. Every once in a while the detective would shot small bullets from his spirit gun at her, her onna friend would stab at her with her spear, never fatelly(sp?) though, Kurama would hit her with his whip, and even the baka who had an 'honor code' would lash out at her. But her attention wasn't focused on them, it was on a figure on the other side of her. Since my position was behind the group and the sun was in front, at first I couldn't see who it was.
I moved around and was astonished to see myself, glaring at her, while she looked up at me with her silver violet tears falling softly from her eyes. I was surprised to see how much hate was in my dream selfs eyes as he looked at her. Is that how she thought I saw her? Before I could do anything, the scene changed. The onna was alone, in a forest. She still couldn't see me, as she was looking past my hiding place, fear and anguish evident on her face. I turned around and was met with the site of everything in ruins. It looked like a fire had swept through, but no fire even left such managled bodies. Every one was dead, and cruel laughter filled the air. I decided to interfere, but not in the dream.
I softly exited her mind and closed my jagan. She had quieted somewhat but was still whimpering and crying softly. I shook her, but she still didn't wake up, and only clutched my hand tighter. She suddenly dropped my hand as if it was fire and I stepped back, trying to figure out a way to wake her without her knowing it was me. I realized that I liked being that close to her, and that was what confirmed my decision to go and get the fox and leave, when she whispered my name. I was slightly curious so I ventured closer. I leaned down and found myself brushing some of her tears away. She woke up with a soft cry and sat straight up. Sweat was on her brow and she grabbed her knees and began rocking slightly. She didn't seem to have seen me, but I didn't want to leave her this way.
"Onna are you ok?"
She looked up in surprise, and she blushed slightly. I unconsiously heard one of her thoughts. "How is he always around when I do something I would normally show no one?" Before her mind went off onto the crazy wheel that it sometimes takes. She finally whispered out her answer, but it wasn't the usual yes to cover it up.
"No I'm not alright" I could barely hear her and she looked up. Her eyes were brimming. "Did you see? Did you see my dream?" I considered saying no, but I didn't want to lie to her. "Yes" Her eyes saddened even more if it was possible. I sat down, "Onna what's really wrong" I was surprised I had asked, why do I care? Her eyes met mine breifly before looking away. "It's nothing, never mind"
"Onna..." I gabbed her chin and forced her to look at me. Her eyes were so sad. "It's just..I seem to ruin everyone's life, my mom's, my sister's, Mika's, I mean she still would have her dad if I had never befriended her at that bar, and now you guys are stuck with me, having to help us train and watch us, and there's other people that need help, and I feel like I'm wasting your time..."
"Onna your not wasting our time"
<Nyx>
I was in shock, he was actually being nice to me. It wasn't enough that he had to hear my soul song, or see my wings, but he also saw my nightmare. But he was trying to comfort me. But no matter what he said, I knew it was just to try and get me to stop crying. I knew I was a burden to him, he made it clear when I first met him and Koenma had given them the mission of helping us.
"Its okay Hiei, I understand. I plan on heading out in about a week, healed wings or not" He was silent for a moment.
"Onna, don't make me say it again, you are not a burden to us" I finally looked up to meet his gaze, and found out that he was telling the truth. What happened next I should have seen coming since it wasn't the first time, but I was still a little surprised at my actions. I threw my arms around Hiei and I hugged him.
He tensed for a second before his arms snaked around me, pulling me closer. I was shocked as heck, but I couldn't bring myself to pull away. How long we sat like that I don't know, all I remember is how comfortable I felt before I fell asleep.