Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ The Depth Of Demon Bonds ❯ Thoughts (Original) ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

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2022 BIG AUTHOR NOTE:I AM REVISING THIS STORY!!!!!!  I WILL NOT BE REMOVING ANY PREVIOUS CHAPTERS AS I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE ANY OF THE VIEW COUNTS FOR THIS STORY. I WILL BE ADDING THE REVISED CHAPTERS TO THIS STORY. THE REVISED CHAPTERS WILL HAVE (REVISED) BY THE CHAPTER TITLE. THE ORIGINAL CHAPTERS WILL HAVE (ORIGINAL) BY THE CHAPTER TITLE. THE REVISED STORY WILL START AGAIN AT CHAPTER 19. THANK YOU FOR READING!!!!_

 

 

A/N: I must warn you this is a Shonen Ai or Yaoi fan fic. If you don't know what that means, it is a boy in love with another boy. I also know the different meanings between the two words. This story however will contain both. If you don't like that sort of thing or underage turn back now. Now with that said this is my first boy/boy pairing fic. I will do my best to keep the facts straight and the characters in character. I would like it if you would tell me if I did something wrong, but please don't flame me just cause you don't like my story or don't like the pairing.

This is a Hiei x Kurama fic. It will revolve around them. I know in the Yu Yu series it was never said that these two were together, but when you watched them interact there was a deep bond of some sort whether it was love or something else. It is awful us fans will never know the answer to that question. I however and many others feel that the bond was love and that is why I am writing this story. There will be a few twists along the way, but know that I try to keep you on the edge of your seat and keep the story interesting. The will be a couple of lemons. There will also quite possibly be a male pregnancy, but I haven't decided just yet on that. Therefore, I say again if you don't like any of this turn back now. I will warn you though before the lemon starts, it will be a bit of the ways into the story too. Anyway, enough of my ramblings on with the story.

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Chapter 1 of 18

Thoughts

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Kurama walked into his apartment and headed straight towards the bathroom. Stray thoughts entered his exhausted mind as he wondered through the living room, worried about leaving a trail of blood on his black carpet. He was covered in blood and dirt, a lot of it his own. He had many cuts on his body, but they weren't too serious in nature, nothing his demon energy couldn't heal in a couple of days. He peeled off his filthy clothes and stepped into the shower, hitting the hot water. Kurama jumped a little when the cold water hit his fatigued body, but it quickly warmed up, steam filling the bathroom. He put his head against the tiled wall, letting out a tired breath as the water ran over his sore muscles.

The images of the horrible fight were still replaying in his mind. Koenma found out about a high-class demon that was killing humans and taking their souls. Of course, he sent the spirit detective group out without having all the facts. When they got there, it wasn't just a high-class demon it was an S class demon. He was ruthless, cunning, and to top it all off powerful. They were no match for him.

It was a bloody battle from start to finish. They finally got the upper hand when Hiei took a drastic gamble. It had the desired effect, giving Yusuke the chance to fire his spirit gun at the startled demon. In the end, the creature fell, but not without causing serious injuries to the team members.

Kurama was brought back to the present when the water turned cold. He silently cursed himself for not realizing how long he had been in there. He quickly washed up, not wanting to be under the cold spray longer then he had too. He did however, take enough time to make sure his cuts were clean. Turning off the water, he stepped out of the shower and grabbed one of his fluffy red towels.

He would never hear the end of it if the rest of the team ever found out he had a thing for red. He loved the color. That was why he chose the rose as his favorite weapon. He had many of vicious weapons at his disposal, but the rose always came out on top. He loved the scent too. It had helped defeat the saint beast he was up against 4 years ago.

In addition, the whip did have its advantages. The top one being you could strike an opponent with out having to get close to it. His favorite had to be all the rose petals it admitted when it transformed. He liked that most because they were red, but it did distract the enemy for a bit so they didn't know what had hit them until it was too late.

Coming out of the bathroom, Kurama dried off as he went over to his dresser. Draping the towel over his shoulder, he slid opened a drawer and selected a pair of boxers. He slipped them on and returned to the bathroom to get some bandages. The red head walked back out, carrying his supplies straight to the bed. He sat down heavily, dropping the white rolls and tape onto the deep red blanket beside him. He pulled the towel off his shoulder and set to work getting the excess water out of long red hair.

When Kurama was satisfied with his hair, he threw the towel towards the bathroom and turned to the bandages beside him. After a swift inspection of his wounds, he was sure they would be okay if he used the human antibiotic instead of a plant concoction. He was already short on his energy and didn't want to waste anymore then he had too. He quickly bandaged all his wounds except one. The one he couldn't reach was on his lower back, but it didn't seem too bad when he touched it. He shrugged his shoulders, figuring it would be alright before picking up the supplies and taking them back to the bathroom.

Practically falling into the bed, the fox pulled his black sheet and red blanket up to his waist. He let out a tired breath, trying to will his body to relax so sleep could claim him. Against his will, his mind wondered again to the recent battle and the little stubborn demon.

They all had their share of injuries, but Hiei's was the worst. He had taken the demon's swords head on and paid dearly. He had deep, gaping cuts on his legs and arms. There was one across his chest too, but it wasn't as bad as the others. He was bleeding badly by the time the battle was over; he had even collapsed to the ground. They all ran over to see about him as he tried to get up.

'I reached out, putting my hand on his arm, trying to help, but he just pushed me away. After he got to his feet, he glared at me a few moments before turning and walking away without a word. Yusuke and Kuwabara looked to me for answers, but I had none. I couldn't tell them he was this way because one faithful night a few months ago.'

'Hiei had come to my apartment like he usually did when he got cold, it rained, or he just wanted to talk. We shared me queen size bed, like we always did. There was nothing sexual about it. Although I must admit to myself, I often think of a relationship with him. Demons usually went with a same sex partner for a mate, that is unless they wanted to produce offspring. Even after they got what they wanted, they usually went on their way with out a look back.'

'I was no different in my former life. I took what I wanted and never looked back. I had many lovers some male and some female, but I was always the dominate one. No one ever topped me, it simply was not allowed. As far as I know, no offspring ever came from any of the flings. I took precautions to see to that with a certain plant concoction that I would give them while who ever it was slept. I never wanted any children it just wasn't me. I wanted to be free of anything that held me down or tied me too one place. Now in this life, things have changed. I like the security of being in one place, having a mother, and having friends.'

'I also have never taken a lover in this form, male or female, not that there weren't any chances. I am hit on daily by both sexes, it's just that I thought it was time for a change. I want something more now, then one night flings. I want a true relationship. I actually want to settle down. I want a mate. This of course, brings me back to my present problem, Hiei.'

'Since I first encountered him, I have wanted him. Somewhere along the way, want turned into love. I know it's crazy. Youko Kurama feared, ruthless and the king of thieves falling hard for the only demon he couldn't have, the forbidden one. It would be a big laugh back in the Makai if anyone found out so I have kept my feelings a secret from everyone including said demon. If he knew, he would probably send a death glare at me before commenting rudely, and then flitting away with out so much as a look back. I guess I'm a little afraid of getting hurt by him. It's still hard to believe sometimes, I fell in love with Hiei, bad attitude and all. Now, I honestly don't know what to do about my feelings or him.'

'The night everything changed, I woke up with Hiei's hand ghosting over my back. I was lying on my stomach with my face turned away from him. I was stunned to say the least. I never expected him to touch me willingly. Before I could catch my self, I turned my head to look at him and I asked 'what he was doing?'

'A look of shock crossed his face with what looked like maybe fear in his eyes. He quickly snatched his hand away. We stared at each other, both of us unsure of what to say or do. I made the second mistake of the night by reaching out and touching his arm. This brought Hiei out of his daze. He jumped off the bed grabbed his black cape and katana. He looked over his shoulder at me one last time before jumping out the window. By the time I made it to the window, Hiei was gone from sight. The final mistake I made that night was not going after him, to let him know I was not angry or anything else other then liking it.'

'Now three months later he hasn't been back. I only see him when we have missions and then he hardly says two words to me. We used to fight back to back. We always had each other covered. Now, he won't come within ten feet of me. It is beginning to tear me up inside, that I can't figure out how to fix the situation much less know what it's all about. Maybe he thinks he did something wrong or something to offend me. I wish I could get him alone so I could talk to him. I just know I can get him to open up.'

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Hiei was sitting in a tree on the outskirts of the city contemplating his options. His arm was still bleeding, as was one of his legs. He hadn't the energy to stop the flow of blood so he was doing the last resort, licking the blood off his arm. He knew if it didn't stop soon, he was going to be in trouble.

'I could go to Genkai's to see if Yukina is there, maybe she could heal me. That's not such a good idea, I don't want to run the chance of her finding out I am her brother. Genkai is another one I could go to, but again Yukina would be there.'

'I could see if I can find Botan, but the girl is a bit ditzy and all she talks about lately is Koenma. They have been together for sometime now. I sure don't want to hear about her love life when I have none. Then there are the two ningens, but they wouldn't be much help at all. They would tease me mercilessly to the point I'm would be ready to kill them. This of course, only leaves the fox. Kurama would use some kind of plant potion on me that would help. However, do I want to see him? I mean I know he didn't do anything to me, it was quite the other way around. I guess that is the reason I hesitate. I don't want him to bring that up. I don't want him to remind me of the fool that I am.'

'I have always heard the tales about Youko Kurama. His cunning, his thievery, and most of all his flings, just to get what he wanted. He was either feared or lusted after by every demon in the Makai. Now that word has spread that he his alive, it's just that much worse. The human blood in him did nothing to downgrade his good looks. Truth was, he liked the redhead form more. There was almost an innocence that surrounded him now, though Kurama was far from innocent even in that human form. I'm sure he has had his pick of lovers and probably has bedded several. Not that I haven't had my share of lovers too. I may look young, but that is where it ends. I know what I am doing when it comes to sex. I may not be Youko Kurama, but I know how to please and have my partner begging for more. I am not topped. I have never and will never be the one on the bottom. I am just too dominate to allow that. I feel so jealous when I see someone paying extra attention to my fox. I feel I should be his only lover.' 

'I feel like the fox should belong to me although Kurama will never belong to anybody. Why would he want me anyway? I am nothing to no one. My own people tossed me out when I was baby to die on the ground below. I know Kurama would have no problem doing the same when he got tired of me. According to the legends, most of his flings lasted one night if that. I really don't know if I could take it if he was to toss me out like trash too. Therefore, I keep my feelings hidden from everyone including said fox.'

'It's hard to believe that me, the forbidden one, the impenetrable demon that I am has fallen in love with the only demon that would have no use for me, not when he has so many others wanting him. He hardly even notices me I bet. So, why am I so afraid to go see him for help? I know he wouldn't mind. The reason is I had touched him without his permission. That was one line demons did not cross. Now I don't want to go back to have him either kill me or humiliate me, maybe even do both.'

Hiei glanced down to his arm, which was still bleeding, as was his leg, but not as bad. 'Well I guess that leaves me with no choice, I have to have some help and he is the only one that can help.' Hiei stood up and started flitting through the trees towards Kurama's house with his mind set to flit away if one wrong word is said or one wrong move.

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Kurama stretched, looking at the clock. He had been lying in the bed for an hour thinking about Hiei. He turned over to his side and pulled the covers up to his shoulder determined to get some sleep. He took a cleansing breath, trying to clear his mind. Kurama glanced to the window and was startled to see two pretty red eyes staring back at him. He got up, quickly went to the window, and opened it.

"Long time no see, Hiei." Kurama smiled, sitting down on the windowsill.

"What are you talking about? You saw me today." Hiei replied, sitting on the branch in front of him.

"That is not what I mean and you know it. Why did you stop coming by?"

"I had my reasons." Hiei growled, not liking that he was being pushed. He was about to take off and forget about the healing.

"Fine, be that way." Kurama said, standing up and stepping to the side. "You can come in if you want." The fire demon looked at the fox trying to decide if he should run or accept the invitation. When Hiei didn't move, Kurama shrugged his shoulders and walked back towards the bed. He sure wasn't going to force the fire demon to do anything that he didn't want. Hiei was not one to be pushed, the more you did the more he rebelled. That would not help the situation they were now in. Kurama smiled to himself when he heard feet hit the floor behind him. He was not prepared for what he saw when he turned around though.

"Hiei! You're still bleeding!" Kurama said, taking in the sight of all the blood on the little demon.

"I know that. fox! I used too much energy in the battle so I can't stop the blood from flowing." Hiei spat, angry at himself for being so stupid.

"Well, if you had let me see about you earlier you wouldn't be in as bad shape as you are now. You're so obstinate." Kurama countered angrily, believing the other's anger was directed at him. Hiei glared at him a few moments before turning his back on the fox.

"I'm leaving." He muttered, jumping into the windowsill. Kurama knew he had only seconds if that to stop his only love from flitting away quite possibly for good this time. He reached out his hand to try to grab him before the fire demon leaped off into the tree.

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Well what do you think? I know it may be a little short, but future chapters will be longer, I promise. Thanks for reading and please review.