Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ The Love Between Brother and Sister ❯ First Tears ( Chapter 7 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: restinpieces 
Hiei's sudden departure has left Yukina in an emotionally unstable state, but will his return bring her back to normal? And what will Hiei's return mean for him?
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 09.02.2006 | Updated On: 09.04.2006 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.1K | Visits: 342 | Status: Work In Progress
Hiei's sudden departure has left Yukina in an emotionally unstable state, but will his return bring her back to normal? And what will Hiei's return mean for him?
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 09.02.2006 | Updated On: 09.04.2006 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.1K | Visits: 342 | Status: Work In Progress
Chapter 7: First Tears
Kurama sighed as he walked to the garden behind the temple. Today was his day to check up on Yukina and every time he came here he left depressed.
The poor girl had not spoken since Kurama had found her lying on the floor in the hallway, crying her eyes out and clutching a tear gem necklace to her chest. It was only later that he learned it to be Hiei's.
Now the depressed koorime spent all her time in her garden: weeding the planters, watering and feeding the flowers in bloom, or tilling the soil to prepare for when she would plant her spring flowers.
Not even the animals would come near her any longer - she ignored them. Kurama wondered if she even saw them, or if she only saw whatever she was working on at the moment. If she even saw that.
Whoever came to check up on her each day would stay with her until night, making sure she ate dinner and went to bed. Many times, though, Kurama would stay over, just to make sure she was safe.
She refused to live with anyone. Everyone who offered was immediately turned down. She did not want to be a burden to anyone, for that is what she believed Hiei saw her as.
As he rounded the corner and came upon Yukina pruning a flowering bush, his jaw clenched in untold anger toward his longtime friend and ally.
How could Hiei have left her so desolate after telling her who he was?
But as he drew near Yukina he realized the air around the koorime was no longer heavy and depressed, but light and joyful.
“Yukina-san?” he questioned, unsure of what had brought about such a change in the koorime's mood.
“Ah! Kurama-san,” Yukina replied in shock as she turned around to see the red-headed kitsune behind her, “You surprised me.”
“You are looking good,” the confused boy offered. He wondered, for a moment, if the poor ice maiden might be getting over her loss.
“I feel good,” Yukina replied, “I woke up this morning and I knew something good was going to happen. I do not know what, but I am waiting for it.”
Kurama hoped the feeling would come true because who knew how the koorime would take another disappointment; but just in case he remained leaning against the wall he was near, watching after his charge just as carefully as Hiei used to.
----
It was nearing dinner and Yukina's good feeling had yet to come through.
The koorime had chosen a while ago to put down her pruning shears and garden gloves, preferring instead to sit on a nearby stone bench with a view of the forest west of the temple. Her gaze never moved from the trees.
Kurama's gaze traveled exceedingly more often to his wristwatch. He should probably bring her in, but he did not want to disappoint her; so, instead, he went to prepare dinner for her, making sure to constantly check out the window that she remained in his sight.
----
Yukina sat in waiting.
That feeling she had in the morning was back and it was growing stronger each passing moment. It told her to watch the west.
So she sat. As the sky began to turn orange and red and yellow, she sat, her youki extended almost a kilometer into the sinister foliage.
And she was not disappointed.
----
Kurama looked up from stirring the miso soup as he checked on Yukina for what seemed to be the hundredth time.
But this time she was not there.
He ran outside and scanned the large yard for her, barely catching a blur of aqua blue as it disappeared into the west edge of the forest.
----
Hiei jumped from branch to branch, pushing himself to reach the temple by nightfall.
He was growing near, that much he knew, but as the trees grew more sparse and light began to trickle down into the dark area below the thick canopy, he began to second guess himself.
He stopped about half a kilometer from the edge of the forest and sat in a tree as he wondered what in all three worlds had made him leave acceptance and understanding to seek fulfillment with a girl who would not accept him as her brother despite saying she would.
And even if she somehow did accept him, he could never ask of her what he truly wanted.
She was koorime, and koorime did not sleep with men; they had no need.
She was precious and pure, an untainted jewel, and he had no right to ask this of her.
She lived among humans and they would never accept an intimate relationship between siblings. Hiei hated to admit it, but what his old teammates and their friends and family thought of him really did affect him. He had known them for years; they had been the first people to welcome him, allow him to join them as an equal and ally - maybe even as a friend - how could he not care?
“Hiei-san?! Brother?!”
The desperate cry, accompanied with the crackling of the underbrush, roused Hiei from his thoughts.
“Hiei-san?!”
Yukina was calling for him?
“Brother?!”
She was calling him brother?
But she hated him.
Then she screamed.
Whether she hated him or not, he could not leave her to fend for herself in a forest riddled with demons, so he ran to her rescue.
When he found her, only a decameter from where he had been, he saw her on the ground, tangled in vines and tree roots and underbrush. No matter how hard she tried, she could not get out.
“Hold still,” Hiei coldly commanded as he pulled out his katana, and when she had calmed he freed her in one quick but careful swipe.
He sheathed his katana and was about to turn and leave, thinking his decision to come folly, when two small arms circled around his waist and held on as tightly as they could.
“Hiei-san! Brother!” Yukina sobbed into his chest, “I missed you so much! Why did you leave?”
Her tears soaked his shirt - unable to transform into gems because she pressed her face so tightly against him.
Hiei could do nothing but look down at his sister's sobbing form in bewilderment and wonder why she was acting like this.
“You cried,” he offered as an answer to her question, “I thought you did not want me near you.”
His tone was unsure and his words were halting, but Yukina could sense the truth in them and she cried all the harder.
“No! No! I cried because I was so happy I found you! I told you before that I would hope my brother would be like you; to find out my brother was you was just so overwhelming. It made my heart overflow with joy.”
Hiei's breath was ragged and his eyes were tearing up. If she did not stop crying and saying these things to him soon, he would join her.
But he was happy. More happy than he ever thought he could be. It was just a misunderstanding! She did not shun him, she welcomed him with open arms!
“I love you, Brother.”
And as silent sobs racked his body, Hiei's tears ran down his face to mingle with his sister's.
----
Kurama watched in silent awe as he saw Hiei carry Yukina out of the forest.
She lay sleeping in his arms, her own arms wrapped tightly around his neck. He held her tightly to his chest and would check her often to assure himself that she was still there and that she was still okay.
Kurama followed behind Hiei as he carried the sleeping koorime to her room and lay her on her bed, watching from the doorway as Hiei stared in complete wonder at his sister.
“She said she loved me.”
Hiei was the first to break the silence and at the invitation for conversation Kurama stepped closer as he replied.
“She meant it.”
“How? Why?” Hiei asked, trying to keep his voice from betraying his emotions and his tears.
“Because Yukina understands what love is,” Kurama replied as he stepped up next to Hiei, “Complete forgiveness of what a person has done or said in the past. Complete trust in a person's words and actions. Complete hope that things will work out for the best. Complete understanding of any mistakes that person can make. And complete forgiveness for present and future mistakes as well.”
He reached down to brush a strand of hair from Yukina's face with a soft smile on his face, but when he pulled his hand away he sighed and turned to Hiei with a very serious face.
“We need to talk.”
----
“What the heck kind of brother tells his sister who he is and then ditches her?!” Kuwabara shouted in righteous anger, “Do you know how sad my beautiful flower was? It's a good thing Kurama found her when he went back to get my sister's purse that she forgot or who knows how long she would have just sat there!”
Hiei stood there and took it all. He deserved it. What the heck kind of brother was he to do the things he had done?
“Kuwabara,” Kurama softly cut in, “Maybe we should allow Hiei a chance to explain.”
“No!” Yusuke cut in, “I agree with Kuwabara. Hiei wasn't here to see what we saw. He didn't see how Yukina reacted! How she wouldn't talk to anyone or even look at anyone. She just took care of those stupid flowers! We had to make sure she ate and slept even, otherwise who knows if she would have just stayed outside, playing in the dirt.”
The raven haired teen then addressed Hiei, “Did you know any of that? Did you?! Did you know that when Kurama found her - in a pile of her own tear gems, no less - all she could do was hold onto your tear gem and scream out for her brother?! Did you know that we all became her babysitters just to make sure she did not die from lack of sleep and starvation?! Did you know she has not spoken a single word since you left a month ago?!”
Hiei glared at the floor in front of him.
No, he did not know that. But when he left, he believed she did not want him near. So he explained that to them, and he explained that he would not leave again - he had nowhere to go anyway.
“I don't like the fact that you did this to her,” Kuwabara began, “and I don't like the fact that you are her bother, but for the sake of my darling Yukina, I will forgive you. Because she never blamed you in the first place.”
Hiei was, to say the least, surprised at the human's maturity, but he accepted the hand offered him and the two shook a momentary truce.
And as the others forgave him and deemed it a misunderstanding, Hiei felt worse and worse. He did not return to be a brother to his sister, but that was what they all thought.
Maybe...maybe he could be that first; and then maybe, if he did become more like her older brother, he would forget about taking her as a mate and find fullness in having a platonic relationship with the most important woman in his life.
The poor girl had not spoken since Kurama had found her lying on the floor in the hallway, crying her eyes out and clutching a tear gem necklace to her chest. It was only later that he learned it to be Hiei's.
Now the depressed koorime spent all her time in her garden: weeding the planters, watering and feeding the flowers in bloom, or tilling the soil to prepare for when she would plant her spring flowers.
Not even the animals would come near her any longer - she ignored them. Kurama wondered if she even saw them, or if she only saw whatever she was working on at the moment. If she even saw that.
Whoever came to check up on her each day would stay with her until night, making sure she ate dinner and went to bed. Many times, though, Kurama would stay over, just to make sure she was safe.
She refused to live with anyone. Everyone who offered was immediately turned down. She did not want to be a burden to anyone, for that is what she believed Hiei saw her as.
As he rounded the corner and came upon Yukina pruning a flowering bush, his jaw clenched in untold anger toward his longtime friend and ally.
How could Hiei have left her so desolate after telling her who he was?
But as he drew near Yukina he realized the air around the koorime was no longer heavy and depressed, but light and joyful.
“Yukina-san?” he questioned, unsure of what had brought about such a change in the koorime's mood.
“Ah! Kurama-san,” Yukina replied in shock as she turned around to see the red-headed kitsune behind her, “You surprised me.”
“You are looking good,” the confused boy offered. He wondered, for a moment, if the poor ice maiden might be getting over her loss.
“I feel good,” Yukina replied, “I woke up this morning and I knew something good was going to happen. I do not know what, but I am waiting for it.”
Kurama hoped the feeling would come true because who knew how the koorime would take another disappointment; but just in case he remained leaning against the wall he was near, watching after his charge just as carefully as Hiei used to.
----
It was nearing dinner and Yukina's good feeling had yet to come through.
The koorime had chosen a while ago to put down her pruning shears and garden gloves, preferring instead to sit on a nearby stone bench with a view of the forest west of the temple. Her gaze never moved from the trees.
Kurama's gaze traveled exceedingly more often to his wristwatch. He should probably bring her in, but he did not want to disappoint her; so, instead, he went to prepare dinner for her, making sure to constantly check out the window that she remained in his sight.
----
Yukina sat in waiting.
That feeling she had in the morning was back and it was growing stronger each passing moment. It told her to watch the west.
So she sat. As the sky began to turn orange and red and yellow, she sat, her youki extended almost a kilometer into the sinister foliage.
And she was not disappointed.
----
Kurama looked up from stirring the miso soup as he checked on Yukina for what seemed to be the hundredth time.
But this time she was not there.
He ran outside and scanned the large yard for her, barely catching a blur of aqua blue as it disappeared into the west edge of the forest.
----
Hiei jumped from branch to branch, pushing himself to reach the temple by nightfall.
He was growing near, that much he knew, but as the trees grew more sparse and light began to trickle down into the dark area below the thick canopy, he began to second guess himself.
He stopped about half a kilometer from the edge of the forest and sat in a tree as he wondered what in all three worlds had made him leave acceptance and understanding to seek fulfillment with a girl who would not accept him as her brother despite saying she would.
And even if she somehow did accept him, he could never ask of her what he truly wanted.
She was koorime, and koorime did not sleep with men; they had no need.
She was precious and pure, an untainted jewel, and he had no right to ask this of her.
She lived among humans and they would never accept an intimate relationship between siblings. Hiei hated to admit it, but what his old teammates and their friends and family thought of him really did affect him. He had known them for years; they had been the first people to welcome him, allow him to join them as an equal and ally - maybe even as a friend - how could he not care?
“Hiei-san?! Brother?!”
The desperate cry, accompanied with the crackling of the underbrush, roused Hiei from his thoughts.
“Hiei-san?!”
Yukina was calling for him?
“Brother?!”
She was calling him brother?
But she hated him.
Then she screamed.
Whether she hated him or not, he could not leave her to fend for herself in a forest riddled with demons, so he ran to her rescue.
When he found her, only a decameter from where he had been, he saw her on the ground, tangled in vines and tree roots and underbrush. No matter how hard she tried, she could not get out.
“Hold still,” Hiei coldly commanded as he pulled out his katana, and when she had calmed he freed her in one quick but careful swipe.
He sheathed his katana and was about to turn and leave, thinking his decision to come folly, when two small arms circled around his waist and held on as tightly as they could.
“Hiei-san! Brother!” Yukina sobbed into his chest, “I missed you so much! Why did you leave?”
Her tears soaked his shirt - unable to transform into gems because she pressed her face so tightly against him.
Hiei could do nothing but look down at his sister's sobbing form in bewilderment and wonder why she was acting like this.
“You cried,” he offered as an answer to her question, “I thought you did not want me near you.”
His tone was unsure and his words were halting, but Yukina could sense the truth in them and she cried all the harder.
“No! No! I cried because I was so happy I found you! I told you before that I would hope my brother would be like you; to find out my brother was you was just so overwhelming. It made my heart overflow with joy.”
Hiei's breath was ragged and his eyes were tearing up. If she did not stop crying and saying these things to him soon, he would join her.
But he was happy. More happy than he ever thought he could be. It was just a misunderstanding! She did not shun him, she welcomed him with open arms!
“I love you, Brother.”
And as silent sobs racked his body, Hiei's tears ran down his face to mingle with his sister's.
----
Kurama watched in silent awe as he saw Hiei carry Yukina out of the forest.
She lay sleeping in his arms, her own arms wrapped tightly around his neck. He held her tightly to his chest and would check her often to assure himself that she was still there and that she was still okay.
Kurama followed behind Hiei as he carried the sleeping koorime to her room and lay her on her bed, watching from the doorway as Hiei stared in complete wonder at his sister.
“She said she loved me.”
Hiei was the first to break the silence and at the invitation for conversation Kurama stepped closer as he replied.
“She meant it.”
“How? Why?” Hiei asked, trying to keep his voice from betraying his emotions and his tears.
“Because Yukina understands what love is,” Kurama replied as he stepped up next to Hiei, “Complete forgiveness of what a person has done or said in the past. Complete trust in a person's words and actions. Complete hope that things will work out for the best. Complete understanding of any mistakes that person can make. And complete forgiveness for present and future mistakes as well.”
He reached down to brush a strand of hair from Yukina's face with a soft smile on his face, but when he pulled his hand away he sighed and turned to Hiei with a very serious face.
“We need to talk.”
----
“What the heck kind of brother tells his sister who he is and then ditches her?!” Kuwabara shouted in righteous anger, “Do you know how sad my beautiful flower was? It's a good thing Kurama found her when he went back to get my sister's purse that she forgot or who knows how long she would have just sat there!”
Hiei stood there and took it all. He deserved it. What the heck kind of brother was he to do the things he had done?
“Kuwabara,” Kurama softly cut in, “Maybe we should allow Hiei a chance to explain.”
“No!” Yusuke cut in, “I agree with Kuwabara. Hiei wasn't here to see what we saw. He didn't see how Yukina reacted! How she wouldn't talk to anyone or even look at anyone. She just took care of those stupid flowers! We had to make sure she ate and slept even, otherwise who knows if she would have just stayed outside, playing in the dirt.”
The raven haired teen then addressed Hiei, “Did you know any of that? Did you?! Did you know that when Kurama found her - in a pile of her own tear gems, no less - all she could do was hold onto your tear gem and scream out for her brother?! Did you know that we all became her babysitters just to make sure she did not die from lack of sleep and starvation?! Did you know she has not spoken a single word since you left a month ago?!”
Hiei glared at the floor in front of him.
No, he did not know that. But when he left, he believed she did not want him near. So he explained that to them, and he explained that he would not leave again - he had nowhere to go anyway.
“I don't like the fact that you did this to her,” Kuwabara began, “and I don't like the fact that you are her bother, but for the sake of my darling Yukina, I will forgive you. Because she never blamed you in the first place.”
Hiei was, to say the least, surprised at the human's maturity, but he accepted the hand offered him and the two shook a momentary truce.
And as the others forgave him and deemed it a misunderstanding, Hiei felt worse and worse. He did not return to be a brother to his sister, but that was what they all thought.
Maybe...maybe he could be that first; and then maybe, if he did become more like her older brother, he would forget about taking her as a mate and find fullness in having a platonic relationship with the most important woman in his life.