Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ The Pain of Pleasure ❯ Pain of Pleasure3 ( Chapter 3 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Youko-Kurama 
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.18.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 1.5K | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.18.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 1.5K | Status: Completed
I opened my eyes at the feeling of Hiei's hand below my waist. My one hand was still pinned above my head so I used my free hand to touch his hair as he continued to lick my wounds with an excruciatingly acurate tongue. "H-hiei..."
Hiei, hearing my unspoken plea, stopped carressing me and leaned down further to bite at the rim of my pijama bottoms. He tugged at them with his teeth and I lifted up so he could remove them. They hit the floor; forgotten. Hiei removed his own shirt and bandana, looking at me with three eager eyes as I reached up and touched his forehead. Hiei closed the Jagan and I ran my fingers gently over the closed eyelid. Hiei shuddered under my touch. "W-why are you being so gentle with me?"
"I don't want to hurt you."
My response seemed to touch him and he looked regrettably down at the bloody marks he'd made down my chest and stomach. "But I thought...isn't sex about pain?" Once again his facial expression changed to that innocently confused one I loved so much and I smiled up at him, tracing his lips with my free fingers. I felt my other wrist go numb in Hiei's feirce grip above my head but I ignored it.
"No, it shouldn't have to hurt, Hiei."
"But it does hurt..." Hiei released my arm and sat up on me. He stared at my navel for a long moment before clenching his fists and closing his eyes in distress. " I don't know what I'm doing, Kurama. Why did you want this from me?"
As heated as I was, I forced my burning need to subside and my honest feelings to come forward. "Because I love you, Hiei."
Hiei opened wide eyes at my confession. "You what?"
Not wanting to lose my nerve, I sat up fully(not an easy task when someone is sitting on you in a very awkward position) and hugged Hiei to me. "I love you. I don't need this, I need YOU. I need you here with me, like this or anywhere else." I pressed him close to me and felt him rest his chin on my shoulder. His pants did not prevent me from feeling his need for me as well.
"...Why ME? I'm a bastard, Kurama. I only know pain....I can't give you what you want, I'll end up killing you if you let me go too far with this. Why did you have to kiss me, Kurama..."
Hiei paused a moment, before squeezing his thighs together, making it very hard for me to stay focused on our convorsation. I tried to say something more, but Hiei made me forget how to form words as he moved against me slowly. "Uhhh...." Was all I could get out. I had wanted him when I woke up and found him next to me, but not nearly as much as I did now. Not nearly. I pressed closer to him and he lay me back on the bed once more. Normally I would have been thrilled to have Hiei on top of me but at the moment all I wanted to do was dominate him, make him cry out beneath me. Make him thank me for kissing him... I rolled over him, pressing his lithe body into the bedsheets and pulling off the belts holding the only clothing in our way off of him.
"Kurama...."
Not now Hiei. I thought. We want this. NEED this. Let's do this. Hiei grasped a lock of my long, red hair and pulled. "Ow! Hiei what are you--?" He pulled my face down to his and licked my cheek. I went for his mouth, while using my hands to unbutton his pants. I delved my hands inside causing Hiei to emit a growling noise, completely foreign to my ears. I stopped kissing him, "Are you alright?"
Out of nowhere, Hiei grabbed my shoulders and flung me onto my back his Jagan glowed a deep red and I felt myself being drawn into it somehow, I couldn't look away. I felt it pry into my memories, my secrets, my regrets...Hiei took all this in but said nothing as he lowered his pants past his waistline and lay himself exposed, against me. The intense wave of passion that swept over me then was unbarable, we rolled around and tangled ourselves in the linen on my bed, uncaring and oblivious. Then Hiei thrust into me. He wasn't joking when he said he was not a gentle lover. I cried out from the pain and Hiei growled and dug his nails into me harder than before. God, how it hurt!
"Hiei...it hurts...slow down..."
But Hiei was too far gone now. I used my arms to keep me from falling over, but if Hiei didn't stop soon I was going to pass out from the pain. Sharp teeth sunk into the back of my neck as I was thrust forward once more, my head hitting the headboard as a result. "S-stop....Hiei....please...!"
My friend had a death grip on the back of my neck and if I didn't know any better I could have sworn he was drawing blood. I could feel a burning sensation coming from my veins as he sucked the wound he'd made. Whatever pleasure I had been experiencing was quickly replaced by worry. I wasn't afraid of Hiei, but I sure as hell didn't expect him to drain me like he was doing. I could handle the pain of him inside of me, but it was not common practice to have your youki taken at the same time.
I could do nothing but stare downward as Hiei thrust into me again and again, I heard him breath deeply through his nose as he did so and the burning in my veins grew more intense. I stared down at the bedsheets and watched as drops of blood fell from the reopened scratches on my chest. I closed my eyes. It was getting so hard to keep them opened....I tried to move my neck, to get Hiei to stop, but I couldn't. And he didn't.
My head hit the headboard again as Hiei pushed into me, sending us forwards. I could no longer feel the pain of him inside me. I couldn't feel the scratches or his nails in my skin. I couldn't even feel his teeth in my neck anymore. The sound of my heartbeat echoed in my ears and I felt it throb at my temples. I knew what was happening. He was taking my energy, my blood and feeding himself with my lifeforce. But I refused to believe it was his fault. Hiei had warned me. But I loved him....If he wanted all of me he could take it. I couldn't stop him from doing it, not now.
"Tell me if I'm hurting you. I'll stop." Hiei had said before we had gotten very far. Would he stop now? Or was he too far gone?
"Y-you're hurting me, Hiei...stop...stop please...." I begged, hoping he could hear me. Hiei paused, still embedded in me, and let go of my neck. He gasped for air as though he were drowning. "Kura--Kurama...?"
"Hiei..." My arms gave out on me and I fell face-first into the pillows, exhausted, numb and free of Hiei.
"Kurama!" I felt warm hands pull my face out of the pillows and turn me over onto my back. Hot tears rushed down my face and I refused to open my eyes and look at him. "Oh god, Kurama. I'm so sorry. I--your neck...You're bleeding all over the place!" I heard Hiei run into the washroom and run some water. Then I felt him place a cold cloth over my forehead as he lifted my neck to soak up the blood with a larger towel. Hiei cradled me in his arms and pressed his forehead to mine. whispering, "I'm so sorry...so sorry....Kurama-kun, I--I love you."
He loves me? I opened my eyes. Hiei's were closed and tear gems were falling around me as he cried, rocking us back and forth.
"I took you to hell...please come back to me. Please, Kurama."
Now it was my turn to cry. Hiei did love me.
"I hope it rains every night." I whispered, watching as he opened his ruby eyes up to me in surprize.
"What?"
"If I get to spend another night next to you. I hope it rains every night."
Hiei hugged me close. "Stupid fox. I almost killed you. Why would you want to be with someone like me? There are so many lovers out there who--who know what you need. Who would never take advantage of you...like I did." A tear gem hit me in the nose and I smiled. " I don't care about anyone else." I said, looking up at him. "I want you and if I have to deal with pain I will, Hiei."
"Stupid. You're so stupid, Kurama." But he stroked my hair with shaky fingers and kissed my head.
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Author's note: Wow. That's the closest I've gotten to a lemon. Hee hee.
Hiei, hearing my unspoken plea, stopped carressing me and leaned down further to bite at the rim of my pijama bottoms. He tugged at them with his teeth and I lifted up so he could remove them. They hit the floor; forgotten. Hiei removed his own shirt and bandana, looking at me with three eager eyes as I reached up and touched his forehead. Hiei closed the Jagan and I ran my fingers gently over the closed eyelid. Hiei shuddered under my touch. "W-why are you being so gentle with me?"
"I don't want to hurt you."
My response seemed to touch him and he looked regrettably down at the bloody marks he'd made down my chest and stomach. "But I thought...isn't sex about pain?" Once again his facial expression changed to that innocently confused one I loved so much and I smiled up at him, tracing his lips with my free fingers. I felt my other wrist go numb in Hiei's feirce grip above my head but I ignored it.
"No, it shouldn't have to hurt, Hiei."
"But it does hurt..." Hiei released my arm and sat up on me. He stared at my navel for a long moment before clenching his fists and closing his eyes in distress. " I don't know what I'm doing, Kurama. Why did you want this from me?"
As heated as I was, I forced my burning need to subside and my honest feelings to come forward. "Because I love you, Hiei."
Hiei opened wide eyes at my confession. "You what?"
Not wanting to lose my nerve, I sat up fully(not an easy task when someone is sitting on you in a very awkward position) and hugged Hiei to me. "I love you. I don't need this, I need YOU. I need you here with me, like this or anywhere else." I pressed him close to me and felt him rest his chin on my shoulder. His pants did not prevent me from feeling his need for me as well.
"...Why ME? I'm a bastard, Kurama. I only know pain....I can't give you what you want, I'll end up killing you if you let me go too far with this. Why did you have to kiss me, Kurama..."
Hiei paused a moment, before squeezing his thighs together, making it very hard for me to stay focused on our convorsation. I tried to say something more, but Hiei made me forget how to form words as he moved against me slowly. "Uhhh...." Was all I could get out. I had wanted him when I woke up and found him next to me, but not nearly as much as I did now. Not nearly. I pressed closer to him and he lay me back on the bed once more. Normally I would have been thrilled to have Hiei on top of me but at the moment all I wanted to do was dominate him, make him cry out beneath me. Make him thank me for kissing him... I rolled over him, pressing his lithe body into the bedsheets and pulling off the belts holding the only clothing in our way off of him.
"Kurama...."
Not now Hiei. I thought. We want this. NEED this. Let's do this. Hiei grasped a lock of my long, red hair and pulled. "Ow! Hiei what are you--?" He pulled my face down to his and licked my cheek. I went for his mouth, while using my hands to unbutton his pants. I delved my hands inside causing Hiei to emit a growling noise, completely foreign to my ears. I stopped kissing him, "Are you alright?"
Out of nowhere, Hiei grabbed my shoulders and flung me onto my back his Jagan glowed a deep red and I felt myself being drawn into it somehow, I couldn't look away. I felt it pry into my memories, my secrets, my regrets...Hiei took all this in but said nothing as he lowered his pants past his waistline and lay himself exposed, against me. The intense wave of passion that swept over me then was unbarable, we rolled around and tangled ourselves in the linen on my bed, uncaring and oblivious. Then Hiei thrust into me. He wasn't joking when he said he was not a gentle lover. I cried out from the pain and Hiei growled and dug his nails into me harder than before. God, how it hurt!
"Hiei...it hurts...slow down..."
But Hiei was too far gone now. I used my arms to keep me from falling over, but if Hiei didn't stop soon I was going to pass out from the pain. Sharp teeth sunk into the back of my neck as I was thrust forward once more, my head hitting the headboard as a result. "S-stop....Hiei....please...!"
My friend had a death grip on the back of my neck and if I didn't know any better I could have sworn he was drawing blood. I could feel a burning sensation coming from my veins as he sucked the wound he'd made. Whatever pleasure I had been experiencing was quickly replaced by worry. I wasn't afraid of Hiei, but I sure as hell didn't expect him to drain me like he was doing. I could handle the pain of him inside of me, but it was not common practice to have your youki taken at the same time.
I could do nothing but stare downward as Hiei thrust into me again and again, I heard him breath deeply through his nose as he did so and the burning in my veins grew more intense. I stared down at the bedsheets and watched as drops of blood fell from the reopened scratches on my chest. I closed my eyes. It was getting so hard to keep them opened....I tried to move my neck, to get Hiei to stop, but I couldn't. And he didn't.
My head hit the headboard again as Hiei pushed into me, sending us forwards. I could no longer feel the pain of him inside me. I couldn't feel the scratches or his nails in my skin. I couldn't even feel his teeth in my neck anymore. The sound of my heartbeat echoed in my ears and I felt it throb at my temples. I knew what was happening. He was taking my energy, my blood and feeding himself with my lifeforce. But I refused to believe it was his fault. Hiei had warned me. But I loved him....If he wanted all of me he could take it. I couldn't stop him from doing it, not now.
"Tell me if I'm hurting you. I'll stop." Hiei had said before we had gotten very far. Would he stop now? Or was he too far gone?
"Y-you're hurting me, Hiei...stop...stop please...." I begged, hoping he could hear me. Hiei paused, still embedded in me, and let go of my neck. He gasped for air as though he were drowning. "Kura--Kurama...?"
"Hiei..." My arms gave out on me and I fell face-first into the pillows, exhausted, numb and free of Hiei.
"Kurama!" I felt warm hands pull my face out of the pillows and turn me over onto my back. Hot tears rushed down my face and I refused to open my eyes and look at him. "Oh god, Kurama. I'm so sorry. I--your neck...You're bleeding all over the place!" I heard Hiei run into the washroom and run some water. Then I felt him place a cold cloth over my forehead as he lifted my neck to soak up the blood with a larger towel. Hiei cradled me in his arms and pressed his forehead to mine. whispering, "I'm so sorry...so sorry....Kurama-kun, I--I love you."
He loves me? I opened my eyes. Hiei's were closed and tear gems were falling around me as he cried, rocking us back and forth.
"I took you to hell...please come back to me. Please, Kurama."
Now it was my turn to cry. Hiei did love me.
"I hope it rains every night." I whispered, watching as he opened his ruby eyes up to me in surprize.
"What?"
"If I get to spend another night next to you. I hope it rains every night."
Hiei hugged me close. "Stupid fox. I almost killed you. Why would you want to be with someone like me? There are so many lovers out there who--who know what you need. Who would never take advantage of you...like I did." A tear gem hit me in the nose and I smiled. " I don't care about anyone else." I said, looking up at him. "I want you and if I have to deal with pain I will, Hiei."
"Stupid. You're so stupid, Kurama." But he stroked my hair with shaky fingers and kissed my head.
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Author's note: Wow. That's the closest I've gotten to a lemon. Hee hee.