Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Vacation Time ❯ Twenty-Eight ( Chapter 28 )

Chapter Twenty-Eight: Pain, Continued

 

Cassie's POV

 

I HURT. I hurt badly. My heart felt like it had been shattered into a million tiny pieces, and it was all Hiei's fault. I loved him; but when I had given him my heart, he had destroyed it. He had pushed me aside, treated me like a one-night stand... which was probably what I was to him.

 

When I had told him that I loved him, he had merely shushed me. He had not cared one bit about me or my feelings. Kaline had been right; Hiei was a jerk, and I was beginning to wish that I had never met him.

 

I curled up into an even tighter ball as a memory from this morning washed over me.

 

Flashback

 

Giving a yawn, I snuggled closer to a large source of warmth in my bed. It was a body, and it took only one look to confirm that it was Hiei. We were both still naked, a sure testament to what we had done after we had left the luau. It had been a wonderful experience, and the fire demon had turned out to be an excellent lover. I, certainly, could not think of any complaints.

 

I ran over the previous night's events in my mind, smiling. At least, I was smiling until I recalled a small occurrence at the very end, right before we had both fallen asleep. I had confessed my feelings, told Hiei that I loved him; but he had merely shushed me and promptly fallen asleep. He had not said anything back to me, had not said that he loved me.

 

Tears unwillingly coming to my eyes, I quickly got out of bed and threw on some clothes. I wanted -no, needed- to get out of that bedroom. So, without really caring what the weather was like outside, I ran out of the house. As everyone else was asleep, no one saw me escaping out the front door.

 

Once outside, I was greeted by the rain, wind, and dark clouds. It completely suited my mood, so I welcomed the weather with open arms. I let the rain soak me from head to foot, and then I climbed up into a tree.

 

Up in the branches, I allowed my mind to ponder everything that had happened recently. 'Okay, Hiei and I came back from the luau, moved his stuff into my room, Yukina's things in Keiko's room, and finally moved Botan's stuff into Koenma's room. Then, we made love... which I did enjoy.' I sighed softly as I stared at the dark clouds up in the sky. 'I told him I loved him, but he did not answer. Instead, he silenced me and went to sleep.'

 

I continued to think on that for a few moments. 'Maybe he was just tired; maybe he heard me, but his brain was just too far gone to respond.' I sincerely hoped that I was right. Kami help me if I was not.

 

About ten minutes later, Hiei came outside and walked up to the tree. With a graceful ease, he leapt up onto the branch I was sitting on. Paying the rain and wind no heed, he gave me a small smile. "At least you like trees," he commented softly, as a way of greeting.

 

That was not what I had wanted to hear, but I understood that one just did not walk up to someone else and say the "L" word out of the blue. It just was not done. So, instead of waiting for Hiei to bring up the subject, I decided to do it for him. "Hiei, do you remember what I said last night before we fell asleep?" I inquired, a hopeful expression on my face.

 

He nodded his head. "Yeah. Why?"

 

His uncaring tone sent a flash of pain through me as fresh tears threatened to form in my eyes. I fought them back. "So you remember, but you have nothing to say back to me?" I frowned, not liking the way things were going.

 

"No." The reply was simple, short, and wounding. "Should I?" Hiei asked, red eyes staring into mine.

 

I ripped my gaze away from him. "Never mind," I told him, hopping down out of the tree and beginning to walk back inside.

 

There was no way I could deal with Hiei right then, just no way. He did not love me, and he acted like he could care less about the fact that I loved him. The question was, if he did not love me, then why had he slept with me? Was I just some kind of quick sex fix? A one-night stand? Probably. Stupid jerk. I still loved him though. Stupid me.

 

I did not get a chance to make it very far, because I was suddenly and gently pinned against the side of the house. My back was pressed against the wood, Hiei's face just inches away from me.

 

"What is your problem?" the fire demon demanded to know, frowning. Something was bothering him, but I could not figure out what.

 

I gave him a very sad smile. "What if I don't want to play Jane to your Tarzan?" I asked him, my voice barely audible over the howling wind.

 

Hiei stared a me a moment, surprise on his face; but he quickly shook his head, as if he was warding away any confusing thoughts. "And what is that supposed to mean, Cassie?"

 

"Figure it out," I responded. "I'm done talking to you."

 

In shock, the red-eyed demon backed up from me. I used that moment of freedom to my advantage, running away from him as tears finally began to fall down my cheeks.

 

With Hiei still outside and unmoving, I hid in Kaline's closet. I knew that I could not go into my own room, because it had become Hiei's room as well. My room was no longer a place of refuge, but Kaline's room was.

 

I had curled up in my best friend's closet, praying that Hiei would not find me; and that was how Kaline found me.

 

End Flashback

 

Kaline opening the closet door and holding out a plate of eggs brought me out of my memories. She was in her demon form, sparkles of bright blue light flashing dangerously around her. Her tail rapidly swished back and forth, a sure sign of anger and irritation.

 

Instead of her temper scaring me, it only made me feel safer. Kaline was on my side, and her anger was only on my behalf. It was easy to tell that she would protect me from Hiei at all costs. Heck, I would be surprised if she had not decided to punch the guy or something.

 

"Feeling any better yet, Cassie?" she asked me, tone sympathetic.

 

I nodded my head as I began to slowly eat my food with the fork she also had offered me. The eggs tasted bland to me, but that was probably because my mind was on other things... like my broken heart.

 

Kaline sighed softly. "Would you like me to go get you some dry clothes?" She knelt down so that she was closer to my eye level. "I would be more than happy to get you some."

 

I tried to smile at her, but I failed. It was hard for me to smile when tears were still falling down my face and I felt like someone had ripped me apart from the inside out. For some reason, my mind brought up an image from an Indiana Jones movie. On the back of my eyelids, I saw the bad guy ripping someone's still beating heart right out of his chest. Yes, that was pretty much how I felt. Hiei had, in a way, torn my heart out.

 

Kaline patted me on the head. "I'll go get you a change of clothes." Then, she left.

 

Trying to stop my tears I continued to eat, I thanked Kami for friends like Kaline. She could read my expressions well enough when it was important, and she always seemed to know what to do when it really mattered. Other times, she could act like a complete space-case; but she was a good friend, no matter what. She cared about other people... unlike a certain fire demon.

 

The thought of Hiei quickly brought all the sad memories back and sent me into another crying fit. With sobs shaking my body, I set the plate of food down and buried my head in my knees. Tears ran down my already wet cheeks and dripped onto my legs.

 

I could not even slightly calm down until I felt someone' arms wrap around me.

 

"Shhhhh..." Kaline whispered as she did her best to comfort me. "I promise that everything will be okay. Hiei ain't gonna hurt you again; I won't let him." She continued to make soothing noises until I had quieted down.

 

"Thanks, Kaline," I told her gratefully.

 

The cat demon waved off my thanks. "What are friends for?" she responded, smiling slightly. She was obviously trying to cheer me up. "Now, I've got you a change of clothes. You put those on while I go see what's happening in the rest of the house." She stood back up. "I'll be back in a moment, so don't you worry." Right before she left, she gave me one last order. "Now you need to try to finish those eggs. I worked too hard on them to let them just go to waste."

 

Once again, an effort to cheer me up. It failed, but that really was not Kaline's fault. She was trying her best. Unfortunately, her best just was not good enough at the moment. I was too depressed for anyone to cheer me up.

 

Giving me another small smile, Kaline left the room, leaving me in peace.