Ai No Kusabi Fan Fiction ❯ Falling Into the Darkness ❯ Everybody's Fool ( Chapter 6 )

Everybody's Fool…

We were so perfect together, you and I…Tanagura's top Blondie and Jupiter's top enforcer. The expressions of awe when we'd walk past a group of Citizens were worth every bit of gossip I ever heard about us.

Of course, the Pets were the worst; don't think they weren't. The stories I'd hear whispered as we walked past, as if they actually thought I couldn't hear, in a strange way made me walk taller. I'm sure you heard how we were supposedly a mated pair. Nothing would have pleased me more than to have been able to have claimed such to be the truth.

But…no. You had the Mongrel to replace me. At first I thought he'd just be a phase for you. We continued going to the clubs to watch the pets perform, but more often than not, as soon as Riki did his part, you would get up to leave. Did you ever think that you may have enjoyed the rest almost as much if you'd stayed?

Riki was somehow special to you. I personally found him to be revolting. All that black hair and the deeply tanned skin to go along with it made for a combination that just didn't suit my tastes. I know, we've had that argument on many occasions. As the top Blondie, though, you knew you'd always get your choice. The rest of us could just be damned.

For awhile, I don't think anyone noticed your obsession with the Mongrel. It didn't take long, though, for the other Citizens to see that your daily pattern had changed slightly. I am just pleased that they didn't realize the cause of the change.

The others in Midas would have certainly been distressed to know that their main role model had been reduced to fawning over a Pet to begin with. The fact that Riki is a Mongrel would have been more than most could have stood in those days. I did notice, however, that many of the lower-level Citizens began to take more of an interest in your activities.

I suppose you only shrugged off the fact that I began to stay closer by your side at that time. I know that your reputation remained less sullied for a longer time because of my almost constant attention. I used to try to talk to you about your dark one, but you kept pushing me away. Do you know how that made me feel, Iason? You only kept telling us that your job was unaffected by his existence in your world. For the first year, perhaps, that may have been true.

Of course, when you had Riki installed in his apartment rather than leaving him and having his contract sold to one of the clubs, I knew he had your feelings in his hands. Still he fought you and you kept trying to bring him to your way of thinking. Anyone else would have gotten rid of him or sent him to one of my men. I wish I could understand. I tried so hard to be supportive of your attempts to tame the Mongrel.

I knew, however, that you would never give him up…not really at least. That night when you'd reached your limit and crossed the line with him confirmed all of my fears. I had noticed your renewed interest in going to the clubs and thought maybe you were finally coming to your senses. Little did any of us know that you were only trying to train *yourself* to please the Mongrel instead of getting bored with him. How *could* we know? You had everyone fooled…most of all, me.

If you could have only left Riki alone when he went back to his old life there might have still been some hope. The fact that you asked Katze to illicit that other Mongrel's help to trick him into coming back proved otherwise. You still coddled him and give into most every whim. The difference, though, is that now he understands how short of a leash you intend to keep on him.

He has resigned himself to his fate. I've seen the evidence in his eyes. I've heard about his more submissive behavior from Katze as well. The problem lies, however, in the fact that you are still not satisfied with your station in life. You still wish to lower yourself with conduct unbefitting a Blondie by laying with him at every opportunity, as if you, too, were a Pet.

The Citizens talk openly about you and Riki now. I hear the whispers. I know you do as well, but you still delude yourself by saying his life with you affects nothing.

I wish I could pretend you don't exist for me. I wish I could honestly say I don't love you anymore. I can wish for those things for an eternity, but they will change nothing. I love you with all of my heart despite everything, and it cuts me to the quick to see you give all of your love to a Mongrel that will never fully appreciate what he has been given.

You have become a fool in the eyes of the citizens of Tanagura…a slap in the face of all who value our traditional ways. Even so, one thing will never change. You may be everybody's fool, but I will always be a fool for you. Until I die, I will only be yours.