Beyblade Fan Fiction ❯ Bloody Tears ❯ Can you love me? ( Chapter 1 )

Bloody Tears

Chapter 1- Can you love me?

It had been a very long day. With the American Beyblading tournament only a week away, the Blade Breakers had been hard at work practising and making sure that their blades were up to scratch. Everyone was exhausted. Everyone, that is, except Kai. Kai had spent the last few days alone, not seeing anyone and not leaving his room unless it was to eat. Staying in such a large, lavish hotel it was easy to avoid the others if he wanted, which he did.

It was 4:30am, or at least that's what the clock next to his bed said. Kai hadn't been sleeping lately and tonight was no exception. This was half of the reason he avoided the others; he didn't want them to know about his little 'problem'. The other half was the problem. A certain Blade Breaker who Kai couldn't seem to be able to get off his mind. It was these thoughts that kept Kai awake at night and eradicated his appetite. He was pitifully thin, cheek bones standing out on his once well rounded face, clothes that once fitted perfectly hanging off his wiry frame, hair lank and greasy. He was not a pretty sight.

"It's not normal." Kai's voice rang out, piercing the still night air. "It can't be normal, can it? Am I not normal? Men are supposed to fall in love with women, not other men, right?" The darkness didn't answer. Kai suddenly felt very dirty, not from his thoughts but from the fact that he hadn't washed in days. Running a hand through his hair a sound of disgust escaped his throat. Kai pushed himself up from the bed and made his way to the en-suite bathroom where he proceeded to turn the shower on, full blast. Stepping underneath the spray, Kai reached for the shampoo. Not being able to reach it from where he stood and not wanting to leave the warm water he was standing under, he leaned over. The last thing Kai remembered before falling into oblivion was a sickening crack and agonising pain. Then, darkness.

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Rei couldn't sleep either. He lay on his back staring up at the ceiling, following the swirls of plaster with his eyes. This practice was becoming as habitual for him as eating or breathing. A feeling in his gut told him that something was wrong, very wrong. He had been worrying about Kai for a while now and this feeling in the pit of his stomach increased the worry ten-fold.

"Why am I worrying about Kai so much? It's not as if he'd do the same for me." Rei sat up, leaning against the headboard and letting his head fall backward to hit the wall with a soft thud. "And why can't I stop thinking about him, am I in love with him? Is that it? I just don't know any more. I.I think it might be love, but would he return my feelings? Hn, probably not. It's not as if Kai cares about anyone but himself anyway." Letting his head drop forwards, a tear ran down Rei's face to land on the sheet that was covering him. 'I still can't shift the worry, though. It's just not like Kai to avoid us so readily. He's never at dinner anymore and no one's seen him for weeks.' A light pattering of rain on the window interrupted Rei's train of thought. "Well, if I can't sleep, maybe he can't. I'll go see, that should ease my worries."

That decided, Rei climbed out of bed and began to dress himself. His usual clothes were being cleaned, so he had to settle for a pair of white trousers and a dark blue shirt with a tiger motif on the back. The shirt had been a present from some 'friend' back home who he never saw but who was still trying to get back 'in' with him and insisted on sending gifts whenever he had an excuse to. 'You can't buy friendship, not with me anyway.'

As he stepped out into the hallway, Rei noticed how light it was. Looking out of the window at the end wall of the corridor he was in, Rei could see the telltale light on the horizon. The sun would rise soon. The rain had stopped, but behind it left a world cleansed of all the former days impurities. Reaching up, Rei opened the window to let some air into the stuffy hallway. The breeze smelt damp and refreshing and succeeded in waking Rei up fully.

Continuing his walk to Kai's room, Rei passed by Tyson's room. Loud snoring could be heard coming from behind the shut door. Above the snoring Rei could hear something else, light breathing, proving that there was someone else in the room with Tyson. The slow, steady rhythm showed that whoever it was was asleep. Rei knew that it was not his place to pry; however his curiosity overcame him. Opening the door quietly, he peered inside. The room was pretty much the same as his; same wardrobe, same chest of drawers, same bed. Said bed was occupied by not one, but two sleeping forms. Tyson could be seen sprawled out, one arm was flung above his head, the other was wrapped possessively around Max who lay curled neatly into Tyson's left side. The dark haired intruder smiled at the two before exiting the room and closing the door behind him with a light 'click'.

Rei had to take the elevator two floors up before he reached Kai's room. It was the most expensive suite on the premises as well as the largest. The top floor had only two rooms; Kai's being the larger of the two. Even the décor on the hallway was more impressive than that of the other floors. The carpet was a rich red colour and springy underfoot, the wallpaper a mixture of oranges and reds. Expensive-looking lamps were attached to the walls and overhead hung a large chandelier.

Having never been to this floor before, Rei was clearly impressed by what he saw. Eyes wide as he stared around him, mouth open slightly; Rei truly was a picture of beauty. Vulnerable, yet strong. Had Kai seen him then he wouldn't have thought twice about his sexuality, only about Rei. Snapping out of his trance-like state, Rei remembered why he was there in the first place. Knocking on Kai's door, he received no answer. The curious youth tried the handle and found the door to be open.

'Kai will kill me if he's sleeping and I wake him up, but this knot in my stomach just seems to be getting tighter, so I have to try.' Putting a determined expression on his face, Rei opened the door and slipped silently inside. He could see that Kai's bed had been slept in, but now lay empty. The knot began to grow tighter still.

"Kai. Kai, are you here?" Rei spoke to the room, hoping and praying that he got a response. There was no answer. "Kai." Rei began to grow more desperate and hoped that it didn't show in his voice. Walking across the great expanse of floor towards the bathroom. It seemed to take forever but at last he reached it. Steam was coming from underneath the door.

"Hn, he must be having a shower. Maybe he just didn't hear me or couldn't be bothered to reply." Banging on the door hard with his fist, Rei still received no answer. Trying the door, it was open like the last. "I guess he wasn't expecting anyone to visit this time of night." Entering the steam filled bathroom, the first thing Rei noticed was the sheer size of it. There was a Jacuzzi straight ahead on a raised platform. Walking through an archway, Rei found a large bath. The steam was getting thicker as he continued through in his quest to find Kai.

The next archway took him to his final destination, the shower room. Rei couldn't see much at all through the haze and stumbled forward in the incredible heat, trying to get to the water. "Kai?" Still no answer. Reaching the shower, Rei attempted to reach in and turn off the water. "Shimatta!" The few drops of water that touched him scalded his skin and he was forced to put his hand in his mouth in an attempt to ease the pain. Trying again with the other hand, Rei managed to shut off the water, though not without being burned again. As the steam began to slowly clear, Rei noticed a shape lying at his feet. Bending down for a closer look, Rei discovered the one thing he had been dreading all along.

"KAI! Oh god, Kai. Kai, Speak to me, please!" Rei crouched down next to his unconscious friend and gently lifted the boy into his arms. Standing, Rei walked swiftly from the bathroom to Kai's bed; a large four-poster with silk sheets and drapes. Placing him down on the bed, Rei studied the naked form of the man he considered to be his closest friend. "Oh, Kai." Rei sighed as he noticed how pitifully thin Kai was. Placing a hand on Kai's face, he tilted it towards him and saw the nasty cut adorning Kai's forehead. The blood was already dry and the wound framed by an angry- looking bruise.

Standing up from his crouched position, Rei leaned over to look into Kai's face, steadying himself on the bed. "You wont like it but I have to get a doctor." Tears ran in streams down Rei's face, shining in the light of the newly risen sun. "I can't let anyone see you like this though, can I? You would never forgive me, then where would I be, hn?" Rei looked around the room for something to dress Kai in. His eyes fell upon a pair of black boxers, silk of course. "These'll have to do." Turning back, Rei slipped the boxers over Kai's feet and up his legs. As he got higher, the dark haired youth could feel his face grow hot and a familiar ache in his nether regions. 'Not now, oh please god not now!' He was getting hard. 'OK, take deep breaths. Try not to think about.think about something else. OK, flowers. A big field full of flowers. Kai in a big field full of flowers.this isn't working.' Rei had stopped pulling Kai's boxers up and was now breathing erratically. Realising this, he swallowed, took a deep breath and pulled the boxers up all the way, hiding Kai's impressively sized manhood from sight.

This difficult task done, Rei knelt by the bed again and took Kai's hand in his own. "I love you, you know. I know I can't say it to your face, but it's true. I wasn't sure at first, but now I know. It is love, not just some silly crush." Reaching up with his other hand, Rei trailed two fingers down Kai's face before leaning up to kiss his forehead. Kai sighed quietly and seemed to visibly relax. "What would you say if you knew how I felt? You'd probably hate me, kick me off the team. You're probably not even.I should get the doctor now."

Standing again, Rei walked slowly away from the bed, never taking his eyes off Kai. "I'll be right back, I promise." Rei closed the door behind him and practically ran into the lift. Punching the button to go to the bottom floor, he paced impatiently as the elevator began its slow decent.

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Kai was standing in a large field full of flowers of every type and colour. He didn't know how he got there, all he knew was that he needed to be there for some reason. A hand on his shoulder did not make him jump, as he would normally expect it to. Instead it was strangely comforting. His own hand went up automatically to cover it. Turning his head, brown orbs met amber slits as Kai stared right into Rei's eyes. Rei smiled and two stray tears ran down his perfect face. Kai looked confused, why was Rei crying?

"Kai." Rei's voice broke the silence surrounding them. More tears appeared and the taller youth pulled Kai into his arms, burying his face in the mass of soft blue hair. Kai could feel Rei sobbing silently against him. "Kai, oh god Kai." Rei pulled the puzzled boy tighter to him as the sobs became audible.

"Rei?" The sobs increased in pitch until Rei's whole body shook. "Rei, what's wrong? Please tell me." Was that voice really his? It sounded so weak, pleading, desperate.but at the same time soothing and kind. Rei stopped crying and looked down at him. His eyes were red and swollen and his bottom lip trembled slightly, a sure sign that tears were still close. "Rei?" Kai looked up at his friend, worry evident in his expression.

"I have to go now. I'll be back soon, I promise." Rei released his hold on Kai and began to walk away from the troubled teen.

"Go where? Where do you have to go? Rei, what's wrong? I don't understand." Kai was scared. Rei's recent breakdown unnerved him and he felt weak. He attempted to go after Rei, but for some reason he couldn't move. "Rei!" The boy stood for a moment before looking back at Kai.

"I love you." Those three words stunned Kai. He would not have been able to move, even if he was able to. He just stared after the retreating form of the man that he loved so dearly and yet had not the courage to tell him so.

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The elevator finally reached the ground floor of the hotel. Rei rushed out, almost colliding with a porter in his rush. He reached reception and slammed his fist down on the bell so hard that it broke under the pressure, but not before uttering one final, startled 'ding' and then a 'crack' as it was demolished. The man on reception hurried out to see what all the commotion was about and was met with one very tense, very angry young man.

"Can I.help you?" The sight of Rei practically fuming was frightening to say the least. The tall man with mousy-brown hair looked nervous, who knew what this boy would do?!

"I need a doctor. My friend is hurt, youhavetohelphim." Rei spoke so quickly the man had trouble understanding what he was saying.

"Right, a doctor you say? I'll phone for one now. What floor is your friend on?" The man finally realised the seriousness of the situation and knew that he had to act fast in case this was an actual emergency. He didn't really want to be blamed for the death of a guest if he could help it.

"Floor 8, suite one." Rei had managed to calm down slightly and spoke slowly so that the man could understand what he was saying. "Floor 8? Suite one? Isn't that Hiwatari-sama's room? Just who are you anyway?" The receptionist was beginning to think that this was all just one big joke. This kid couldn't know Hiwatari Kai, right?

"This is not the time for discussions. Get a doctor up to him now. I'll be up there with him, now hurry!" Rei left one very shocked man behind as he rushed back into the elevator and punched the button for the 8th floor. Pacing the floor again, Rei realised that if he didn't control his anger then they would have a very large bill upon leaving the hotel.

The lift seemed to take twice as long this time. As the doors slid open, Rei stormed out, again almost knocking someone over, this time the very doctor who had come to see Kai. Rei quickly apologised and explained the situation to the doctor; how he was worried, went looking for Kai and found him passed out on the shower-room floor. The doctor nodded seriously as Rei finished speaking.

"So where is patient?" The short man with black hair spoke with a slight accent, which Rei couldn't quite place. He wore black trousers and a white shirt and carried a box with medical supplies. A stethoscope hung around his neck and a gold badge on his shirt read 'Dr. A. Schvokt'

"In here, on the bed." Rei motioned towards the door and the doctor walked quickly inside. Kai was still unconscious, laid out as Rei had left him. "Is he OK? What's wrong with him? Can you help him?" Rei looked so concerned that the doctor could only laugh.

"Give me chance," the man chuckled. "I need examine first." He spoke in broken Japanese, clearly not being so in origin. He leaned over Kai and looked closely at the cut on his forehead. "Is bad, maybe concussion." Rei said nothing and just watched. "We need clean it. Get water and cloth. Cold." The boy hurried from the room to locate a bowl. He found one beneath the sink in the rather large bathroom and filled it with cold water. Next he found a wash cloth in a cupboard above the toilet. Taking these to the doctor, he watched expectantly waiting for his next instruction. There was none as the doctor began to bathe the large cut with the cold water.

"Is there anything I can." Rei was cut off in mid sentence by the doctor.

"Shh, quiet for patient. Headache when wakes up." Rei was instantly silent, not wanting to cause Kai any more suffering than he had already endured. The doctor indicated for Rei to sit in a chair located near to the bed. When he sat the doctor shook his head, "Sit close, talk quiet." As instructed, Rei pulled the chair close to the bed and sat watching Kai as the doctor worked. "You brother?"

"Nope."

"Friend?"

"Yes."

"Boy friend?" Rei nearly choked on the very air that he was breathing as the doctor said this. This did not go unnoticed by the doctor and he chuckled quietly. "Secret boyfriend?"

"N-no. I-I mean." Rei was starting to get flustered. He loved Kai, was it really that obvious? And even so, that didn't mean that Kai returned his feelings. He didn't even know if Kai considered him as a friend. He could just be a companion, a colleague, nothing more.

"Ah, I see now. You like him. You not know if he like you. It difficult for you. You not want to be rejected by him." The doctor seemed to be reading his every thought. Rei nodded silently, stunned by what the doctor had just said. "You must tell him. You not know otherwise. Can't live whole life wondering 'does he', 'does he not'. Like flower, only get one chance to grow. Once that chance gone, no more chance." Rei nodded again. "Quiet now, tend patient." Another nod and Rei sat still in the chair, watching Kai like a hawk.

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"Wait, Rei don't leave me! I love you, I love you, I always have. Please don't leave me! Rei!" Kai was getting desperate. No matter how much he yelled, Rei just carried on walking away from him. He couldn't move in order to go after him and no amount of shouting did any good. Tears ran down his face in rivers and dripped onto the floor between his feet.

The surrounding landscape seemed to follow Rei as he walked away, taking all of the beauty away with him and leaving only ugly stones and dirt. The earth was hot beneath his feet and the sun beat down on his back. The temperature seemed to be increasing by the second and Kai could feel his whole body burning. Why was his whole body burning? Kai looked down and saw that he was completely naked and sun burn was setting in quickly. That was when it began to rain. Not cool, thirst quenching rain, but hot and as burning as the sun which still beat down. Kai screamed as the water collided with his skin but he couldn't get away from the pain.

Standing alone in the barren desert, sun beating down, rain burning his skin, Kai could do nothing but sob out his pain and anguish to the surrounding heat. His eyes were closed tight against the sight before him but they flew open as he felt something strange. The temperature of the rain had increased slightly and was now almost unbearable. That was not what forced him to open his eyes though. What did that was the feel of the rain on his skin. It went from being thin water, to being thick and sticky, clinging to his exposed flesh and hurting more than ever. When Kai saw the reason for this he broke down, screaming and crying, for the water had turned into blood and he was now completely coated with the crimson liquid.

"Oh god, Rei! Rei, please help me. Don't leave me Rei. REI!"

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