Beyblade Fan Fiction ❯ Bloody Tears ❯ Love you and leave you ( Chapter 2 )

Bloody Tears

Chapter 2- Love you and leave you

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"Wait, Rei don't leave me! I love you, I love you, I always have. Please don't leave me! Rei!" Kai was getting desperate. No matter how much he yelled, Rei just carried on walking away from him. He couldn't move in order to go after him and no amount of shouting did any good. Tears ran down his face in rivers and dripped onto the floor between his feet.

The surrounding landscape seemed to follow Rei as he walked away, taking all of the beauty away with him and leaving only ugly stoned and dirt. The earth was hot beneath his feet and the sun beat down on his back. The temperature seemed to be increasing by the second and Kai could feel his whole body burning. Why was his whole body burning? Kai looked down and saw that he was completely naked and burning up quickly. That was when it began to rain. Not cool, thirst quenching rain, but hot and as burning as the sun which still beat down. Kai screamed as the water collided with his skin but he couldn't get away from the pain.

Standing alone in the barren desert, sun beating down, rain burning his skin, Kai could do nothing but sob out his pain and anguish to the surrounding heat. His eyes were closed tight against the sight before him but they flew open as he felt something strange. The temperature of the rain had increased slightly and was now almost unbearable. That was not what forced him to open his eyes though. What did that was the fell of the rain. It went from being thin water, to being thick and sticky, clinging to his skin and hurting more than before. When Kai saw the reason for this he broke down, screaming and crying, for the water had turned into blood and he was now coated with it.

"Oh god, Rei! Rei, please help me. Don't leave me Rei. REI!"

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"REI!" Kai sat straight up in bed, his unseeing eyes wide and glistening with the newly shed tears that now fell from his lashes. A hoarse cry ripped from his dry throat as a spasm of pain shot through him from the wound on his head. Falling backwards towards the pillows below, Kai was caught by a pair of strong arms. He was pulled closer to whoever it was that had managed to grab him before he fell to, what would ultimately be, more pain. His vision slowly coming back to him, Kai was not expecting the sight that met his eyes as he looked up into the same golden eyes that had been in his dream.

"It's alright, Kai. I'm here. I'm right here." Rei smiled down on the blue- haired beauty he held in his arms, studying his face intently. The high cheek bones, soft skin, free of imperfections and his trademark blue triangles. Somehow, the triangles gave his face a god-like quality and made him seem untouchable. Now that they were gone, Kai seemed to almost be within Rei's reach. Almost. "Kai, what happened? What's wrong?" Rei's brilliant orange eyes reflected all of his internal concern, fear and love for the whole world to see. That with his recent actions almost certainly gave away his little 'secret', even if it was only to Kai. Now he would most likely either be rejected or, least likely, have is feelings returned by the mysterious youth he held in his arms.

"Rei." Kai pulled himself against the warm body that was holding him, savouring in the feeling of being so close to Rei, the only person he had ever felt anything for, other than himself. He didn't want to ruin their friendship, didn't want to be rejected. Mind made up, Kai pushed away from Rei to fall back onto the bed, wincing at the pain. He received a confused look from the handsome boy leaning over him, bordering on hurt. Not able to look into those eyes any more, Kai rolled over and curled up into a ball, his back facing Rei. Sobbing silently, he squeezed his own eyes tightly shut, trying to block out the hurt expression he knew he was receiving from Rei, but it was still there, hiding behind his eyelids, tormenting the distressed youth.

"Kai?" Rei's voice trembled slightly. He was afraid that this would happen. When Kai had pulled closer to him he had hoped that maybe, just maybe, Kai loved him too. The sight of Kai curled into a foetal position, facing away from Rei and sobbing quietly, caused his own tears to spill over from where they had gathered. Feeling the cold drops hit his neck, Kai's eyes flew open and swivelled around to look at the miserable boy towering over him. Rei bit his bottom lip as the tears continued to roll down the bridge of his nose and onto Kai who lay curled below him. "I-I'm sorry. I know what you must think of me and I understand if you want to kick me off the team."

As Rei turned away to leave, Kai reached out and grabbed the taller teen by the arm. Propping himself up on one elbow in order to get a better look. "Stop it Kai, this is hard enough as it is. Why do you insist on making me suffer?" Rei tried to half-heartedly pull away but Kai only tightened his grip until his knuckles went white with the strain. He was so weak, Rei really didn't want to hurt him.

"Why am I making you suffer? I don't understand. Why would I want you to leave the team?" Kai really had no idea that Rei felt the same way as he did. He had suspected it a couple of times when he had caught Rei staring at him out of the corner of his eye or when he had spoken in a certain way. This was another one of those times, but Kai had to hear it for himself. He didn't want to jump to conclusions and end up in deeper water than he was already in, but Rei was really upset about something. And then there was the 'hug' earlier, if you could really call it that. Well, he would just have to wait and see what happened.

Rei just stared in disbelief at Kai. After all this, he still didn't get it? "Are you really so self absorbed you can't see past your own nose?!" Rei was getting angry for the second time that day, and the others weren't even up yet. The doctor's voice played over in his head again.

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"You brother?" The doctor spoke quietly, so as to not disturb Kai.

"Nope." A curt response from Rei.

"Friend?"

"Yes."

"Boyfriend?" Rei nearly choked on the very air that he was breathing as the doctor said this. This did not go unnoticed by the doctor and he chuckled quietly. "Secret boyfriend?"

"N-no. I-I mean." Rei was starting to get flustered. He loved Kai, was it really that obvious? And even so, that didn't mean that Kai returned his feelings. He didn't even know if Kai considered him as a friend. He could just be a companion, a colleague, nothing more.

"Ah, I see now. You like him. You not know if he like you. It difficult for you. You not want to be rejected by him." The doctor seemed to be reading his every thought. Rei nodded silently, stunned by what the doctor had just said. "You must tell him. You not know otherwise. Can't live whole life wondering 'does he', 'does he not'. Like flower, only get one chance to grow. Once that chance gone, no more chance." Rei nodded again.

Before the doctor left, he spoke to Rei again. "Take care of patient. Bathe wound lots. You know why he not been eating?" Rei shook his head, too focused on Kai to do much else. "I think he not eat because he worried. Any other strange behaviour?"

"Yes, until today I hadn't seen him since...since we got here. It's like he's avoiding us" Rei looked thoughtful for a moment, wondering what it meant and hoping it meant what he saw in his dreams every night.

"Ah, so worry about 'us', who us? Team?" Another nod from Rei who was again staring at Kai's sleeping form. "Good, narrows down. Get rid of worry, cure patient." The doctor sounded so confident of himself, he could have told Rei that the sun was really blue and Rei would have believed him. "Remember, flower only get one chance at life. Don't cast chance aside." And with that, he left. Rei was alone with Kai. Normally he would have cherished such an opportunity, but this time he was just tired. Curling up on the chair he took one last long look at Kai, closed his eyes and went to sleep.

Woken from slumber by someone shouting his name, Rei leapt from his chair and lunged forward. Catching Kai before he fell again, Rei instinctively pulled him close. He thought over the doctor's words for precious seconds, before deciding against taking action. 'Not right now, let him get better first.'

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"A flower only gets one chance at life." Rei echoed the words out loud, as if the sound of them helped to convince him that this was the right choice; there was no going back now. Taking a deep breath and turning back to Kai, Rei opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out. Swallowing, he found his mouth to be dry. Trying again, he found the words still wouldn't come. Many emotions crossed his face at that point. Frustration, anger, fear, need and then, finally, determination.

Leaning quickly forward, arm still in Kai's weak grip, Rei pressed his lips against Kai's in a passionate, almost bruising kiss. Kai was too startled to move and released his hold on Rei's arm. His wish, his dream, everything he had ever hoped for was within his grasp and he couldn't do anything about it. After a few moments, Rei pulled away and headed for the door. Kai just sat there, eyes wide in shock, breathing heavily. One hand snaked up to touch his still swollen lips where, only moments before, Rei had shown his true feelings for him for the first time, and probably the last. Snapping out of his trance, Kai slammed his fist down hard on the bed sheets next to his leg.

Climbing unsteadily out of bed, Kai fell to his knees. "Damn it, I have to follow him. I can't let him think that I don't...oh god, Rei! REI!" All Kai's shouts did were to temporarily fill the silent void that had filled the room. Trying again, Kai managed to pull himself to his feet. Leaning unsteadily on the bed, he realised that all he was wearing was a pair of boxers. "I was in the shower when I passed out, so I shouldn't be wearing anything. Rei...he's so thoughtful, always doing what he can for others, even going so far as to preserve my decency." Blushing at the thought of Rei seeing him naked, Kai sat down on the end of the bed to try and find his clothes. "He's nothing like me. I wish...I wish I could be more like Rei. I can't though, that would mean showing my emotions and I don't know if I can be hurt like that again..."

Still very unsteady on his feet, Kai stumbled over to his wardrobe and pulled out the first thing he could find; black trousers and a black shirt. Pulling them on, with some difficulty, he walked slowly over to the door. On the way there he caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror. He really did look terrible; hair all messed up, shirt buttoned wrong. Pausing to fix his shirt and run his hands through his hair, Kai decided that he was presentable enough and made his way, slowly, to the elevator outside his door.

Unable to push the button as his hands were shaking so violently and he was so weak, Kai was grateful when the doors slid shut by themselves and the lift began to move down. Whoever had pushed the button could get him to the bottom floor where he hoped to find Rei. It was breakfast time after all. Kai could see the time on the red LCD display inside the elevator. Leaning against the far wall he watched the red numbers blink slowly, 8:00am, Kai dropped his head down as the lift slowed to a stop and the doors opened.

"Kai!" Three startled voices chorused. Looking up from under his hair, Kai groaned internally. Of all the people to meet, it had to be them. Looking back down at the floor, he chose to ignore them rather than acknowledge their presence.

"Where've you been? We haven't seen you in weeks! God, you look terrible, Kai. You sick or something? Looks like you haven't eaten in a while, are you ok?" Tyson grabbed hold of Kai's wrist to emphasise his point. Kai attempted to pull away, but he was just too exhausted. Tyson looked shocked at the feeble effort from Kai to release his arm. "You are sick!"

Max placed a hand on Kai's forehead, feeling for a temperature but swiftly pulled his hand away when he felt the uneven skin of the wound. "What the...?" Kai tried to pull away again but Tyson's hold on his wrist never loosened. Pushing his hair up, Max studied the cut. "What happened?" Max looked into Kai's eyes, he refused to give up until he got an answer.

"None of your business. Where's Rei?" Even Kai's voice was weak and strained. He stared from one face to the next, disgusted at himself for being in such a state in front of them and disgusted by the looks he was receiving; pity, worry, kindness. All weak emotions pointed at him, making him weak. 'I am weak, letting myself get into this state, and all over one silly, little crush.' Scolding himself, Kai tried to ignore the voice in the back of his mind that screamed that it wasn't just a silly crush, that it was love.

"Rei? I think I heard him going to his room about half an hour ago. He might still be there, but what do you want with Rei?" Tyson looked suspicious, as usual. Who could blame him though, it's not every day a very sick Kai stumbles around the halls looking for the black-haired teen. Tyson received a pointed look from Kai and finally dropped his wrist. It fell limp at his side.

Stepping quickly forward, Kai soon realised his mistake as the world around him went fuzzy and he fell. For the second time that day his decent was stopped as Tyson reached out and supported his dead weight from behind. "Woah, Kai!" The blue-haired boys body went limp and for a moment Tyson thought he had fainted, but this was not so as Kai quickly recovered and attempted to push off from Tyson to stand up. His first attempt failed but after another try, Kai managed to stand rather shakily.

"I have to find Rei, it's important." Kai was starting to get desperate. If Rei left before he could find him, Kai would never be able to forgive himself. Tyson saw the desperation and fear in Kai's face and knew it must be something serious for him to show any kind of emotion, especially one as prominent as fear.

"Ok, we'll find him, don't you worry Kai." Tyson was rewarded for his kind words by something he would never have expected; Kai smiled at him. Not one of his usual smirks, but a real smile. Tyson grinned like an idiot and ran off in the direction of Rei's room. Max and Kenny slipped one arm each around Kai to support him, helping him to walk. They slowly made their way down the corridor towards Rei's room. Kai's legs collapsed from under him a couple of times so he was glad for the support of the other two.

As they reached the door, the three could hear raised voiced coming from within; Rei and Tyson were having some sort of an argument. Kai pushed away from the others and steadied himself on the door before slowly turning the handle and opening the door. He was in time to hear the end of the argument, or at least Rei's end. "...AND KEEP OUT OF MY BUSINESS!" Rei was really mad, 'Tyson must have said something to really upset him. Or maybe it was me.' Kai stood motionless in the doorway; right hand on the frame, legs splayed slightly for better balance, breaths coming short and fast from the walk to the room. Kai was really sick. He could barely manage to keep conscious and definitely had a fever. The short walk down hall from the elevator had exhausted him completely.

"Kai!" Rei spotted his blue-haired crush over Tyson's shoulder. "The hell are you doing out of bed? You need to rest!" It was immediately obvious to all onlookers that Rei was nervous of Kai's presence. They didn't know why but Rei's foul mood must have something to do with it.

"Rei...I needed to talk to you...before you did anything you'd...regret later. Or something I'd...regret." Kai was barely able to keep his head up and was swaying precariously.

"What? I don't understand...Kai!" Dashing past Tyson and to the doorway, Rei managed to catch Kai as he toppled forwards. Falling to his knees, Rei pulled Kai into his chest, holding him tightly. "Kai! Kai, are you alright? Please tell me you're alright." Kai lay still for agonisingly long seconds before lifting his head up to look at Rei.

"Don't leave me." The dream still fresh in his mind, Kai passed out from the sheer pressure of it all. His mission complete, there was no point in staying awake any longer. He welcomed the darkness.

"I'll never leave you, Kai. Not unless you want me to. And even then I will still be there for you when you need me." Rei scooped Kai into his arms and deposited him on the bed. Turning, Rei sent Max off to find Doctor Schvokt and Kenny went to get a bowl of cold water and a cloth. Tyson stood silently and watched as Rei sat beside the blue beauty. Taking Kai's hand in his own, Rei leant over to kiss his forehead lightly. They were silent for several moments before Tyson spoke.

"So you two are, uh, you know." Tyson blushed as he struggled to find the right words. Rei blushed in response and looked away.

"Not exactly, I'm not sure really. I thought no, but then." Rei was cut off mid sentence by a very annoyed doctor.

"I eating breakfast. You make patient ill!" The doctor pointed accusingly at Rei. "Never matter, make patient better as is job." The doctor placed his medical bag down on the bed. Kenny entered the room slowly, careful not to spill the water he was carrying. The doctor began to examine Kai for any signs of further injury. "Is bad. Fever, pupils not responsive, weak pulse. Pneumonia. He probably not survive night. Take to hospital."

As the doctor phoned for an ambulance, Rei sat beside Kai, holding his hand and trying not to cry. A hand on his shoulder made him turn. "We'll get through this. Kai's a fighter, he wont give up." Tyson smiled sympathetically at Rei, who simply turned back to his love.

Rei wanted to ride in the ambulance, but the doctor insisted he was needed more. The rest of the Blade Breakers followed in the coach. As the ambulance screeched past the morning traffic, its sirens disappearing into the distance, Rei wondered if that would be the last time he ever saw Kai alive again, heard his voice, looked into those deep brown pools. A single tear ran from the corner of his eye and down his cheek before being licked away by his tongue. He had to stay strong. For Kai's sake.