Beyblade Fan Fiction ❯ How we came to be ❯ Regret ( Chapter 6 )

Chapter 6

 

Though no one could see it, Faith was looking tenderly at the door. Her eyes had gotten a mix of brown, black, blue and green and there was no telling which colour overruled the others. Ray thought the comment had been made out of hate, but she had known that voice for too long.

He was scared.

As strange as it may seem Kai had been afraid ever since he fully realised what he had been doing. He had yelled to keep her out, a simple act that was mostly effective on most, but he had forgotten one thing: she knew him. You could beat her into a hospital and she would still return to you, because…well, he didn't know why. He had nearly killed her and now she was knocking on the door asking for entrance. She didn't seem afraid at all. He had wanted to open the door and let Ray beat him, but now he didn't even dare to move. What if that horrible thing inside of him woke up again? What if he wouldn't be able to stop himself this time?

 

“Kai let me in, we need to talk.”

“NO, we don't, stay the hell away from me!”

She sighed -You never leave me any choice do you.-

Pulling out a key from her pocket she clutched the side of the door for support. She knew that her body needed rest, but at the moment Kai's state of mind came first It had been made with Kai's approval after they had found out his `secret', but that didn't mean that she had ever wanted to use it. Before she could put it in the keyhole the whole door started to turn and she dropped the key in the moment of weakness. When she was about to pick it up she found that it was gone.

 

“Ray, I swear that if you don't give me the key I'll...”

“You'll what Faith? You can barely stand, let alone defend yourself. I can't let you do this. It would be like throwing you unarmed into a cage full of lions. What if he attacks you again? How will you defend yourself?”

“Who says I will need defending?”

Ray gave her a stern look. When it came to Kai she was always so stubborn, she couldn't see him for what he really was. A frozen heart that only used her when it fitted him. Around him she's like a puppy. You can beat it as much as you like and it'll still come and lick your hands. He sighed.

“He's attacked you once, he will do it again. I know him.”

Her eyes were narrowing and started to turn crimson. She couldn't believe it. He was just Kais team mate for what…7 years, maybe less? If he believed that he knew Kai better than her, he was seriously wrong.

 

“You…know…him?”

“After being with him for 5 years, yes, I know him.”

“O…really? Well then let's see. How much do you really know? What's his birthday? Don't know? K, then, what's his favourite food? Don't know that one neither? Well then, let me give you an easy one. What his most precious possession?”

Ray just looked at her stumped

“Thought so… 5 years is nothing compared to 12, and definitely not when the first 7 of them were during the worst years of his life. You weren't there. You have no idea what he feels. And another…”

 

At that moment she lost balance and had to fall back on the door for support. Not only was she dizzy but she had a raging headache sporting. Rays anger turned into worry as he reached out for her. “Oh god, Faith are you alright?” She slapped away his hand and pulled herself up again. She took a few more shallow breaths to regain her balance.

“And another thing. You have no idea what he's been through, you think you know him, but you don't know anything. Stop pretending you do.” After that she snatched the key and slammed the door in his face. After that she had to lean against the door again to gain balance once more.

 

On the other side of the door Ray was looking at the door shocked. He didn't get it. All he did was look out for her. He was worried; the red mark all around her neck was blazing. Whatever it was that Kai and Faith had been through, neither liked to talked about it. And yet they always expected the others to understand when they are in one of their dark moods. No matter what would happen, they would always protect each other and that would be the only time that they stopped hiding the fact that they were more than team mates. Back in Kai's room Faith was finally able to focus her gaze again. She then saw Kai sitting in a corner, body moving up and down like he was throwing a mantra. The image shocked her.

“Kai, are you ok?”

“Go away, leave me alone. Don't come any closer.”

 

Not that his threats had any effect on her. She just closed the distance between them and then stood in front of Kai, who hadn't looked up. During the short trip he kept threatening, swearing at her and he also promised she would regret it if she came any closer. Funny how things can be threatening to some and nothing but hollow to others. The only thing that had caught her off guard was his state of mind. She had never seen him so, well, vulnerable. He was always the well composed, never one to break down. Kneeling next to him she placed a hand on his shoulder. But as soon as it had been placed there it was shook off.

“Don't”

And only now he looked at her with his crimson eyes. He was trying hard to glare, but it wasn't working. The sadness and fear in his eyes was too obvious to miss.

“Why not?”

Once again he averted his gaze. She saw his eyes focussing and un-focussing as if he was trying to find the proper words, or ashamed to face her.

“I might hurt you again.”

 

She silently whispered his name and drew him into a hug. This was one of the rare moments that they both allowed their masks to shatter. In each others arms they felt safe to do so. Kai and Faith shared many secrets, but only surrounded by nothingness was where they were able to tell them. They didn't fear the dark, for when you are unseen you do not have to be ashamed of what you do. In the dark you are alone, and free to spill whatever problems you have to the shadows that are eager to listen. They had gotten so close that, for each other, they had become as a shadow in the dark. Unseen, her eyes coloured that same mixture of colours as earlier that day. She still had a nasty headache that wouldn't be willed away, but right now it didn't seem to matter to her much.

 

A warm and wet substance was felt in the hollow of her neck. Kay was…crying. This had to be the first time in her life that she had ever seen him cry. Of course he was still overemotional from the rehab, but this still surprised her. It seemed like his emotions had gone into overdrive today. She placed a hand on the back of his head and slowly started to cradle him like a mother would do when her child got hurt. It took a while, but Kai returned the embrace eventually. It was only when he placed his warm hands around her body that she noticed she was cold. That was usually a bad omen.

 

In between soft sobs he let out a strangled sentence.

“I hurt you Faith, I nearly killed you. How can you still forgive me?”