Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Waste ❯ Waste ( Chapter 1 )

Waste - A Card Captors Sakura Song Fic

All right, let's see. Oh! First off I DO NOT own CCS or the song Waste by Staind. Second this is my first CCS song fic so it won't be perfect. So please tell me what you think. I love input from you peoples reading this. The only thing I own is this lovely songfic. On with the show then! -->Usagi Maxwell<-- DreamPixy1@aol.com
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I walked in the room. The hospital sounds and smells came to me. Looking over, I saw the girl in bed. She was tied down. Blood soaked bandages were around her neck and wrists.

"She tried to take her own life by cutting her neck and wrists. As you can see."

The voice scared me. Looking to the owner of the voice, I saw it was a woman.

"You're her mother. My name is…"
"I know very will who you are. Please sit and talk. I have questions I want answers to."

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Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I had no answers 'cause
I didn't even know you
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"That's all I know. Sorry I don't know more."

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But these words
they can't replace
the life you...
The life you waste
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I walked up to her bed. She was crazy. Screaming words, I didn't know. The door opened and closed. When I looked up, her mother was gone and a boy stood there. Slowly he came up. I could tell he was fighting back tears. Even slower them him, I wrapped my arms around him. "Let it out. I won't tell. Let it all out."

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How could you paint this picture?
With life as bad as it should seem
That there were no more options for you
I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
But these words
they can't replace
the life you...
The life you waste
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I sat there, in the back. The funnel had just started. Early I had over heard her mother and father talking. Her father had disowned his daughter because she took her own life over her love of a boy. From the stories I heard, she never really got along with him to begin. So I believe she didn't take her life just because of my love to the boy but because of her father as well.

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Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
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Once again the boy showed. He went up to her lifeless body and laid flowers on her chest. Then he just stood there, dazed. I came up to him and helped him away. Slowly we sat and I told him what I over heard. A lone tear fell free. But he wiped it away before anyone else could see. Quietly, I heard him start say:

"WELL FUCK THEM!
AND FUCK HER!
AND FUCK HIM!"

Now he started to get louder and louder. People looked and stared at him. I tried to stop him but it was no use. He went up to her again and yelled at her face:

"AND FUCK YOU!
For not having
the strength in your heart
to pull through!
I've had doubts!
I have failed!
I've fucked up!
I've had plans!
Doesn't mean
I should take
My Life
with my own hands"

He ran out of the funnel. I went after. But he ran to fast for me. I stopped running after an hour had passed. I turned and headed for the park. It was awhile later when I heard footsteps come up to me. When I looked up I saw tears in his eyes.
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It has been many years since Meiling took her life. I have married Syaoran. Everyday we visit her grave. Telling her of plans and what happened the day. We're also planning on naming our first girl after her. I can tell Syaoran misses her so much.

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But these words
they can't replace
the life you...
The life you waste
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