Digimon Fan Fiction ❯ Sweet Dreams ❯ Depression ( Chapter 2 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Rated: R

Warnings: Angst, angst, angst, angst, and can we say ANGSTY ANGST GOODNESS!!! OH AND DON'T FORGET YAOI. Don't like it DON'T BITCH TO ME ABOUT IT!!!

Disclaimer: Don't own them. Though I would like to get my hands on Kouji, Kouichi, and Takuya for a while. *chuckles evilly*

The afore mentioned boys: *laughs nervously* …. Uh oh

Author's Notes: Okay I found out the fourth season existed like a month and a half ago. So I haven't gotten all the character personalities down yet, except for Kouji. I'm starting to wonder if I'm obsessed with him. But it isn't my fault that he kicks ass. This fic was inspired by "Sweet Dreams" and "The Beautiful People" by Marilyn Manson. But I'll shut up now and start the show.

Author Thanks: Thanks to all those who reviewed. I won't mentions names so that way I won't forget to thank anyone. But to Kelly Q I'm a big fan of your work "Deaf and Mute" "Love and Friendship" and "Lee and Takato" I suggest EVERY BODY TO READ THEM THEY KICK ASS!!! But if you have work I'll try to check it out sometime, but I have a very tight schedule.

Chapter II

(Kouji)

Damn You Takuya damn you to hell. How could you!? What gave you the right to make my life that much more complicated!? First I find out that everything that my father had ever told me was bull shit, If found out that I had a brother which I'm more than happy about, and now the brother that I lover so much is sick with some new type of disease, now I have my best friend tell me he's gay and is in love with me. So not only do I have a brother to worry about now, but now I have to worry about my best friend being after my nuts.

I just can't handle this. I love my brother so much, but now he can barely talk to me he's become so weak. The doctor said that his vital signs are going down hill, and every thing that they've tried isn't working. They said that they're just gonna make him as comfortable as possible, and if things go up, they go up, but not to get our hope up.

I'm at the hospital right now, holding the hand of my dear brother, praying to every God I can think of to not to let him die. Through the short time we've known each other I depend on him a lot. I, … I'm not sure I can go on without him. I managed to keep a mask up, so know one knows. I don't want anybody to feel sorry for me. I don't give sympathy nor do I take it.

"Kouji I think I'm in love with you"

Those words won't leave me. They replay in my head over and over again and again. Nor will the look on his face after I slapped him.

I slapped him?

Why did I slap him?

I'm not a homophobe; I have no problem with gay people at all.

So why did I slap him?

I'm soon brought out of my musing by a twitch coming from Kouichi's hand. I look to see that he is coming to, for he slips in and out of consciousness. I squeeze his hand.

"Hey…. Kouji" he says the best he can

"How are you feeling" of all the stupid questions I say to myself.

" Ya know…. the usual" he manages a weak smile.

I smile warmly back and squeeze his hand again, and this time he squeezes back. All to soon he is soon unconscious again. I feel the tears fall from my eyes as I brought Kouichi's hand to my check, and hold it there.

"Kouji I think I'm in love with you"

Those, those words will not leave me alone. I wish I could tell Kouichi, I bet he would know what I could do, but I can't and I fear that I'll never be able to. The tears fell more steadily from my eyes.

(Takuya)

I still really can't really believe it. He slapped me. His eyes, his beautiful hate filled eyes boring in to mine. I knew it. I so KNEW IT!!! If I woulda kept my mouth shut then he would still be here, and I could at least be able to talk to him now, but no I had to go and fuck it all up. He hates me now. I know he does. I saw it in his eyes. I heard one say that the eyes are like windows to the soul. But if they only knew how true that is.

After he left I stared out into space. I was in shock. I faintly remember the tears running down my face as I just stared out into nothingness. Then finally it hit me like a wall of water. I had just told the object of all my desires that I loved him, and not only did he reject me, he hates me for it.

I buried my face in my pillow a bawled my eyes out. My mother came in to see why Kouji left, only to find me bawling my eyes out. Though she didn't know what happened she tried to comfort me. I didn't want it. I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die.

(Izumi)

I was getting worried about Takuya. He hadn't shown up to school today. I asked Kouji about it to see if he knew anything, but all I got from him was a "who knows and who really cares" attitude. I couldn't get him to tell me anything. I knew that Takuya had told me his plan to confess to Kouji, and I had given him the thumbs up and support for it. I guess things didn't go to well for Takuya.

(Takuya)

I stayed home from school. I didn't want to face him. I didn't want to see his hurtful eyes staring holes through me and my soul. So I did what I did for the last who knows how many hours. I cried.

Late that day I heard my mother tell me that one of my friends was hear and that she had to go to the store and would be back in a while. I perked up. Maybe it was Kouji to apologies as say that he doesn't hate me. I cleaned myself up. I went into the living room with hopes way higher than they shoulda been. I was Izumi.

"Hey Takuya" She says

"Hey" I mumble being thrown back into my state of depression.

"Jeez what happened to you, you look like hell"

"Lets just say that I didn't have a good weekend," I told her trying my best not to break down in front of her. It was hard. Every time I thought about it I felt my heart just shatter into a million pieces.

"Did your plans go bad?" She asked

The whole thing replayed in my head again and tears started to sting my eyes. "He hates me now…" I said looking down at the floor.

She puts her arm around my shoulder and led me over to the couch. " What happened?"

"I, I told him, he slapped me then left" I finished as the tears started to roll down my face.

(Izumi)

I can't believe that Kouji would do that. Oh he's such a bastard sometimes. I'm gonna be sure that he know that.

I left Takuya's apartment after some comforting words. I was headed straight for Kouji's place, and then I noticed the sinking sun and decided that I would have a word with him tomorrow at school.

TBC

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AN: just so you know I haven't decided whether to make the a happy ending or not. And to Kouichi fans, I'm sorry in advanced, and that's all I'm sayin.

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