Dragon Ball/Z/GT Fan Fiction ❯ Redemption ❯ Begin ( Chapter 11 )

"I never wanted that!" he sobs into the juncture of my neck and shoulder. At the moment, I'm unable to do anything but sit there dumbly and let myself be held. I can't do anything but listen to him pour his heart out to me.

For some reason, it dawns on me that this would be the first time he has done so.

"I never wanted you to be broken!" he continues. "I want you to be happy, not just do whatever I say! I want you to be safe and happy and never have to be scared again! I want to be the one to help you Vegeta, but I can't help you when you keep sinking further into yourself! I just want you to feel safe… I want you to do whatever you want to and be happy doing it Vegeta."

He has calmed down a bit. But I still can't do anything. I don't know why. He removes his face from against my body and kisses the top of my head. He holds me up against him and buries his nose in my hair, inhaling in an attempt to calm down further.

"I…" he whispers. "…I did lie before… when I said Chichi left because of those things… she left because I couldn't love her completely, like I did before… I did really love her once, and I guess she really loved me too… but after so long… and then I died, and before then I had had to train for so long, and I ended up putting Gohan in danger…" he sighs into my hair, making me shiver slightly.

"I guess we just gradually stopped loving each other. And she kinda already knew that I loved you, so she decided one day that she didn't want to stay with me anymore. It didn't really matter, Gohan was already gone and Goten practically living at Trunks' place, he didn't really notice anything going on anyway…"

He smiles and I feel it because he's still attached to me like a second skin.

I don't care to push him away.

"Vegeta…." He whispers, and withdraws from me slightly, so that he can look at my face. I think I must look rather lost and confused. That's no surprise….

"Vegeta…" he starts again. "…if you'll let me… I want to help you. If you want me to, I'll stay right here next to you for as long as I can and help you get better for good. If you want me to, Vegeta… I'll be the one to love you."

And as my eyes widen and my brain finishes processing the implications of what he's said and I look up at his face, he smiles gently and loosens his grip on me. I sit back slightly and look up at his face.

I had never planned on any of this. Well, who does? I had never even entertained the notion. But here it was. I had planned on, hell, I had even hoped for, a blissful death. A quiet place to have, all to myself, and to hell with being lonely. But Kakarrotto had plans of his own I suppose.

I smirk slightly, cautiously. I can make this work. Okay, I can handle not being dead. I can be something besides his pet or whore. I can do this.

As pathetic as it sounds… I feel something lighten in my chest and fill up with a warm glowing energy. It expands and contracts and seems to enjoy making my skin tingle where Kakarrotto is touching me.

And it's not my fault when my body lunges forward and my arms wrap around his body and clings to him like an anchor in violently swirling waters. It's the energy doing that, I'm sure of it.

But I might as well enjoy the ride, right?