Fan Fiction / Ah My Goddess Fan Fiction ❯ Episode 1: The Past Is Present Directors Cut ❯ Chapter 3
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Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction / Ah My Goddess Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Action / Angst | Type: Self Insertion | Uploaded On: 07.18.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.0K | Visits: 248 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction / Ah My Goddess Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Action / Angst | Type: Self Insertion | Uploaded On: 07.18.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.0K | Visits: 248 | Status: Completed
keiichi and Urd ran over to him, just as Belldandy and Skuld were returning. Urd got to him first and began to shake him, trying to get his attention. He looked straight at her "Urd" she saw a single tear fall from his eye, before he laid down on the ground and curled into a ball, sobbing quietly and clutching his chest. Belldandy and Skuld got to them and Belldandy asked “what happened Keiichi?” “These guys came out of nowhere, grabbed me and took me here and threatened Josh that they would kill me if he didn’t co-operate” Belldandy and Skuld both gasped.
Keiichi grinned and said “out from nowhere came Joshua's friends. They saved us. after that, Josh found out from one of the men that his father was the one who ordered those men to kill him and here he is” they turned to Josh, who was curled into a ball and sobbing quietly, and Urd felt her heart being ripped into pieces at the feeling of helplesness at watching him crying there on the ground, so she decided to use her magic to move him into the temple safely.
-Your words to me just a whisper-
{Joshua's P.O.V}
I woke with a flutter of my eyes, noticing I wasn’t outside in the pouring rain. I groaned and said softly “why can’t I just die, why do i continue to live even though i've got nothing?” “Because I won’t let you die” came a voice from the other side of the door. As the paper door opened, I noticed who it was, it Urd.
-Your face is so unclear-
She came over and kneeled down next the bed, putting a tray containing a cup of tea and a plate containing sandwiches on it next to me.
-I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear-
she wore a light blue shirt and a pair of black trackpants, which i noticed as She put her hand on my head, checking to see if I was okay. i could feel her hair brush along my forehead as she did <god, that hair, she's so intoxicating>
-'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said-
i looked up into her eyes and smelt a fragrance <hmm, she smells beautiful tonight, perfume?> i thought to myself sadly, adding <she's probably got plenty of guys after her, like she'd ever consider going steady with a loser like me. can't hurt to ask though>.
-So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way. I smoke the
whole thing to my head and feel it
wash away 'cause i can't take anymore
of this, I want to come apart.
-
I grabbed her hand lightly and said “Urd, please stay with me” she looked at me curiously as she said “why? what's wrong josh?” I felt a tear trail down my cheek as I said “i've been alone for most of my life without someone to comfort me in my time of need, I don’t want to be alone tonight. Urd, please stay with me?”
-or dig myself a little hole inside
your precious heart-
she smiled and said softly with concern etched in her voice “sure Josh. I’ll stay with you as long as you want me to, okay? believe it or not, i actually care about you like i care about my sisters” as she climbed into the bed next to me. I half-heartedly smiled and said “thank you Urd. I owe you more than you can imagine for this” "i know" she said softly, looking into his eyes.
-'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said-
[Urd’s P.O.V]
As I lay in his bed next to him, looking into his eyes and stroking his hair and touching his face, I felt a little happier than before, knowing I actually could help him now in his time of need.
-I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention-
I could feel his sincerity and sadness when he told me he didn’t want to be alone. It just broke my heart when I felt his pain, his sadness as he said it.
-yet I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel-
Belldandy had opened the door, so I turned my head and asked “what’s up bell?” she looked at me grimly and said “father wants to speak with you, he said it’s important. i think you might be in big trouble this time nee-san, he was upset when he called”. I felt a pain of sadness at thinking of the one reason why father would call for me; to take me away from who was lying in the bed next to me.
-But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed-
I unhooked his arms from me and kissed him on the head, saying "i'll be back soon josh". “Why are you going?” he asked as I stood up out of the bed “father wants to speak to me for some reason, try to get some rest, I will be back shortly” I replied as I turned to the door and left the room.
-'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said-
Josh got up and decided to follow Urd, curious as to why their father would call. He went to the den and saw all three kneeling in front of the phone which was on speaker. “But father, if she didn’t intervene he would…..” “NO, SHE USED HER MAGIC RECKLESSLY, ALMOST EXPOSING YGGDRASIL TO THE MORTALS" their father said before a voice behind the three spoke up, saying “oi fucker! this “mortal”, as you called me deserves a say” the three Norns turned to Josh and were surprised to see him.
-You're such an inspiration for the ways
That I'll never ever choose to be
Oh so many ways for me to show you
How the savior has abandoned you-
Skuld tried to shush him as the voice on the phone said “WHO IS THAT, WHO DARES SPEAK TO KAMI-SAMA THAT WAY?”
-Fuck your God!!!-
Your Lord and your Christ-
“I do. i learnt long ago from bands like rage against the machine to question authority, even if it's you yourself” Josh said, his anger starting to surface “WHO ARE YOU?, HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO ME THAT WAY”
-He did this
Took all you had-
kami-sama's anger boiled over as Josh replied “no, how fucking dare you, you dickweed. i know for a fact that ever since i met her, she's been decently careful using her magic. not once have i seen her level a building using her magic, in fact she and her sisters have been very careful as far as i know to do quite the opposite."
-and Left you this way
Still you pray,
you never stray
Never taste of the fruit
You never thought to question why-
"so if you want to punish her, you're gonna have to get through me first, mutherfucker. it wasn't like i had much of a life to live anyways.” he finished with a whistfull look on his face.
-It's not like you killed someone
It's not like you drove a hateful spear into his side-
urd was blushing profusely as she saw his act of defiance. <wow, he was willing to stand up to the lord for me? i'm impressed josh. wait a minute, if i'm blushing this badly, it must mean....oh wow, i must be in love with josh. why am i not suprised?>
-Praise the one who left you
Broken down and paralyzed
He did it all for you
He did it all for you-
The pause on the phone meant that Josh had 'im in a stranglehold,
-Oh so many many ways for me to show you
How your dogma has abandoned you
Pray to your Christ,
to your god
Never taste of the fruit
Never stray,
never break
Never---choke on a lie-
that is until a lightning bolt struck down onto the ground in front of Urd saying simply “Joshua is in your charge."
-Even though he's the one who did this to you
You never thought to question why-
"He has one wish, that’s it. And never allow him near the phone again. As I, kami-sama say it, it is so” the room was quiet for a minute.
-Not like you killed someone
It's Not like you drove a spiteful spear into his side
Talk to Jesus Christ
As if he knows the reasons why
He did it all for you
Did it all for you
He did it all for you..-
urd stared at him and asked "what the hell were you doing? do you have a death wish?" he turned and nodded, saying "it's easy when you've got no life to live and you live for your own death" before the whole room erupted in laughter. Urd was on the floor, rolling as she was laughing saying "oh man, you're the first person ever to stand up to father without being fried afterwards. anyone who's ever gone before the big ass has always been nervous and got fried afterwards". She was promptly struck with another thunderbolt. Which read “Urd, because of your insolence due to that mortal, your licence is hereby suspended for three Earthrealm months. As I say it, it is so” Josh sighed, raised his middle finger to the sky and said simply “fucking wanker” before they went over and comforted her.
As they did, Josh held her in his arms, fighting his anxiety to leave the room as she cried on his shoulder. he held her and said “there, there, if anyone's to be upset, it's me, alright urd?” “Josh, please take me to my room” she said softly to him. He nodded and helped her to her door. He opened it and turned the light on, whistling as he helped her over to her bed. He pulled back the covers as she slipped into the bed. She looked to him and said softly “Joshua i need to tell you something that i haven't told you before, I love you. When I saw you earlier, curled up like that, I was heartbroken. I thought I wouldn’t be able to help you through it” he was taken aback by this, because no-one had ever told him that they liked him, even a little bit.
he frowned and said "get some rest urd, i'll see you in the morning" as he tucked her into her bed "josh, stay with me, please?" josh shook his head and said "i'm sorry, i can't. forgive me. it's not you, it really is me" he turned and left the room
Keiichi grinned and said “out from nowhere came Joshua's friends. They saved us. after that, Josh found out from one of the men that his father was the one who ordered those men to kill him and here he is” they turned to Josh, who was curled into a ball and sobbing quietly, and Urd felt her heart being ripped into pieces at the feeling of helplesness at watching him crying there on the ground, so she decided to use her magic to move him into the temple safely.
-Your words to me just a whisper-
{Joshua's P.O.V}
I woke with a flutter of my eyes, noticing I wasn’t outside in the pouring rain. I groaned and said softly “why can’t I just die, why do i continue to live even though i've got nothing?” “Because I won’t let you die” came a voice from the other side of the door. As the paper door opened, I noticed who it was, it Urd.
-Your face is so unclear-
She came over and kneeled down next the bed, putting a tray containing a cup of tea and a plate containing sandwiches on it next to me.
-I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear-
she wore a light blue shirt and a pair of black trackpants, which i noticed as She put her hand on my head, checking to see if I was okay. i could feel her hair brush along my forehead as she did <god, that hair, she's so intoxicating>
-'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said-
i looked up into her eyes and smelt a fragrance <hmm, she smells beautiful tonight, perfume?> i thought to myself sadly, adding <she's probably got plenty of guys after her, like she'd ever consider going steady with a loser like me. can't hurt to ask though>.
-So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way. I smoke the
whole thing to my head and feel it
wash away 'cause i can't take anymore
of this, I want to come apart.
-
I grabbed her hand lightly and said “Urd, please stay with me” she looked at me curiously as she said “why? what's wrong josh?” I felt a tear trail down my cheek as I said “i've been alone for most of my life without someone to comfort me in my time of need, I don’t want to be alone tonight. Urd, please stay with me?”
-or dig myself a little hole inside
your precious heart-
she smiled and said softly with concern etched in her voice “sure Josh. I’ll stay with you as long as you want me to, okay? believe it or not, i actually care about you like i care about my sisters” as she climbed into the bed next to me. I half-heartedly smiled and said “thank you Urd. I owe you more than you can imagine for this” "i know" she said softly, looking into his eyes.
-'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said-
[Urd’s P.O.V]
As I lay in his bed next to him, looking into his eyes and stroking his hair and touching his face, I felt a little happier than before, knowing I actually could help him now in his time of need.
-I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention-
I could feel his sincerity and sadness when he told me he didn’t want to be alone. It just broke my heart when I felt his pain, his sadness as he said it.
-yet I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel-
Belldandy had opened the door, so I turned my head and asked “what’s up bell?” she looked at me grimly and said “father wants to speak with you, he said it’s important. i think you might be in big trouble this time nee-san, he was upset when he called”. I felt a pain of sadness at thinking of the one reason why father would call for me; to take me away from who was lying in the bed next to me.
-But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed-
I unhooked his arms from me and kissed him on the head, saying "i'll be back soon josh". “Why are you going?” he asked as I stood up out of the bed “father wants to speak to me for some reason, try to get some rest, I will be back shortly” I replied as I turned to the door and left the room.
-'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said-
Josh got up and decided to follow Urd, curious as to why their father would call. He went to the den and saw all three kneeling in front of the phone which was on speaker. “But father, if she didn’t intervene he would…..” “NO, SHE USED HER MAGIC RECKLESSLY, ALMOST EXPOSING YGGDRASIL TO THE MORTALS" their father said before a voice behind the three spoke up, saying “oi fucker! this “mortal”, as you called me deserves a say” the three Norns turned to Josh and were surprised to see him.
-You're such an inspiration for the ways
That I'll never ever choose to be
Oh so many ways for me to show you
How the savior has abandoned you-
Skuld tried to shush him as the voice on the phone said “WHO IS THAT, WHO DARES SPEAK TO KAMI-SAMA THAT WAY?”
-Fuck your God!!!-
Your Lord and your Christ-
“I do. i learnt long ago from bands like rage against the machine to question authority, even if it's you yourself” Josh said, his anger starting to surface “WHO ARE YOU?, HOW DARE YOU SPEAK TO ME THAT WAY”
-He did this
Took all you had-
kami-sama's anger boiled over as Josh replied “no, how fucking dare you, you dickweed. i know for a fact that ever since i met her, she's been decently careful using her magic. not once have i seen her level a building using her magic, in fact she and her sisters have been very careful as far as i know to do quite the opposite."
-and Left you this way
Still you pray,
you never stray
Never taste of the fruit
You never thought to question why-
"so if you want to punish her, you're gonna have to get through me first, mutherfucker. it wasn't like i had much of a life to live anyways.” he finished with a whistfull look on his face.
-It's not like you killed someone
It's not like you drove a hateful spear into his side-
urd was blushing profusely as she saw his act of defiance. <wow, he was willing to stand up to the lord for me? i'm impressed josh. wait a minute, if i'm blushing this badly, it must mean....oh wow, i must be in love with josh. why am i not suprised?>
-Praise the one who left you
Broken down and paralyzed
He did it all for you
He did it all for you-
The pause on the phone meant that Josh had 'im in a stranglehold,
-Oh so many many ways for me to show you
How your dogma has abandoned you
Pray to your Christ,
to your god
Never taste of the fruit
Never stray,
never break
Never---choke on a lie-
that is until a lightning bolt struck down onto the ground in front of Urd saying simply “Joshua is in your charge."
-Even though he's the one who did this to you
You never thought to question why-
"He has one wish, that’s it. And never allow him near the phone again. As I, kami-sama say it, it is so” the room was quiet for a minute.
-Not like you killed someone
It's Not like you drove a spiteful spear into his side
Talk to Jesus Christ
As if he knows the reasons why
He did it all for you
Did it all for you
He did it all for you..-
urd stared at him and asked "what the hell were you doing? do you have a death wish?" he turned and nodded, saying "it's easy when you've got no life to live and you live for your own death" before the whole room erupted in laughter. Urd was on the floor, rolling as she was laughing saying "oh man, you're the first person ever to stand up to father without being fried afterwards. anyone who's ever gone before the big ass has always been nervous and got fried afterwards". She was promptly struck with another thunderbolt. Which read “Urd, because of your insolence due to that mortal, your licence is hereby suspended for three Earthrealm months. As I say it, it is so” Josh sighed, raised his middle finger to the sky and said simply “fucking wanker” before they went over and comforted her.
As they did, Josh held her in his arms, fighting his anxiety to leave the room as she cried on his shoulder. he held her and said “there, there, if anyone's to be upset, it's me, alright urd?” “Josh, please take me to my room” she said softly to him. He nodded and helped her to her door. He opened it and turned the light on, whistling as he helped her over to her bed. He pulled back the covers as she slipped into the bed. She looked to him and said softly “Joshua i need to tell you something that i haven't told you before, I love you. When I saw you earlier, curled up like that, I was heartbroken. I thought I wouldn’t be able to help you through it” he was taken aback by this, because no-one had ever told him that they liked him, even a little bit.
he frowned and said "get some rest urd, i'll see you in the morning" as he tucked her into her bed "josh, stay with me, please?" josh shook his head and said "i'm sorry, i can't. forgive me. it's not you, it really is me" he turned and left the room