Fan Fiction / Ah My Goddess Fan Fiction ❯ Episode 2: The Present Past ❯ Chapter 11

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

"....so what do we do about our dear urd?" i asked, taking in the situation. even with the fact that i was now a shadow god, there were things that i still couldn't understand. i barely managed to get the gist of it, Yggdrasil had crashed, leaving these three goddesses without energy unless you count their sources which made urd revert back to her child form and as i was about to find out, left belldandy as an even smaller version of herself than urd. we were sitting around the table when the chibi-belldandy suggested "josh-san, how about you take nee-san out and get her a new wardrobe. keiichi-san and i will do something about synthesising some moon rocks to power we three" i nodded and said "sure, i can do that. c'mon urd" i got up and headed to the door with urd-chan following behind me. i got down to the steps and almost cried; my precious dodge was back. i got in and felt really content "oh man, how i've missed this car" i said, starting the car up, revving it and hearing the engine roar reminded me of all those nights i'd be out crusin the streets. "uh josh, you mind?" i sanpped back to reality and said "oh shit, sorry urd" as i took it out of park and drove into town.

while we were in the shop urd led me around by the hand, checking out the various clothing when she said something that totally caught me off-guard "papa, how about this?" she asked in a faked syrupy sweet voice. i was just gobsmacked, so unable to help myself, i stammered "s-sure urd darling" i bought and paid for a pair of light brown cargo shorts, a black jacket with coffee coloured sleeves and a light brown hod as well as a black designer shirt. "if you want, you can play with the other kids while i go and see what's going on with the guys?" she looked at me and said "are you sure?" i leant over and kissed her on the forehead, making her forehead marking light up "now we've got a mind link. if you get into trouble, all you have to do is think and call me and i'll be beside you in a heartbeat, alright?" her eyes began to well up "thank you josh, you've done more for me than anyone ever has and that's why i love you" she said as she hugged me. i stroked her hair and said "i will never leave you urd-chan. not now, not ever" we let go and i felt a phone vibrate in my pocket and ring to the tune of "where da hood at?" by dmx, so i answered it

"hello?"

"josh?"

"yeah, who is this?"

"don't talk, just listen. we went to cap some balla fools that were supposed to be meeting down at the warehouses, but it was a trap. B-box's dead, shit man, they fucking murdered him"

"goddamn it. i'll be right there"

"alright"

"just do what you can to stay alive nigga, you hear me?"

"bye"

i hung up the phone and said "urd, stay here" she frowned and said "alright, but be careful" i smiled at her concern and said "don't worry 'bout me urd, it's those other bastards that should be worried" as i dissapeared into the phone. i travelled along the wires until i came to what appeared to be the battlefield. i leapt out of the wires and landed on the roof with a thud, creating two medium sized craters. i leapt down onto the ground, my boots announcing my arrival as they'd turned and opened fire on me. i was hit repeatedly, dropping to the floor as they reloaded their guns and looked over me.

they saw my wounds heal and one asked "who the fuck is this clown, what the fuck is goin on?" i stretched out my arms either side and lifted myself up off the ground. i laughed insanely "what the hell are you?" one cried as i hit him and sent him flying into one of the warehouse walls. he didn't come down because he was litterally in the wall like an imprint with the imprinter still there. the second balla pointed a shotgun at my chest as i turned and they blew a hole clear through my chest, exposing some of my ribcage. the skin and internal organs began to reform as i said "dumbass" and punched him, sending them flying down the alleyway and into a powerbox where they were promptly electrocuted. i quickly turned and ran fast to the guys. i stopped and walked slowly towards them as they steppedo ut of the way to reveal b-box, he was lying propped against the wall with blood staining his shirt and blood dripping from his mouth "split" "what?" "get out of here. i'll take care of everything" "are you sure?" i turned grabbed him by his collar and said "listen here you little shit, either you split right now and meet me back at the safe house, or you can go to a nice 6 by 7 prison cell, you want to go to jail or go home?" "a-aight, we goin now,be cool aight" he said as they got in the cars and drove away.

i knelt down in front of him and looked at his corpse before i said soulfully "y'know, you're the seond person i've lost like this. both of them were my fault; the first i was there for, the second i wasn't. i'm sorry nigga, sorry i let you down in your time of need, sorry i failed to save you. maybe in heaven we'll see each other again. someday, heh, that really does seem impossible doesn't it? i mean here i am, a shadow god and here you are, dead. i always thought i would be the one to die first, but here we are" i sat down next to him and added "plus, i'm now a shadow god so now i can protect those who need it" it was then that i remembered a song that i felt was warrented in this situation, so i waited for a moment before i looked up to the sky and started singing

"Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference

Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference

Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in

Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in

Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion

Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession

I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission

The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But I wouldn't listen

The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire"

i looked up to the fence and saw urd, she looked dow to me and smiled sweetly as she joined in singing

"The more that I saw
The further I'd fall
The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire
Into the fire

Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existnce

Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance

I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken

But no matter how I tried
The other side was licked so tight
That door it wouldn't open

Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door"

i lit a smoke and stuck it in my mouth as urd took over the next part

"And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door

Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break through the door"

i took a drag of the cig and stubbed it into the ground as i could hear the sound of the sirens of the police vans as they approached. i got to my feet and said "well then, i guess my time is up here, goodbye old firend" i said sombrely as i took one last look at the man i'd come to know of as my brother, my friend. now i had no real connection to the gang <maybe i should leave. now that he's gone, i have no place in this gang> i thought as i faded away from the scene, reappearing in the porch of the temple.

i turned and just looked out "josh-san, what's wrong?" i turned and saw belldandy, she was carrying a freshly dried set of clothes "i may be a shadow god now but i feel as broken as i did when i was a mortal. all of this is beginning to be too much for me. today i lost the only friend apart from you guys that i'd ever known; he was a good soul, now he's the third one i have to bury" "i'm sorry josh-san" she said as she bowed her head in sorrow "oh sorry belldandy if i've upset you it's just that i'm feeling a little reflective right now" "i see, why don't you talk to me, surely you can do that, right?" i nodded and said "sure, why not. besides, i need someone to talk about this with" i sat down on the porch and she sat next to me as i looked out and said "how do you deal with it? being well, immortal? i mean having to eventually bury friends you've come to know and love? having these powers is one thing, but having to lose friends over and over again, i don't think i can take it" she looked to me and said softly "listen josh, how about you go with nee-san and your kids to yggdrasil for a while and keiichi-san, skuld and i will have a discussion on what to do next?" i looked to her for a moment, letting the words sink in to my skull before i said "yeah, why not. i could do with a break from here. you'll let me know when you've decided on something won't you?" she smiled and said "you bet" you could always count on belldandy to make you feel just a little better "i'm going back inside to finish some things off if you need someone to talk to, alright?" i nodded and she got up and walked back inside, leaving me alone with my thoughts until i felt two small arms softly fold around my neck, so i looked up and stared into urd's eyes "i heard everything. like bell said, we'll always be here for you if you need us now" it was then that a loud bang was heard outside.