Fan Fiction / Zoids Fan Fiction ❯ Unforgettable ❯ cry of the heart ( Chapter 7 )

Fiona woke up earlier than she usually did the next morning. The sun was just barely peaking over the horizon sending very little light through her curtains that she had drawn as soon as she stood up from her bed.

 

So many thoughts seemed to be flying through her mind at that moment she needed to find some sort of release for it and she knew just the person that she needed to talk to in order to get them off her mind, Moonbay. Moonbay had always been a friend and a sister to her. Back then she was one of the only two people that Fiona had no trouble telling any secrets to, besides Van.

 

Fiona slowly walked towards her phone and dialed in the number hoping that Moonbay wouldn't be too mad about her calling this early in the morning. It rang two or three times before the other end was picked up by a groggy sounding Moonbay meaning that she must have just of gotten up. “Hello?” asked Moonbay a little grouchily.

 

“Hey Moonbay, it's me Fiona,” Fiona said quietly but loud enough for Fiona to be able to hear her. She could hear Moonbay straightening up on the other end of the line and knew that she held her attention.

 

“What is it Fiona that you would wake me up at this godforsaken hour in the morning?” Moonbay asked in an annoyed tone but also in a kind of joking way. That basically meant that Fiona had her complete attention for the moment.

 

“Umm… Moonbay? I know that we agreed to meet later today after work but do you think that maybe we can meet up for breakfast so that we can talk?” Fiona asked kind of timidly. She knew that Moonbay was the best person to ask for advice with the situation that she was having.

 

“Sure, I guess that we can. Why did you ask that, is something the matter?” Moonbay asked in her older sister tone since she thought of Fiona as her sister and was worried when Fiona sounded so sad about something.

 

“No… not really. Let's just meet up at the café that is near my work. Will that do?” Fiona asked and she smiled when she received a yes from Moonbay. “Great! How about we meet there as soon as you can?” Fiona asked with a smile on her face.

 

“Sure, thing. Just let me get showered and dressed and I will meet you there before you have to go to work. See you then,” Moonbay said before the receiver went dead since Moonbay had hung up the phone.

 

*****

 

Fiona sat silently at one of the tables of a small yet nice café that was only a block away from her workplace. A cup of coffee was placed in front of her. One hand was stirring it absentmindedly while she just stared down into it as if it was one of the most interesting things in the world.

 

“Fiona!” Moonbay's voice said snapping Fiona out of her little trance. She looked up and saw Moonbay running towards her waving and she did the exact same thing back to her until Moonbay came to a stop in front of her. Moonbay took a seat across from Fiona and ordered a coffee before she decided to start a conversation. “So… what is it that you wanted to talk about?” Moonbay asked with a pleasant smile on her face so as to make it easier for Fiona to talk.

 

Fiona took a deep breath before starting. “Moonbay, can I ask you a question?” Fiona asked looking up into Moonbay's face. When she saw a nod from Moonbay she continued. “What is sex like?” she asked out of the blue shocking the hell out of Moonbay.

 

Moonbay had no idea why that had suddenly come out of Fiona's mouth. She figured that she would give Fiona an answer since she seemed so interested in hearing it. “In a way it really depends on who it's that you are with. It would be more special and probably a lot more pleasurable if it was with someone you loved like you had been trying so hard to do for so long. For me, it's just simply amazing between Irvine and me,” Moonbay explained slightly still confused as to why Fiona had asked that. “Why is it that you asked me this?” she asked curiously.

 

Fiona looked down and just stared at her coffee once again. “It is because of my fiancé Ethan. He is so intent on having sex with me and I'm getting tired of it. I was just thinking of doing it and just getting it over with,” Fiona admitted a bit half-heartedly meaning that it was something that she really didn't want to do.

 

“No Fiona!” Moonbay said suddenly and in a harsh way. “Never, and I repeat, never, go that low Fiona. It's your decision of who you want to give your first time to! Never allow anyone to try and force you to do otherwise!” Moonbay yelled slamming her fist down on the table and looked at her helpless friend.

 

Fiona thought it over for a few moments before she spoke. “You're right Moonbay. I'm sorry for bringing this up. I'm just so tired of his persistence about having sex and I want it to end,” Fiona admitted a little more enthusiastically than she had when she had spoken before.

 

“Fiona… do you know why it was that Van and yourself had such a strong relationship when the two of you were still going out?” Moonbay asked looking at Fiona who had a blank look on her face. “It was because the two of you were in love. Van knew what it was that you wanted and he respected that by never pushing the subject about sex. He always took things at your pace and enjoyed every moment that the two of you had together. That was why he was so heartbroken when the two of you broke up,” she admitted to Fiona but she didn't know that it kind of hurt Fiona a lot to hear that.

 

`I hurt him,' Fiona repeated in her head sadly. `I hurt myself back then as well by giving up on him so easily. Maybe I didn't love him as much as I thought that I did or maybe I loved him too much to want to tie him down on such a long distance relationship,' Fiona thought looking down at her coffee.

 

“Never bow to the force of others. Just remember that Fiona. Play by your heart and make sure that he finally knows and respects your wish to want to wait until the two of you get married. If he can't do that then I don't see why you are even together,” Moonbay said standing up and placing money on the table. “Listen, I'm sorry that I have to cut this short but I really have to go somewhere. We will continue to talk later when we were originally supposed to meet up. Just remember what I said though,” Moonbay said giving Fiona a smile before walking away.

 

*****

 

The day seemed to really start to go Fiona's way after her little talk with Moonbay. Fiona knew she was right and was starting to feel bad about actually nearly giving into the pressures that Ethan had been putting on her to have sex. Moonbay was right, it was her choice and she would not be forced.

 

Van looked up and saw how fast Fiona was working that day compared to how down she seemed the previous day. He was glad to see that she was back to her normal busy self. “You sure seem to be in a much better mood today than you were yesterday,” Van said making Fiona stop and look up at him with a smile on her face. It was a smile that he hadn't seen in so long and it made him smile right back.

 

“I just found some answers to some of the problems that I'm having with my life. Everything will be just fine now,” she said giving another bright smile before looking down at her work again and started to get it done at a rather fast pace.

 

Van admired how it was that she worked so diligently after how she was acting the day before. He heard his stomach growl lightly and looked down at his watch only to see that it was time for his lunch break. “I am going to take my break Fiona. Why don't you come along?” Van asked making her turn towards him with an inquisitive look but it turned to a smile and she nodded her head. “Great! I know of a place with good food that we can go to,” Van said standing up from his seat and starting to walk to the door.

 

Fiona had no need to feel worried about this. It was just a friendly thing that Van was doing for her. It didn't mean that anything was going on so she wouldn't feel guilty about cheating on Ethan. That was far from the case. Her and Van were friends now and it would remain that way.

 

`Can you keep it that way,' a voice in the back of Fiona's mind asked but Fiona didn't feel like listening to it because she felt that she could resist any urges for Van since they were a thing of the past. She was getting married and needed to look forward to that. She knew that Moonbay was right about Ethan though; Fiona knew she wouldn't actually get married to him until he started to respect her wishes and stopped forcing the issue of sex.

 

Fiona got up from her seat and grabbed her purse before she walked out of the door with Van closing it and locking it after her. The two walked together towards the elevator ready for a much needed meal.

 

*****

 

Van and Fiona sat at a small little table inside of a restaurant a few blocks away from where they worked. It was kind of small but had an elegant feel to it that made the former lovers feel welcome within its walls.

 

“I never knew that this place existed. I have lived here for a while now and I have only now known that it was here,” Fiona admitted looking throughout the restaurant at the other occupants. She felt kind of odd because all the other people seemed to be with their present spouses or lovers and yet she was just here with her old boyfriend and present boss. “I will have to remember this place so that I can come back at some point,” Fiona said turning to Van with a bright smile on her face.

 

“Yeah, I tend to come here a lot whenever I want to be alone. Most of those times are when I get into a fight with my wife and get kicked out of the house,” Van said causing a chuckle to come from Fiona's mouth.

 

“Oh come on, I don't think it can be all that bad,” Fiona said controlling her chuckling long enough to look into Van's face seeing the funny skeptical look that he had on only made her start to laugh once again.

 

“It is not funny Fiona. Sometimes when it happens I end up getting kicked out of my house for a few days. I'm lucky that I have numerous places to stay, some of them even more pleasant to be in than my own house. I don't live in any of them because Tiffany is far too stubborn. She would rather live in a mansion than our present home,” Van said but even he couldn't help some of the chuckling that threatened to come out of his throat.

 

“You really must be rich if you have multiple places to stay at. I don't get it though, if you do have all of that money, why don't you live in a mansion?” Fiona asked placing her chin upon the back of her hand while it was propped up on top of the table.

 

“Just isn't my style. Besides, what is the point of a having a large mansion if there are only two people to share it? Tiffany has made it clear multiple times that she did not wish to have any children,” he responded leaning back in his chair with his head on the back of the chair facing up towards the ceiling. “What about you though, you appear to live in a very nice mansion with that fiancé of yours,” he said turning the tables on Fiona with all of the questioning.

 

Fiona gave a small smile at Van. “Like you, he also has a lot of money and at times tends to like showing it off a bit. That is why he bought that large mansion for the two of us. In a way, I share your way of thinking in that it may just be a little bit too big for just two people,” Fiona admitted.

 

Van just sat there and smiled watching as Fiona took a sip from her drink while staring out into the crowded streets. When he realized what it was he was doing he mentally smacked himself and turned his head away looking for anything that would seem a little more interesting. Unfortunately for Van, he couldn't find anything and his eyes kept darting back to her. “We had better head back,” Van said suddenly figuring it was the best thing for his wondering eyes.

 

“Good idea,” Fiona said just continuing to stare out into the crowded streets while finishing up the last of her food and drink before she stood up and followed after Van towards his car since they had decided to just take it instead of using both of theirs.

 

The two of them walked in silence towards his car and it remained that way until the two of them returned to the building that they worked in. Walking out of the basement-parking garage towards the elevator.

 

When they reached the elevator, the both of them reached out at the same time to push the elevator button and their hands came in contact with one another. It was almost as if something had snapped all of a sudden because the two of them seemed to suddenly fly towards each other capturing the others lips in a soul-searing kiss. Their tongues dancing around each other's mouth before suddenly they seemed to realize what they were doing and broke apart with a fearful look on their faces.

 

“I-I'm sorry,” Van said backing away a little before walking towards the stairs deciding to take the long way up just as the elevator came to a stop on their floor with only Fiona getting on.

 

She had no idea what had actually just happened then. The two of them seemed to be getting along just fine up till now despite their past. Then all of a sudden things come crashing down around them all because of a simple spur of the moment kiss.

 

No, she was wrong. Ever since they saw each other that night there was always uneasiness around the two of them. Past memories that they both tried to hide but were unable to. The tension of their past continued to build up and she guessed that was why that happened when it did and was suddenly released when their hands touched like that.

 

`Ethan,' she thought sadly feeling bad for kissing Van when she was supposed to be getting married to him. `Why do things need to be so complicated in my life,' Fiona thought trying her best to hold in the tears that were threatening to surface at any moment.

 

*****

 

Van slowly walked up the stairs trying to gather his thoughts. He knew that it would be a long climb to the top but he also knew that the time he would use to do that would give him plenty of time to think.

 

Van suddenly stopped and slammed his fist against the wall leaving a slight dent in its wake. What had just happened is what his wife as well as himself was most afraid of. Being around Fiona was truly too much of a trouble for his present life. Yet she was his friend and having her around helped him in times of need. Yet now, he didn't know if he could keep her around if it would only cause more problems such as what had just happened.

 

`Tiffany,' thought Van sadly. It was true that at time she could be a real bitch but she didn't really deserve what he had just done. He gave vows when they married and he had pretty much broken all of them in a mere moment of weakness. He didn't know how he was going to face her or any of his friends after what he had done.

 

Van didn't know how long it was that he had been walking but when he looked up; he was on the floor of his office. He knew that Fiona was already behind those doors but he knew that he would have to face her sooner or later.

 

Van walked through the door and headed straight for his office and sure enough, Fiona was there. Her eyes held sadness in them and Van really couldn't blame her for it. She was going through the exact same thing as he was.

 

It appeared that she had not noticed that he had even entered the room as of yet. She appeared to be so lost in thought so he just decided to speak what he needed to say and get it over with. “I'm sorry Fiona,” he said making her head snap up as if she had just noticed that he was there.

 

Fiona looked down with the same despaired eyes that she had had only moment before. “Don't be Van. It wasn't only your fault but mine as well,” she spoke in such a soft tone that it was kind of hard to hear but he had heard it somehow.

 

“You and I both know that this can't happen. I'm married; you are engaged. This is wrong in so many ways. I guess we were only fooling ourselves into thinking that we could just get over the past like that,” Van spoke sadly looking anywhere but into Fiona's direction.

 

“So I guess that really means I'm fired,” Fiona said sadly, sure it was hard being around Van but she really enjoyed her job and didn't want to end it because of a mistake that shouldn't have ever of happened. She would admit that there was still a part of her heart that longed for Van but she knew she had to let it go in order to make a happy future.

 

“No Fiona,” Van said causing Fiona to look up at him in shock. He let out a sigh before he continued to talk. “I don't think it would be fair for you to lose your job over this but I think it would be wise to just keep a relationship on a business level and nothing else,” he suggested and she agreed with him.

 

It hurt to know that she could very well be losing the best friend that she had ever had. She knew that it was all for the best. Being friends was hurting their relationships with other like his wife and her fiancé. It needed to be put to an end if they ever wished to be able to move on with their lives.

 

“We had better get back to work,” Van said moving behind his desk before he got back to work. They both had the same wish to just drop the subject. Fiona just nodded her head and walked to her desk and sat down to get back to work as well.

 

*****

 

Their talk since then has proved one thing to Van that he had no doubt would have happened. The two of them have changed a lot over the years. While they still basically acted a lot like back then, there were many small changes to them that didn't even affect who it was that they were. It was the fact that they were still the same that hurt the both of them most when they were around each other.

 

Van never did like change, so he tried his best over the years to remain the way that he used to be. Perhaps that was the cause of their little kiss earlier in the day. Part of his mind was still in the past. He had a lot of trouble being able to accept some changes when they came to him.

 

There was only one exception to his personality at the moment; he was a bit more mature. He had to be in order to be able to run the very large, very successful company of his. Yet, when he wasn't working, he did his best to remain how he used to be.

 

They had been working for a while now, they were a little behind but they worked hard and finished it all but they once again had to stay a little late in order to be able to get it done. Fiona was in a complete hurry because she was late for her meeting with Moonbay, the two of them had this planned for a while and now Fiona was running late.

 

“I am perfectly sure that Moonbay will understand if you are a few minutes late. Irvine does it all the time and she doesn't really seem to get too mad him because she knows that he has an important job to get done just like you do,” Van explained watching as Fiona ran around the room picking up all that she needed to have before she left.

 

“Just because you never had a problem with it doesn't mean that I will try to be late,” Fiona said a little harshly grabbing the last of her things and running out of the door and towards the elevator.

 

“You try too hard to have things perfect,” Van muttered to himself grabbing his stuff and tried to walk out of the room. Before he managed to get out he looked over toward the window behind his desk. He walked over it and stared out of it. He used to love just staring out of it while thinking of the past. `This had to end now,' he thought closing the blinds blocking off all view of the outside.

 

Fiona had already gone down the elevator by the time that Van had walked out of the office. He was actually very grateful that she did so as to not experience anything like what had happened earlier with her.

 

He walked towards the elevator and pressed the button waiting for the elevator to return to his floor. After a minute or two of waiting, it finally reached it and Van got in and it went down so he could go home.

 

*****

 

“I am so sorry that I'm late Moonbay,” Fiona said a little half-heartedly which didn't go unnoticed by Moonbay much to Fiona's displeasure. She didn't feel like going into what had happened between her and Van earlier in the day and she knew that Moonbay would be persistent to learn about what had happened.

 

“You don't look too good Fiona. Is everything alright?” Moonbay asked staring at her friend who just put on a fake smile as if to try and tell that everything was fine. Moonbay didn't buy that one bit. “Don't give me that Fiona. I know something is wrong and I won't leave until you tell me. Maybe I can help you,” Moonbay said in an older sister type of voice. She felt like she could take whatever it was that Fiona had to throw at her.

 

Fiona just sat down with a sigh because she knew that Moonbay was going to act this way. She figured that she might as well spill it. Moonbay was bound to hear it some way anyways. Taking in a deep breath, she spoke. “Van… Van and I kissed,” she said looking down towards the ground.

 

Moonbay gasped. She had honestly not been suspecting to hear that from Fiona. That didn't mean that she wasn't happy to hear this. She truly was. It meant that the two still had feelings for each other and there was a chance for them to dump the others and get back together. Moonbay wasn't sure why she looked so sad though. “Is it that big of a deal?” she asked placing a hand on Fiona's shoulder.

 

“Yes it is Moonbay!” Fiona said loudly looking up at Moonbay with near teary eyes. “It shouldn't have happened. He's married and I'm engaged. This has pretty much ruined what little of our friendship that we had left over the years,” spoke a disheartened Fiona while she did her best to hold in her tears.

 

`She seemed more concerned about Van and hers friendship rather than her relationship with her fiancé. Is she having doubts?' Moonbay asked herself not being able to help the bit of hope that started to come from her heart. To hear that it had ruined there friendship though sent pain to her heart. To them, it was the most important thing in the world to be friends with each other and now because of a kiss they had to end it. “Do you really need to end it just because you kissed?” she asked quietly.

 

“It has become too hard to just ignore our past with each other Moonbay! Who knows what we would do if it was to continue,” Fiona said finally allowing a tear to fall from her face. It hurt her most because she had once had dreams of being married to Van. Now they couldn't even be friends, all because she was forcibly taken from him.

 

Seeing her best friend, her sister in such a distraught state really hurt Moonbay. “Maybe it won't be forever Fiona. You two just need to find some way to be friends without worrying about the past. Just give it a little time and see where things can go,” she spoke softly while rubbing Fiona back while Fiona's face was in her hands.

 

Fiona seemed to calm down a little bit after that since what Moonbay said gave her a little peace of mind. Her tears stopped and for the rest of the night they just talked like they used to with no worries about the present.

 

*****

 

Fiona walked through the doors to her home at around eleven that night with a smile on her face. Her talk with Moonbay had lightened her spirits a little but now all she felt like doing was getting a little sleep. Fate never seemed to be on her side most of the time though.

 

The lights suddenly flickered on nearly blinding Fiona at the intensity of their brightness. “Where the hell have you been?!” a voice boomed across the room but Fiona knew that it was Ethan and that he did not sound all that pleased tight then.

 

Fiona turned towards the source of the voice and gave off a small smile. “Is something the matter sweetheart?” she asked him with a smile but it kind of scared her the way that he was looking at her with those angry yet lustful eyes of his. She knew that she told him about her thing with Moonbay so she didn't know why he was angry.

 

“Where the hell have you been? You should have been home hours ago!” he yelled at her. It was completely unlike how he acted the night before when she was late. He was kind about it then so she didn't know why he was so angry.

 

“I told you last night that I was going to be getting dinner with Moonbay,” Fiona said trying her best to defend herself. His attitude was completely uncalled for in Fiona's opinion.

 

“No you weren't!” he yelled nearly into her face. “When I saw that you didn't come home I called around including to her and she didn't know where you were either!” he said pointing his finger at her.

 

“I was running a little late because of work. I do have a life you know! By the way, how is it that you know Moonbay's number? I don't remember ever telling it to you,” Fiona asked a little confused but gasped when he held up a small book in his hands. “Where the hell did you get that? You have no right to go through my things!” Fiona yelled seeing him hold up her address book.

 

He looked down on her with anger flashing through his eyes. “I am your future husband so I believe that I have every right to look through it,” he responded with a bit of malice in his voice. “I don't think that you were late because of work at all. I think it's that you were with Van,” he accused glaring at Fiona.

 

“What?” Fiona asked completely astonished by his accusation. She had no idea where he got the idea. Ok so they kissed but that was it, nothing but a small accident. “I admit that he was with me but it was to get work that needed to be done, done,” Fiona said finding his accusation incredulous.

 

“Somehow I don't believe that at all. I saw the two of you together at that restaurant earlier today. If you are as you say then why were you with him then?” he asked standing in front of Fiona waiting for a reply.

 

“We were having lunch. We both needed to get something to eat so we just decided to go and grab something together to make it simpler to do,” Fiona said trying to figure out why he would think such things.

 

“I don't believe you!” he yelled causing Fiona to jump back out of freight. He had never acted this badly before even during some of their fights that they had before. “You are sleeping with him aren't you? That is the only explanation that I can think of,” he accused her.

 

“How dare you! You can't just go around accusing me of something like that. I have told you this so many times before and I will continue to tell you it until you get it through your thick skull. I'm going to wait until I get married to have that sort of relationship!” Fiona yelled finally losing the last bit of patience that she had with him at the moment.

 

“Fine then, prove it to me,” he said grabbing her arm. “It will just be the two of us. I want you to show me that you didn't sleep with him,” he said implying that she had to have sex with him in order to prove that she was still a virgin and didn't sleep with Van. She just pulled her arm out of his grip and slapped him hard in the face for trying to force her to do something like that.

 

A thought of what Moonbay said suddenly came to mind. `Make sure that he finally knows and respects your wish to want to wait until the two of you get married. If he can't do that then I don't see why you are even together,' the voice echoed into her mind sounding very appealing right now.

 

Fiona didn't know what happened next because it came so fast. He backhanded her hard in the face sending her to the ground out of his sheer strength. Fiona held her cheek. She just couldn't believe that that happened. `He actually hit me,' she thought with wide eyes. She suddenly felt herself being lifted off the ground by her arm and also being dragged. “Let go of me!” cried a very scared Fiona because she knew what he was trying to do.

 

“No!” he yelled turning around to face her with furious eyes. “Tonight it will be just you and me Fiona… ouch!” he yelled when he felt Fiona bite down hard on his arm so that he would let go of her. It worked only she was hit even harder than the first time sending her flying into a wall. “You bitch!” he yelled walking up to her and actually punched her in the face causing blood to come out of the hit area.

 

Fiona curled herself up into a ball on the floor and sobbed after that but to make it even worse he kicked her while she was down in the stomach knocking the air out of her while he held the bit arm while it oozed out blood. “Never do that to me again!” he yelled.

 

Fiona had no idea what to do. She was scared for her life and wishing that she had never gotten involved with Ethan in the first place. She should have just left when he continued to pressure her about sex when she kept telling him no. She was regretting her decision not to leave now.

 

Ethan was close to her now. She wanted to get away and did the first thing that she could think of; she kicked him in his balls. When she saw him hunched over in pain, she grabbed something nearby and chucked it at him. He held his head and his balls in pain and Fiona knew that was her cue to leave. She quickly got up and ran out of the house before he could recover from her attack.

 

Ethan looked up unable to move at all because of what Fiona had done to him. One eye was closed because he had been hit by it and it hurt to keep it open. With his one good eye he could just make out something small on the floor, a beautiful gold engagement ring.

 

Fiona quickly ran to her car and tried to turn it on but unfortunately it wouldn't start. `Just great! What a time for it to break down,' she thought trying to get it to start with her shaking hands.

 

After a few tries she gave up knowing that she didn't have much more time before he came after her so she just got out of the car and ran as fast as she could in any direction. Unfortunately for her the sound of thunder overhead was heard and she continued to run even when the rain started to come down hard upon her. She only knew of one place where she could go, one place where she knew that she would be safe.

 

*****

 

Constant knocking was heard on Van's door causing him to wake up from sleep. He looked over at his alarm clock and noticed that it was only twelve thirty in the morning and raining outside. “Who could be out there at this time and with these weather conditions?” he asked getting out of the now empty bed since his wife was away again.

 

Van let out a yawn as he flicked on the lights and pulled on a pair of blue sweatpants and a black t-shirt while he walked towards the door to see who was crazy enough to be up at this time of night.

 

Van finally reached the door as the person continued to knock and he opened it only to get the biggest shock of his life. It was Fiona. She had a cut and a bruise just below her right eyes, she was holding her stomach panting hard from all of the running, and completely drenched in rain. What made it worse was that she was completely scared out of her mind.

 

“Van,” Fiona spoke sinking to her knees onto the wet porch and finally let out all of the tears that she had been holding in ever since she escaped from her former home. She welcomed the feeling when Van embraced her with a comforting hug to try and ease the pain that she was feeling.