Fan Fiction ❯ Life is Cruel ❯ Part 4 ( Chapter 4 )

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Yuichi nodded, then took my suitcase from me and lead me to the door where I grabbed my coat and put on my shoes. Then we were gone. And that was the last time I saw my 'so called' parents.

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Not to say that I wasn't happy about never seeing my parents again, but there was still that small child in me that longed to be loved by its parents, the way its siblings were.

My brother's place wasn't very big, but it wasn't small either. At least there were two bedrooms. I hoped that he wouldn't decide to make me share with him again.

Lucky for me, my brother was in a good mood. He took my bag and put it in the empty room next to his. I noticed that there was a door joining the two rooms and realized that it didn't matter if we shared a room. It was close enough.

The room he gave me had a closet, dresser, nightstand, desk and a bed. The basics I would need, it's not like I needed more. Afterall, I spent the first fourteen years of my life in rooms where I only had a small closet and a bed or mattress.

It was painted black, which I didn't mind at all, it let me lose myself in the darkness around me. There were thick black curtains over the window, preventing any light from entering the room.

There were two lamps, one on the night table and one on the desk. The most practical places, but I think it would have been easier just to put a light fixture in the ceiling. The light switch that was by the door, provided power to the lamps, turning them on at the same time. If it was off, neither light would come on. But they could be turned off if the light switch was on.

Right now, I turned on both of them. I would open the curtains, but it was around dinner time so there wouldn't be much light. My brother's place is a few hours from his parents'.

My brother put my suitcase and placed it on the bed.

"Here you go. I'll get you some sheets and pillows." Yuichi said.

I began to unpack. I had brought everything that I owned with me, which wasn't a lot. I had my disc-man and CDs, my clothes and other such necessities, along with the things I would need for school and a soft black bunny that my brother thought he should buy me.

I had to admit, it was cute and even though my brother bought it, it didn't make me think of him in the least. It actually helped me get away from him. So I guess I was grateful for it. I had even chosen to name it, but hadn't thought of a name yet.

When my brother returned, he smiled as he saw me holding the stuffed bunny and placed my sheets and pillows on the end of my bed. Then he walked up to me and grabbed my chin, pulling me in for a quick kiss.

"Get unpacked and I'll order dinner." Then he left me alone in the room and I unpacked.

My brother ordered pizza that night, which I found a little amusing. It was the same thing he got us when we had lunch the day he took me to get new clothes. It was cheese pizza and I only ate a little, I wasn't very hungry. The conversation between us was minimum amount at best. This time it wasn't just me being silent. My brother was too.

After we ate, my brother did the dishes and I went into my room. It was dark and I liked it that way, this time I hadn't bothered to turn on the lights. I was resting on my side, stroking the black nameless bunny.

About twenty minutes later, my brother came in my room and turned on the lamps. Then he walked over and turned off the one by the desk and walked over to me.

He took the bunny from my grasp and placed it on the nightstand, then climbed onto the bed, placing his arms and legs on either side of me. He flipped me onto my stomach and pulled my pants off. I squirmed, trying to get away, but he pinned my shoulders down and began kissing my neck, while simultaneously stretching me with an already lubed finger. I didn't bother to squirm and just allowed him to do what he wanted.

He eventually had three fingers in me and was thrusting them roughly. I was trying my best not to make any sound, but as his fingers brushed against my prostate, a moan escaped from my tightly shut lips and I heard him chuckle.

"Knew you couldn't keep it in forever, boy." He said. I noticed that his attitude and phrase choice was different than before, a lot like the first time.

He removed his fingers and I kept in the whimper that threatened to escape. He removed my shirt and I heard him get rid of his clothing as well. A few minutes of quiet passed, until I heard him lube his erection, and felt him press it against my opening.

With one quick thrust, he was inside, it hurt, but not as much as before and I prevented myself from crying out loud. He wasn't like he was the first time, this time he was thrusting hard and fast, not worrying about whether or not it was hurting me. I felt tears welling up as I realized that it was beginning to feel good, and not painful.

When I felt I was getting close to climaxing, Yuichi reached a hand underneath me and started stroking my erection.

I turned my head and looked at my nightstand. My bunny was sitting there, looking at me with innocent black beads. He was sitting there as I came and felt my brother's release inside of me. I then had a name for the bunny. For it knew nothing of the pains in the world, and it still had what I had now lost at the hands of my brother.

Innocence.

My brother collapsed on top of my back, but made no move to get up. I soon heard soft snoring and realized that he was asleep. Gently, so as not to wake up my brother, I grabbed Innocence from the desk and brought him close to me, escaping from the conscious world and falling into the world of dreams, with my arms wrapped around my bunny.

There are many ways to wake up in the morning, but the one I got, I did not like.

I awoke to my brother's slow thrusting inside of me. I decided to pretend that I was still asleep, hoping that it would keep his movements slow and also help me fall asleep again and ignore my brother. It wouldn't work. The more my brother moved, the faster he got. He changed angles a few times before finally hitting my prostate and making me moan loudly. It gave me away.

"Awake? Good." I guess he wasn't able to talk much at the time.

But his thrusts turned into powerful jabs that hit my prostate at each pass, and soon I was moaning in pleasure. It was all I could do not to beg my brother to move faster. I held my bunny tightly until I finally came after my brother.

Once Yuichi was finished, he pulled out of me and grabbed his clothes, heading for the shower.

I laid on the bed, unmoving. I didn't even both to pull the covers over myself. I laid and wept softly, hugging my bunny close as I recollected the events of the night before and of the last few minutes. My brother was right, at this rate, I realized that he'd have me begging for him to fuck me.

The only comfort I had was Innocence, the little bunny I had in my arms.

After fifteen minutes had passed, my brother came back into my room with wet hair and dragged me out of bed. He also removed me bunny and placed it on the nightstand again.

"Let go of me!" I protested.

My brother had grabbed me by the wrist and was pulling me out of my room.

"You need a shower, come on."

My brother took me to the bathroom and turned on the shower, without letting go of my wrist. Then he put me in the stall.

"I know how to take a shower." I said.

"I know. So shower."

"Go away." I said.

Then I turned my back on him and waited until I heard him leave the bathroom before grabbing the soap and viciously scrubbing my skin until it was a nice red colour. Then I rinsed and began to wash my hair. When I was finished with my hair, I turned off the shower and stepped out, grabbing a towel off the nearby rack, and drying myself with it.

Then I realized that I had no clean clothes. So, I wrapped the grey towel around my waist and walked back to my bedroom to change.

When I had put on clean clothes, which consisted of black jeans, a black t-shirt and no socks, I noticed the state my sheets were in and cringed. Then I marched out of my room and into the kitchen where I found my brother.

"You know," I began. Glaring at my brother while he drank his orange juice and looked at the newspaper. "If you're going to make me do that kind of thing, you could at least bring an extra sheet or towel to put underneath me." I growled.

"I know. I will, I just couldn't resist you last night...or this morning." He grinned, adding that last part to bug me.

"Well, you can clean my sheets then, and until you do, don't come anywhere near me!" Then I stormed off back to my room.

Inside my room, I sat at the desk after grabbing my bunny from the nightstand. I looked in the desk drawers to see if there was anything interesting. Inside one of the drawers, I found a novel. The title was odd and I couldn't pronounce it if I tried, but it looked interesting.

Setting my bunny down next to me on the desk, I started to read the first page of the book. Then my brother came in and collected my sheets. He noticed what I was reading and frowned.

"Don't read that, it's garbage. It's poorly written and has no real plot. I thought I threw it away." Then he exited the room with my sheets.

I decided to read the book just to spite him, but found that I was disgusted with it after reading the second page and threw it back in the drawer.

There wasn't much else in the drawer. There were pens and pencils and a few pads of paper. But not much else.

Moving away from the desk and taking the bunny with me, I resorted to getting my disc-man out and listening to some of the songs on a CD that I had memorized. I sang, almost to my bunny, but not really. I was singing because I felt like it, not because I wanted to sing to anyone.

But it was then that I found that my voice was like an aphrodisiac to my brother and soon he was in my room again, kissing me and grinding against me. As usual, he moved my bunny away and also my disc-man.

"Get off me. Unless you have a towel, go away."

I turned around and sat facing the wall. It was my hope that he didn't have a towel, that way he would have to go get one and by the time he did, he wouldn't be in the mood anymore.

Unfortunately, I'm not that lucky.

"As a matter of fact," He whispered in my ear, causing me to shiver. "I have one right here."

So, for the second time that day and third time in two days, my brother raped me, while I looked into the beaded black eyes of Innocence.

Tbc...