Fan Fiction ❯ Trancending Death ❯ Taken Over ( Chapter 30 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Alex didn’t bother to rest as he hurried through the forest path. Several times he had been tempted to use the power of his crystal’s so that he could speed up the process of getting to the Central Realm. Every time however, he resisted the temptation. His common sense clashed with his more primitive desires, for the time being however, his common sense won over his desires.
Brittany was right. I don’t need to go into my demonic form under any conditions. Using the power of the crystals would be just as bad. I can’t do that because there’s too much of a chance that I might be discovered. If anyone were to sense my crystal’s power then it’d be all over for me.
As Alex traveled he realized that something about him had changed. The inner pain that he had felt before, had now become numb. Even as he ran, he realized that everything about him had become numb. He had truly become numb to feeling everything. He hadn’t eaten but a loaf of bread in four days, even though he was a demon, he should still feel some traces of hunger. He hadn’t slept in four days either, but he didn’t feel tired at all. It was as if he no longer required the normal things that everyone needed. As if he was the exception to the rules that bound every mortal man. Alex inwardly chuckled at the thought.
After all this time of not wanting to feel anything about Brittany’s death, now that my wish has finally been granted, I wish I could feel that pain once more. Now that I am without that sense of grief, I barely feel alive at all.
Alex’s fast pace began to slow. He soon began to feel troubled by these thoughts and feelings, or rather, the lack of feelings.
This isn’t right. I lost my mate, my love, and my child. Even when I denied feeling anything, there was still a pain that I couldn’t truly deny. Now I feel nothing. What has happened to me? I haven’t noticed it until now, maybe now that I have no distractions I can think more clearly. After I talked with Brittany, it was as if all my doubt, all my fear, all my pain, just simply vanished. She was so confident about us being reunited, just as long as I stayed out of my demon form, that I couldn’t help but feel confident about this too. Still, what kind of man feel’s nothing at the loss of his lover and his child? I guess the same kind of man who is willing to slaughter a hundred innocent people to bring them back. I mustn’t lose sight of that goal. Brittany would be saddened if she found out that I was doubting the confidence that she gave me. I shouldn’t be thinking like this.
Even though Alex was mentally trying to shove himself to move forwards, something that he couldn’t explain, pulled him to the right a little. Alex gazed through the trees to see a shimmering lake, the very same one that Alex and Brittany had once sat and rested beside as they made their way towards the Central Realm. Memories of that event swept through Alex’s head so fast, that he had to steady himself against a tree to keep his balance.
“Brittany...,” Alex said softly. These memories caused him to begin to worry about himself even more. He removed his hand from the tree and stared at both his hands. His hands were trembling lightly, but other than that, he felt nothing. He didn’t feel any sorry, or sadness at the memories of his love. Alex’s fear at his newfound numbness soon turned to anger.
“Why can’t I feel anything?” Alex yelled in rage. “If I knew this is what it truly felt like to not care, I would’ve never prayed for this! This is a fate worse than death itself. I want to feel the pain again, I want to feel the sorrow again, I want to feel anything again! What the fuck is happening to me?”
In an act of rashness and anger, Alex stabbed his right hand into his arm and raked his taloned fingers through his skin. Warm blood dripped from his wound, and for a moment it relieved Alex’s anxiety. He could feel the pain, he could feel his warm blood dripping from his shirt and onto the ground beneath him. Then, just as suddenly as he felt it, the pain was gone. Alex looked down at his arm, both his shirt and his own skin had already repaired themselves. Once again Alex felt void of any feeling, once again he felt completely numb to everything.
Alex walked toward the waters edge. He stared at his own reflection in the water. He could scarcely believe that the man before him, was indeed himself. His appearance, his overall being had changed so completely within such a short time, that Alex himself couldn’t believe what he had become. Alex once again looked at his hands, and then he stared at his reflection once more. Gone was the royal clothing that he had once adorned himself with. Gone was his solid white hair, even his dazzling blue eyes now seemed duller as he gazed at his reflection. His ragged black clothes which were tightly bound to his body by black straps, was a complete contrast to his usual garb. His hair and face were hidden behind the black face wrap, and his eyes were no longer full of life or compassion. His eyes were dull and grey, even more so when compared to how they once looked.
“I didn’t want anyone to recognize me, but does that mean I should no longer be able to recognize myself as well? I am neither the man I once was or the man who I had hoped to be. The man I am now is a monster. That who is reflected now, a monster, a killer. A man who feels nothing, not even the pain of losing his wife and child!”
Alex’s hands moved frantically over all his body. He struck out and tore into his own flesh with his claws. He ripped his clothes along with his skin as he dug his nails deep into his skin. Blood poured from his open wounds, darkening the water around him tainting its appearance with a dark crimson color. Alex’s need to be released from his emotional numbness was so great, that he continued lashing out at himself, even after his wounds had already healed. Tears streamed down Alex’s face, not from the pain, not from emotion, but because he couldn’t feel anything. He didn’t even know why he was crying. It was that thought that caused his frantic slashing to stop. Already he could feel his wounds healing and he could see his clothes mending themselves, but still the tears streamed down his face. Alex brought his blood soaked hand up to his face and tried to wipe the tears away, but more quickly replaced those that were wiped away.
Why am I crying? Why am I crying when I can’t feel anything? People only cry when they are sad or happy, they can’t cry if they don’t feel anything? So why do these tears keep falling? Why?
“Why can’t I feel anything?” Alex roared. His voice echoed throughout the forest, shaking the trees and earth beneath his roar.
“Maybe that is a good thing,” a voice replied from behind Alex.
Alex didn’t even bother turning around. He suddenly disappeared from the waters edge. He reappeared behind the source of the voice. His clawed hands were poised around the man’s throat. He lifted him into the air and was prepared to kill him. It wasn’t until he saw the man’s face that he eased up his grip and lowered him to the ground.
“Wow, someone’s jumpy,” Raza said nervously as he fixed the collar of his shirt.
“You should announce when you sneak up on someone,” Alex replied roughly. He was glad that tears no longer cascaded down his cheeks. At least now he would be able to keep a facade of anger as he glared at the mage.
“Well that wouldn’t be considering sneaking now would it?”
“Fine then, next time I will just kill you!” Alex roared.
“Whoa, no need to get hostile. I was just stating a point.”
“Still, what in the Hell do you want? Better yet, how in the Hell did you find me?”
“Dead men tell no tales, right?”
“Exactly, no one should’ve known where I was going. So how were you able to find me so easily?”
“Never under estimate the power of magic. If it can bring people back to life, do you really think it would be that hard for me to track you down?”
“Still, what do you want of me?”
“Well now, it seems you have changed a great deal since we have last met. For one, I don’t remember smelling such a stench of death around you. For another, I don’t recall you being afraid to show your face. If you are serious about bringing your loved one back to you, why aren’t you in your demon form striking down everyone who gets in your way?”
Alex paused for a second, considering how he should respond to the man’s question. “Simple, it would be better for me to keep my identity a secret. That way when I succeed in bringing her back, I won’t have to worry about everyone trying to kill me.”
“That’s an illogical reason. For one, you’ll need all the power you can muster to bring her back. Raising the dead is no easy task. If you truly want to bring her back then you should transform into your full demon form.”
“No, I will do it without my demonic powers. If at all possible, I don’t want to have to use them.”
“Why, they are yours to use? What has made you so steadfast in this decision?”
“Because, the last time I used my powers, I was almost consumed by them,” Alex said softly. “My need to kill was so great, that I couldn’t control my Devil Armor. It almost consumed all I am. Besides, as of now I have had no need for my powers. To be honest, I feel stronger now that I have ever felt in all my life.”
Raza nodded at Alex’s words as if he had already expected this. I can see the aura that surrounds you. It is his aura. The reason you have so much power now, is because his energy is seeping into you. He has to exert a massive amount of energy to even begin to affect Alex. If Alex were any normal demon he would be a puppet on a string right now. Then again if the one behind this was a normal demon, I wouldn’t have to worry about it. The fact remains that Alex still isn’t fully under his control. If I can rid him of his essence now, there still might be hope. His energy has already seeped into Alex’s veins. It is mixing with his own aura. Even if I purify him now, it will take some time for his influence to fully leave Alex alone. Regardless, the only thing I can do is purify the essence. I won’t be able to fight him, but hopefully I can get him to let me do it of his own free will.



Author's Note: YES! Soon one of my most favorite parts that I've written so far will be coming up. I don't want to spoil it for you, but I hope you guys think it's really kick ass. I tried to put a good bit of detail and variety into it. I'll let you know when I post the chapter of what I'm talking about. ANYway, I might be getting a job soon *duh* *duh* *duh*, at a video game store...not a bright idea on there part if they hire me. Me = video game fanatic. ANYway, but if so that means I won't be able to work on my story that much, but since only like 2 people are reading it right now, I hope you can understand. Still, even if I do get a job it'll be a while before I catch you guys up to where I am. So don't worry about that. ANYway, take care, hope you guys had a good 3 day weekend. Catch ya later, and please review if you get the chance : )