Fan Fiction ❯ Trancending Death ❯ Fine Line Between Love and Hate ( Chapter 71 )
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By: Soulless Wanderer 
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Adventure / Fantasy / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.19.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.0K | Visits: 107 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Adventure / Fantasy / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.19.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.0K | Visits: 107 | Status: Completed
Alex felt the presence of Lucia and another appear behind him. He paid little attention to either one of them. He knew what they were there for, but he meant that they would have to kill him before he would ever leave her side. Whether out of respect for what he was going through or out of shock to see the Lord of the Demon Realm, on his knees crying like a baby, neither one of them dared to say anything about Alex having to leave her side.
Finally, it was Alex who broke the silence. “Why does God hate me? Why does it seem like just as I’m about to grab hold of some form of happiness, it gets yanked out of my fingers just as I begin to feel that I actually stand a chance of obtaining it?”
“I don’t know,” Lucia said softly, knowing that the question was really directed toward him, but feeling as if he should say something.
Alex could tell it in Lucia’s voice that he was almost as upset about Alex not being able to bring Brittany back, as he himself was. “What’s going to happen now?”
Lucia looked at Shimera. He could tell that she, just like himself, couldn’t bear the thought of having to tell Alex the news. She looked at Lucia with pleading eyes. He finally sighed and looked at Alex. “Zemnas has required us to take you back to the Demon Realm if you should fail at retrieving Brittany’s lost memories.”
“You do realize that if I go back there, I’ll just be back here a few seconds later,” Alex said. He then turned to look at them. He could see the pity and sadness that registered on both of their faces, and for the first time in his life, he really didn’t care that they pitied him. “If I go back, I’ll only kill myself. What’s the point in living if the one you love isn’t there? All my happiness, all my life, everything is here! It only makes sense that I should be to.”
“Don’t say that, Alex!” Shimera yelled suddenly.
Alex only smirked, not caring what she thought. He looked back at Brittany, tears still rolled down his cheek as he shook his head sadly. “I have failed you my love. I’m so sorry.”
Those words were enough to break both the Celestial being’s resolves. They had to look away from the heart wrenching scene that they knew they could have prevented if they tried.
Alex knew that he had to go back, even if he didn’t want to. He was blessed with a second chance to see Brittany again, that would have to be enough for now. His right hand stroked Brittany’s cheek, his left subconsciously grabbed onto the necklace around his neck. Alex’s eyes snapped open as he remembered Brittany’s necklace that still hung around his neck. For little good that it will do. This is for you my love, Alex thought as he undid the necklace. He brought the gem to his lips and kissed it softly. Please God, please Alcadan...please hear my cries.
Alex slipped the necklace around Brittany’s neck. His tears fell from his eyes and onto her cheeks as he leaned down and kissed her forehead. “Goodbye my love.”
Both Lucia and Shimera were nearly in tears as they watched this scene unfold before them. When Alex finally turned around neither one could meet his gaze, for fear that his penetrating eyes would see their deception and their needs. They turned around and headed back to the maze, Alex following slowly behind them.
Alex had taken about ten steps before stopping dead in his tracks. He felt his heart skip a beat as a sensation he hadn’t felt in what seemed like an eternity, course its way through his body. Lucia stopped once he noticed that Alex had stopped. It nearly killed him to say it, but he knew he had to.
“Alex, I’m afraid we have to go.”
When Lucia turned around to look at Alex, Alex was once again facing Brittany. A cold chill ran down his spine as he looked at what Alex was looking at.
“A-Alex...is that you? Is it really you?” Brittany exclaimed.
Alex’s entire body shook with tears as Brittany walked over to him. She looked up at his face which was hidden behind his hair that flowed down in front of him. “Alex?”
Alex’s voice was barely audible as he spoke. “Is that really you Brittany?”
She smiled weakly and gently wiped Alex’s tears away. “Of course I am silly.”
At that instant, Alex realized that everything he had searched for, everything he had wanted, everything he had fought for, was now standing there before him. Without any further hesitation, he quickly wrapped his arms around Brittany and pulled her close to him. Alex didn’t feel Brittany’s arms return the hug, but he didn’t care. He couldn’t help but want to hold her and never let her go. Alex’s tears fell faster now, but they were tears of happiness instead of sadness. He looked down at Brittany and slowly brought his lips to hers. He longed for her touch so much, and wanted to be with her so badly that he didn’t even realize that she was barely kissing him back. Alex felt tears fall on his cheek, and he quickly realized that they were not his own. He stopped his kiss to look at Brittany. Tears fell from her cheeks, and he realized that she wasn’t looking at him for a reason. His heart turned to stone as he realized what this reason was.
Alex looked away, still holding onto Brittany he said, “I’m sor....”
The sound of Brittany’s hand slapping Alex’s face echoed throughout the maze. Both Lucia and Shimera had no idea what had happened. They stood staring dumbly as they watched Brittany slap Alex. His head was turned to the side from the force of the slap, but both of them knew it hurt more emotionally than it ever could have physically.
“Why...why did you do it?” Brittany asked as tears of sadness stung her eyes.
Alex couldn’t look at Brittany as he spoke. The moment he tried to, she cut him off.
“Please...please don’t say it was for me. How could you even think that? You know there’s no way in Hell that I would ever condone such action!. How could you do it, and think it was for me? How...how could you have been so weak...so foolish?”
Brittany’s words stung Alex’s heart like a thousand daggers. He had tried to be prepared for this, but how could you honestly prepare for something such as this?
“Brittany, what in the world has gotten into you?” Lucia asked taking a step toward her.
“Don’t, Lucia. I’m almost as pissed with you as I am with him. You’re the one who put it into his head to do this,” Brittany snapped She turned back to Alex. Her eyes were mixed with feelings of sadness, anger, and spitefulness.
Alex raised his hand to stop Lucia. Even though his face was covered by his long white hair, Lucia could tell that Alex had once again returned to his solemn and somber mood. Alex turned back to Brittany, knowing what she was thinking even without their mental connection. “I’m sorry,” he whispered.
“You’re sorry...I know that, I’m not the one you should be telling it to. You killed people, Alex. Innocent people who hadn’t done anything at all to warrant such gruesome deaths. I saw what you did Alex. I sw the faces of everyone that you killed. When I slept, I saw their deaths all over again as if it was me that was killing them. Do you have any idea what that is like? I was still connected to you Alex. Everything you saw, everything you felt, it came to me in my dreams. You took all those people’s lives. You took them without any thought or hesitation. You even killed Baou and Rire! They were your friends. You acted like a monster, Alex. Do you really believe that you did this for my sake?”
When Alex didn’t respond, Brittany spoke for him. “Go...please, just go.”
Her words fell like a death sentence to Alex. Before anyone could stop him, Alex quickly turned around and headed back to the maze. He brushed past Lucia and Shimera as if they weren’t even standing there. They tried to stop him, but Alex shrugged them off with ease. Both were surprised at his surge of strength, especially considering his lack of demonic power. Neither one could restrain him as he plowed through them.
Lucia stared in awe at all that happened. He was about to turn to Brittany when he heard another slap. He turned back to see Shimera slap Brittany hard across the face. Brittany’s wide eyed look of shock and hate flashed across her face for only a second, before Shimera spoke.
“How dare you? How could you say something to someone that you’re supposed to have loved more than life itself? You asked him if he knew what it felt like to see the deaths of everyone he killed over and over. The answer to that is yes. How could you have seen everything that he has been through, and yet know nothing of the sacrifices he has made? You may not want to admit it, but yes he did do everything for you. He was so willing to do anything he could to bring you back, that he was even willing to sell his soul to the darkness. Alex was so tormented by his deeds that he was forced to face his inner demons, just so that he could come see you. He was willing to die to see you Brittany. He had just come to terms with his deeds, only to have you rub it back in his face. I may have not known Alex as well as you or even Lucia, but I know that, that man loved you with everything he had. You think you’ve had it bad seeing what he did and knowing that he did it for you. Imagine for just a second what he must feel like knowing that his hands hold the blood of countless innocent lives. Imagine what it must feel like, to think that he was doing all of this for you, but only to realize after the fact, that it was someone else that was using his love for you to control him. If anyone’s a monster, it’s the one who controlled him. It’s the one who is really responsible for these deaths. Or...it could be you,” Shimera said with a hate filled glare in her eyes.
Author's Note: Yeah...it's at this point that Alex would probably go and commit suicide...but...then he'd be right back there anyway...so not much point in that. Also, even though you won't know this til later, Alex would be worse off if he reallly was dead X_X
Finally, it was Alex who broke the silence. “Why does God hate me? Why does it seem like just as I’m about to grab hold of some form of happiness, it gets yanked out of my fingers just as I begin to feel that I actually stand a chance of obtaining it?”
“I don’t know,” Lucia said softly, knowing that the question was really directed toward him, but feeling as if he should say something.
Alex could tell it in Lucia’s voice that he was almost as upset about Alex not being able to bring Brittany back, as he himself was. “What’s going to happen now?”
Lucia looked at Shimera. He could tell that she, just like himself, couldn’t bear the thought of having to tell Alex the news. She looked at Lucia with pleading eyes. He finally sighed and looked at Alex. “Zemnas has required us to take you back to the Demon Realm if you should fail at retrieving Brittany’s lost memories.”
“You do realize that if I go back there, I’ll just be back here a few seconds later,” Alex said. He then turned to look at them. He could see the pity and sadness that registered on both of their faces, and for the first time in his life, he really didn’t care that they pitied him. “If I go back, I’ll only kill myself. What’s the point in living if the one you love isn’t there? All my happiness, all my life, everything is here! It only makes sense that I should be to.”
“Don’t say that, Alex!” Shimera yelled suddenly.
Alex only smirked, not caring what she thought. He looked back at Brittany, tears still rolled down his cheek as he shook his head sadly. “I have failed you my love. I’m so sorry.”
Those words were enough to break both the Celestial being’s resolves. They had to look away from the heart wrenching scene that they knew they could have prevented if they tried.
Alex knew that he had to go back, even if he didn’t want to. He was blessed with a second chance to see Brittany again, that would have to be enough for now. His right hand stroked Brittany’s cheek, his left subconsciously grabbed onto the necklace around his neck. Alex’s eyes snapped open as he remembered Brittany’s necklace that still hung around his neck. For little good that it will do. This is for you my love, Alex thought as he undid the necklace. He brought the gem to his lips and kissed it softly. Please God, please Alcadan...please hear my cries.
Alex slipped the necklace around Brittany’s neck. His tears fell from his eyes and onto her cheeks as he leaned down and kissed her forehead. “Goodbye my love.”
Both Lucia and Shimera were nearly in tears as they watched this scene unfold before them. When Alex finally turned around neither one could meet his gaze, for fear that his penetrating eyes would see their deception and their needs. They turned around and headed back to the maze, Alex following slowly behind them.
Alex had taken about ten steps before stopping dead in his tracks. He felt his heart skip a beat as a sensation he hadn’t felt in what seemed like an eternity, course its way through his body. Lucia stopped once he noticed that Alex had stopped. It nearly killed him to say it, but he knew he had to.
“Alex, I’m afraid we have to go.”
When Lucia turned around to look at Alex, Alex was once again facing Brittany. A cold chill ran down his spine as he looked at what Alex was looking at.
“A-Alex...is that you? Is it really you?” Brittany exclaimed.
Alex’s entire body shook with tears as Brittany walked over to him. She looked up at his face which was hidden behind his hair that flowed down in front of him. “Alex?”
Alex’s voice was barely audible as he spoke. “Is that really you Brittany?”
She smiled weakly and gently wiped Alex’s tears away. “Of course I am silly.”
At that instant, Alex realized that everything he had searched for, everything he had wanted, everything he had fought for, was now standing there before him. Without any further hesitation, he quickly wrapped his arms around Brittany and pulled her close to him. Alex didn’t feel Brittany’s arms return the hug, but he didn’t care. He couldn’t help but want to hold her and never let her go. Alex’s tears fell faster now, but they were tears of happiness instead of sadness. He looked down at Brittany and slowly brought his lips to hers. He longed for her touch so much, and wanted to be with her so badly that he didn’t even realize that she was barely kissing him back. Alex felt tears fall on his cheek, and he quickly realized that they were not his own. He stopped his kiss to look at Brittany. Tears fell from her cheeks, and he realized that she wasn’t looking at him for a reason. His heart turned to stone as he realized what this reason was.
Alex looked away, still holding onto Brittany he said, “I’m sor....”
The sound of Brittany’s hand slapping Alex’s face echoed throughout the maze. Both Lucia and Shimera had no idea what had happened. They stood staring dumbly as they watched Brittany slap Alex. His head was turned to the side from the force of the slap, but both of them knew it hurt more emotionally than it ever could have physically.
“Why...why did you do it?” Brittany asked as tears of sadness stung her eyes.
Alex couldn’t look at Brittany as he spoke. The moment he tried to, she cut him off.
“Please...please don’t say it was for me. How could you even think that? You know there’s no way in Hell that I would ever condone such action!. How could you do it, and think it was for me? How...how could you have been so weak...so foolish?”
Brittany’s words stung Alex’s heart like a thousand daggers. He had tried to be prepared for this, but how could you honestly prepare for something such as this?
“Brittany, what in the world has gotten into you?” Lucia asked taking a step toward her.
“Don’t, Lucia. I’m almost as pissed with you as I am with him. You’re the one who put it into his head to do this,” Brittany snapped She turned back to Alex. Her eyes were mixed with feelings of sadness, anger, and spitefulness.
Alex raised his hand to stop Lucia. Even though his face was covered by his long white hair, Lucia could tell that Alex had once again returned to his solemn and somber mood. Alex turned back to Brittany, knowing what she was thinking even without their mental connection. “I’m sorry,” he whispered.
“You’re sorry...I know that, I’m not the one you should be telling it to. You killed people, Alex. Innocent people who hadn’t done anything at all to warrant such gruesome deaths. I saw what you did Alex. I sw the faces of everyone that you killed. When I slept, I saw their deaths all over again as if it was me that was killing them. Do you have any idea what that is like? I was still connected to you Alex. Everything you saw, everything you felt, it came to me in my dreams. You took all those people’s lives. You took them without any thought or hesitation. You even killed Baou and Rire! They were your friends. You acted like a monster, Alex. Do you really believe that you did this for my sake?”
When Alex didn’t respond, Brittany spoke for him. “Go...please, just go.”
Her words fell like a death sentence to Alex. Before anyone could stop him, Alex quickly turned around and headed back to the maze. He brushed past Lucia and Shimera as if they weren’t even standing there. They tried to stop him, but Alex shrugged them off with ease. Both were surprised at his surge of strength, especially considering his lack of demonic power. Neither one could restrain him as he plowed through them.
Lucia stared in awe at all that happened. He was about to turn to Brittany when he heard another slap. He turned back to see Shimera slap Brittany hard across the face. Brittany’s wide eyed look of shock and hate flashed across her face for only a second, before Shimera spoke.
“How dare you? How could you say something to someone that you’re supposed to have loved more than life itself? You asked him if he knew what it felt like to see the deaths of everyone he killed over and over. The answer to that is yes. How could you have seen everything that he has been through, and yet know nothing of the sacrifices he has made? You may not want to admit it, but yes he did do everything for you. He was so willing to do anything he could to bring you back, that he was even willing to sell his soul to the darkness. Alex was so tormented by his deeds that he was forced to face his inner demons, just so that he could come see you. He was willing to die to see you Brittany. He had just come to terms with his deeds, only to have you rub it back in his face. I may have not known Alex as well as you or even Lucia, but I know that, that man loved you with everything he had. You think you’ve had it bad seeing what he did and knowing that he did it for you. Imagine for just a second what he must feel like knowing that his hands hold the blood of countless innocent lives. Imagine what it must feel like, to think that he was doing all of this for you, but only to realize after the fact, that it was someone else that was using his love for you to control him. If anyone’s a monster, it’s the one who controlled him. It’s the one who is really responsible for these deaths. Or...it could be you,” Shimera said with a hate filled glare in her eyes.
Author's Note: Yeah...it's at this point that Alex would probably go and commit suicide...but...then he'd be right back there anyway...so not much point in that. Also, even though you won't know this til later, Alex would be worse off if he reallly was dead X_X