Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ Abducted Love ❯ The Feelings of ' Mixemo ' ( Chapter 6 )

A/N: Hey guys, I apologize for not updating as soon as possible. See I had quite a bit of trouble finishing my other stories, you know. I didn't feel like it, but I wanted to. You know. I plan to make this chapter about ten pages maybe even more. I'm not going to do the normal size chapter like I usually do. Um, so expect a few more chapters before this ends. Okay? Long chapters of course!

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Quistis growled furiously as Seifer jumped on her. "Seifer! Seifer! Get off me! I command-Oh! Damn! Get the hell of me!" Quistis shrieked, trying to shift Seifer's heavy weight off her body.

"Ah come on, Quisty! Don't you want any fun?" Seifer growled playfully, teasingly unbuttoning her blouse. Quistis froze; a dark, distant look came over her.

"Don't call me 'Quisty!'" Quistis said coldly, a deadly glare in her blue eyes. "Don't ever call me 'Quisty!'"

Seifer looked at Quistis with confusion written all over his face, "What? What's wrong Quistis?"

"Oh! Now you care about me, huh? Forget it, just go on and do what you wanted to do to me. I don't care anymore." Quistis groaned, rubbing her temples.

"No I won't ravish you, I just want to know why you are acting so...bitchy. Ah - wait! I know! You're bleeding, aren't you-" Seifer was viciously interrupted when Quistis' hand connected to his cheek.

Seifer instantly went to her cheek, "What? What the hell! Why the hell did you slap me?" Seifer growled, getting off of Quistis holding his stinging cheek.

"Well tell me, Mr. Cowboy. How would you feel if you were a womenfolk and a man just came and said that you were going through the cycle?"

"I would feel honored that a man would know me so well." Seifer grinned.

Quistis looked at Seifer and shook her head in disgust, "Well since you're not a woman, how could I have thought you could understand? Now-a-days the only men that can communicate with us womenfolk are homo-sexual. What a shame. What a dear shame."

Quistis turned and held back a giggle as Seifer stared at her with shock.

"You mean to actually tell me you associate with homo-sexuals?" Seifer asked, stunned.

Quistis turned around, feeling a bit offended, "Yes and what's wrong with them? They are normal human beings like us! They just happen to take a liking to their own sex."

"Exactly! Also, they are NOT humans, if they are, they are fucked up ones!" Seifer argued back, "I just can't believe it! That's disgusting! The man's body was created please a lady just like a lady's body is to please a mans. Not man to man or woman to woman. " Seifer mumbled to himself.

"I see, well I hope there is a day where you will meet one and eat your words." Quistis said quietly, "because they are like us. Whether or not you or your damned partners think. "

"Whatever, lady."

"Hmph."

Quistis laid down on her bed, staring at the roof. She'd been gazing at it for what seemed like a hour. She had noticed there was a tint of red there. Perhaps paint? Blood? Then she also noticed a raw designed, it was swirling rectangle with dots in them.

"I'm losing it!" Quistis muttered to herself, slapping her hands on her forehead, closing her eyes. "I need to get out of here!"

Getting up, Quistis swung her legs to the side of the bed, "But how?"

Walking to the door, Quistis quickly ran into the room in which she found Xu, knocking lightly, she whispered, "Xu? Xu are you here?"

Quistis moved her ear closer to the door, trying to get a trace of a female voice.

"Yeah! Come on in!" Xu called out loudly, startling Quistis.

Quistis turned the doorknob slowly and entered.

"Hey." Quistis sighed and got on the bed.

"Hey, what's wrong darlin'?" Xu asked sincerely. Quistis smiled faintly before reply, "I just-I just don't know. I mean, I want to get out of here, you get me? Then there's always something that holds me back and there's always excuses! Not to mention I am darn sick of this garbage!"

"You mean Seifer?" Xu asked, smiling a little.

"No! The house!" Quistis corrected, looking at Xu, "I would never describe Seifer like that!"

"Aw!"

"I would call him a sex-crazed bastard and much much more." Quistis smiled and Xu giggled a little.

"You are one of a kind Quistis, I swear." Xu shook her head, "So you're experiencing mental problems?"

"When you make it sound like that, you make me seem like I'm insane! Nah, I'm just a little confused."

"About what?"

"Everything! I mean I'm furious about what Seifer did and all but somewhere in my heart, I know I don't regret it. I want to leave this filth but when I actually look at it, I mean, I don't know."

"Mixemo."

"What?"

"Mixemo - you have Mixemo."

"What the hell is that?"

"Well I went through the same thing at that time, and so I named it. I've named the emotion." Xu smiled proudly.

"Why couldn't you use the word 'turmoil?'"

"Turmoil is kind of confusion. You're not confused about your emotions; they're just a bit mixed up. Mixemo. Mixed-Emotions. Understand, now?"

"...Aw...yes...Mixemo, huh?"

"Yep, Mixemo."

"Yet, Xu, I still don't see the difference. I mean if you have mixed emotions, should you be confused?"

"Well, when you're confused, you don't really know what you're feeling. You feel regret and other negative emotions. That's all you really feel, but Mixemo, is a word that I made up. You know your emotions; you're experiencing several at the same time. You don't deny it, and you know and feel all of the feelings, get it?

Quistis grinned slightly. "Yeah, I understand completely. So what do I do? No, a better question: how'd you get over 'Mixemo'?"

"What I did?" Xu asked, and was answered by a slight nod from Quistis. "I explored each and every one of those feelings. I found out what I was feeling those feelings for."

"So what I have to do and just see why I feel like I do?"

"Pretty much."

"…"

"…"

"…What a load of crap." Quistis smiled, laughing. Xu gasped and slapped Quistis on the shoulder playfully, giggling as well.

"Hey! I put a lot of thought into that!" Xu defended herself.

"So? It's just so...so...so---ugh! Words can't describe it."

"Hmm."

"Well, I'm tired, seriously." Quistis sighed, rubbing her eyes, "I want to go out and see the wilderness, but Seifer and his group of scoundrels won't let me."

"Then just ask!" Xu shrugged, "He's such a nice sweetie pie, I don't think he could ever refuse such a perty lady like yourself."

Quistis arched an eyebrow, "Seifer? Listen to what I have to say? Hell will freeze over before that happens."

"Go ask him, darlin'! Bet ya'd be surprised." Xu winked, taking a piece of tobacco from the nightstand. "Want some? "

"Sure," Quistis shrugged carelessly, placing her hand out. Xu smiled and she handed the tobacco to her companion.

"Anyway, what do you think a gal has to do to breathe, you know?" Quistis asked, while chewing.

"Ask Seifer, darlin'."

"You think it'll actually work? I mean, I am not holding a fancy of this place any longer. I just want to get out. How do you think I should approach him? Do you think I should just go and up and say, 'I want to go out' or do I start heading toward the door and then someone stops me and then we go out?"

"The second one. Seifer will most definitely be the one to stop you. So what you do is grab his wrist and open that door and march out. He can't and won't stop you. He's just been raised too well."

"I see. Well, I guess I bid farewell."

"Oh no, his - how should we say this - 'cult' will follow Seifer. Wherever he goes--"

"--They go, I get you." Quistis finished. Quistis got up from the bed before hugging Xu and walking out of the room.

"I bet you five hundred gil!" Zell stood up, fist shaking at Irvine.

"Hah! You might as well give me the money now." Irvine laughed, hands on his waist. "I've always won, and no one can deny that."

"I will win!" Zell exclaim, now loosing his temper.

"Zell, Zell, cool down. Irvine is just doing this to get you mad." Seifer laughed, his blue eyes flickering to a figure in the hallway.

"Yeah, but he's really pushing me, Seifer!"

"You're just scared I'll win, heh heh." Irvine said, his eyes also on Quistis.

Quistis walked into the room, looking at the group of men now staring at her.

"Carry on; please don't mind me." Quistis said waving her hand walking to the door.

"And just where do you think you're going Ms. Quistis?" Seifer asked getting up from his chair walking to Quistis. She turned to Seifer and looked up at him. "To breathe, of course."

Seifer looked at her puzzled, "Are you okay?"

Quistis smiled and reached toward the doorknob, suddenly Seifer's hand grasped hers.

The touch, so-----so-electrifying.

"You're not going anywhere without a chaperone, little missy."

"Of course not! You're coming with me." Quistis smiled, opening the door and pulling Seifer out with her, " I want to go to town."

"What? I will not."

"Why not?"

"No!"

Quistis walked to up a few steps and took several deep breaths, "It feels so good just to breathe! Now, come on, let's go!"

Quistis ran a couple of steps before approaching the horse slowly and climbing on it.

"I won't escape by horse; judging from my last experience, I don't think I could."

Seifer slowly walked to another horse before mounting it, eyeing Quistis. "We'll go to a house nearby."

"You have a house? Yah!" Quistis signaled the horse to go.

"Yeah, about two miles from here. Yah!"

((Half an Hour Later))

Quistis smiled as she breathed in the scene. "Wow, absolutely beautiful…"

Seifer came up from behind her, staring at the blonde. "It's nothing."

Quistis looked over to him and frowned before looking back. "What do you know? Probably only crimson, huh?"

Seifer narrowed his eyes, his horse approaching Quistis'. "Woman-" Seifer warned.

"Sorry, now anyway, where's this house you were talking about?" Quistis asked, flinging her hair.

"Right up there," Seifer pointed to an enormous mansion.

"Oh my Jesus Christ." Quistis whispered as her horse forthcoming the house, her blue eyes looking the house.

"Well, let's go in." Seifer said impatiently as his horse galloped to the house, a dazzled Quistis following after him. Quistis finally reached the house, getting off the horse. She ascended the stairs until she reached the door, Seifer following her.

Seifer knocked on the door; commotion could be heard inside before the door opened.

"Yes?-Seifer! Welcome back!" A maid greeted as she pulled whole-heartedly Seifer into a hug. "And who is this young woman here?"

"Quistis Beckop."

"Ah, what a perty name."

"Why, thank you."

"Polite too. Well, come on in, Master Kramer resides."

"Uncle is here, now?" Seifer asked as he stepped in.

"Yes, let me go get him."

"Of course." The maid curtsied before leaving.

Quistis started at Seifer in confusion, "I thought your name was Almasy."

Seifer smiled, "It is."

"But that made just called that man Kramer."

"So she did," Seifer placed his hand over his mouth, eyes glittering with amusement, "What of it?"

"You just called him Uncle."

"He is."

"What?!" Quistis cried out in frustration as Seifer laughed.

"Ha ha! It's really simple, really. This Uncle is half brother to my mother." Seifer informed running his hand through his blond hair. Quistis stared at Seifer as he did, finding it attractive in some sick, twisted way.

I want to run my hands through his hair.

"What?" Seifer asked, his green eyes look attentively at Quistis, "Is there something on my face?"

"N-n-no, I'm just lookin' at the wonderful painting to the right, you get?" Quistis stuttered and turn her eyes to a painting. Seifer smiled as he recognized which picture she was 'looking' at.

"That's a painting of my mother," Seifer commented, whispering, "when she was about fifteen."

"My gosh, she's too perty! She has this sunny blond hair and her intense blue eyes. Then her body figure! How could a woman so beautiful bear an ugly son like you?" Quistis exclaimed, adoring the woman in the painter.

Seifer turned to look at Quistis, amusement in his eyes. "Is that so, darlin'?"

"Yep."

"I see." Seifer said before turning away, as a man started coming down the stairs. The man slowly descended down the stairs with a woman by his side.

"Seifer? Seifer, is that you?" The man croaks as he ran to hug Seifer, "Seifer! I haven't seen you in a month!"

"Yes, well I've been quite busy, Uncle Cid."

"I dare not counter that," Quistis smiled as she curtsied.

"Why, Seifer, is this your wife? She's stunning!" Seifer's uncle exclaim as he came to hug Quistis.

"Really she is," The woman with Seifer uncle said.

"Thank you Edea," Seifer thanked, "Uncle."

Quistis pulled away from the hug and walked next to Seifer and eyed him, "I'm your wife?" Quistis muttered loud enough for Seifer to hear, "Yes, until we're gone, please don't say otherwise - *please.*" Seifer begged silently.

"You want me to lie to your dear Uncle Seifer? You're naughty!" Quistis silently scolded as she smiled, "I will not lie and say I am married to-to-to you."

"Well, kiss her!" Cid laughed as he put his arm over Edea's shoulder, "Show us that this stunning female really is yours."

"Now excuse me, Mr. Cid, just because a woman is wed to---Ow!" Quistis was cut off before Seifer pinched her back, giving her a look.

"Yes?" Cid asked, "Continue."

"Nevermind," Quistis muttered as she turned.

"Well, kiss her Seifer dear," Edea smiled as she looked at Seifer.

"Edea, I really don't feel comfortable kissing my wife in public."

"What about the wedding? Wasn't that in public? Also this isn't public, this is family-" Cid stopped, "Hey! Why wasn't I invited to the wedding?"

"Oh, it was, um, a spur of the moment. We both couldn't take it and we just did it." Seifer lied as his eyes scanned the house.

"Oh I see, well kiss her!"

"Now, I really don't see why, we're married. Isn't Seifer's word enough?" Quistis challenged, "Seifer wouldn't lie, would he?"

Quistis turned and looked at Seifer, smiling wickedly.

"Of course not," Seifer forced a smile while looking angrily at Quistis, "But my wife is right; shouldn't you take my word for it?"

"I do."

"But then-"

"I just want to see two young ones do a little action. Plus I just bet with Edea the minute you kiss your wife you two will want some privacy." Cid smiled, holding up large sums of gil, "Don't let me lose my gil, Seifer. Kiss her!"

Seifer stared at his Uncle in shock, eyes blinking several times before reply, "A bet?"

"Yeah, now son, KISS HER!" Cid yelled in frustration, " This is the third or fourth time I said so, damn it!"

Seifer breathed in slowly before he turned to Quistis and grin. He slowly lowered he head down; a few strands of hair slowly fell to his face, his breath soon on Quistis. Breathing slowly, he finally pressed his lips to hers.

"WOO-HOO!" Cid voice rang out.

Seifer tongue started to play at Quistis bottom lip before she gasp, letting him enter her. Kissing her slowly, and heatedly, Quistis felt lost. Closing her eyes, she let herself drown in it. For once not feel..'Mixemo'. Suddenly Seifer pulled away from her. Quistis looked at him, tears she felt started to come. Breathing heavily, she shook her head and started running.

"Hey! You two are supposed to be heading toward the bedroom chambers TOGETHER!" Cid voice yelled.

Shut the hell up old man.

Seifer looked at his Uncle and yelled in frustration, he fist slamming on the surface of a near by table. "Shit!"

Cid and Edea looked innocently confused at Seifer, "What's going on Seifer." Cid asked his tone serious.

"N-n-nothing, just experiencing marital problems."

"I got you."

"I-I think I'll go after her." Seifer said to himself rather than to his Uncle.

"Then to the bedroom." Cid smiled, "So I won't lose gil but gain some."

Seifer walked to Edea and placed his hand on her shoulder, "Enjoy your extra gil."

Seifer smiled and ran to where Quistis was.

"No! My gil!" Cid cried out as Edea laid out her hand for her money.

Quistis collapse on the ground as tears fell down her face.

Why? Why? Why do I feel so confuse? I hate like this! God! I-I-I just want to run away. Away from all this turmoil, from Seifer. Aren't I supposed to hate him? I do. Yet I-I-I just like him. Ugh! Why! Damn.

Quistis started wiping the tears away hastily, she wouldn't be weak. Whether it was Mixemo or turmoil, WHATEVER! She would cry, not at a time like this. She had to be strong. She had to be strong so she could be with her family and friends. She had to be strong. To survive, that was her goal.

"To survive."

Quistis nodded confidently, "To survive."

"Quistis?" A voice quietly interrupted her thoughts. Quistis sharply turned to find a worried Seifer looking at her.

"What do you want?" Quistis snapped as she wiped the remainders of the tears.

To survive. To survive. To survive.

"Why'd you run out like that?" Seifer asked, walking slowly to Quistis.

"Just a little overwhelmed. Nothing big, so when are we leaving?" Quistis said hurriedly, getting ready to head back.

"Wait up, hold your horses little lady. Hold it. Okay, why were you overwhelmed."

"Why do you care? Damn!" Quistis yelled as she started to walk away. Seifer pulled her wrist, pulling her to him. Seifer pressed Quistis body to his and looked her in the eyes.

"Quistis."

"What?"

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing! Let go of me!" Quistis yelled as she tried to pull away. Seifer stopped and put his arm around her waist.

"Quistis!"

"Fine! You want to know? It's you! You and all this turmoil and emotions! I can't take it anymore! Then for you t kiss me like..like..like THAT! It's too much for me! Then you rape me! You expect me to be perfectly happy?! Think again! I tired of this! I'm tired!" Quistis gasped.

"Quistis."

"Let go of me!!" Quistis shrieked and pulled away from Seifer. Looking at him with bloodshot eyes she slapped him... again. This time she put all of her turmoil and frustration. After the moment was over, her hand stung from slapping him so hard.

"Quistis…"

"Stop saying my name! Just stop!" Quistis place her hands on her face and shook her head.

"I did not rape you."

"What?! How dare you say you did not rape me! How dare you! Did I want to go to bed with you ? Did I want to become your damned whore? Did I ask for you to take my virginity! Then it classifies as rape! You damn bastard! You just want to take everything from me! I won't let you!! I'll escape! Watch! I'll escape!!! Till then I'll survive!"

Seifer stared at her, his emerald eyes watching her. Quistis breathed in and out, heavily.

"You wanted it."

Quistis eyes widen, "Never."

How dare you think that! I would never submit myself that low. I would never.

"This isn't worth it, I'm going to go." Seifer shrugged as he walked away.

"Yes, run away. Of course it isn't worth it. You ask me what's wrong and I tell you and then you say it isn't worth it. I know something worthwhile, telling your Uncle the truth,"

Seifer froze and turned to Quistis, "Bitch!"

Quistis arched an eyebrow in questions, "What for?"

"For being…you."

"Well, you're going to have to deal with it, I'm sorry. I will make it. Believe it or not, I will leave this place, then I will come back to spit on your grave. Mark my words, Almasy. Today signifies we are enemies. I will fight. I will go along with anything. Once I depart from you, I will seek my father and friends. You'll regret the day you took me."

Seifer chuckled softly, "We'll see darlin'..."

"You're right, we are."

Quistis turned and started walking, "I'll meet you at the front."

Seifer watched as Quistis walked away. This wasn't a normal female. This was an independent one. One that wouldn't take crap from anyone. How could he survive with a woman like her?

"Damn, how do I get myself into these kinds of things?" Seifer muttered and started trailing after Quistis.

When he came to the house he wished farewell to his Uncle.

"I'll see you again, Uncle Cid."

"Do visit again."

Seifer nodded and exited out the front door, to find Quistis already mounting the horse. Eyes far away.

"Alright, I'm ready, let's go,"

Quistis nodded and signaled her horse to start running. Seifer mounted his and followed the wonder blonde before him.

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Did you like this chapter? Is it good? Seriously? I dunno if it's good at all. I made this chapter about 10-14 pages. I dunno how much. Microsoft Word confuses me. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this chapter; I enjoyed writing it with a lot of action pack drama. I'll start writing the next chapter right away. I got a plan, hopefully I'll remember. LOL.

Later,

FloralBlackMoon.

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