Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Hesitation ❯ Chapter 3 ( Chapter 3 )

Title: Hesitation

Author: Okita Souji & Mikagami Tokiya

Warning: yaoi, angst, language

Pairing: envyxed, royxed, envyxroyxed

Disclaimer: Definitely not ours. Arakawa Hiromu-sensei owns those cool characters and stories and we just borrow it for our yaoi plot. ^_^

A/N: We're really really sorry for not updated for so long! I'd got writer's block and Ito no had been busy with school and exams and we got flu at the same time ^_^; I know it's strange, but it really happened. And we've been working on another fics too, especially Naruto's ones he he he he… XD

Thank you so much for all reviewers! We really really appreciate it. Sorry for those terrible grammars, we're gonna try to make them better. And since we still don't have beta, we don't know if we're already improved or not. Hope our English isn't that bad…is it? *sigh* is there anyone who wanna be our beta?

So here's the update that you've been waiting for! We present this to all of you and especially for Hikari no Renkinjutsushi (O tanjoubi omedetou! ^_^). Hope you guys like it and review please. Enjoy!

(…) is A/N from Souji.

Chapter 3

A few hours later…

Roy opened his eyes. He grunted because the sunlight's coming through the window and hitting his mature face. He's about to get up when he felt weight on his chest. He blinked in surprise and then after a few minutes he recalled the event last night. 'Yeah…that's right, Ed has returned' he thought and a smile plastered on his face. 'What a beautiful sight, Edward is more adorable when he was sleeping, like an angel, despite from his temperamental and reckless act.'

"Morning, love." he greeted Ed.

"Still sleepy…don't wake me this early Roy, I'm not a morning person like you," Ed mumbled and tried to find a comfortable position beside Roy's chest.

"Okay, but I must go to work. Is that alright? I promise I'm gonna be back as soon as possible, and I must inform your brother as well…"

"No problem, Roy. But please come back soon, I really miss you…"

"Don't worry, I miss you too Ed. See you later."

Roy went to the bathroom and took a shower, before dressed himself into his military uniform. He gave a quick kiss to Ed, then left his house, leaving Ed who's went back to sleep again.

About 11 AM Ed woke up and found he's alone in the house. He got up and tried to find something to eat in the kitchen, he's starving now. On the table there's a glass of milk and a note.

'Drink this milk so you can grow taller, Hagane no'

'That bastard!' he thought. He crumpled the note and threw it into the dustbin. There's no chance for Roy to force him to drink the milk. He would never ever touch that drink. So he opened the refrigerator and found a bottle of orange juice. 'Lucky, I had supplied the orange juice before I left that time.' Ed took the bottle and poured the liquid into a glass and put the bottle back. But something next to the milk caught his attention. There are sandwiches on the plate for him. And there's another note for him

'Eat this first! I'm sorry I can't make anything else for you right now. I'll make up for you later.

Love, Roy'

Ed smiled and grabbed the sandwiches. He ate them all within minutes. Hell, he's starving right now.

After he washed and cleaned the dishes, he headed to the bathroom. He really wanted to take a long and relaxing bath. His body's still tired from before, and there's no doubt that he and Roy would do 'that' kind of things tonight. He filled the bathtub with hot water, and then he got in there.

He can feel the hot water through his body. He closed his eyes and tried to forget Envy, but it's useless. His memories with Envy keep taunting him. Sure, he really wants to see Envy again, but he must take a risk to break up with Roy. He doesn't want that too. He wants Envy, but also wants Roy in the same time. It's very confusing.

'Whatever, Al will think that I'm such a slut if he knows what I'm thinking right now' he said to himself. About 1 hour later, Ed left the bathroom and examined his body in front of the mirror. 'Shit! There's a hickey from Envy on his collar bone. That possessive bastard! Why should he mark me like that?' Ed cursed under his breath.

He threw himself into the bed trying to get some rest. He still tired, so he didn't even bother to get changed first. With just a towel wrapped around his waist, he went into slumber again. Hopefully Roy won't notice the hickey.

In the afternoon, Roy got home and called Ed. No answer came. He tried again, but still no answer. So he checked the living room, kitchen, and the library, but there is no sight from his Hagane no. He became worried again and rushed into his room, afraid that Ed would be kidnap like before. He sighed in relief when he saw Ed was sleeping quietly on his bed. A moment later, he realized that Ed just wearing a towel. Suddenly, an ecchi idea came into his mind. Slowly he approached Ed and trailed his fingers around Ed's thigh. Ed made a small noise and turned his body. With an amused smirk, Roy continued to tease Ed and pulled the towel, so Ed's naked.

Softly, he kissed Ed to wake him up, and it worked like usual. Ed opened his eyes, and saw Roy smiling before him. He returned the smile and greeted Roy.

"Back already, taisa?"

"Yes, I asked Riza to get home early. I really miss you, and hardly concentrated to my works."

"How about Al?"

"I had informed him, he took the morning train and probably will be arrive tonight"

Roy kissed Ed again, and his hands started to unbutton his uniform as well. He got impatient with Ed because it's been a long time since he spent a night with his lover. Ed moaned in Roy's mouth and parted his lips willingly to grant more access for Roy. Roy quickly pushed his tongue inside and started to caress Ed's hot tongue. Ed melted in the kiss and the kiss got more desperate. He didn't know that Roy could be like this, perhaps that's because it's been awhile since he had sex with him. And since his kidnapping, he had become used to Envy's treats and body. And he'll need time to adjust again with Roy's body. 'Ok, stop with Envy's things right now' Ed cursed. Roy managed to remove his uniform and shirt without broke the kiss. Ed pulled Roy to the bed, so he's trapped between the bed and Roy's body. Roy broke the kiss, both panted. Then he smiled to Ed.

"It's been a long time, Ed..."

"Yeah...Sure it is"

Ed's face was flushed from the kiss before. Roy then placed butterfly kisses on Ed's neck. His tongue sometimes flicked into the sensitive spots on Ed's neck. Ed let out moans came out from his mouth. Roy smirked when he heard that. His lover had such a sexy voice, not to mention his body though. When Roy got onto Ed's collar bone, he noticed that Ed have hickey. But he chose to ignore it for now. 'Maybe it's just one of his wounds' he thought. His hand trailed on Ed's body; slowly touched the flesh near the new healed wound. He touched it with apologizing manner.

"Sorry, Ed, for not being with you back there, for allowed you to get hurt…"

"Don't be, it's not your fault Roy..."

Ed gave him a light kiss, to assure him that he's okay. 'Maybe…I should tell him about Envy' he thought before lost in Roy's touches again. Roy's hands started to roam against Ed's skin while he captured Ed's nipple into his mouth. He sucked it until it erect and did the same with the other one. Then, Roy went lower and parted Ed's legs. He caressed Ed's inner thigh with such a teasing manner.

"Roy, please…" Ed whispered to him.

Roy, saw the pleading look Ed gave him, complied, and licked Ed's hardening length from the base to top and swirled his tongue around the slit. Ed moaned and grabbed the sheet beneath him. Roy smiled and then swallowed it completely. He played his tongue around and bobbed his head. Ed bucked his hip into Roy, feeling the pleasure building up inside him. When Ed felt that he was near, Roy's mouth left him. He groaned and gave a questioning look to Roy. Roy just smiled and reached a tube in his drawers. He poured some lube onto his hand then he shoved his first finger into Ed, prepared Ed to take him. Ed tensed a bit when he felt Roy's finger inside him. It reminded him that Envy usually didn't prepare him first, but that didn't mean he's rough. Granted, sometime he's a rough, cruel, and sadist bastard, but inside he's not really like that. When it came to sex he's gentle, although Roy's gentler, but Envy's wilder and kinkier, not to mention he's such a teaser. 'Oh, God! Why Envy suddenly came into my mind! And I even compared him with Roy in sex AGAIN! Damn, what have you done to me, Envy?!' (What can I say, Envy's such a sexy guy =3), Ed screamed in frustration inside his mind.

Too absorbed in his mind, Ed didn't realize that Roy have pushed three fingers. Roy noticed that Ed seemed unfocused and his mind wandering anywhere else. Roy observed Ed then knitted his eyebrows together and his expression a bit frustrated. 'I wonder what he's been thinking until made him like that. He's been acting strange.' Roy thought in wonder. 'But then, he got hickey too. It can't be kiss mark, right! Maybe he just got hit there…' Roy tried not to think the possibility that Ed had cheated on him because it's impossible, but it continued to nag in his head. He shook his head a bit to clear his mind and decided to ask Ed about it later.

After Roy thought Ed's ready, he drew out his fingers and that made Ed snapped back into present. Then Roy replaced his fingers with his own length. He pushed into Ed slowly until his erection fully inside. He waited for Ed to adjust to him, and then started to thrust into Ed slowly. Then he changed his angle a bit to find Ed's sweet spot.

"Faster..." Ed moaned when Roy hit his prostate.

Roy complied and Ed started to move his hips in the same rhythm as Roy. Their bodies moved in unison. Ed's length rubbed against Roy. Roy was the first who reached his climax while shouting Ed's name. He slipped out from Ed while trying to calm down his breath, and then he gripped Ed's cock and moved his hand up and down. Subconsciously, Ed's mind fell back to his make out with Envy coz Envy never climaxed before him. When Ed felt he's on the end of the cliff, he closed his eyes and unconsciously he felt that the hand around his cock wasn't Roy's. A few seconds later, Ed climaxed and without his knowing, cried Envy's name instead of Roy's. Roy noticed this and his suspicion before became stronger, but he still trying to deny it. They're cooled down their body in silent. A few minutes later, Roy asked him with serious tone. His gaze was like pierced through Ed. Ed felt that his guilt started to rise again and still argued to tell Roy or not.

"Edward, who the hell is Envy?"

"How do you…" but Ed didn't continue his question and chose to answer instead. "He's the homunculus who saved me..."

Roy raised his eyebrow and continued his interrogation.

"What did you do with him then?"

"What? Why did you ask like that?" Ed's very surprised. 'Holy shit, did he know? But HOW?' Ed thought in panic.

"First, because you have hickey on your collar bone. And second, because you just cried his name when you climaxed back then. Cared to explain it, Ed?"

Ed reflex closed his hands to his collar bone and mouth. 'Shit! What have I done? What have you done, Envy, you fucking homunculus?' Ed cursed his stupidity and Envy. Ed, unable to lie again to Roy, told him the truth about him and Envy. He didn't dare to see Roy's eyes. Roy can't feel anything else but anger in him. 'That explained his strange behaviors' Roy thought. How could Ed cheat on him? Why? He felt so hurt. He spoke to Ed with such a cold tone, that Ed never knew before.

"Then…why don't you go to your Envy right now? Were you just using me for your pleasure only, Hagane no? You miss him, don't you? You had mistaken me for him. Why did you return to me when you already had my replacement?"

"No! It's not like that Roy! Let me explain it to you!"

"I think there's no need to explain again. It's clear enough for me, Hagane no. Now, could you please just go…I don't think you have any business left in here, right?"

"Roy…please…listens to me first" Ed hold Roy's hand, but Roy snapped it right away. He gave Ed his coldest glare that made Ed stunned in his place.

"Don't call just by first name to your superior, Hagane no! And just go!!!"

Ed shocked, but knew he deserved it. The glare that Roy gave him showed his emotions toward him right now, anger, hurt, and disgust. He got up and started to dress himself. He gave Roy a final look before he went out, but Roy didn't even want to look at him. Ed just bowed with sad expression and then he left. Outside, Ed couldn't hold his tears anymore. He started to cry. He didn't want Roy to hate him and he never used Roy only for his pleasures. He really loves Roy. But it was useless now, it's true that he was cheated on Roy, he couldn't deny it. It's hurt. It's really hurt to see Roy like that. And he's the one who hurt Roy. He cried in silent, his tears already wet his cheeks. He slowly walked away as it started to rain. Inside the house, from the window, Roy stared at the figure that had been crying and walked away from his house. And he felt his eyes are wet too.

TBC

A/N: Um…btw, we decided to change our nicks to our real nicks coz our second names (the Kokka Renkinjutsushi's names) that we're currently using are too long ^_^; so from now on "Akatsuki no Renkinjutsushi" is gonna be "Okita Souji", and "Ito no Renkinjutsushi" is gonna be "Mikagami Tokiya". Sorry for this useless notice!

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