Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Do I know thee whom I call... love? ❯ Assumptions (Part 01) ( Chapter 2 )

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Assumptions (Part 01)

 

I woke up before the alarm clock rung and turned it off. It was a rainy morning and I didn't want you to wake up early to go to work in a day like this. Not in the state you're in.

 

Last night while we made love I could see your wounds as clearly as I`ve never seen them. The marred skin and thin white scars the bluish bumps and the cuts, all hidden by meters of gauze. They hurt me.

 

They hurt me because I know you're hiding something and I know what it is. I do not know exactly… but I can tell… I can fairly guess. You should have told me this ten years ago… before we became lovers… before you became my soul mate… before I fell utterly and deeply in love with you.

 

I guess I always knew… but I was always hoping you didn't figure it you. Unfortunately you finally did, and now there's nothing left for me but the pain of having you gone.

 

As I look at your sleeping face, the emerald depths I love so, closed to the world, I touch your cheek and hold my breath waiting for your stir, but there's nothing. You must be tired.

 

My heart freezes at the prospect of last night being our last and I give in to the urge of tucking my face on the crook of you neck. I revel at the comforting warmth for a second as your soothing scent floods my senses.

 

“God morning love” I hear you whisper. My sudden movement has woken you up and I mentally kick myself.

 

I do not answer as your arms wrap me in a loving hug. I think this is when you become aware of my tears wetting your neck because you ask me, “Wufei, what's wrong?”

 

“Nothing…” I whisper back brokenly.

 

“Why are you crying then?” You reason in that maddening calm tone of yours.

 

“Not crying…”

 

“Don't lie to me just say you don't want me to know why…”

 

“Like you did?” I accuse bitterly.

 

“At least I did not lie” You snap back, surprisingly grabbing my bait.

 

I finally pull away from you so you can see my shameful tears, “Fine” I give in, “I was crying… see? Now shut up!” I'm not up to arguing, not again, not today… not after such nice memories from last night… our last night.

 

My tears come back at the thought and I start sobbing quietly. I turn away from you, I've never cried like this… at least not in front of another person.

 

“Tell me what's wrong” you demand quietly.

 

“I'm not telling, you didn't tell me what your problem is…” I feel foolish, I feel childish, but I'm hurt, and you hurt me… I don't want to be hurt again.

 

“Wufei…”

 

“Oh, why don't you tell me already?” I snap at you, I'm so hurt, I'm broken… I'm bleeding; it's been ten years after all. “Don't you think I have a right to know?”

 

“Wufei… I…” you looked surprised. You thought I didn't know.

 

“I saw you and Quatre. I saw you talking to him… whispering… I didn't know at first… but then I put two and two together… how long has this been going on Trowa?”

 

“This?” You arch an eyebrow, “What are you talking about Wufei? You think I've been cheating on you?”

 

You look so surprised I'm almost taken aback, but I know better, “Well… and haven't you?” I defy you fiercely.

 

“OF COURSE NOT!” You yell at me for the first time in years and I instantly know I've made an awful mistake. My body starts shaking in both relief and shame.

 

I think I pass out by then, the next memory I have is of your angry face hovering over me on the bed.

 

“Have you been eating?” You ask me sternly.

 

“I don't… I… Trowa, I'm s…”

 

“Have you been eating lately?” You cut me of and I flinch.

 

“No” I moan. I'm so ashamed… If I were you, I'd have left me by now… How could I assume that you and Quatre were… well, when you actually were… oh… I still didn't know what you'd been doing with him… but at least you weren't, I mean you didn't … I… I'm so confused… I think I'm going to throw up.

 

“Trowa… I'm going to be ill…” I tell you in a rush as I try to stand up and reach the bathroom before anything else bad happens.

 

You help me out and we make it, barely on time. You look away as I throw up all over the toilet sit, I haven't even eaten lately and I wonder what's making me ill. It might be that I'm sick and tired of myself and screwing up with you all the time.

 

It might be I'm so ashamed that my stomach refuses to hold up its own fluids. My throat fells raw from all the acid and I finally look down at the toilet to see what offending substance made me vomit.

 

That's when I gasp and you turn sharply to see what's startled me. “No…!” I hear you whisper, “No!” you say again and I see your hands start shaking.

 

You look at me, all the previous anger gone, the green depths lost and hurting, almost as much as mine had been a while ago… maybe more.

 

You make me stand and I feel your arms encircling me again, this time your hug is not gentle but possessive and dare I say, protective. You hold me for a long time and I start feeling dizzy. I think I tell you that for the next think I know you are wiping my mouth with a damp cloth and I hear you flushing the toilet. Eyes heavy and foggy with sleep I remember the acrid smell of acid tinged red with all that blood.

 

TBC

 

*Shinigami no Miko* Well, what do you think? Am I to keep writing this stuff? Feedback please! I live for it… really!

Trowa and Wufei want to know how the story ends… do you pity them? So, keep me writing! *bwahahahaha* - evil laugh while Trowa and Wufei both shudder, Hey come back! You're not running away, this time I have you both shackled!