Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Loneliness is not for me! ❯ Are you Endless Blue? ( Chapter 4 )

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Chapter four: Are you really Endless Blue?

I don't remember falling asleep. I feel the softness of the bed under me, that's good. The sweet smell of the activities from last night is still lingering in the sheets… Wait a second!

Sitting straight up I look around. Yepp. My room alright. Then why does the bed smell so good? It hasn't done that for years now…

"Are you up, Duo?"

I think my heart stopped there for a few minutes. I almost forgot. Endless Blue is back with me. I must be dreaming.

I m so relaxed that I don't have the strength to get up just yet. I reach to the floor with my hand, searching for a shirt that I know I always have scattered around the room. Nothing. I m a bit startled about that discovery. Where is the shirts, the pants and other stuff I leave everywhere?

Then you come walking in, I forget about everything. I think I backed up against the bedpost, I m not sure. I m terrified by your looks.

"What the hell are you wearing?!" I yell. Yes, I yelled at him. His cloths are so shocking to me that I forgot that he came back to me the day before.

He just looks down at his cloths. He doesn't seem to be aware about his appearance. He looks at me and frowns. "Is there something wrong?" he asks in that innocent tone. I don't like that tone, its so un-Heero.

I warp the sheets around my waist. I m stunned about this whole thing. Endless Blue never dress like that! I know that!

Oh, sorry, forgot to tell you how he looks. He is wearing something that looks like a domatrix and spandex… it's really hard to describe. He is wearing black, leather pants that are sticking to his body like a second skin. The top he is wearing looks like a jacked only that it's made out of black leather and leather straps and buckles keeps it from falling of his shoulder. His stomach and mid back is visible for everyone who wants to see. He is wearing big black boots that reaches him to the knees. In short, Endless Blue looks like a slut.

You sit down beside me, but when you reach for me, I shy away. Don't touch me! I don't want you hands on me with out an explanation first! "Why?" I ask softly and turn my eyes from you. I can't stand to look at you right now. This isn't you…

"You mean this outfit? Sorry, Sweet Eyes. I haven't had the time to by some new, I hadn't expected to find you last night…"

I grip the sheets harder. I have expected to find you at anytime, but you didn't? Who are you now? You aren't the same person I knew… but then again, I m not the same ether. "Who are you…" I whisper and I let my head drop to my chest. I feel like I want to cry real hard, scream out loud and rip the sheets apart.

"Who I m? I m the one who loves you, Sweet Eyes…"

"SHUT UP!" I bark. I hadn't expected you to hear me, but with your hearing, I m not really surprised. "Tell me who you are! You aren't Endless Blue! You aren't Heero Yuy! WHO ARE YOU!?!" think I m going hysteric? I think I am.

You almost stumble of the bed in what I think is chock. Yes, be chocked, I am! "What are you talking about?!" you ask, panicking.

"Just as I said: Who are you?" I'll not stop asking until I m given answers.

You look at me with big eyes. Even they are different, you know? Where is that spark you had years back? I remembered you last night, but you aren't the same man today. Answer me!

"You mean the outfit? I have an explanation to that…" you say and turn those strange eyes away from me.

"Please do tell…" I say. My mood is going up and down, but now it's on a level where I cannot be mad or glad.

You settle on the floor, your back against the bedside. Speak now, stranger, tell me who you are. "As I said, I didn't expect to find you last night. I have lost all hope to find you, if I must tell the truth. I have gotten a job as a… as a…."

I can't hear your mumble, I stopped listening after you told me that you lost all hope to find me. "You say that I m your everything, yet you gave up on finding me. I never lost my hope, I had hoped that you hadn't ether…" I say. I can't believe you. I don't need to hear what you had worked as, I think I know. I-I can't think clearly!

Reaching for a pair of pants, I throw them on. When I have the shirt buttoned halfway, you take a hold on my wrist. I don't look at you as I pull my arm back. I must get out.

"Where are you going? Can't you listen to me?" you ask real loud. I can, later listen to him. But not right now.

"I'll be back later. I must decide if you are trustworthy. Until then, you have no right to call me Sweet Eyes. That name is only for my lover to use" I said and walk out that door, not to return until later this night.

I must think….

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Another chapter done! You who wrote and told me that you could be my beta reader, can you contact me? I have problems with contacting you.