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Shattered Chaos

Chapter 2: Sulking

By: CobaltPrincess (cobaltprincess@hotmail.com)

Disclaimer: I would think that it was pretty obvious that I didn't own anything. I mean, what would be the point of my writing this if I did…?

A/N: My thanks to my best friend and beta reader ShadowAngel. She read and corrected this crap for me!! How sweet of her ^.^

I can't sleep. I've been trying for the past three hours. Every time I close my eyes, I'm assaulted by visions of Duo. His hair shining in the moonlight, his eyes gleaming with an intensity I've never seen before. It's strange to think that he is the reason for my insomnia.

This didn't happen until he kissed me. Damn him. Even now my lips burn whenever I think about that night. He always finds a way to annoy the hell out of me. Look at him over there, sleeping peacefully while I'm wide-awake. The bastard.

Whenever I'm awake like this, I'm acutely aware of the fact that I feel lonely, that I miss him… weird, but true. I miss his eyes, his voice, and his touch… How can I miss him so much when he's right here with me? I never thought it possible.

A couple of months ago, all I wanted was for him to leave me alone. Now I can't imagine going on another day without him pestering me. Now that I think about it, he wasn't actually a constant annoyance; he was more like a companion, a friend. Why must my thoughts always focus on him? Maybe if I watch him, I could go to sleep. It worked for him. How can one person cause so much confusion? Does he do this to me intentionally? Why Duo? Why did you kiss me? You said I was beautiful…but that's a lie. I'm not the beautiful one…that's you.

Kami-sama, I'm blushing again.

Maybe I'm thinking about this too much. Maybe he just did it as a joke…to see how I would react. But Duo wouldn't joke about something like that. I don't understand. Why would he say that I was beautiful? Relena says it all the time, although that's just because she's obsessed. But Duo, what reason could he possibly have? It doesn't make sense. None of it does. Of all of the people to torment me…

I get up from my bed and walk over to Duo's side of the room. I watch as his chest rises and falls in a slow rhythm. I eventually drag my eyes up to his face. His eyes are closed, hiding the brilliant amethyst orbs and his dark lashes are resting softly against his cheeks, his full lips are parted slightly in sleep.

I want to kiss him. To feel the softness of his lips against mine just one more time. Maybe it'll feel different if I'm the one kissing him. Would it feel different if he kissed me back? I look down at those lips now so close to my own. I want to kiss him so badly, but what if he wakes up? What would I say? But he's sleep, he wouldn't know if I kissed him or not. Only I would know.

Duo…

Would you hate me if I did this? Oh Kami, Duo, this is all your fault. I wouldn't even be thinking these things if it weren't for you. I don't know what to do. I settle my face against his neck and inhale his musky scent. I've always liked the way he smelled. Duo…tell me what to do. I don't know what to do.

I'm so tired. Duo shifts in his sleep and I abruptly pull away. An arm wraps around my waist before I manage to get away and he settles himself against me murmuring. I'm petrified. I can't get away; he's holding me too tightly. What would I say if he woke up while we were still like this? I have to move and I have to move now. Think Heero, think.

While I'm wracking my brain for a possible means of escape, Duo shifts again and I use that to my advantage. When I slip back into my own bed, I notice the lack of warmth. Duo's warm. I like the feel of his arms around me. Nani?! Damn you Duo, damn you. I'm so tired and confused. Duo…how do you do this to me?

Tbc…..

Yeah…I know it's short. Hopefully it isn't too bad though. Whatever. I didn't want to force anything. Let me know what you think. Thank a whole bunch for reading this.