Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ The Meaning of Alone ❯ Chapter 6 ( Chapter 6 )

The Meaning of Alone: Chapter 6

By Datiye Arisu

 

Warnings and Disclaimer: Not mine. Never will be. Not ever. No matter how I wish, dream, and beg. Oh well. OK. There is yaoi, sap, angst, and all that stuff you should know is in this story by now. Be prepared and do not blame me for anything you see. I just don't know what gets into me sometimes. Enjoy.

 

Note: Sorry I took so long to get this out guys. My computer has been broken for some time now and technically still is. But hey, I do what I can. Hopefully I'll be able to get up enough money to get a new one.

 

*Dou's POV*

Duo lay on his bed in the dark bedroom. He kept his eyes fixed on the boy sleeping across the room. He ran everything that Heero told him earlier over and over in his head. How can he not realize what is happening? How can he not see what he is doing? He is doing exactly what he is trying to avoid! Scenario two, the subject does everything to suppress their feelings, at all costs. This is going to end badly. I can feel it. It always happens, always. I will not stand by and watch another person I love get hurt or die. I can't! I just can't do it again. I have to do something. I can't just stand by and let it happen…

Duo felt warm tears escape from his eyes and trickle onto his skin. He squeezed them shut and sobbed silently as he tried to sleep.

 

*Heero's POV*

(The next evening)

Heero walked into the room and was surprised to find Duo dressed in his street clothes and pacing around the room. When he saw Heero come in he stopped. “Heero, can I ask you a huge favor?”

Heero was unsure of what was going on and he didn't like that feeling. He nodded, indicating that Duo should continue.

Duo looked down and played with the end of his braid. “I'm just so sick of staying in this room. I need to get out. Will you go out to a bar with me?” Heero narrowed his eyes so Duo quickly added, “Look, I need to get out but I don't want to go by myself. I'm just… I'm going crazy in here!”

Heero kept his stern look. “You know that I don't approve of your going to bars. They are not safe.”

Duo plopped down on the bed. “That's why I want you to come. You told me you won't let anything happen to me. And I'm pretty sure no one will even talk to me with you sitting right there.”

Heero was shocked. “You want me to sit with you?”

Duo smiled a little. “I didn't ask you to follow me. I asked you to come with me. That means sitting with me.”

Heero thought on it a moment. What could possibly happen with him sitting right next to Duo? And Duo was probably right about no one wanting to approach them. What harm could it do? “Do you have a specific bar in mind?”

Duo jumped up and hugged Heero. “Thank you! You're the greatest!” Heero's whole body tensed at the unexpected contact. Duo must have noticed because he backed away, avoiding eye contact and said, “I'll, uh, meet you outside. I wanna walk so you should grab a jacket.” Then he quickly left the room. Heero stared at the empty doorway, still frozen in the same position as when Duo first hugged him, unsure of what to make of the sudden gesture. He pushed it to the back of his mind, grabbed a jacket and headed out after Duo.

When Heero stepped outside he was thankful that Duo had suggested he take a jacket. It wasn't very cold but it was windy, which can be just as bad, sometimes worse. Duo was waiting, just as he said he would be, facing away from the house with his braid rising and falling from the strong gusts around him. Heero stood silently watching him for a moment. He really is beautiful. Heero frowned at the unwelcome thought. He was not supposed to be seeing Duo that way. He stepped onto the gravel path purposely making noise so that Duo would turn around and break the serene image. That plan was shattered like a thin layer of ice when Duo smiled warmly at him, making him seem even more beautiful than before. It had been a long while since the last time he saw Duo smile like that . It had been before…

“You ready?” Duo asked.

Heero nodded. “Do you know where you want to go?”

Duo shrugged. “Doesn't really matter. We'll probably stop in the first decent looking place we see.”

They walked through the woods for awhile and then into the town. They didn't speak. Duo just looked around at the trees and buildings he hadn't seen in over a month and Heero tried his best not watch him. He failed. How many more missions will I fail? That helped him focus his attention. He looked away from Duo and into the town. He spotted a bar that looked fairly clean and trouble free. He also made a point to observe if there were any alleyways an if they were occupied. Finally satisfied that it was a safe enough environment he grabbed Duo's hand and steered him towards the bar. Duo looked at Heero in curiosity as he silently followed him inside. They sat down and Heero ordered each of them a Jack and Coke. They did not speak until the drinks arrived. Duo looked around the mostly empty bar. “See? Not dangerous. You could easily take down any of the guys here.”

Heero nodded and kept scanning the bar. After about an hour or so Heero felt comfortable enough to not only watch Duo drink, but to drink himself. He listened as Duo talked on and on about various unimportant things; like what kind of pasta he liked, what the last prank he had played on Wufei was like and how mad Wufei got, and how cool he thought Quatre's hair would look if he dyed it neon green.

Heero took a sip of his drink. “Blue.”

Duo stopped talking in his confusion. “What?”

Heero took another sip. “I think it would look better blue.”

Duo blinked his eyes a few times, as if to make sure it was really Heero who was sitting in front of him, and then started cracking up. Heero caught him when he nearly fell off of the barstool that he was sitting on. “Was that a joke or are you serious?”

Heero smiled. “A joke. It's nice to see you laugh.”

Duo went silent. “How much have you had to drink?” Heero waved a hand toward the bar. There was a total of fourteen glasses lined up on the bar. Seven in front of Duo and seven in front of Heero. Duo smiled noticing that Heero held a nearly empty drink in his hand. “Are you trying to drink me under the table or somethin'?”

Heero stared at Duo for a moment and then looked to the bar. He was shocked at the amount that he had to drink. He looked back to Duo. “I did not realize I was drinking so much. Perhaps we should go back to the house before we find ourselves unable to get there without assistance.”

Duo smiled wider. “ You had all that to drink and you can say all that, by when you're sober you don't talk at all.” He tossed some money on the bar and stood up. He grabbed Heero's hand and pulled him out of the bar.

Heero said, “I talk.”

Duo said, “Only recently.”

They walked the rest of the way back to the safe house in silence. Heero noticed just before they reached the door that they were still holding hands. He pulled his hand back quickly and looked to Duo. “Sorry. It's just…”

Duo says, “Don't worry about it. It would have just made the guys ask questions anyway.”

Heero nodded and opened the door. They walked in and right past the others, ignoring anything that was said to them, and went into the bedroom. Duo jumped onto his bed, bouncing up and down a little. Heero sighed and lay down on the bed next to him. “So, Heero, how often do you think we'll do this sort of thing?”

Heero turned his head. “What sort of thing?”

Duo smiled. “You know… Going out, drinking a lot, running into the room to avoid the guys… It was fun. I want to do it again.”

Heero looked at Duo, lost in his smile. “Once a week, twice at the most. Having a constant hangover would lower our performance.”

Duo fell back on the bed laughing. “Mind always on the mission.”

Heero looked away solemnly. “If I had my mind on anything else I would fail.”

Duo went silent. He sat back up slowly and tried to catch Heero's eye. “ Do you really believe that?”

Heero looked back at Duo. “Of course I do. I must always concentrate on the mission. If I become distracted I might miss something, overlook something crucial and then I will fail. We would all die.”

Duo looked completely at a loss for words. It sounded almost desperate when he spoke. “We wouldn't all die, Heero. You don't have to do everything.” He took Heero's hand. “If you were supposed to do everything, monitor and execute everything there wouldn't be five of us. If you made a mistake we would be there to fix it. If you got caught , we would be there to break you out.”

Heero was losing himself in Duo's eyes. The combination of the alcohol that he drank and the dim lighting in the room made them shimmer just so. There was always so much emotion in those eyes. He softly said, “I'm already failing.” Duo looked confused and suddenly worried. Heero explained, “Just look at me. What would happen if Oz stormed in right now? What would happen?” He looked down. “The first thing I would think of is protecting you.”

Duo said, “Well, what's wrong with that?”

“If I thought like that then you would be the only one who survived because I would sacrifice anything or anyone to protect you. That includes our enemies, our friends, and myself. I have to keep focused or everyone will die and you will be the only one left.”

Duo was speechless. He sat there with his hand still holding Heero's. His mouth was slightly open, showing only a sliver of white teeth and the tiniest bit of pink tongue. His eyes began to shimmer in that way that told that he wasn't sure whether or not he should cry. A small tear sprang forth and slid down his face. Heero brought up his free hand and, with his thumb, gently wiped the moisture away. His hand lingered there afterwards, caressing the soft skin. He leaned forward and kissed Duo's lips softly. When he didn't pull away Heero slid his tongue out and across Duo's bottom lip. Duo's tongue came out to meet his cautiously. Heero brought his hand up and into Duo's braided hair, deepening the kiss. Heero tried to push Duo down onto the bed. Duo pulled away a bit and said, almost in a whisper, “Isn't this bad?”

Heero pushed Duo the rest of the way down and leaned over him so that their faces were nearly touching. “Yes. But I don't care right now.” He captured Duo's mouth again. His hands set to work on unbraiding Duo's hair and spreading it out on the bed. His mouth licked and sucked it's way down Duo's neck as he unbuttoned the black shirt and spread it open. He caressed Duo's nipples causing him to gasp. This encouraged Heero to move his mouth lower and nibble and suck on the hardened nubs. As Duo continued to moan and sigh softly Heero popped out his tongue and slowly licked a trail down to the waistband of Duo's pants. He kissed and nibbled his way across the slightly exposed skin there. He took his hands from Duo's hair and worked on the button and zipper, opening the pants but leaving them on. He slid one hand up Duo's stomach as he breathed his hot breath on to Duo's cock, making him shudder despite the lack of actual skin to skin contact. Heero used his other hand to pull the fabric lower but not all of the way down. He looked at the newly exposed skin making Duo clutch at the sheets. Heero, having become more aroused by Duo's reactions, growled and quickly pulled both Duo's pants and boxers off causing him to be momentarily lifted off the bed before falling back down, bouncing softly on the bed. Heero brought his head back down and breathed heavily on Duo's cock again this time without the boxers in the way to take away from the sensation. Duo whimpered and began to squirm. Heero continued to breath on him, bringing his face closer and closer. Then unexpectedly popped out his tongue, using just the very tip, and licked small circles up and down the shaft. Duo twisted the fabric of the sheets in his hands. Heero chuckled and slid his mouth over the head of Duo's member. Duo began to let out a noise but clamped his hand tightly over his mouth to keep it from escaping and causing the other pilots to come inside the room and see what was going on. Heero moaned a little an moved farther down the shaft. Duo squeezed his eyes shut, moaning still from behind his hand. Heero bobbed his head up and down, every now and then allowing his teeth to graze the sensitive skin. Duo gripped Heero's hair and pulled him off. Heero, confused, looked up at Duo. “What hap—“

 

*Duo's POV*

Duo held up his hand, cutting Heero off before he could finish. Breathing heavily, he said, “Don't want to cum yet.” He sat up and moved closer to Heero. He leaned in close to Heero's face, capturing his mouth as passionately as Heero had captured his before. He pulled away and slid down Heero's body, stopping at his crotch. Looking up hopefully he said, “I want to taste you , Heero.” Heero shuddered and nodded his consent. Duo smiled and slid down the black shorts past Heero's hips and discovered that Heero didn't always wear underwear. He took the well endowed cock in his right hand , pumping it briefly before swallowing it to the root. Heero stifled a growl before sliding his hands through Duo's long hair. Duo worked vigorously on Heero, pulling out every trick he had ever learned in all of his `other encounters' with the men he's met over the years. But this wasn't like that, this wasn't dirty. No, this felt right . Completely an totally right.

He slid one hand around Heero and gently rubbed and kneaded his ass. His other hand slid up Heero's stomach, caressing near the belly button, he began to slide up further towards his chest.

Heero rasped out, “Duo…” At that moment Duo's hand touched the scratch gauze and surgical tape that covered Heero's still healing gunshot wound. Duo froze. “Oh God…” Suddenly feeling nauseous he pushed himself away from Heero, causing himself to fall off of the bed.. Heero froze in shock. “Duo?”

Duo scrambled around on the floor in a panic, trying to find his pants. “I- I don't think I can do this Heero. I just- I- Oh God—“ Duo sighed in relief when he found his pants crumpled up on the floor practically shoved under the bed. His body was shaking and he felt hot tears of frustration stinging his face as he tried miserably to pull his pants on.

 

*Heero's POV*

 

Heero slid off the bed and knelt down next to Duo, gently taking his hands. He took the pants from Duo, set them aside and tried to look at Duo. Duo looked away, hiding his face behind a curtain of hair. Heero paused and then pulled his T-shirt over his head and tossed it to the side as well. He took one of Duo's hands and placed it over the square of gauze on his chest. Duo sobbed and covered his eyes with his other hand. Heero put his hand on Duo's head and gently pulled their foreheads together. “It's this, isn't it?”, Heero said as he gripped the hand on his wound tighter. Duo nodded his head slowly and said in a small voice, “I did that.”

Heero pulled Duo into a hug and whispered into his ear, “Don't think about it. It doesn't even hurt anymore, I promise.” He lifted up Duo's chin and kissed him, much more softly than before. He pulled back and led Duo to the bed. He laid Duo down and turned to his night stand. He opened the drawer and pulled out a small jar of petroleum jelly that he had been using for his wound. He popped the top off and placed the jar next to Duo on the bed. He gently pushed Duo's knees apart and settled between his legs. He slowly began to lick and kiss at Duo's thighs until he heard Duo's soft moaning. He dipped his fingers into the jar, coating his fingers, and rubbed it around Duo's entrance. Duo gasped and pushed down against the fingers. Heero circled the entrance a few more times before sliding one finger in, causing Duo to hiss, and then sliding it back out. Duo moaned and moved his hips up and down in unison with the finger. “More, Heero. Please more….”

Heero pulled back and slid in the second finger, scissoring them and exploring Duo's most private region. Duo growled and grabbed Heero's hair, forcing him to look at hi face. “Look, you don't have to be so gentle with me. I'm used to a lot rougher treatment. Just please… Stick your cock in me, NOW.”

Heero groaned and felt his cock harden more despite the mildly disturbing comment regarding Duo's past. He dipped his other hand into the jelly and spread it over his cock. He positioned himself at Duo's entrance and before he could even move, Duo thrust his hips, impaling himself on Heero's cock. Heero moaned and gripped Duo's hips tightly. “Don't move or I'm going to cum.”

Duo nodded, breathing heavily against Heero's neck. Soon Heero began moving his hips slowly back and forth. Duo lifted up his right leg, wrapping it around Heero's waist, resting his ankle right above his ass. They moaned in unison as this new position made for even deeper penetration. Their bodies melded together as one; hips moving together, breathing in and out at the same pace, with the same vigor. As the minutes passed they moved faster and more urgently against each other. “Oh God, Duo, I love you.” Duo ran his hands through Heero's hair. “I love you too, Heero. I love you too.” Heero pushed himself up on his forearms and looked down into Duo's eyes. “I'll never leave you alone, Duo. I promise. You won't ever be alone again.” Duo's eyes misted with tears. “Kiss me.”

Heero complied, capturing Duo's mouth with his own. He reached down and pulled Duo's left leg up and over his shoulder. He pounded into Duo harder and faster than before bringing them both to the edge of climax. They continued their passionate kiss as the moment approached, stifling the moans that surely would have had the potential o wake the dead. After a few final thrusts Heero collapsed on top of Duo, both of them slick with sweat and gasping for air.

Heero slid off of Duo and lay down next to him, pulling him into and intimate embrace. Duo sighed and lay his head on Heero's chest, closing his eyes.

Heero let his eyes slide shut as he stroked Duo's sweat dampened hair. He drifted off to sleep with a small smile thinking of how he could still taste Duo in his mouth, even now.

 

TBC

 

Note: Hey! How did ya like it! Hope this is what you all have been waiting for. I'll get the new chapter out as fast as I can. I'm already writing it but the time consuming part will be typing it and trying to get the computer to actually save it. Well, I hope to hear from all of you soon! Remember, reviews are always appreciated and inspiring. Ideas for future plotlines are always at least considered if not accepted.