InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A First Time For Everything ❯ Second Go ( Chapter 14 )

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Because I apparently, make no sense....


“Second Go” --Lights


It shouldn’t have turned out this way. These mindless circles and games that these thoughts tortured him with constantly. He was strong, in body, spirit and mind and he was better than this. He wasn’t the type to bow to anyone weaker than himself, he never gave in or gave up, he was the strongest. He couldn’t wrap his mind around this terrifying enigma, this paradox and it was driving him to the brink of insanity.


He was stronger than her, in every way humanly possible (and even not so humanly as well) and yet somehow she had come out on top. She cried when the mood hit her, threw tantrums worse than any toddler could imagine and almost dangerously naïve and yet somehow he was the one left struggling with their disaster. How long had she stayed at his side, holding onto him like some safety rope? Grant it she wasn’t annoyingly clinging as he would have broke free easier than it was to breathe if she had, but somehow she had dug her blunted nails into him and now he couldn’t break free no matter how hard he tried.


He was losing his mind--that was the only explanation he could come up with. He had lapsed into a permanent state of stupid thanks to her and now he wasn’t sure if he could ever go back to who he used to be. She had destroyed the man he had always known he was and now he was stuck with feelings and emotions alien to him, trying to piece back together the jagged ends of his life, trying being the key word.


Of course to anyone else he was certain couldn’t tell the difference unless they took the time to study him, but no one had. He was a cold man, brutally honest, busy and arrogant--the human (looking) icicle and he had liked it that way. He wasn’t cold because he was unlikable or that he was into being a loner, but because he had no patience for the people who wanted him to notice them.


Though he could honestly say she hadn’t been one of them, they had quite literally stumbled together. She later spouted destiny or and even once claimed it was a case of serendipity, but he could only thing of coincidence (not that he tended to believe in that either). Even now he didn’t want to believe in all that nonsense, but now he knew better. He needed her, the way she laughed, cried and even the way she screamed when he had pushed her over the edge.


He didn’t know quite yet how he was going to do it, but he would get her to see that she could only be happy with him. They needed each other and hopefully she would understand that even though he could be cruel, he still loved her… Well as much as it was possible for him to. This wasn’t over, there had to be a second go.