InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Lifetime Loving You Part 1; Seasons in Owari ❯ From Past to Present ( Chapter 9 )
Chapter 9; From Past to Present
(Kagome's POV)
I remember the complete shock of it all, and feeling confused and lost. How did this happen? How did it happen?
Question such as these popped in my head as I got home after seeing my doctor about my sudden feverless illness. I thought I had the flu, but there was no fever. I couldn't explain it. Yet, the look on my mother's face when the doctor pulled her aside told me one thing. The thought that popped in my head at first was that I was dying.
It wasn't until my mother came to me with the doctor that all was revealed. "Pregnant? I can't be! I've never been with any boy in that way. It can't be possible! No! It's all wrong! There must be another explanation. I'm not pregnant!"
When I got home I flopped down on my bed in tears. How? Why? Who...who did this to me?
I couldn't think. I was just too over whelmed in my own world and the fact my future was now gone. Everything I had worked towards was gone.
I touched my middle often, wondering how the little life now inside of me had come to be. Surely it wasn't Inu-yasha...was it? No, I would have known if it was him. Miroku? Entirely possible, but even he wouldn't have done such a thing.
Above all things, I would have known if it were one of them. None had the power to black me out enough to make me not even know what my body was doing.
I took hold of my pillow and buried my chest and face into the soft object to stain it with my tears of fear. What kind of monster would do this to me, and why?
I wanted answers. Most of all obtaining knowledge of who was my partner in this creation, and what was the motive? I was so lost, so confused, and so scared.
"Kagome?"
I jumped up at the sound of a voice in my room and sat up with my pillow clutched to my chest. I turned to my bedroom window and saw Inu-yasha with the saddest look in his eyes. He was crouched in his dog like stance on my window sill and was looking at me as if he knew my pain.
'Inu-yasha! I bet he can smell it. I bet the smell disgust him more than anything right now.'
I turned away from him and hugged my pillow to my chest. "You knew it too, didn't you?"
He jumped down from his perch and sat on the end of my bed still looking at me. I couldn't face him. I felt far too disgusted with myself to look at him.
Inu-yasha looked down at his hands and closed his eyes to show that the next thing he would tell me would come with great difficulty. "I smelled it the morning after you got sick for the first time."
I looked up at him, shocked. "That was three days ago. You...Inu-yasha?"
He looked at me and then turned away grinding his teeth to hide his pain and true emotion. "Kagome," he started, "the night you were attacked all those weeks ago, do you remember your premonition?"
I nodded sadly. "The dream I had of Naraku placing a spell on your brother."
Inu-yasha looked at me. "Sesshoumaru kidnapped you that night, and beat you."
I nodded and gripped a corner of my pillow with one of my hands. "Inu- yasha?"
He looked down at my bed sheets and then crawled over to me to get closer. "What do you remember after the beating?"
I looked to the side trying to recollect my thoughts. "He placed a finger to my forehead, and I blacked out. It was like every part of my body shut down. I couldn't thing, feel, hear, speak, and taste if I wanted to."
Inu-yasha sat down before me and lowered his eyes. "Then it's true," he paused and looked at him. His eyes met mine with the saddest look in his eyes. They were the same eyes he had given me when he had chosen to protect Kikyo. Soft, but so full of pain and heartbreak. This was something he didn't want to tell me. It was something he knew would break my heart.
"Kagome, in time you will bare the child of my brother, Sesshoumaru, and a child created by the dark powers of Naraku."
My eye widened in fear. "Naraku?"
Inu-yasha closed his eyes and winced as he sat back. "Naraku's magic is what possessed Sesshoumaru and put you under. It was his magic that enabled you to conceive."
I touched my middle. "Then...this child is a creation of Naraku?"
Inu-yasha opened his eyes halfway. "No, it is still yours in the flesh and blood, but the soul will be part of his. The darkness inside of the soul was created by his power, because the child will never feel complete love. It won't be raised in it, because Sesshoumaru by instinct cannot raise pups that are not his own or are created with his knowledge."
Inu-yasha looked at me. "Even if he can smell his own scent in your child, he will never love it as a father would to any child. He believes in honor and clean blood. If his blood were mixed with a human's, he won't kill it. However, he has every right to reject what he has no knowledge of."
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(Inu-yasha's POV)
I watched as Kagome placed her hand on her middle again. I felt every part of my being begin to break. My brother's child, of all things to do to Kagome, Naraku did this? It was too much to bare, and even more to the point, on me.
Demons did not care for pups that were not their own. It wasn't proper, and it was survival of the fittest. The pup would die over time if not nurtured by both parents, but Kagome was human. She had the ability to raise it, but what about its demon blood? There was no way to explain it. One thing was clear from my own experiences and that was that it wasn't easy trying to understand your demonic power without the aid of a parent to show you how to use it.
I lost all my innocence after my mother died. I was cast out by those in Kyoto, the capital of Japan in my time. I remember the look of fear, hate, and disgust on the faces of the men who cast me out of my first home. From that point on I had to survive, and depend on myself until I could find a safe haven again. There were little places to go. I learned to trust no one in that period of my life. It took time to master my claws and the ability to use the fear of men to keep myself safe.
My first new moon on my own was filled with fear. I had no place to go for many months after my mother's death. All except one place would offer me protection, and this was the only place were I had trust, even though it was very little.
In the house of The Resmi Sisters, in Owari, I found the woman who helped my mother bring me into this world. Polaris was the eldest of the six sisters, and an old dog demoness who was close to my father. She found me wounded and sick in the woods not far from her home.
I stayed in the Resmi House for many years, learning to control my powers and to find my own sense of strength. My teacher was her son, Aki, whom was a few years older than me. I never trusted him though, but I sympathized with him. He was a full demon, but only half dog demon. Polaris had fallen in love with a western wolf demon that was killed during her pregnancy.
Polaris aided my mother and father in baring me and bringing me into this world. Sworn to hide my existence from the females of the western dog demon tribe, and from Sesshoumaru, Polaris took her chances in aiding my father in his secret. They were trusted friends, bound by each others debts for protecting each other in times of need.
Now, I had become that secret, and her promise to protect me became my only means of hope during those years were my innocence disappeared and I became a man in my young age.
I left when I found it time to seek out my own life and in those years on my own as I made my way eastward I discovered the existence of the Shikon Jewel, its power, my desires...and Kikyo.
Now, fifty years had gone by, and I found myself in a predicament I had expected to one day see Kikyo in. I had once dreamed of such joys of watching Kikyo give birth to my children once I became human. Now, Kikyo was between the living and the dead, and Kagome had come into my life.
My life had taken another sudden turn, and Kagome was pregnant with my brother's child.
"Kagome, I can't offer you much," I said as I began to look at her again, "Yet, I can give you hope."
Kagome looked at me. "Inu-yasha?"
I closed my eyes and took a hard gulp. "You know that the child is half demon like me, and it means that you can't stay here. The child must be born in a time were demons exist."
Kagome loosened her grip on her pillow and her eyes widened even though they had tears in them. "I'd have to stay in the Feudal Era forever, wouldn't I?"
I nodded, and yet, the sound of those two words "stay" and "forever" made my heart feel like some of the burden was lifted. Kagome would stay beside me and never leave me, and yet now there would be a child between us. Something that would keep her from me, Naraku's awesome plan to rip us apart.
Kagome looked at her knees and closed her eyes. "What am I going to do?"
I pushed myself to my feet and walked toward the window and leaned against the jamb. I looked at her as her eyes filled with sadness. "The child must never know about Naraku. We may have to leave the village in time, but not yet. However, the child must be born away from the village so that it won't be vulnerable. Naraku desires the child's heart to be filled with hate. If she doesn't know Naraku the better off we'll be."
Kagome placed one leg on the floor and turned to me still holding her pillow. I could smell the child's scent seeping through hers. My heart ached for her full scent. I wanted to hide all my pain in it and hold Kagome close to me. I wished she wasn't pregnant. I wanted her to be free of this burden.
"In three days I'll come for you." I said looking out the window, feeling the guilt of pulling her away from all that she held so dear to her. "I need to get you to the Resmi Sisters where you can give birth in peace."
Kagome looked at the floor as I jumped on to the sill. "Where are they?"
I lowered my head. "They're westward. The mid-point between Edo (Kaede's village) and Osaka."
Kagome looked at me confused, and picked up my head and looked at her with sad eyes. "I need to get you to Owari before you're not fit to travel. It will be dangerous, but we need to get there in order to throw Naraku off his guard. We'll need to be constantly on the look out for spies, and after that we'll need to be wary of demons much more fearful than that of Naraku."
Kagome looked at me as she got to her feet. "It will be alright. I have faith in you and the others."
I narrowed my brow. "That's just it Kagome," I paused as I looked at her straight into her brown eyes, "We can't bring the others with us."
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There is reason for this. Inu-yasha doesn't want Naraku to know the whereabouts of Kagome while she's carrying. He also wants her to have full scale protection, and give Edo some protection while he's gone (thus the rest of the group will stay home).