InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Acceptance ❯ Doushite? ( Chapter 9 )

AN: I've decided to make the chapters a lot longer…please review!

PS: A little adultish in this chappie… =D

 

Chapter 9:

 

 

“D-Doushite? Sesshomaru…I…I don't understand…” Kagome said quietly. This perplexed Sesshomaru, was she rejecting him? He had wanted to develop his relationship with her, but she didn't understand that someone was accepting her. Accepting Kagome.

 

This would be harder than he thought. Pondering, he fell asleep spooned around a content, but confused, Kagome. “So the chase begins…” He murmured under his breath.

 

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Kagome chuckled lightly as Rin told her of Jaken's horrible morning.

 

“Pretty lady-sama, that isn't all! When Rin hid his silly Staff of Heads, he ran to Sesshomaru-sama screaming `Sesshomaru-sama, Sesshomaru-sama! Save this lowly Jaken, Sesshomaru-sama!'” Rin was always the source of Kagome's amusement here at the palace while she waited patiently for Inuyasha to return for her. If he would ever come for her… She walked hand in hand with the little girl to Sesshomaru's gardens while she pondered this.

 

“Okay, Rin-chan. What do you want to learn while we're out in the garden? This is the only chance we'll get before the flowers die.” She said, her voice laced with sorrow. Was she a flower that was trapped in a winter storm? Kagome held onto the hope that she would be liberated from the iciness that held her captive, but feared that while in the Western Lands, this everlasting winter would always imprison her.

 

Kagome looked on as Rin asked many questions about individual flowers and various shrubberies before commenting that she was hungry. They walked back into the palace and into the kitchen, where Kagome had come to personally know each of the kitchen staff. Grabbing bowls of chicken, rice, sushi, and tempura, she was extremely disappointed when a light tap to her shoulder alerted her that Sesshomaru's personal servant was probably going to tell her that Sesshomaru requested her presence within his personal study.

 

She sighed heavily. “Hai, Kirei…I'm guessing that Sesshomaru wants to see me?” She rolled her eyes at Kirei's nod, and stomped off to the staircase that would lead her to Sesshomaru. Why did she dread ever coming in contact with him? Ever since she woke up in his arms, she had been apprehensive about having an encounter with the puzzling youkai, but knew that she couldn't avoid him forever. Stalking down a couple more hallways brought her in front of the being she had been trying to steer clear of for a couple days now.

 

Kagome walked into his study, hit with the familiar scent of sandalwood and pine. The scent immediately calmed her frayed nerves as she cleared her voice to announce her presence.

 

“I knew you were there, miko. Please come here.” Kagome heeded the command and anxiously approached him. When she almost reached him, he spun around quickly and caught her wrist, holding it gently as if to make sure that she wouldn't leave. “What do you make of your situation here, miko?”

 

“My situation? I am here for training…and to aide you with your human ward, Rin.” She said nervously. She didn't really understand what answer Sesshomaru had wanted, but hoped that he would let her go freely.

 

“And what of me, miko?” He asked immediately after her shaky answer. “I…don't know, Sesshomaru. You are here to take care of me…until Inuyasha takes me back.” Sesshomaru growled at her answer. No, it would definitely not be easy with Kagome. She still thought of his idiot brother, even though he had taken another. He didn't think it necessary to bend her to his will…yet.

 

“No miko…you are here to stay.” She gasped at his words. Stay…here?! She wriggled her wrist out of his loose grasp and turned her head as even more tears threatened to fall. She didn't want to stay with someone who wouldn't even stoop so low as to say her name on a regular basis. Was she destined for pain? Why was happiness so elusive…so hard to obtain? She turned to leave, but was stopped by powerful hands on her shoulders. She looked from the purple stripes on his wrists to his burning eyes piercing through her tear soaked ones.

 

“You will stay.” Before his lips crashed down upon hers, she reminisced of words said in the past. I am your superior. QUESTION ME AND FACE THE CONSEQUENCES…! Kagome screamed against his lips, demanding that he let her go. She wouldn't be the caged bird, anymore! She concentrated her miko powers into her hands, but decided against it after remembering what had happened some few weeks ago. She shuddered when he broke the kiss and held her to him.

 

“Let me go!” She said furiously. She would fight tooth and nail to get away from this monster…this jailor! “I will never become your toy! LET ME GO!” She shot one single blast of miko energy into his chest, but cried out as it only fueled him, and didn't harm him. “DOUSHITE?! Why can't I get away from you?” She screamed against his chest as he tried to repress her struggles.

 

“Miko, you CANNOT overpower me! You will stay here with me until death claims you! For now, I have laid my claim, accept it or not.” Kagome's eyes shot open. This was impossible. She couldn't hurt him with her miko powers…she couldn't escape! She pounded into his chest. Why?! Why did it have to be her? Of all people…!

 

“I hate you! I hate you! Why must I be trapped by Inuyasha, escape him, then fall into another prison cell with you?! Why must I be destined to never taste freedom…never to be me? Never to be Kagome!” Sesshomaru growled at her as she resisted, and pushed her up against the opposite wall, not caring that dozens of books plummeted to the floor. She bared her teeth to him, trying her hardest to be intimidating as he held her arms parallel to the wall, and pressed against her body.

 

He collided his forehead with hers, effectively making her lucid for a few moments until he could get her to his chambers. He threw her upon the bed, instantaneously waking her up, and then straddled her hips as she continued to struggle. “You will learn now, miko. You will learn the difference between subordinate and superior this night, and hope for your physical well-being that you don't forget it.” With this he ripped away her kimono, and discarded her undergarments, before attacking her flawless body.

 

Slash marks marring the tight flesh of her abdomen bled freely and made small pools in the comforter of his bed. Screams and wordless cries bounced off the walls and resounded in his ears as he continued to ravage her body. Kagome was nearly unconscious from the incessant violence, her lip and head bleeding freely down her face, giving her an eerie look. “Please…” She begged him as he bit onto her nipple, causing her to scream out again.

 

Kagome couldn't take it anymore. She was going to die as he raped her, body and mind. However, she was still determined; when he paused to rid himself of his clothing, she made an attempt to flee…but knew it was futile as his knee came in contact with her stomach once more, making her cough up blood onto the white blankets. She whimpered as he assembled her on her hands and knees, spreading her legs and readying herself at her dry entrance. This would be the most painful feeling that she would ever have the displeasure of experiencing, but it was necessary…for Sesshomaru at least. This binding moment never came, however, as a squawking cry came at the door.

 

“Sesshomaru-sama, this lowly Jaken does not mean disturb you while you rest in your inner chambers, but your brother and his filthy ningen friends are here!” Not moving a muscle, Sesshomaru waited until he heard the light padding of feet before he backhanded Kagome, sending her flying through the shoji door that led to the hallway. Her naked body coming in contact with the offending wall that served to break her flight.

 

Her ribs protruded from her torso as she breathed heavily, trying to suck in as much air as she could, fearing that she would pass out and Sesshomaru would have his way with her. Kagome couldn't feel anything anymore…her battered body no longer giving her any pain as she withdrew herself into the deep recesses of her mind. She was picked up by her neck and lifted to face the beast that she would be living with. “Clean up, filthy ningen, and then join me in the dining hall. I will extend my hospitality to your companions, and allow you the freedom of enjoying their company.” He dropped her to the floor and spat on her, before turning on his heel to don his forgotten kimono.

 

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As soon as Sesshomaru turned and walked through the hole in the shoji door that had been a reminder to her that she should never disobey, she got up and fled to her chambers, leaving a trail of salty tears behind. Once she came upon her room, she flung the door open, slammed it, and launched herself onto her futon, not caring that she would bleed everywhere, but only worrying if she had enough miko energy to make herself look presentable for her companions.

 

`I wonder what humiliating things he'll do to me while they're here…He'll treat me like a pet…a toy…a whore!' She sobbed against her pillows, wishing that this nightmare would go away. Exhausted, she cried out in anguish when she couldn't summon enough miko energy to heal herself. `Dammit! Sesshomaru's going to be even more pissed…!' A fearful thought sprang to her mind.

 

However, a small, soft hand came down upon her shoulder. “May I help you, Lady Kagome?” Kirei was always there to the rescue whenever Sesshomaru decided to get rough. “I, too, am a healer, but it seems that you are too tired to heal yourself. Please, Lady, allow me.”

 

A bright blue light engulfed the both of them, and made Kagome feel elated, as if she was no longer at the palace, and the ass named Sesshomaru never existed. “A-Arigato, Kirei-chan!” She hugged her new found friend. “It's no problem, Lady, call if you need my assistance.” Kirei replied, a little distressed that the lady of the house was giving her a hug.

 

“Please, call me Kagome. I'll see you around!” Kagome felt new resolve against Sesshomaru; throwing on a pale blue silk kimono and a yellow obi, she brushed her hair and applied a thin sheet of powder to the still visible bruises on her face. Taking a deep breath, she walked down the stairs to meet Sesshomaru and the others.

 

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“Whaddya mean she's going to stay with you?!” She's our Kagome and our shard-detector! Go get your own!” Inuyasha yelled furiously in his brother's face, flabbergasted that his icy half-brother would even spare a glance in Kagome's direction. “What is she to you, anyway?!”

 

“Foolish little brother, if I'm not mistaken, you already have a miko for yourself, do you not?” At this he eyed Kikyo, who was standing behind Inuyasha, her hands bracing his shoulders. “Therefore, I'm going to keep this little miko for myself—my intentions are none of your concern. I will have her give you the rest of the jewel and you can continue against Naraku without her.” Sesshomaru retaliated. He would not allow his new possession to be anywhere near battle.

 

“STOP! Don't talk about me like I'm not even here! I can decide my own fate, thank you very much.” With that, Kagome made her grand entrance, half tripping, half running down the luminous staircase.

“K-Kagome? You look like…a hime…!” Inuyasha blushed as he stuttered out his compliment. “Uh, anyway, are you coming with us to fight Naraku or what?!”

 

Kagome blushed when she heard his compliment, and made her way over to stand next to him, but was caught by a strong arm. “Let me go, bastard! I'm not staying within 10 feet of you, monster!!” She was not fazed when she heard a low growl reverberating in his chest, warning her that she should stop her resistance. “I am not afraid of you…you will never keep me captive here. I-I'm not your possession!” She tried to wrench her arm out of his grasp, but to no avail.

 

“Kagome-chan! What has he done to you?!” Sango was instantly worried about her dear sister when Kagome's cheeks turned a light pink; her bruises were revealed to everyone, much to her surprise. “Get away from her! Are you abusing her?” Sango readied her Hiraikotsu, preparing to fight for her best friend.

 

Inuyasha visibly stiffened when he heard Sango's accusation. He quickly scanned Kagome's scent for any hint of blood or pain, and was assaulted by the tinge in her usually pleasant scent. “Kagome! Get away from him…I can smell your blood on him…What has he been doing to you?!” Inuyasha flicked Tetsusaiga out of its sheath, just to rile Sesshomaru up. No one would hurt his Kagome and get away with it.

 

“You sadistic bastard…Let her go!” Sesshomaru raised a brow and chuckled lightly before sending Kagome into a wall, and drawing Toujikin simultaneously. The two brothers rushed at each other, gritting their teeth against the clangs of metal that resounded throughout the room. Throwing a punch in Sesshomaru's direction, Inuyasha landed one; right on the left side of his face, making him stagger back a few steps. He recuperated instantly and lunged at Inuyasha, forgetting about his sword and successfully knocking Tetsusaiga out of Inuyasha's hand.

 

A collective gasp arose from each body in the room. `Inuyasha without Tetsusaiga!', was the thought going through everyone's mind. Rushing from her heap of silk in the corner of the room, Kagome was up instantly; ready to defend her first love even though he had broken her heart. Keeping watch of the battle, she screamed when Sesshomaru lunged at Inuyasha with speed difficult to see with the naked eye. “OSUWARI!” She hoped that it would work as she reached the discarded Tetsusaiga and flung it in Inuyasha's direction; a smile on her face when it landed in his outstretched hand.

 

“Arigato, Kagome! I'll get you out of this place!” He watched as Tetsusaiga transformed and readied himself to unleash the Kaze no Kizu, looking around the room for any hint of demonic wind. He smirked when he found the Wind Scar, opening his mouth to perform the attack, but was struck in the back with a spirit arrow.

 

“K-Kikyo?! What the fuck are you doing?!” Inuyasha spat out at the person he had trusted to never betray him again. “Just following orders, koibito. Do not worry…Kagome has someone to `take care' of her now. You can come to hell with me!” She yelled at Inuyasha, showing emotion that many in the room didn't think a clay doll could show. Her voice quivered, and her eyes were a blazing chocolate brown, flickering as she realized that this was her only chance before Naraku came to kill them all. “Come with me, koi! We'll be lovers in hell…where we were meant to be…!”

 

However, before Kikyo could take a few steps in order to cast her spell on the confused hanyou, an arrow imbedded itself in her heart, making pieces of clay fall to the ground, and souls escape to hell where they deserved to be reincarnated instead of trapped in a body that would only use them for evil. Kikyo screamed out in agony, reaching for Inuyasha, tears streaming down her cheeks. “Now is our chance to be together forever…now's our chance to find true happiness!”

 

Kagome ran at Inuyasha as fast as she could. “No, Inuyasha! You will never find happiness with someone who will only deceive you!” She laced her arms around his shoulders while standing behind him, resting her head against his back. “Please…don't leave me. I don't care if you went after Kikyo…Onegai, Inuyasha!” She sobbed into his back, clawing at his haori as sobs racked her small frame.

 

As if ignoring Kagome's pleas, Inuyasha rushed forward to tend to Kikyo, hoping that she still had a chance to live. “Kagome, give her the rest of her soul!” Inuyasha looked over his shoulder to yell at the idle girl. “This is the only way that she can live…the only way that I can be happy!” Kagome froze. Happiness had always evaded her…but she would not let it be so intangible for the person that she loved the most. Nodding her head, she picked up and arrow with a whimper, realizing that this would be the last time that she would see everyone…realizing that she was giving away her chance to be happy with Inuyasha.

 

`I have to give him this…Even though he denied me happiness; I will not return the favor.' She smiled her goodbyes at her companions, and looked solemnly at a shocked Sesshomaru, who stood frozen to the spot. However, before she could plunge the arrow head into her chest and let her soul take flight, strong arms wrapped around her, and green poison devoured the offending arrow that would have taken her life—the arrow that would have been her escape from unhappiness.

 

“Doushite?”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

WOOOOOW, that was eventful!

 

*Quick Japanese Phrase Recap*

 

Hanyou- half-demon

Youkai- full-demon

Ningen- Human

Taijiya -demon slayer (many will wonder why Sesshomaru gives Kagome a taijiya outfit when he's a demon…teehee ^^ I decided to throw that in there because I just like that outfits. Disregard the fact that it's for slayin' demons.)

Houshi- Monk (disrespectful)

Inuyoukai- dog demon

Taiyoukai- Youkai lord/leader of the youkai

Hime- princess

Hiraikotsu- Sango's boomerang

Hai- Yes

Iie- No

Koi/Koibito- Lover/love

Onegai- Please/I'm begging you

Doushite- Why

 

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