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Addiction

Chapter11 You - my weakness?

Sorry for being late with my chapters, anyway here's the story! And something else , because I want to concentrate completely on

'1 out of 12', and because I think everyone of you deserves that from me, I decided to finish 'Dance on ice' and 'Addiction' first, and then write '1 out of 12'.

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She hadn't told and he, he hadn't asked. She would tell him, tell him when she was ready, when she was ready to face whatever it was that brought her into this state.

She cried, cried from the moment he lead her to his car, to the moment they had arrived, and even now, in her room, on her bed, in his arms , she cried.

He had never seen her cry . In fact she was too strong to even consider such an option, but yet he had considered himself too strong to have a weakness, but yet he had, he had her.

Seeing her cry, made more stabs of pain run through his body, than all his enemys had.

Seeing her saphire eyes , clouded by pain, anger and shock, it made his eyes go red, his control slip.

Hugging her to him more fiercely, he let his hands glide through her raven tresses, assuring her he was there.

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...dead... whore... never...

The words kept echoing in her mind, kept demanding attention, demanding an answer, and yet and yet she could not give one.

She heard them. Heard their call to despair and more tears left her tired eyes.

But then she felt it, his caress, his touch, his soft voice whispering to her, comforting her.

His arms were around her, and she just realised she was in his lap, hugging his torso tightly.

,,I..." she started, barely able to find her trembling

voice...,,I ... killed....him...killed...." she sobbed uncontrollably...

She had, because of her, he had died.

,,Who?" she heard him inquire softly.

,,My father.... I was the one, and she, she found out....found..." again she broke down, expecting to be released, to be pushed away, shoved aside, but yet nothing like that happened.

He pulled her closer, hugging her more tightly,

asking her .

,,How?"

She remembered , remembered as if it had been yesterday.

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,,You have no right to decide over my powers!" a young raven haired-girl screamed at her father who was facing her, glaring at her with anger.

,,You will not ever use your powers again, you will lock them away, shun them, from your life!" the man yelled at her, anger evident in his voice.

never will" Kagome yelled turning to leave,

but stopped when she felt a painfull grip on her hand.

Turning around angryly she just cast a look at him and he suddenly crumbled to the floor, his eyes turning over with...with pain.

She looked at him dumbly, but then bent down shaking him, tears falling off her cheeks without her notice or consent.

Shaking him, over and over, she suddenly felt him tremble.She saw blood , his blood he was caughing his breathing becoming shallow, until....it stopped...

She looked down on him, let his body down, feeling his numbness...she looked at her hands...

red...crimson...blood....

It was her fault, hers all the way.

Standing she made her way home, never once looking to find someone, but yet she hadn't seen it, the shadow of a girl, who saw her.

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took off my clothes but never washed them,

instead I hid them, in the closet. I never told...not because I was afraid of them, no, because I was afraid of myself....because the tears I had cried were not of sadness but helplessness.

He was my father, and my miko powers..."

,,You didn't kill..." Sesshoumaru told her quietly but was interrupted .

know. It wasn't me who made that kind of

power errupt inside of his body so he would die. But I did nothing to make it stop, I knew nothing could. I may have not killed him, but to watch him die, helpless, was just the same.

I hid it from everyone, considering that if I acted normal, didn't use my powers it would go away, stop.They would leave. I respected my father's last wish...to not use my powers.

But Eri told her, told my mother that she had seen me that day, the blood on me, told her I killed him. It is true in a way."

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She hadn't killed him and she knew that...

'afraid of myself' she was afraid that if she told anyone they would die as well....and just like with her father she wouldn't be able to...

...to help.

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,,But you , you are my weakness" she whispered making him come out of his thoughts.

Looking up at him he saw the watery clouds in her marine orbs. He saw the small sad smile betray her thoughts.

,,You are my weakness... I told you and I won't be able to help....but now if you die..."

won't die Kagome." he told her , his amber eyes

holding a promise of steel.

,,Miko powers can not kill, they heal, but even so it seems you can not heal yourself...and you are right and wrong my love, I am your weakness and your strongest ally."