InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ After The Moment With You: ❯ Limit to your love ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Inuyasha barged into the abandoned hut nearly taking out the aged door off its frame. 'This'll do.' He thought inspecting the cold dark space covered in cobwebs and dust. He wrinkled his nose at the smell of rotting wood as his olden eyes glistened in the moonlight entering from a small hole in the roof. He looked down to the small shivering body in his arms, wrapped  up in his soaking wet Haori. 'Stupid, careless, wench!'


Kagome's face was nearly blue. Her body shook convulsively in his arms, teeth chattering loudly against her will, all her features seemed to screamed in pain and discomfort.


He shook her growling "C'mon wench don't sleep on me!"


"P-p-p-please" She quivered frowning as he shook her again.


Trailing in water as he walked into the hut, Inuyasha was soaked from head to toe just as much as the shivering Kagome, his Kimono sloshed and stuck to his body unpleasantly. He placed her on the ground gently, groaning out in discomfort at his sore muscles which ignited in a dull burn around his body, but he knew better then to complain about something as small as sore muscles. Kagome was much more worse off then him because she was just a mere human, he on the other hand wouldn't succumb to the coldness of hypothermia so easily. Thanks to his demon blood he didn't feel the effects of weather as prominently as humans, though the sense was still there.


'Shit! I need to get a fire going. She needs to heat up now, but that means I'd have to leave her alone,' He thought. 'Is it right to leave her like this?' Crouching down  beside her, he shrugged off the enormous yellow back pack from his shoulder dropping it at her feet.


"Kagome..." He grouted out, but it only earned him a mumble. "KA-GOME!"


"Mmm?" She grumbled cracking her eyes open, her clouded gaze struggling to focus on him.


"I'm getting fire wood, I'll be right back so don't and I mean DONT Fall asleep! You hear me wench!" He snapped.


"K-kay" She whimpered, her eyes drifting closed once again.


He shook her roughly and her eyes snapped open wide, earning a shaky gasp of pain from her cold lips. "Hum a song Kagome. Any song and don't stop! If you do, I will shake the life back into you!" He warned getting up and stopping just out the door to look back at her small form laying in the dark corner of the hut. Satisfied when he heard her weakly hum a tune he dashed back towards the Forrest where they had just stumbled out from, and scrummaged up all the stray wood he could carry.


As he re-entered the hut her ragged breathing and small moans were all that was left of the young woman causing a wrenching in his gut. She was getting worse by the minute, he needed to work quickly or things would get worse, dropping the wood in the fire hole in the middle of the room he could tell the clatter startled Kagome because her body flinched. He kneeled at her feet by her bag he pulled off his Kosode and tossed it. "Kagome where are your fire sticks?" he asked hastily, but no answer came 'fuck'.


"KAGOME!" he said louder.


Her voice cracked "Inu?"


"Where are your little fire sticks?" he asked carefully but impatience lined his words.


"M-my m-m-matches?" She asked through heavy laboured breaths.


"Yes, woman! Now where are they?!" he growled.


'Can't she see that she's...' he frowned at his thought and shook it away 'At least she's responding.'


"B-Bag, in Bag" she coughed out.


He was quick to open her bag but he found his efforts not fast enough, or maybe his lack of patients got the better of him, either way he ended up dumping out the contents of her bag onto the floor in a hurry. Everything was drenched and seemingly ruined by water damage, he frantically shuffled around in the wet instant foods, books, soggy papers, clothes and other things that Kagome thought to be necessities. Finally finding the little box that contained the fire sticks she called "Matches" he sighed in relief half thinking they would be ruined like the rest of the things.


He read the label 'Water proof? Kagome said that it meant something good, right?' Not wasting time to think of what it was that she actually said, he struck the match against the side mimicking what he had watched Kagome do for the past few years, but the confounded thing broke in half in his haste effort.


"FUCK!" He exclaimed loudly in frustration as he dug out another match and struck it again more gently, this match hissed and crackled to life and he carefully held it under the pile of wood which caught to the flame surprisingly quick for there being a lack of kindle. He leaned over her pulling off his damp Haori and tossed it into the fire. Unlike normal clothes his Haori was made from the fir of the fire rat so it was unaffected to flame and human made weapons.


He watched briefly as the dampness lightly hissed and disappear in a haze of steam. Kagome's drenched uniform clung to her skin showing the curvature of her body, her clothes were obviously no where near dry and a blush creeped over his cheeks in the realization of what he had to do next.


'Snap out of it! This isn't time for thoughts like that, she needs help jackass!' The better part of his consciousness chastised. He nodded to himself and began to do what was causing his mind such a fluster, carefully lifting Kagome into his arms he struggled to take off her blue blazer, and shimmied her white blouse over her head tossing it to the side and quickly worked on removing her shoes and socks. His hands shook nervously as he fumbled with the zipper of her skirt but, much to his frustration it became stuck in the fabric.


Ears flattening against his scalp, he frowned thinking 'I'm going to be sat to oblivion,'


With a long sigh he hesitantly raked his claws down Kagome's hip shredding away her blue plaid skirt, being very mindful of her delicate flesh and discarding the remains in no particular direction. Reaching over he prodded his Haori out of the fire and left it close by to cool down for a moment, it would be far too hot for her skin now. Looking over to her again, her skin pale like a fishes belly and the entirety of her body covered in goosebumps. His gaze meekly loomed over the skimpy white fabric/contraption barely covering Kagome's breasts, and his face shot up in flames when he looked down to the other matching white material covering her down… 'there'.


'Yup I'm definitely going to be sat to hell,' and with that last though he lightly fanned his claws agains his target, easily tearing off the delicate materials leaving her completely exposed and bare to him. His eyes widened as her breast sprung free from their prison and lightly bounced buoyantly. Her small nest of raven curls between her legs mostly caught is attention but he didn't take the opportunity to look for too long. His face painfully flamed up as he clamped his eyes shut, shaking away his embarrassment.


Inuyasha was going to use his own body heat to warm her, it's a simple survival strategy he learned about when he was young. He never had to try it before and he shuttered at the thought of exposing himself willingly to her, it proved harder then he thought it to be. This was Kagome, sure he had seen her naked many times before and he was sure he had watched her more times then she would ever know, on top of it all to bring her naked body flush against his?… Well that was something entirely different. He knew it wasn't sexual, how could he at her current position of vulnerability?


But he's male after all! It wouldn't be completely right if a gorgeous naked woman didn't get him all worked up, especially since it was Kagome; hell at least he wasn't as bad as the monk. Inuyasha wouldn't even think of doing something sneaky. But in his muddled mind images involuntarily sprung forth from a vault he kept tucked away, hidden in the deepest part of his cerebrum where he would turn to in his times of... 'need'. Memories of Kagome bathing and lathering herself warmly in the hot springs were haunting. His imagination would run wild and venture further then he was sometimes comfortable with. With raw, burning need and surging pleasure, he and her would be mindless in the throws of their passion, he would dominate every inch of her, and ravish her very soul and she would give into him willingly. His claws fisting her soft raven hair, fangs pressing against her tender flesh enough to leave red marks but not enough to break skin and she would call out his name to the gods, informing them of there un-sacred union.


He paused blushing harder and stoping his own thoughts from going any further. His hands shook as he fumbled with the knot of his belt 'Stop acting like a hormone crazed pup!' the voice in his head snapped.


He complied with himself, clearing his mind he steadied his hands, shedding his Hakama and throwing them into the fire like he had with his Haori. His body exploded in a whole new colour as his bare skin grazed against hers. Stoping to make sure she wasn't awake or anything he crawled over her body embracing her gently, taught breasts pressing firmly agains his heaving chest and in one swift movement she was on top of him. Her body was so cold and her convulsive shivering seemed to have worsened, he averted his gaze from Kagome starring off in embarrassment into the fire. Holding back his wandering thoughts he pulled his Hakama from close by and draped it over top of them, it still warm from the fire which gave him some comfort knowing he needed to get her body temperature back up as soon as possible or she may not come to.


Kagome's body quivered over him her small whimpers of pain caused him to instinctively wrap his arms around her to give her some kind of comfort. Focusing his attention suddenly back to Kagome as she slightly stirred, mumbling in her daze, "m'sorry m'sorry" over and over. "m'sorry Inu-Yasha"


His ears flattened and he bared his fangs as his previous anger welled back up from it's ugly depths coming with the waves memories from how they came to the position they were currently in.







***Earlier that evening***



He welcomed her embrace hesitantly his soul pushing her away but his body pulling her in close, a lump in his throat made it hard for him to speak but she was quick to beat him to the punch.


"I am happy with your choice Inuyasha," Kikio whispered to him gently, her cold body hugging him as warmly as she physically could. They stood alone together in the depths of the forest lights of souls illuminating the the small peaceful area, Kikio's soul collectors smoothly circled above them quiet as clouds, watching over their master. "I truly am."


"K-Kikio" He choked the weight lifting off him and feeling like he could finally breathe, wrapping his arms around her tightly cradling her head agains his chest. 'It hurts so much but-but I had to do this... for her.'


"I'm glad you've finally made peace with what has happened between us Inuyasha" she smiled to herself, "It took me a long time to come to terms with it but my travels in solitude have allowed me to be alone with my thoughts."


They stood silent in each others embrace savouring the much awaited peace between there broken hearts and shattered souls.


"I use to long to be embraced by you like we once had, like in this moment. But your touch is hesitant and slightly withdrawn from me," she sighed "but still even though my body cannot feel the emotion or warmth you once had I still remember how it felt"


He sighed closing his eyes to hold back the sting of tears, "Kikio I'm-"


"No…" she laughed painfully shaking her head and pulling away to look up at his pained golden eyes, she smiled placing a cold hand to his cheek. "never be sorry for what your heart feels Inuyasha we were in love but things have come to pass and now... Now we must mature and realize that what we wished for will never be one and the same, sounds simple when I say it in such terms but the complications are too great to bring up now, am I not right?"


He just nodded wordlessly.


"She will heal your heart Inuyasha, and she will save us from our torment and peril that Naraku has placed upon us all. So it is foretold," She smiled sadly in the realization that she could not cry for her lost love, "I use to think my resurrection as a cruse upon me for loving you and a cruel punishment for she to be in my stead by your side, but now I see it as a blessing for you. having something you've always wanted... someone to love you for who you are"


His body flinched "You would still wish to have me be human?"


"Of course not Inuyasha," she scolded "It was something I did wish for once to be free of the Shikon no tam but now I see my selfish ways. Our path wouldn't have lead us here where we stand now if it weren't for your mixed blood, you have been plagued by hard times due to it but you couldn't be as strong as you are now without it."


"But what about you Kikio, how is this anyway fair for you?" his voice rasped


"I was never meant to be an ordinary woman."


That struck a cord in Inuyasha, bowing his head to her shoulder his silver hair spilled over his face to hide him from the world and his back shook in the grief that he held in for so long. He had failed Kikio, she had been his first love, she was the first person in years to give a damn about him but they could never be together unless she was relieved of the Shikon Jewel. If he had wished upon the jewel to become human they could be together until the end of their mortal days and back then he wanted that more then anything in the world. All that was lost the day of the incident that sealed their fates forever. She had died and he had been pinned to the sacred tree for 50 years by Kikios arrow, he was not affected by time, had no thought, breath or awareness of the world passing by him and then fate delft him a strange thing. He was saved by the most unlikely person; the mysterious dormant Priestess of the future, Kagome Higurashi.


Maybe the gods were punishing his existence by to giving him the reincarnation of Kikio? Back then he had thought it was his past love for sure when he had first laid eyes on Kagome but her smell was so unique, she smelled of something so strange and different to Kikio he noticed that before he had even noticed her strange clothing to be honest. The scent of wild flowers and the strange musk of her world mingled pleasantly in his nose; she was exotic to his senses and it would come to be his comfort in hard times. But when Kikio was resurrected by part of Kagome's soul he was so torn between his love for Kikio and the misunderstood hatred he had for her betraying him and then Kagome… it fucked with him more then he will ever admit.


When the truth of Naraku came to light Kikio hadn't listened or wouldn't listen for that matter, something in her soul had become tainted by all that had happened between them, her passion and distaste for him was hard to deal with and like a lost pup he fawned over her rejection. Those lingering fresh feelings for Kikio kept him at a stand still, it left him confused, hurt and broken and like an idiot never realized just how much it might be hurting someone else, and like that idiot he was he did it again and again. Time passed though and his feelings grew for his Kagome... 'his Kagome'.  


No, that was selfish of him to think that as much as his demon agreed to the thought. She belonged to time and time alone he could remember the day he realized he loved her for not the fact that she looked like Kikio but for the fact that she saw right through him, saw through his rough demeanour and exposed him like never before, not even with Kikio. Although Kikio showed him that he could love, Kagome had taught him how to love, taught him how to open himself up to others, to protect the ones he cared for and to protect the ones he loved. These people, this unlikely group he was leading on an unfortunate quest in-returned trusted him with their lives, cared for him and gave him a family; something he hadn't felt or had since his late mother.


But time and time again Kikio called to him, and like a fool he would crawl back to her and opened old wounds for the triangle, he felt ashamed that he would have dropped everything to join Kikio in hell but at the time he felt like it was his obligation. Kagome showed him that he deserved so much more then what he had thought he did, showed him to be proud of what he was, which was a hard thing to do after being told all his life that he was a worthless halfbreed and belonged no where. But she slowly but surely convinced him and comforted him much like his mother had.


"Shhh Inuyasha it's all right," She cooed stroking his hair. "You no longer need to suffer for us"


"Thank you Kikio." He whimpered breathlessly.


She pulled him away and laid a light kiss on his forehead whispering "I will bless your union."


Inuyasha perked up, glancing to the forest, something had obviously caught his attention his were eyes wide and his ears alert. Kikio glanced back to whom he was looking at.


Kagome nervously walked out from the darkness her hands trembling.


"Inu..." she whispered


He pulled away from Kikio quickly realizing that it looked like a bad situation, Kikio must have noticed the same because she took a step away from him.


Kikio looked over at her reincarnation standing with a pitiful lack of confidence, legs shaking and fists clenched tightly she looked like she would explode. Kagome's gaze shot to her and a sting shot through Kikio's chest as if the part of the soul in her body that once was housed by Kagome was being pulled, and she gave her a sad stare.


"Kagome” Inuyasha gasped.


“Choose,” Kagome choked out, swallowing hard she continued “Please... right now, me or her because I can't... I can't do this anymore.”


Inuyasha paused staring at her glistening hazel eyes, the salt of her tears assaulted his nose. Her stare was scrutinizing he could sense her swelling distress, it rolled off her aura in waves hurting him as much as it hurt her. Why did she alway think the worst of him? Had he hurt her so much that her confidence in him was now shattered? He couldn't blame her he hadn't been truthful or straight forward with her in... ever! But he was trying to do the right thing now, he wanted to make her understand how much he regretted hurting her all those times, all he wanted to tell her was how much she truly meant to him. He wasn't a man or half demon of many words he knew his true feelings wouldn't come out easily but in time they would show only for her, in time he would show her all his sides and care for her the way she deserved to be cared for. But he couldn't find words for her now he couldn't even begin to explain to her how this looked, he couldn't even explain to how much she meant to him and how hard it was to love her the way he did.


He opened his mouth to speak but was cut short by the sound of a half laughter coming from Kagome, she started to back away shaking her head stubbornly, he reached out his hand in desperation. "Kagome, wait!"


"No!" She brokenly spat out "No... I know your answer I've always known your answer and I... I just thought that... things changed. To-to think that I was more then your shard collector after all these years.” Kagome quivered closing her eyes to let the overflow of unshed tears run down her rosy cheeks. "I'm so stupid" she whispered with a hurt smile. Opening her eyes to the ground she took up for one last look to Kikio her expression sad and pained as if she where saying, 'You win' and she turned on her heel fleeing into the thickness of the forest.


“KAGOME!” Inuyasha called watching her run, hesitating before he followed he looked over to Kikio.


"Go to her quickly Inuyasha she has the shard and although Naraku hasn't been found don't underestimate his wards whereabouts" she said her tone changing to business and just business but her face became soft once more "and make her understand Inuyasha..."


He nodded to her and dashed into the dark brush of the trees where Kagome had fled leaving Kikio, and his past behind in the small clearing of the forest.

...




Inuyasha was hot on her trail jumping from tree to tree following the scent of tears deeper into the forest, as he pushed off another branch jumping high into the air he caught a glimpse of white and blue moving quickly through the bush a few yards from him. Growling in frustration at how she managed to move so quickly and keep a fair distance from him, he was determined to not let that fly for another minute.


'When I catch her I'll...' his mind threatened.


He closed in on her quickly grabbing onto her elbow her stopped her rather roughly hearing her gasp of pain at his grasp.


"Kagome!" he yelled


She struggled to push out of his clawed death grip turning her body away from him protectively she screamed loudly "DON'T TOUCH ME!"


He felt his heart drop into the pit of his stomach at the echo of her words and his hand that held her close retracted immediately as if she had burned him. A silence fell between them and he watched with wide eyes as Kagome brought her hands to her mouth fresh tears threatening to spill from her eyes as if she didn't believe what had just said. All that was heard in that moment was the rushing of the near by river and the creaks of the Forrest.


'D-Don't touch me?' He thought wincing with inner pain he glanced down at his shaking hand, had he hurt her? Or was she truly afraid of him? Half ignoring his concern the arrogance got the better of him, frowning at her now he growled warningly 'What the hell!? She shouldn't be fucking afraid of me!'


"Damn it wench!" he barked and with that she attempted to turn and run but he grabbed onto her arm again jerking her back towards him again.


"No!" she yelled looking at him in shock as he pulled her in nose to nose. "SI-" he gasped and interjected before she could call out the full subjugation words.


"Idiot, will you just listen to me for a change!" He snapped but his anger faltered when Kagome's shock turned in to pure rage; a look that only Naraku had ever earned from the usually cheerful girl. It sent an uneasy shiver down his spine, half expecting her to give him the sitting of a life time or have her to purify his ass on the spot, he gritted his teeth in a nervous expectation of pain but neither came.


"I don't need to!" she snapped back pulling her arm away forcefully but he didn't try to fight her on it. She retreated from him hugging herself protectively her eyes darkly covered by her bangs, all he could see were her shimmering tears dripping off her face he had the urge to wipe them away but held himself back, "I was so stupid to think after all we shared, after all we've been through that something was there,"


"Kagome-" he tried to get in,


"But I was selfish to think that!" she continued loudly meant to block him from speaking "I've known for a long time I could never come between you and Kikio" she backed away more half tripping on her own feel and the tree roots scattered across the forest floor. He stepped closer to her each time hoping to close the distance she was trying desperately to have. "You two have something that I could only wish for, I told you I would stay by your side" she smiled sadly "I don't know where else I'd rather be but I realized, that what I wan't shouldn't matter" Kagome looked up into the star lit sky breathing in the cold crisp air her breath coming out in a haze making Inuyasha realize the nights feverish chill. "I guess I'm just not strong enough in more ways then one, maybe if I left it to her to hunt down Naraku you might get things done around here,"


His eyes went wide 'Wh-what is she saying?' He clenched his fist 'Ok, thats going too far. She's talking crazy now!'


"Make her understand Inuyasha" Kikios words drifted back to him.


'stupid wench wont let me get one word in!'


'Disipline our bitch for talking without permission' A gruff voice demanded within him 'make our bitch submit!'


Inuyasha frowned at it's demeaning words towards Kagome 'piss off! No one needs your goddamn opinion!' He argued seemingly with himself.


He suddenly realized that the roar of the river was exceptionally loud in the area they were slowly approaching 'Isn't there an edge to the river trench around here?' he knew it was close, dangerously close 'idiot she shouldn't be running around blindly in the dark!'


He could smell the fresh water mist of the river the smell was stronger now he figured the river edge wasn't even a few meters away possibly a little beyond the trees behind Kagome that she was currently backing towards. He held out his hand "Kagome. come to me." he demanded


She gasped at his tone "excuse me?"


He realized his tone wasn't too inviting "I didn't mean it that way woman, now wait!" Advancing on her but she moved quicker "Kagome be careful-"


"Stop it! Please just stop I can't... I just can't" She sobbed turning to run, but she clumsily tripped over a rock jutting out from the ground.


"Kagome!" He exclaimed lunging for her but she fell further into the dankness screaming out loud. Bursting through the thick bushes and over the other side he realized with wide eyes that they were falling head first down to the rushing river below. 'shit!' he didn't have enough time to react, grabbing onto Kagome he hugged her close to his chest and took the brunt of the fall into the river.


…He remerged from the dark water gasping for a pained breath, his chest tight from the throbbing sting across his backside, and took an extra moment for his vision to come back as he frantically waved in the water "Kagome!?... KAGOME!!" He choked out his voice echoing across the trench walls.


The impact had torn her from his grasp and he could no longer see through the onslaught of rushing water threatening to drag him under and through the darkness. The dim moonlight added a small advantage to his hazed sight frantically looking every which way for Kagome, the corner of his eye suddenly caught a glimpse of white submerging not to far ahead of him. It was Kagome's unconscious form barely staying afloat he swam to her desperately catching onto her hand pulling her in close and he continued to swim as hard as he possibly could towards the river bank being mindful to keep her head above the water.


Pulling her onto a large rock he laid her in his arms worryingly glancing over her for any injuries, his eyes fell upon her graceful moonlit face, placing a hand on her cheek patting her gently "Kagome?" His panicked voice shook, rocking her body gently he patted her cheek a little harder fear setting in. His keen ears could hear her struggling heart, he remembered Kagome's crash course in something called, CPR? What ever it was… She said it was good for people who have drowned. Pinching her nose like he had been told to do, he didn't hesitate on placing his lips over hers and used the power, 'the breath of life' Kagome had explained how to do.


Pulling away from her  and looking down in all his hopes that he did it right he shook her gently."KAGOME" he pleaded.


Her face suddenly frowned and she gargled on the fluids in her lungs spitting it up into Inuyasha's face. He grimly looked down at her as she struggled to cough narrowing his eyes "Gross" he mumbled


She growled at his remark, pushing at him "Get off jerk" she coughed.


"Keh! Thats the last time I save your ass from drowning then bitch!" he barked back "What the fuck do you think you were doing running around in the middle of the night alone Kagome!?" He sat up dropping Kagome from his lap on to the rocks crossing his arms into his sleeves and glaring down at her accusingly. All his worries had seemed to have washed away in her spit and water.


She winced and rubbed her rear in pain. "Jerk" he herd her grumble. "You're the one to talk!" she bit out standing up and challenging his posture, "I came looking for you! and I find you with-" She lowered her gaze and backed down shivering in the cold wind, "It doesn't matter now, look at where it got me anyway."


"Idiot" he scoffed


"Well I guess I am an idiot for ever-!" she suddenly gasped and whirled around searching for something "Where is it?" she yelped


He could tell something was wrong by the fearful look in her eyes "What?"


"My back pack Inuyasha! Where is it!"



Frowning at her accusing tone he sniffed "Keh, not my fault you lose your shit, river probably has all your useless stuff anyway"



"USLESS! STUPID HEAD! THE JEWLE SHARDS ARE IN THERE!!" she hollered



His mind went blank... "What! W-Well can you sense it??"



She shook her head chocking out "I-I can't,"



"CONCENTRATE DAMN IT!"



"I'M TRYING YOU…YOU ASS!" she yelled



He looked down at her in shock she never swore at him before, maybe he was a bad influence like she had said time and time again when he would cuss in front of Shippo. But never in a million years did he thing the word "ass" come out of her usually clean mouth.



"What the fuck did you call me!" Se yelled back



"Quite!" She screamed grabbing onto her head to block out his hollering, he gave her a moment to concentrate again but when she didn't move or make a sound soon enough he came over to her pulling her hands away from her ears.


"Well?" He snapped


"I... n't" she barely whispered through a blank stare.


Growling in frustration he was ready to snap, "Speak up!"


"I CAN'T!" She yelled in his face tears obviously ready to flow.


She didn't give him a chance to give her an ear full before she pulled away from him taking off in a spring down the river path, He caught up easily swooping her into his arms.


"Inuyasha?" She gasped


"What? You think your just gunna out run the river?" he commented dryly.


She bit her lip to hold a come back and shamefully looked away.


They ran for what seemed like forever, searching for any sign of her lost bag but the river proved difficult to give any clues. 'Crap' he thought, 'CRAP! Leave it to her to lose the goddamn jewel shards, AGAIN!'


'This is all your fault you bastard, don't blame Kagome' his conscience bit at him feeling a sting of guilt he knew she wouldn't have come out if he had just made sure she stayed in her time so he could have time to talk to Kikio privately without causing all of this bullshit. 'Stupid woman should trust me, giving me all of this "after all we've been through" bullshit you think she would fucking trust me!' But in his heart he knew he didn't have the right to expect that of her after all he had put her through.


"Oh! Inuyasha look!" She suddenly exclaimed pointing to the edge or the river ahead, he could see her yellow bag snagged on a log extending from the shore.


He landed near, and Kagome jumped off him running to her back "It's not here" she said before she even reached it grabbing the giant yellow sack and placing it on the ground to rummage into it, her two fingers stuck out of a rip at the bottom "It must have fallen out from here,"


Reaching over her he swung the bag onto his back "c'mon we don't have time to waste."


She nodded without a word as he picked her up again, he could feel her shivering in the cold but brushed the thought away more preoccupied about finding the jewel they ran not too far long the path until the shore disappeared into just hill sides making, it difficult for Inuyasha to run quickly without slipping down the slick muddy slopes.


"Feel anything at all?" he asked roughly but she didn't answer looking down at her in irritation he suddenly stopped running nearly slipping at his abrupt halt "Kagome?" he asked


Now that he had stopped he realized how much her body was shaking 'She's shivering like crazy!' He hadn't paid much attention to the cold, sure his body had become numb to it after a while but he could still function thanks to his demon blood. "Fuck" he cursed out loud. 'how could I be so stupid!' Kagome was just a human, weak and delicate her skin was so pale and her shivers where nearly verbal as she heaved for breath. Both their clothes were still considerably wet the thick mist from the river was at fault for that, but he couldn't think about that now.


"Kagome can you hear me?"


"S-so c-cold Inuyasha" she shivered opening her eyes up to him


"Stupid woman, why didn't you tell me you were cold?" he gritted


"D-did we f-find the jewel shard y-yet?"


Inuyasha frowned, "No Kagome we didn't, but we need to get you warmed up, you're going to get sick at this rate and then you'll be more useless."


"B-but the j-j-jewle" She wined.


"Shut up wench" he said leaving it at that and jumping higher towards the top of the cliffs back into the Forrest. He sniffed the air for the village but like he figured they had drifted too far from it to make it back in time before Kagome got worse, and to make it worse they were on the other side of the river. Sighing he looked down at Kagome again she curled up as much as she possibly could in his arms seemly concentrating on the pain she was obviously in, if he ran he could probably get to the nearest village within a half an hour, but the night was getting colder and the air he would pick up from the run would make her more uncomfortable.


"I'm s-sorry Inu-" she groaned through her shaking slowly drifting to sleep "I-I'm s-sorry I c-couldnt be m-more... like K-kikio"


"Kagome, stop being o fucking irrational! I went to Kikio to-" he didn't finnish his sentence as he noticed she had drifted off 'tell her later dumb ass she's not even half conscious!… And for the love of kami stop arguing with yourself!!'


He shook her gently, "Kagome you can't sleep." He lightly pleaded


"I'm so tired" she mumbled


"Don't care wench, your gunna have to wait till we find somewhere first"...


***End Flash Back***





Rubbing his eyes weary from the sudden exhaustion he tried to shake his anger towards Kagome, and the nagging pull his body had to get up and search for the shards immediately. He had to shake it off, what else could he do? He was lucky enough to find this little piece of shit of a hut barely standing up in the middle of the secluded forrest in a random clearing, and it was pure luck alone that led him there.


Glancing down at Kagome for some distraction he sighed in relief noticing that her colour was returning and although her shivering was still persistent, it was slowing down in intensity. He brushed the hair from her face a feeling forming in him that made him nervous, his demon was trying to surface he could feel his own rise in Youki and the burning in his veins.


'Just calm down' he told himself focusing on Kagome's peaceful face. She had grown into such a beautiful woman over the few years, she was no longer the short thin girl he knew her body as well as mind had greatly matured, her skin glowing with youth and her curves were so defining he caught himself watching the way she walked more often then none. The light pink of her plump lips seemed so inviting and not to mention the obvious change in her breasts that were currently pressed against him, everything was all to inviting about her. He didn't trust himself lately to be around her because of his little 'problem.'


'Claim her' a voice demanded "Fuck off" he hissed to himself shaking his head to rid of it but the voice was persistent, making him growl in annoyance. 'CLAIM OUR MATE!'


It wasn't until recent that his demon first spoke to him, at first he ignored the haunting voice but as it progressed he feared what it could mean. Hiding away from the group for nearly 2 weeks he had earned himself an earful from an extremely worried Kagome and an extremely disgruntled Shippo for making the young priestess so upset. It was true though he felt bad for not giving any warning knowing it was uncharacteristic of him to leave for so long without a single word, but it was for their own safety. Many thoughts had come to mind like: was his demon taking control of him? Was Tetsuiga no longer holding it back, he even went as far as to think he was dying from something he couldn't explain, and his demon blood was just a warning.


He felt sick to the stomach at the thought of losing himself, killing for the twisted joy of it and having tainted blood on his hands. The memories where still fresh in his mind and he feared he would hurt the ones he cared about, especially Kagome. Though he had never hurt her in previous transformations except for the time in Kaguya's castle where he had held onto her too tightly, nothing serious had happened, yet. It didn't mean that it couldn't and he wasn't about to take that chance. The demon voice in him hadn't said much at first but it would make strange disturbing comments about things that would occur in a seemingly normal day. Starting back when Miroku had put an arm around Kagome during a rather dramatic conversation about his love for Sango, which earned a fiery blush from the Demon Slayer and a few chuckles from Kagome. They had been on there way back to Kaede's village from an unsuccessful lead to Narakus whereabouts. It had hissed to kill Miroku the instant he had laid a hand on Kagome, Inuyasha never even realized he had growled loudly enough to earn a strange feared glance from Shippo and Kirara as if they understood what it had meant.


He shook it off and simply growled out for the monk to keep his hands to himself and pushed back the strange occurrence but a few other incidents happened where it would growl fiercely to have Kagome 'Submit' to him if she were arguing with him. His demon always seemed be louder when she was around. He also found himself disciplining the fox child more often, a light scruff of the neck here and there would usually get the kit to stop what ever that needed punishing for, but he found it off to be doing things a father would normally do to correct his young. His demon would even command to put Sango in her place when she and him where having a spat, and thats when it was getting to be to much. He was just thankful they didn't have any run-in's with the mangy wolf Koga or he knew he would have really lost it.


Seeking out the advice from Miyoga when he had left the group proved more difficult then he thought, the damn flea was no where to be found but when he had found Miyoga it was more like the flea conveniently found him for a much wanted snack. He explained what was happening and Miyoga's panic fed Inuyasha's fears, but the flea had asked suddenly how he felt towards Kagome lately. He squashed the flea for that, saying it wasn't any of his business and after that Miyoga seemed to know what was wrong.


He informed his demon was just initiating a dominant role in their pack seemed to make sense in his actions towards the group, being protective and territorial when Miroku touched Kagome, disciplining Shippo and wanting to show dominance towards the strong willed Sango, it made sense. His reaction to Kagome was Miygoas main interest spilling out some crap about how proud he was of his master to find his 'intended,' how his demon was claiming Kagome as his 'Mate' and how his mother would have been proud of him to pick a fine mate such as Kagome. But Inuyasha had been to embarrassed to hear the rest of Miyoga's rant although some of the information sounded important he was to stubborn to listen, it was just some fuss about marking and mating cycles. he already knew a bit about all that, he wasn't a naive pup so he found it time waisting and changed the subject.


He just asked how he could get it to stop, Miyoga said it would get better with time although he wasn't really sure how long, it was up to the demon he said and once he was able to control it he and his demon mind would become one and he would gain more power, what kind of power? Well, Miyoga apparently couldn't remember... useless flea. Miyoga announced that he would seek advice from the General of the Western Castle (Inuyasha's fathers domain) that had earned the flea another flattening, and Inuyasha barking that it was none of HIS goddamn business. Inuyasha hoped to never have to associate himself with those demons again.


Inuyasha closed his eyes at the memories flooding his mind all this was too overwhelming for him to deal with at the moment, and a naked shivering Kagome pressing against a certain part of him wasn't making it any better. He inhaled her sent deeply to calm his senses but it fuelled them making him spiral out of control his demon rumbling within, her sent was like a fine spice that pricked the back of his throat making it hard to swallow. Kagome was his mate he knew it deep in his soul as much as he knew he didn't deserve her he couldn't live without her and he knew how she felt; sure he hadn't realized it earlier but he knew better now. Trying to calm his nerves he now focused on the sound of her heart beat which seemed to help greatly.


She groaned in her sleep whispering his name breathlessly, earning from him a heated flush.'Is she dreaming of me?' he couldn't help but wonder smiling with a drowsy grin, listening to the rhythm of her heart. 'Just be ok Kagome.' was his last conscious thought before he drifted off into a rare deep sleep.TBC...A/NYay first chapter done and I'm feeling pretty good about it! I hope you enjoyed it too! :DPlease write a comment if you like, constructive critisism is fine too I'm always willing to take suggestions and learn from my mistakes :)Next chapet: Kagome finds our favorite Half demon quite naked underneath her. DUN DUN DUH! haha what will her reaction be?
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