InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Between Love and Hate ❯ Chapter 5~Reflections and Remorse prt 2! ( Chapter 5 )

Between Love and Hate By Mija

Disclaimer~I do not own Inuyasha and Company.

Chapter 5~Reflections and Remorse part2!

~~~For almost two weeks Kagome hadnt slept or eaten or done anything of late except to visit her friend in the hospital. No her friend was not the one there but her mother was. It was not the first time her mom had been there and Kagome always wondered how a inteligant, beautifull, and stront woman as her friends mom could or would indure her husbands abuse. She was in the hospital because he had put her there, he had beaten her to a point that she had been committed to the emergency ward to make sure she wouldnt pass away.

~~~Kagome had always wondered about her friends mom. How could any woman stay with a man who hurt her to the point of putting her into the hopital...how could she still love him after he had broken her arm but still said he loved her? Why would any woman choose to live that sort of life and submit her child or children to that as well??

~~~This went thru Kagome's mind and she thought about her and Inuyasha. After all he had done, after killing her she still loved him. She couldnt help it. She feared him but she also missed him desperatly and wanted to see him more than anything in this world. Did that make her a bad person? Did that make her blind and stupid? She always believed women who let thier men dominate them and beat them were weak and not real women. She abhored this sort of violence and pain. But of all the things she had heard or witnessed herself she could not seem to put Inuyasha in that catagory.

~~~ooh what was she to do? Her Mind was in turmoil and she didnt really want to think, but that was not an option. Everyday she thought about Inuyasha and everything that happened..she felt the grief the tears and the pain..but it seemed that she couldnt cry anymore...

~~~Kagome thought of all kinds of things. She thought of all the times Inuyasha had called her wentch, broad or bitch. Yes Kagome hated these words but internally she had accepted them as him and his way of communicating, but now?? She wondered. She wondered about alot of things and most of all she wondered how she could still love a man who had killed her?? he was worse than men who beat and abused the women the claimed to love. Was she any better than the women whe always thought stupid for their folly's?

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~~~Sesshoumaru had smelled him. Had known what was going on. It was surprising to say the least, and more surprising to say the least that he had even giving a damn about it all. He had been traveling on his lands and inspecting them when he had smelled death, and another scent. The smell of his little brother. He had thought of leaving him to his fate but then he grew angry. How dare the half breed think he could discrace him by dishonoring his payment to him and dying! He could not allow it. So Sesshoumaru had followed his brothers scent and found him. When he did Sesshoumaru was agast at what he had seen and didnt think he would ever forget it. Yes he did not care about his brother, bu the site of him seemed to put an ache in his chest he did not like at all.

~~~When Sesshoumaru found Inuyasha it was not a pretty site. Sesshoumaru had always thought his brother was a no good mongrel but to see him in the state he was in now was not what he had ever thought he would actually see Inuyasha in. Inuyasha was in a deep hole in a tree. Nothing more than a small cubby hole. He was dirty and caked in mud. He smelled foul and he looked as if he had not eaten in ove a week. The skin on his bones and face were like looking into a skeleton. He was pale and he had deep circles around his eyes. Sesshoumaru didnt really know why he did it but, before he knew it he was carrying his brother to his castle and setting him up in one of the fine rooms he had. At one point Inuyasha had awakened.

"Why???................why have you bought me here?" Inu asked with no tone, putting Sess's tone to shame.

"You have yet to fullfill your payment to me little brother."

"I dont give a fuck about your payment............alll I want is to die..........." Inuyahasha replied blankly. Sesshoumaru arched his brow and looked at him.

"So you would go back on your word and forget your payment to me?"

"yes." Inuyasha replied without hesitation or thought. This did not please Sess at all.

"So if you choose to break your word and promise then I should as well...know this little brother..........If you die before I have recieved my payment from you then i will hunt down this wentch of yours....no matter how long it takes I will find her and kill her........leave her in the state I first found her in." Sess stated without an emotion, Inuyasha looked at him and knew he meant every word he spoke.

"No......Please dont punish Kagome for what I did."

" Then keep your word."

" I will............let me tell you now." Inuyasha suggested, because frankly he wanted to die and he was sooooooooo close to it......he was thin and had not eaten in a week or drank a drop of water of liguid so it would not take long. But he could not let Sess hurt the woman he loved, especialy after all he had done to hurt her.

"No......I told you I would chooose the time an place for this story and you will not dictate it to me......you will just have to live and control your desire to perish till I know what I wish to know...but till I wish to know then you will live and be well and go on till our deal is done.if not then I will find this wentch and put her back into the state I found her in little brother." Sess threathened. But in all reality, even if he would not admit it. Sess did not like that his brother was starving himself and willingly killing himself for this human woman. It was a mystery to him and he admittledly wished to know what had caused his half breed brother to kill his own wentch.

"Sesshoumaru would you do me one last favor after I have full filled my debt???" Inuyasha asked sadly and without much emotion, which startled Sess...since it was his job to be soo cold and emotionless.

"And this favor would be what?" he asked stoicly.

"After I finally pay me dept to you will you kill me??? or at least let me die on my own?" Inuyasha asked sadly but determidly.

"Why should I care what you do after you pay your debt to me little brother?? I dont care what you do after wards." Sess replied although inside he knew he did. Why? Why did he care? Why did the gauntness of his brothers body make his chest tighten? Why did the pain and sorrow in his eyes make his gut clentch? He did not know but he would not make it worse. For some far off reason he did not want his little half breed brother dead right now. Not by starvation of his own hands. Not by the villagers or his own friends..if any one where to kill him he wanted it to be him and no one else.

"Thank you..." Inuyasha stated out of the blue wich really starled Sess.

"For what?"

"For coming to my aid and bringing back Kagome for me."

"But as i see it little brother she is what is making you want to die.........how could you thank me for her return when it is her life that is making you sick?"

"Easy.........she is all that is good and pure............i made a mistake of falling in love with someone an something like that and now I have to pay the price for my stupidness........It its not stupid to fall in love with such a being but stupid to thin she could ever love someone like me.........I had hoped......I had dreamed and wished........ and then I fucked up........now I will pay for my mistake and gladly do it if it will make her happy...." Inuyasha replied as he looked at his brother with surprise. But since he could not find fault then he would not say a word. He was confussed of course, he wanted to know what had occurred and what was going on now, but if he asked then he knew it would give his brother reason to actually end his life, not that he hadnt tried already, but he had the feeling that he would no doubt use this to help him succeed in his quest...and Sess was not ready for that. YET.