InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Broken Dreams ❯ Only You ( Chapter 39 )

Broken Dreams

 

Chapter dedication to `YourBeautifulDisaster', who was my 600th reviewer.

 

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An extra long chapter for you guys. Trust me, the long wait was definitely worth it!

 

Chapter 39

 

Only You

 

“We'll stop here to camp for the night.” Raijin muttered, stopping. Inuyasha and Kagome also came to a half. Inuyasha lifted his head and sniffed.

“I think there's a hot spring near by.” He said. He glanced at Kagome out of the corner of his eyes, catching her gaze with his. And to the relief of both, neither broke the look. “It's been weeks since you had a decent bath. I imagine you'd want to go?” Inuyasha asked. Kagome bit her lip. The last time she had had a hot bath was about two weeks before she got separated from Kouga and her friends. And even then, baths were less common then before, mostly because Kagome tried to avoid them. Kouga usually bathed with her, and that inevitably led to activities besides bathing.

“Sure, I guess. If you wouldn't mind keeping watch?” She replied. Inuyasha nodded.

“Raijin, would you want to set up camp?” He asked, turning to the hanyou. He frowned when he saw Raijin's current state. The raiden-hanyou was sitting against a tree, breathing deeply and eyes wide. Inuyasha ran to him and knelt down. “Raijin, what's going on?” He asked. Raijin swallowed.

“I…I'm not sure.” He replied. A beam of sunlight struck Inuyasha in his scarred eye, and he looked away, raising a hand to block the light. The sun dipped low and vanished beneath the no-longer distant mountains where Raijin was leading them. Inuyasha blinked away the light and turned back to Raijin. And gasped.

“What…what happened to me?” Raijin asked shakily. He slowly raised a hand. A human, clawless hand. Raijin's sun-gold hair had dulled to dirty blonde. His shining eyes darkened to light brown. He looked himself over and struggled for words. “I…I'm…”

“Human.” Kagome whispered. Inuyasha and Raijin looked up at her. “You don't have a youki anymore, it's gone. You're human.” Inuyasha stood up and stared at the still colored part of sky where the sun had just set.

“It's your human night.” He muttered. “It always feels weird the first time. I think, I don't remember my first night fully. You get used to it though.” Raijin nodded and slowly stood up. He took in a quick breath through his nose.

“Is this what it's like to be human?” He asked, looking up at Inuyasha.

“Weak nose, weak ears and weak eyes? Yeah, I remember those symptoms alright.” He said. Raijin squinted into the distance and blinked rapidly before squinting again. He reached up and rubbed his ear, frowning.

“It feels weird…”

“Like I said, you get used to it. It's not so bad after a while.” Inuyasha said. He remembered that some of his human nights were actually his favorite. It was the one night his human side overrode his inner defenses and let him spend time with Kagome. All in all, weakened senses usually were worth a night of peace.

“I'm going to bathe.” Kagome said. “That is, once you show me where it is?” She asked. Inuyasha nodded.

“Will you be okay here by yourself Raijin?” He asked. Raijin looked up from his human hands.

“What? Oh yes, I'll be fine, thank you.” He mumbled, looking back at himself. “You take Kagome, I'll set up the fire and…that.” He started looking around for firewood while Kagome and Inuyasha walked into the woods. Raijin looked himself over again and smiled. “So this is what it's like to be human…” Raijin held up his hand and mentally conjured a ball of lightning. Nothing happened. His powers were completely gone. His hanyou looks and senses were gone.

“It's like I'm normal…” Raijin said to himself. He chuckled and went back to collecting firewood, enjoying a brief moment where he was a normal human, not a hanyou created by pure evil for nothing more then killing. Tonight, even if for only tonight, Raijin was himself, and not some twisted spawn of Naraku. Nothing, Raijin was his own man.

 

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`I'm not going to long, I'm not going to look, just a quick peek, NO!” Inuyasha mentally slapped himself as he heard Kagome undressed behind him and slip into the water. It wasn't the first time he had spied on her, but this time was different. He couldn't get attached, not when they were so close to defeating Naraku and completing the jewel. Not when Kagome was about to leave him…it was too bad that Kouga had destroyed the well. If not for that, Inuyasha would never wish anything on the jewel and merely keep the well open. But that wasn't much of an option anymore.

“At least this time he's in plain sight so I can make sure he doesn't peep.” Kagome thought. She figured the hanyou frequently spied on her in the past when she bathed. She wasn't always sure when he did it, but she was sure he had done it a few times. It was rather flattering to imagine that the hanyou might actually want her. Hell, the idea of sex, thanks mostly to Kouga, and also to a maturing mind, wasn't so scary. A 15 year old was terrified of sex, but an experienced 20 year old woman? Not so much.

Kagome forcefully shook her head. “Forget it, you are NBOT having sex with Inuyasha.” She scolded herself. Inuyasha looked up and sniffed the air.

“I think it's going to rain.” He called.

“Oh? Should we head back to camp?”

“It probably won't rain until morning, you're fine.” Inuyasha assured her. Kagome nodded and cocked her head at the hanyou. Ever since she had met him, there was one thing she had wanted to do, if only he would let her. And in his current position, he would be in much of a position to fight back…

Inuyasha was calmly sitting, waiting for Kagome to finish her bath. Then he felt a hand grab his hair and pull his backwards. Water rushed up to his scalp as he sputtered from the splash and looked around. Kagome's upside-down head filled his field of vision.

“What's the big idea?” Inuyasha demanded. “What are you doing?”

“Washing your hair.” Kagome said simply. She gathered a handful of water and let it run down the clumps of matted grey. Inuyasha had to admit, the feeling wasn't unpleasant as the warm hot spring water washed over his scalp. But Kagome! She was nude, in the hot spring, and right there! Okay, in his current position, he couldn't see anything below her chin. But if his head had been a few more inches over the water edge, he would have been able to crane his head down further. A perverted part of his mind wondered if he could shuffle a little closer to the water, and Inuyasha wasted no time telling that part to shut up.

“God, look at all this.” Kagome muttered, looking at all the dirt and general grime washing into the spring. The familiar silver of his hair was returning, but god, the state of it! “You never did take care of your hair properly.” Kagome scolded, dragging a few strands between two of her fingers, grimacing at the build-up that was left.

“Well excuse me, I was busy forgetting who I was for the last three years.” Inuyasha joked. Kagome snorted.

“And I was busy having sex with Kouga for three years, but I don't use that excuse.” She shot back. The second the words were out of her mouth and Inuyasha jerked up, Kagome regretted them. She mentally kicked herself and reached to grasp the hanyou's hand. “I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that.” She said softly.

“I know what I'm going to wish on the jewel.” Inuyasha said suddenly. He turned to look at Kagome out of the corner of his eye, using all his willpower to keep his eyes on hers: where they should be. “I'm going to break the mark and send you back to your family.” Inuyasha explained. Kagome blinked.

“Oh…ok…” She said, turning away. Inuyasha frowned and turned fully around, comfortable he wasn't going to see anything too bad with Kagome facing away from him.

“What? You get your family back and get free of Kouga, I figured you'd have a happier reaction than `oh'.” Kagome bit her lip.

“I was going to wish you back to health.” She said. Inuyasha snorted.

“I don't matter Kagome. I've been mocked for years, and that was before Naraku got his hands on me. I'll be fine.”
“That's not the point!” Kagome hissed, spinning around. Inuyasha gulped and squeezed his eyes shut as she clasped her hands around his. “You may be okay with it, but I'm not! I don't want you to have to endure any more insults, for whatever reason you get them! You shouldn't have to deal with them.”

“It's a part of my life Kagome, I can live with it. You shouldn't have to deal with Kouga. You can go back to your home and find someone else. I don't want you to suffer.”

“I'm not going home if it means I'd have to leave you to do it!” Kagome said. “I do miss my family, I've missed them every day, but not as much as I've missed you!” Inuyasha growled.

“Damn it girl, can't you be selfish just once?” He asked. Then Kagome's words sank in. “What did you say?” He asked, opening his eyes. Kagome smiled and tightened her grip on his hands.

“I never wanted anything more then you. Don't you understand? Every night for three years, I dreamed of you coming to save me. I can live without my family, I can live without showers and TV and my time. But you? Do you have any idea how much I missed you? I cried off and on for a week, I barely ate and almost never slept. I can't live without you, Inuyasha. You've been my world for five years, ever since I pulled out that stupid arrow. And I'm not going to let you kick me out of you life like that. I'm not going to lose you again.” Inuyasha sighed and reached up to rub a hand over Kagome's cheeks.

“Kagome…I can't be your savior this time. Even if I can kill Naraku and Kouga, I'll probably die in the process. I can't be the man you need Kagome.” Kagome turned her head slightly and gently pressed her lips to Inuyasha's palm.

“Then just be you. I don't care what you aren't, you're enough to me, and that's all I've ever needed; you.” Inuyasha smiled, the first real smile he'd had in years.

“Kagome…” Any further words were silenced. Neither of them were sure who leaned forward, but one or both of them did. Inuyasha's other hand reached up to cup Kagome's cheek as their lips gently pressed against each other. Kagome moaned softly and reached a hand to tangle in his newly-silver hair. Inuyasha's tongue ran over her lower lip, and she eagerly opened herself to him, letting him taste her. Kagome pulled back and brought Inuyasha into the hot spring with her, never once breaking the kiss.