InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Do What You Have to Do ❯ Chapter 12: With Apparitions of Your Soul ( Chapter 12 )

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Title: Do What You Have To Do
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Sesshomaru mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/ Kikyo
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, Incest, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Do What You Have to Do" by Sarah McLachlan

Chapter 12: With Apparitions of Your Soul

I found myself in a quiet calm and warm place. I felt hands on my legs moving and bending them, as if afraid I would never be able to move them again. I felt the same set of hands work on one arm and then the next and I couldn't help but feel annoyed and I moaned to let the individual know my displeasure. The movement stopped and then I felt those hands on my face and blinding light entered my right and then my left eye. I moaned again and then it stopped.

I was left to my warm sanctuary once again.

I felt the same thing once again and as I felt the bending and stretching of my legs a constant chattering had ensued. I couldn't follow much of what was being said but my limbs twitched and I tried to stop the constant massaging of my arms, hands and fingers by squeezing the hand that massaged mine.

I was eventually left alone.

This continued within an extended period of time until finally I fought to open my eyes. Light, blindingly white stung my eyes causing them to water and I closed them only to open them and blink repeatedly. At this I heard much noise and then a blurred face appeared above mine. I saw the blurred white outline and two blue orbs and then closed my eyes. It was much later amidst the familiar chatter that I felt a dampness move across my eyes and face and I opened them again to stare up at the slightly less blurry face of an older demoness with deep ebony eyes and long flowing white hair with her sides in a pair of braids.

My mind fought to put a name to that face and then as she gave a small smile it came, Aoiyuki.

I found myself awake at last and I fought to move my head in order to look around and found it difficult. I could tell that I was still in my quarters and I saw that nothing had really changed. I worked to sit up and found it just as difficult if not more so. Everything seemed to work, it was like trying to move a marionette. I was a stranger in my own body.

I sat there and took everything in slowly, glancing around my quarters, turning my head until my neck no longer felt stiff and even getting it to crack once or twice. I focused on my fingers, hands and arms next until they too were once again movable. Aoiyuki sat back and watched quietly observing or waiting in case I needed her assistance. I licked my lips and found them dry and slightly cracked and tasting like fresh bee's wax. The thought caused my stomach to growl.

I saw a glass of water on my nightstand and no sooner had I thought of reaching for the enticing clear liquid than I found the glass in my hand and a very doting Aoiyuki now at my bedside. I lifted the glass to my lips and drank slowly, wetting my parched throat. I cleared my throat once and then twice before attempting to speak.

“How long have I been asleep?”

“Sleep isn't what you were doing; it was as if your body had put you into a coma. Lord Sesshomaru said he had seen you like that once before but this time it was without a spell,” she replied while watching me.

Without a spell…Oh, Kikyo's arrow, the tree…but how…?

My hands wrapped around my body and found that it was easier than previously. It was then I realized and everything began to fall into place. I looked down at my belly and found it flat, upon opening my robe I found my belly now renewed and without its previous stretch marks.

“How long,” I asked again, feeling nervous.

“A little over six months.”

I felt my breath catch and I forced my legs over the edge of the bed, ignoring the pins and needles and forcing myself into a standing position, wobbling as I did so. I stood beside my bed until my feet felt steady and made my way to the mirror atop my dresser.

Upon looking into it I saw myself and I almost looked to be who I was before I had birthed Ryusei. My hair had grown to its original length. I shook my head and turned to look at Aoiyuki.

“My pup…did it….live,” I asked feeling my throat constrict.

“Yes, you delivered a healthy baby girl. Lord Sesshomaru has named her Chiouka, Chi for blood and Ouka for cherry blossom. He thought it a good name.”

I couldn't help but cry aloud. My pup had survived and it was a daughter. Chiouka; a beautiful name, I had to see her.

“I will call for a tub to be brought up. Bathe and get dressed and then I will take you to see your daughter.”

I nodded and sat on the edge of my bed. It hadn't taken long for the tub to be brought up and my usual servants came to fill it with hot water, stopping to bow in my direction and offer sincere greetings and congratulations on returning to “the world of the living”.

Had I died? If I had, had Sesshomaru brought me back to life?

I shook the dismal thoughts from my head for the time being and tried to think about my daughter. Who did she take after? What color was her hair? Did she have my eyes? I continued to let the questions fill my head as I watched bucket after bucket of hot water enter the tub.

Once the tub was filled I watched as Reika filled the tub with tuberose petals and a bit of dried tangerine and lemon peels.

“The tuberose is your usual scent but the tangerine and lemon will revitalize you. Wouldn't want our Lord to fall asleep again.”

I smiled and watched as she set a stool by the tub as well as a foot stool which she piled with soaps, towels and rags.

I watched her leave and made my way over. I stripped the worn sleeping robe from my body and slowly lowered myself into the warm steaming and fragrant waters and allowed my weary muscles a respite from their aches. I laid there until my water became luke warm and then I dunked my head, wetting my once again long locks. I used the soaps and rags and scrubbed every part of my body, toes to nose before soaping up my hair and using a special soap which was very similar to Kagome's “conditioner”. I rinsed my hair and grabbed a towel, patting myself dry before I grabbed another and wrapped it around my body. I grabbed the last towel and wrapped it around my head and hair before exiting the tub.

Atop my bed lay two sets of kimono. One was a simple set of golden yellow, pale yellow, bright orange and red with maple leaves done in gold and silver threading. The second was a deep red, white, pale pink and palest orange with phoenix's adorning it in multicolored stitching. I opted for yellow, finding it a calmer and more invigorating color. Judging by the kimono colors and counting back I could safely say that it was once again Fall. I had missed the end of Spring and all of Summer.

I couldn't help but wonder what my son and now daughter had learned and done in that time. Six months had once seemed a drop in the bucket but now it felt like an eternity had passed while I lay in my dark world.

Reika returned to my side once again and roused me from my gloomy thoughts which I more than appreciated as well as her help in putting on the kimono and its many layers, my recovering limbs not much on intricate knots and tying this day.

When we were done I sat and watched as Reika pulled my long locks away from my face, looping my sides and letting them stay beside my face the rest she put into intricate loops and left the rest free flowing down my back.

“I'm beginning to enjoy having others do my hair,” I said as I saw the final result.

“I heard that Lord Sesshomaru does as well but you didn't hear it from me,” she said with a wink.

I stood and followed her outside of my bedroom and into my quarters where I saw my son. He had grown so…much, my son who was now eight. He saw me and his face lit up.

“ChiChiue!”

He launched himself and I caught him, his arms nearly wrapped around me and his head came almost to my chest.

“Ryusei…”

I wrapped my arms around him and bent to place a kiss atop his head.

“I missed you, ChiChiue. I talk to Chiouka all the time and I tell her all about you.”

My eyes teared up and I wiped them quickly before squeezing my son tightly.

“Come ChiChiue, I'll take you to see her. She is with Rin-neechan.”

“Rin,” I asked clearly confused.

“Yes, because you were asleep we had to find her a nursemaid and Rin who just birthed her own son just two months after Chiouka's birth had begun producing milk in her seventh month and had no qualms sharing it with Chiouka,” answered Aoiyuki as she entered.

I nodded and even though everything said made perfect sense it still left unease in my heart and mind. It was also then that it had occurred to me that I would still not be able to tend and care for my daughters' nutritional needs since my milk had dried up while I was in my world of darkness.

I sucked up the urge to sulk and instead put on a brave face, ready to see my daughter.

I was lead by the hand by my son who followed behind Aoiyuki. We left the hallway in which my quarters were and made our way down the stairs and past many surprised guards and servants who looked as though they had seen the walking dead, then again I was up and about after six months of deep sleep so I suppose to them I had been dead. In Kagome's time it was not so unusual for one to wake up weeks, months or even years later but here I was betting most were buried alive.

I was brought out of my thoughts when we reached the opposite end of the castle. An area where guests were often roomed and where Rin's quarters had been moved after she and Kohaku had become a mated pair, as Sesshomaru had put it.

Aoiyuki knocked on the door and it took only a moment for the door to open revealing Kohaku who gave a small bow in our direction.

“Come in, Rin just finished nursing Chiouka and Hotaru. Give her a moment to change them and she'll be out.”

I nodded dumbly not really hearing the reply that Aoiyuki made nor the rest of their conversation for in that small space of time Rin entered the room, an infant balanced in each arm. I saw that the small child that Rin had been was no more and what stood before me was a doting mother. She was pretty and motherhood seemed to suit her. I probably could have noted more things about her change from child to adult but the children in her arms now had my undivided attention.

In her right arm was a boy child with short tuffs of ebony hair and the deepest brown eyes. His pudgy hands clung to Rin's kimono as she walked closer. He had to be Hotaru, Rin and Kohaku's son.

The other child was no doubt my daughter. She was a sight that stole my breath just like Ryusei had when he was born. She had the most beautiful moonlight blue tufts of hair and eyes the color of the harvest moon, too gold to be yellow and too yellow to be considered amber. Her skin was like marble which caused her developing demon marks to stand out along her eye lids. The tell tale moon of her sire absent from her forehead at this time.

She looked at me and then at Rin and then at me. When Rin held her towards me I didn't hesitate in taking her into my arms. I inhaled deeply smelling that smell that only infants had. She was my daughter, my second child who I had almost lost.

I held her close and nuzzled her hair and she seemed to do the same. I moved to sit atop a pillow in the corner of the room staring in her amazing eyes as I did so. She stared back and as I sat we blocked out the others around us, lost in our silent conversation.

I sat with her in my lap and I gently caressed her soft milky tresses and tickled her by touching her pointed ears, causing her to giggle which was in itself a beautiful sound. I was disappointed to see that her eyes resembled her fathers, there would be no doubt who her sire was, and she was a female version of him and reminded me of his mother who had confronted me months prior to her birth.

She leaned forward and patted my cheeks before tugging playfully on my hair, her fists wrapped in it. She tugged until I leaned down further to prevent hair loss and it was then that I realized her real target as I felt a sharp pain atop my head. My ears, the little minx seemed entranced by them and after the initial pain causing tug she seemed just as pleased to pet and touch them which I preferred to the tugs she had given earlier.

Eventually she let go and I set her on the floor and watched as she rolled over onto her knees and proceeded to crawl around the room giggling as Ryusei began a game of keep away with himself as the prize.

I engrossed myself in them, not noticing the sudden change in atmosphere or the figure standing behind me.

“She's quite a handful,” was spoken aloud causing me to jump up onto my knees.

There he stood, looking the same as he always had. Just as arrogant and emotionless as I remembered.

“I see you have recovered fully Inu Yasha.”

I stood up and moved back from him and closer to my children who had stopped playing.

“I wouldn't say fully but I am awake.”

He stared at me like he was assessing prey and then looked back up and into my eyes.

“Well since you're awake I think it best this be said while the incident is still fresh in your mind.”

He paused and I had a feeling that he was going to say and do something stupid if he hadn't already.

“You are to remain inside the castle grounds at all times. I have informed all guards and servants of this as well. When you carry again you will be limited to the castle only. We will NOT have a repeat of last time.”

His eyes narrowed and I felt an invisible noose tighten around my neck as I fought to breath, all breaths caught in my chest after his announcement.

He took a step towards me and I stepped back. His eyes widened momentarily and then returned to normal. I don't know what he saw in my face but I could feel the raging emotions running rampant and I was not keeping them concealed on my face.

I locked them down and stopped the painful need to scream and carry on and instead gave him the same dead look he always gave me. Conserve my energy. I would make sure this would not be the last time this subject was brought up, but for now I would let it be. I didn't plan on leaving the castle anytime soon but that didn't mean I hadn't thought about it.

If he thought I was going to carry again he had lost his mind, especially if he thought I would be carrying his again, let alone have to bare his touch again.

I felt a hand wrap around mine and saw Sesshomaru look down and then back up at me. He turned and left the room and I could feel the shaking of my knees and hear the pounding of my heart. I fell to my knees and grabbed Chiouka from where she crawled beside me, holding her against me. I don't know how long I sat there, only that Rin removed my crying daughter from my grasp and Aoiyuki helped me to stand. I was lead from Rin's quarters and back to my own, my sons hand in my grasp until I was led to my bed.

“Ryusei, go and play. Your father will be fine, I promise.”

I watched as he left and felt my breath catch. I was alone….

I was in a castle of fools led by a tyrant and I was alone. All of the people in this castle were loyal to that monster aside from my children and as Ryusei left I felt my composure slip and the tears ran freely down my cheeks.

“Calm yourself Yasha. Do not let what Sesshomaru said hurt you so. He is a fool we all know this but he will relent. You must not let him get to you.”

I looked up into her ebony eyes and laughed, although it sounded too harsh to call it laughter.

“He employs you, it is your job to pacify me and he will keep me locked in here as his whore and pup factory. He will turn my pups against me and I will forever be the fool. The talk alone will set my ears on fire. He is Lord Sesshomaru's whore! He makes pure blood babes! He is the Lord's fuck toy and nothing else. He will make me into something I'm not.”

Her hands pulled me against her chest and she began petting my head, “He can only do that if you let him.”

“But he'll find a way. It will be as his mother said. I will be fucked and pupped and then he will leave me to be with another and I will be left behind to watch.”

As I said it the words from my conversation with Sesshomaru's mother came back to me and I stopped my sobbing. I looked into Aoiyuki's eyes and felt mine become a void of emptiness.

“Can you remove the organ that creates pups?”

She pulled away from me and looked down at me with sadness in her eyes, “Not without killing you and I won't let those pups grow up without their birth sire.”

“Sesshomaru's mother mentioned a tea….can you make it?”

“A tea, I know it to work on females…I don't know of anyone who's prescribed it for males but we could try.”

I felt a small hope return at that one sentence.

If I could persuade him I couldn't carry then perhaps he would let me be.

Perhaps….

To be continued….

Still addicted to Yoshida Brothers.

This story seems to be the Yin to Cornerstones Yang. In this story I have made Sesshomaru out to be a bastard but I don't consider him one and I am not intentionally trying to make him a bad guy. He will eventually realize his faults but it will take a lot to get him there.

Kat