InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Do What You Have to Do ❯ Chapter 29: By the violence ( Chapter 29 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Title: Do What You Have To Do
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Sesshomaru mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/ Kikyo
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, Incest, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Do What You Have to Do" by Sarah McLachlan

Chapter 29: By the violence

As morning came I found myself exhausted and stressed more than I could ever have imagined as I stared at the Lord and Lady in our wagon sipping tea like they hadn't just said something so simple and life changing.

I fought to put a face to the name he had spoken and I couldn't and then an image of the youkai with the golden eyes that seemed to burn you with his gaze, his cheeks emblazoned with crimson markings along with his eyes framed by the ivory locks left tumbling down his back.

“I am curious to hear of your great adventure though that startled doe eyed look says you yourself cannot recall it.”

I don't think Lord Pacchiri was trying to be cruel with his words and yet they stung. I hung my head and fought the heat behind my eyes and with it I felt anger so hot and overwhelming that I blinked back the oncoming tears and lifted my head and growled at the lord and his lovely wife.

“It's not like I intended to lose my memory! Why do you feel the need to come off like a pretentious asshole!? There's this old saying about kicking someone when their down, perhaps you should learn it dipshit!”

“Shiro!”

It wasn't just one voice that chastised me and I could have cared less.

“Apparently that's not my name. What is it you called me, InuYasha?! You know what if my mate is anything like you then I am pretty sure I am better off without him and his stuck up crowd. Perhaps it is better that you just leave and pretend you never saw me.”

I was exhausted after my tirade and I felt a little bit immature and impudent after my outburst and yet I felt vindicated as I got those words off my chest.

I was expecting to see anger and outrage and what I found instead were two grinning faces full amusement as Lord and Lady fought back laughter.

“Oh you have finally found your backbone I see,” Lady Amira mused as she looked me over.

“Sesshomaru had told us over the years how vexing his younger brother was and how much it irked him that you were so wild and uncouth and then when the two of you mated he seemed so lost to see that you had all but lost your spark; lost that wildness and fight that you had in you,” Lord Pacchiri was grinning as he crossed his arms over his chest to look me over.

“That spark is still there and perhaps this time your brother can keep it from being extinguished.”

I blushed and crossed my own arms over my stomach and snorted as I turned to look away.

“We would like to be your winter patrons but instead of our own humble abode I propose that we travel to The Great Lord Sesshomaru's home. It isn't but a few days travel from here and I believe you would be quite the New Year's gift even with your current ailment and loss of memory.”

“We would be much obliged my Lord Pacchiri,” Naomi replied bowing in his direction with Midoriko following suit.

“Good…good. I will see to it that my men gather supplies for our travel and tomorrow at dawns light we shall head out,” and as he said it he stood and bowed in my direction. He offered his hand to his mate and they stood and left the wagon wishing us a peaceful days rest.

It remained quiet for a while after their departure and then their eyes finally fell on me and I could feel the questions that hung on the end of their tongues.

“I still can't remember everything so don't bother asking. I think I can put a face to the name Sesshomaru but I can't recall much of our relationship.”

“We're not trying to pry, I simply hope that this is a happy reunion and not one that will leave any of us with regrets,” and as Midoriko spoke I couldn't think of a reply.

“Let's not dwell on it. Let us rest for now. A few hours sleep will leave us refreshed enough to pack up and see to our departure early tomorrow,” I sighed and lay back down on my bedroll, my child actively pummeling my insides couldn't keep me from the exhaustion that pulled me into sleeps warm embrace.

I dreamed of the golden eyed youkai once more and in this dream he had his arms gently wrapped around my body as he held me close in a big comfortable bed while he gently took full advantage of my body. We had sex…no not sex…we made love. This intimidating and volatile youkai made love to me as if I were the most precious thing he had ever held in his arms. I turned in this dream and looked up into those deep pools of molten gold and saw not hatred or disdain but something sweeter, happier. I was pretty sure what I saw now was what could be called awe and what one could call affection but it looked a bit deeper and more complex.

I awoke to the comforting swaying movement of the wagon with tears gathered at the corners of my eyes and my mind filled with questions that I could only hope would be answered when we arrived at the home of the Inu Youkai Sesshomaru.

I couldn't quite call him brother or mate; he was foreign and the words seemed just as foreign and yet I couldn't imagine the little being inside of me being raised without the one who helped to make him or her. I sighed and wiped my face and looked around the wagon finding it empty and dim. The swaying of the wagon told me we were on the move. I sat up fully and managed to get into a standing position. I stretched trying to ease the ache in my hips and back as I maneuvered my way to a curtained window. I pulled aside the curtain and looked outside seeing that the sun was high in the sky letting me know it was noon and that we still had a long day of travel ahead of us.

I watched the scenery pass us by and oddly enough found it slightly familiar but I couldn't say why or when I had seen it. I sat on the box that had become a convenient window seat and saw someone on horseback come up the window giving a slight bow as he caught sight of me. I gave a small smile and nodded my head back at him and watched as he rode on ahead.

Time passed and my mind wandered to the youkai as thoughts of the grand lord's palace filled my mind with amusing thoughts of grandeur, things cleaned by servants and each meal a feast thanks to cooks and maids. I looked down at my plain pale orange kimono and looked over the sleeves that were beginning to look haggard and frayed. I certainly didn't look fit to be visiting a lord in his palace and I sighed and looked back out the window watching as the view of trees, bushes and the occasional hillside went past.

A foot stretched and I watched the movement through my kimono where it was stretched tight across my ever growing belly and rubbed gently amused as movement was felt on the opposite side.

“I suppose our lord will be well and truly surprised to see the two of us. I highly doubt he expected to retrieve a broken brother and mate who is practically ready birth his child,” and as I spoke the words I couldn't help but dread this meeting a bit more.

I felt my poor abused bladder crying out for release and just as I was about to open the window and call out for a break we slowed to a stop.

I waddled to the wagons door and opened it standing face to face with an amused Hiroaki.

“I figured you'd be desperate for a break about now,” and as he said it he set the small set of wooden stairs down and before he could fully step out of the way I had all but waddled quickly down them and past him. I probably amused most of the group and even some of Lord Pacchiri's as I all but ran with my massive girth into the woods and found a patch of well grouped bushes.

I sighed in relief as I lessened my bladders burden, finding the need more important than any embarrassment my quick departure had caused. I sighed and readjusted my clothing and stood as tall as I could and waddled slowly back to the wagons which had been arranged into a large circle, made larger by Lord Pacchiri's two wagons and his four guards riding along on horseback. I watched as a guard helped Hiroaki to build a fire while Naomi and the twins began the arduous task of starting the night's meal.

Lord Pacchiri's carriages were grand and done in the finest woods and materials available but much like our simpler ones his seemed just as well traveled. As if thinking of him had pulled him from his carriage I watched as Lord Pacchiri followed by his wife Lady Amira exited their larger carriage and came to stand beside me.

“How are you feeling,” Lady Amira asked with a soft smile.

I rubbed my belly trying to calm both my nerves and the little one inside, “I suppose I can't complain. I am more than ready to be finished carrying this small one, though I don't wish for an early delivery. I would just prefer not to have my innards abused.”

She laughed softly and covered her mouth with a well manicured hand, “Oh, I do remember those days quite clearly. You will as well one of these days.”

At my questioning look she smiled brightly, “You and Lord Sesshomaru have four children already.”

I felt my eyes widen and then heard a pot clang to the ground loudly. I looked up around and found that everyone from the troop was starring in my direction. I would have been amused to see that Hiroaki had dropped a pot of rice he had been rinsing on the ground but I myself was too shocked to fully take in their reactions. Lady Amira laughed a soft and gentle sound that almost made me want to smile.

“My dearest speaks the truth. Your oldest is in his twenties…I believe he will be twenty two in a few weeks, your daughter has recently turned fifteen I believe and your twin sons are now eleven. You have been quite loved InuYasha,” Lord Pacchiri said with a wide grin.

I couldn't help but look down at my belly at his statement and think the same thing since I was carrying once more. I stood there and tried to picture my children but my memories seemed so mixed up and jumbled.

“Can you tell me their names,” and as I asked I felt foolish and horrible for not knowing the names of the children I had held under my heart for nine months and then birthed and raised.

“Only if you promise to remove that look upon your face,” and I looked up shocked feeling chastised for allowing my emotions to show so openly.

“Don't get me wrong InuYasha, I am neither angry nor disappointed, I simply don't think you should berate yourself for things that are beyond your control. Sesshomaru and I are as close as two members of Youkai society can be and perhaps even more so and I can say that he thinks quite highly of you and that from the little I have heard of your life you are truly a strong individual who seems to always find trouble in the oddest of circumstances; so much so that I wonder if you had wracked up some bad karma in a past life.”

I nodded and tried to clear my mind and face of negative emotions, “I will take your words to heart.”

He gave me a smile and nodded, “Your eldest is named Ryusei, your daughter Chiouka and your youngest sons are Hissorashi and Haderashi. They are all well raised and I quite enjoy seeing them with every visit though at my last visit they seemed quite disheartened at your disappearance.”

I nodded and felt my chest ache once more though I fought not to show the guilt I felt.

“If ever you doubt your mate's feelings I want you to know this; he called together any Youkai lords who would come and asked their assistance in locating you. When Lady Megumi had insinuated you had runaway he insisted you had given your word and said that was one thing you always stood by.”

Lord Pacchiri's playful smile left and in its place was a seriousness I didn't know he possessed and looked out of place on his usually smirking visage.

“It is true. Sesshomaru had quite the search party assembled and though our meeting seems mere coincidence I assure you that it is not. Somehow your brother had received information on your whereabouts and since we happened to be close we investigated ourselves,” Lady Amira smiled happily whilst I blushed and nodded.

“Now why don't you go sit, your poor ankles are swollen.”

I smiled and nodded and made my way over to the fire that had been started and sat down on a seat that Hiroaki had offered me. I snuggled into my kimono fighting to stay warm when a heavy fur cloak was laid over my shoulders. I looked up into Midoriko's smiling green eyes.

“So you have four children,” she asked with a smile.

I nodded and wrapped my arms in the fur cloak pulling it further around my body, “That's what I'm told. I have memories of a son whom I am assuming is Ryusei my eldest.”

She smiled and nodded, “That's good. You don't look like a parent to four soon to be five children but I am not surprised. You do seem to be full of surprise.”

I sat there comfortable in my fur cloak and watched as food was prepared and as those in the camp did various jobs. I felt like I should help but I was exhausted and sore and when Lord Pacchiri's guards offered to do my jobs of seeing to the horses and mules instead, I didn't argue and instead offered my thanks.

The sun had begun to set and torches were lit along with lanterns to light up our camp. Food was served and conversations were had and I sat there taking it all in and simply enjoying the comfort of what seemed like normal routine since I had joined the troop.

“Does the lord know we are coming,” asked Naomi during our meal.

“I saw to it to write a missive and sent it with one of my men ahead of us the morning we had talked. I will admit that I wasn't too descriptive, I simply told him I would be arriving in a few days time with guests and that he should be awaiting my arrival.”

I saw the mischievous grin take over his face and knew he was troublesome and I was betting that he constantly drove Lord Sesshomaru up the wall and was probably not his favorite acquaintance.

“You two are truly alike; you and Sesshomaru that is. You both give similar looks of disbelief and annoyance. I do enjoy seeing surprise on your brother's face, though it is such a rare treat.”

I rolled my eyes and continued eating my meal of warm rice and rabbit stew. Pacchiri continued to talk and most of the troop listened raptly to his every word but I found myself bored when his topic of conversation became himself, which I could assume after only knowing him two days, was his favorite topic of discussion. I ate another bowl of rice and went to relieve myself once more before I finally bid every goodnight and retired to the comfort of the wagon. I was more than ready to strip down to my inner robe and cover myself with blankets and furs.

I had done as I had planned only after pulling out my book and once more writing in it the details I had learned this day. I was sure to write down the names of children I could barely remember and odd details about Sesshomaru and I had even created a chapter for Lord Pacchiri and his beautiful wife. With words on paper and a sketch here and there I finally bundled down on my bed roll and allowed the exhaustion and excitement of the day pull me into a deep enough sleep that not even my child's endless tumbling and stretching could keep me from the dreams that sleep brought.

To Be Continued…

This story is fun to write. Thank you all for your reviews and hopefully you like the ending I am working towards. Happy Valentine's Day~!!!

Kat