InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Doll Parts ❯ Violet ( Chapter 2 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

I hadn't lived in this place my whole life, this place where I am constantly fake and problem free...with a strange boy constantly on my mind and a crumbling life. We actually moved here about two years after my father died, when everything started going way down hill for my family because of me. And I think that is another one of the reason's my mother and I don't see eye to eye on much of anything. I know she doesn't hate me or anything, but after we moved she just kind of detached herself from things stopped putting herself in a place where she would have to care. I would too if I was her...but what I did still haunts me, its the whole reason why I'm so fake...so unclean and sad.It was a little before my 15th birthday. And everything about my fathers death was still raw in our minds and had hurt us all deeply. It was like he was our string and without him we slowly came undone.I was walking home having just left my friend Harumi's house, and I was thinking about everything we talked about. She had told me that her older cousin Hiten was coming to town and staying with them for a month or two. She said that he was really popular and that he drove a really nice car. When she showed me a picture of him I was instantly hooked in. What girl wouldn't swoon over a dark eyed, dark haired mysterious looking man? And by the time I had gotten done telling Harumi how much he looked like a god, it was eight o'clock.I didn't really rush home, and no nothing bad happened to me then...that would be kind of cliche, don't you think? But when I got home I did get berated for not calling my mother and telling her I was on my way home. She was detached but she still had to care a little. I simlpy nodded my head through it all and while the rest of the week passed I had started to mentally count down until I would meet this Hiten guy Harumi was telling me about. I really wanted it to be instant love when we saw each other. And I really just wanted to fall into his arms and for him to hold me tight and tell me I 've been what hes looking for his whole life. It didn't exactly happen that way though...because I was a fourteen year old idiot."Kagome...my cousin Hiten came this morning. You wanna come to my house after school and meet him?" Harumi spit out before taking a huge bite out of her sandwhich."Hell yes!" I said smiling like a fool."Cool. Remember to call your mom and tell her. My mom always gets pissed when my friends parents call her mad.""Yeah...fucking bullshit, you think they'd get we know how to take care of ourselves by now.""Ehh whatever." she said laughing.We had walked home together after school, and I was happier than a fucking pig who hadn't gotten picked to slaughter that day. But soon after I entered her house that happiness turned into nervousness, and I found that when the time came to speak to him I was a quiet bumbling idiot, not the practiced confident hottie I wanted to be."Hiten! I've got a friend I want you to meet!" cried Harumi upon opening the door."Yeah yeah hold on a mintue!" came a undoubtedly male voice from atop the stairs. And as I swallowed the lump in my throat another appeared, because standing right there before me was the god I had obsessed about to myself all week."Heh, she looks like a scared puppy." "Hiten don't be a jerk. This is my friend Kagome. Kagome this is Hiten." my friend said smiling to me."Hi, nice to meet you..." I commented quietly, before smiliing a little."You look cute when you do that. Smile I mean." he said so dashingly"Ummm thanks...I guess..." "Uhh should I leave you two alone or is this love scene over?" at that comment I blushed as if my head was on fire and tried my hardest not to kick my friend so hard in the shins that I would break them."Harumi..." said Hiten."Yes?""Get a life." and with that he turned and walked up the stairs before adding "And I'm picking you and your friend up from school tommorow."I can't believe you said that!""What its not like he really cares. Hes 17 Kagome I think he got over taunting like that long ago.""Well it still embarassed me.." I said hanging my head slightly."Oh don't worry about it. After all...he didn;t offer to pick me up before you came into the picture..." And at that I was hooked and reeled in. All he had to do now was make the move and I'd definelty be his.And the sky was made of amethystAnd all the stars were just like little fishYou should learn when to goYou should learn how to say noWe were both riding in his car,me and Harumi that is, and though it wasn't a nice fancy car since his dad made him buy it himself, it was good enough for me. The best part about it though was that he was flirting with me the whole ride home, and telling me what pretty eyes I had and how soft my hair looked, while Harumi made gagging sounds in the back. And when we came upon my house I smiled and waved goodbye, with him promising to give me a ride the next day. To say I looked starry eyes when I entered the house would be an understatement, I was probably glowing. Nobody noticed though...and though it deflated me a bit I was still pretty damn happy that a hot guy was interested in me. And that was why I was so blinded as to see what he really was.It had been a few weeks that I had known him, almost a month and I thought. No I was sure that I was in love with him, and I thought that he loved me too. Or at least cared about me deeply...And I would gladly do anything for him because I was so fucking entranced, I was so lonely and sad and I was really just looking for someone to cling to, for someone to replace the hole my father had left behind. And so...when he asked me to give my virginity to him...I agreed.I wasn't really sure mind you. I was scared as hell and really deep down I knew it wasn't right, it wasn't right at all. I was stupid though so caught up in the attention, and the idea of love."You sure Kagome?" came his voice as we laid in the ack of his car."Yeah. I'm sure." I replied quietly."Its gonna hurt okay?" all I could do was nod dumbly and stare like a doe in headlights.As he entered me with my panties and skirt discarded on the car floor, his pants around his ankles I opened my eyes wide, feeling them water up and the warmth of my tears fall down my face. It hurt. It hurt so bad, and the hurt had never gone away either, it stayed with me through the whole ordeal. I kept quiet though and I wrapped my legs around his waist closing my eyes and trying to take enjoyment in what was supposed to be the most pleasureful thing us humans can do.He kept whispering things to me, things that made me feel slightly dirty yet good at the same time. He grunt out "Ohh baby so good. So tight." and really I had almost no clue of what he was talking about, I just kept doing what I thought was right and soon after he moaned and I felt something in a way fill me up inside. He soon got off me and kissed me delicately before smiling and pulling his pants up. I ginerly pick up my underwear and put them on, then the skirt, there was some blood on my thighs and I hurt badly down there. All I really wanted to do was go home and take a shower, I couldn't tell him that though."So...where did you tell your mom you were going tonight?""I said I was going to a friends and that her dad would drop me off later." came my timid reply."We'll have to do this again okay? Right now though I better get you home.""Okay..." and with that he climbed up front into the drivers seat, and I stayed in the back, a little hurt he wanted to get rid of me so fast but relieved to at the fact that I could get into a nice hot shower.Might last a day, yeahMine is foreverMight last a day, yeahMine is foreverWhen I had gotten home that evening my mother had fallen asleep in her bed, and my brother was playing some random video game ignoring the world he left behind when my father did. I silently creeped my way into the bathroom up stairs and stripped off all of my clothes, and turned on the shower. Gently I scrubbed my skin trying to forget the image of the pink tinted water going down the drain. I did regret what I had done, but I was happy that I made him feel good. How fucked up was that? And really that was only the begining because it seemed almost every other night he would take me out in his car and fuck me for the next twok weeks, and pretty soon I started to like it. I was his whore, but I didn't know it yet, I still held the belief that I was in love and that he cared for me. Everything for a while was going great.Soon though everything came crashing down as I found out I was pregnant. The first thing I did was cry and lock myself in my room for a whole two days, which no one noticed. Then I tried to get over the rightful fear of my mother and telling her and Hiten about my situation. It went on like that for about a week, and then came the day when I knew I had to tell her. "Mom...""What is it Kagome?" she said to me plainly."I...I really need to tell you something...something very bad..." my voice was trembling, my hands were shaking and really at that moment I just wanted to curl into a ball and die. "What is it dear? Come on tell me!" her eyes were worried now, the instinctual fear for her child kicking in."I'm...I'm mom I can't tell you! You'll hate me! You'll hate me!" the tears burst out then, and I crumbled to her feet holding onto her ankles as tightly as I could sobbing loudly not even trying to regain my control."Kagome? What...wha?" her voice quiet now. "Tell me Kagome...please!""I'm pregnant mama...pregnant..." came my whispering voice."How...how can you be... I mean when did you?" she knelt down now and held my face between her palms."I've been seeing this guy...hes older...and I didn't want to tell you cause I knew you wouldn;t let me see him...""For this very reason Kagome! Oh God honey what are we going to do! Does he know?""No...I can't tell him mama! I just can't!""Then I will." her voice seemed angry determined and for once in my life I was very afraid of my mother. "Whats his number!" she snapped, and timidly but quickly gave it to her, crying the whole time."Hello this is the Haruto residence.""Yes...is..." she looked to me for his name and I told her. "Hiten there?""Speaking." And that was when all hell broke loose..."You fucking pervert! How could you do that to my daughter!""What what are you talking about woman!" I heard his voice yell over the other line and instantly my tears started again."Mom...mom please! Please mom!""You hear that! Shes crying! Crying because you got her pregnant!"And all of the sudden there was silence, and the world for me froze...how could this happen to me?"He hung up on me! Kagome. Come on get up. Now we're leaving.""Where are we going?""You're going to show me where this Hiten lives and we're going to pay him a visit.""Mom no! NO NO NO!""DON'T YOU YELL AT ME! YOU BOTH ARE GOING TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR WHAT HAS HAPPENED! Do you understand me?" her voice was loud and full of venom and I swallowed my voice and spoke through my tears, following her at a dreadfully slow pace to the car.When we got there it took my mother fifteen minutes of pounding on the door for them to open. And we didn't exactly get a warm welcome. "GO AWAY! There is no way that kid she has is mine! I never touched her." was all he screamed and I briefly saw Harumi and her mother and father in the backround. Hurt coursed through my body at his words and I instantly fell to the ground."My daughter is no whore!""Well seems like it to me if she got herself pregnant.""How dare you! You know you're the father! My daughter would not lie to me about that!""Are you so sure Mrs. Higurashi? I mean she didn't lie to you about being out with a boy. She probably pinned this on poor Hiten because of his kind nature torwards her because of her fathers death." spoke Harumi's mother."Its his! ITS HIS! ITS HIS! I'm not a WHORE! I'M NOT!" I screamed making all eyes go wide and torwards me. "I'm not a whore." I whispered again and again before I passed out.When I woke up I was in my bed confused. And sitting up right and glancing around everything crashed back to me and I started to cry. My mother came into my room quietly and sat upon my bed, before rubbing my back in an effort to calm me. When I quieted she began to speak in a very rehearsed calm voice, telling me my option."Honey, Hiten won't take responsibility. And I'm sorry I have to say this, but you have to have an abortion...you cannot take care of a baby at this age sweety! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! It has to be done!" and with that she started to cry while I had suddenly become numb. An abortion eh? Kill the child inside me? Take a life so mine can be better? Could I really do that?Well they get what they want, and they never want it againWell they get what they want, and they never want it againGo on, take everything, take everything, I want you toGo on, take everything, take everything, I want you toAnd the sky was all violetI want to give the violent more violetsAnd I'm the one with no soulOne above and one below"When would it be done?" I said quietly."Wha..what?""I said when would it be done." my voice was calm even though everything inside me was raging and swirling."This Sunday...we'd do it on Sunday. I already scheaduled an oopointment for you."Okay...I want you to leave now please..." was all I said before turning away from my mother and cry the rest of the night.Might last a day, yeahMine is foreverMight last a day, yeahMine is forever ~~~~~I didn't go to school all that week, but I had a sneaky feeling that everyone at school knew about my mistake because Harumi told them. And I was sure I didn't look like the victim here...When Sunday came I felt dread weigh me down like a two ton brick, and I really wanted nothing more than to stay in bed. I didn't though, somehow I got up and somehow I made it to the clinic. And when I came inside I instantly felt the sadness there, I looked to all the eyes of the woman in the waiting room and saw the regret and failure in their eyes. I saw the deep seated hatred for the one who made them come to this. I saw the hatred for themselves. And I knew that if I did this I'd never be the same.And as I signed in and heard them call my name...I knew I'd never really forget the child I never gave a chance.~~~~~~~~~~And that was all just barely over a year ago. And when we moved and came here to Tokyo, I knew I could start over and make sure no one ever knew what happened and that it would never happen again. For a while I even pushed it back in my mind...but when I saw InuYasha...and his eyes...and the hurt that lie there, everything rushed back to me. And my world slowly went out of control...And now my perfectly glued puzzle is falling apart...because of his stupid hurting eyes...and my need to break free from this emotional prison.When they get what they want, and they never want it againAnd they get what they want, and they never want it againGo on, take everything, take everything, I want you toGo on, take everything, take everything, I dare you toI told you from the start just how this would endWhen I get what I want, then I never want it againGo on take everything, take everything, I want you toGo on take everything, take everything....~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`Alright there is the second chapter. And since I'd like to know what you think, review please! Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha and co. , nor do I own 'Violet' by:Hole