InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Doll Parts ❯ Good Sister Bad Sister ( Chapter 3 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

I hadn't slept well in a week. Images of my past kept coming to me, and I found my bed to be rather uncomfortable lately. As I had said before I had a sneaky feeling that Harumi had told the whole school about my tragic and painful disposition, and it was right. I also said that I wouldn't come out of it looking as the victim, I was right about that too. It seemed nobody would look at me or talk to me, and all my suitors from before were utterly disgusted with me, and it was a week after all of this happened that my house was vandalized. Thats when we decided to move. And when I came here I couldn't help but feel the relief that came to me in waves at not knowing anybody.I was given a completely new slate and I knew how to use it. Pretend I was still an innocent virgin, and mask every feeling of pain I've ever had. Simple right? At first it was, and I thought I could continue on forever...but lately...I've been breaking and...I can't help but feel a pull torwards the strange boy with golden brown eyes... I of course didn't like him at all. I really was just interested in him out of sheer natural curiousity. What could make his eyes hurt so much? Did he wonder the same about me? And why did I care? As you can see this all weighed heavily on my weakly constructed wall and I was scared to be the outcast again so I easily was becoming frustrated.Good sister bad sister Better burn that dress sister Scar tissue, blood blister Suck upon the dregs sister And it was while walking home from school that I found my freedom. His name was Kouga, he had dropped out of school I had heard about a month before I came, and before you start thinking things my release in him wasn't sex I had learned my lesson from that not too long ago...but it was drugs. He was the best guy to go to I learned from listening to others and that he was all business. Now I just needed to find him, and that shouldn't be too hard considering that my friend Ayame had a freakish obsession with him. All I had to do was meantion the color blue and she'd be on and on about his fucking eyes, and then she'd move on to how he had such great hair and such a toned and tanned body, then of course I'd tune out. "Ayame...""Yes Kagome?""What color was that dress you wore to the dance with that one guy last year...it sounded really pretty..." It was a really lame question I know but if it got me what I wanted I didn't give two shits."I went to the dance with Kouga last year...and the dress color was the same color as his beautiful eyes. And the shoes were the same color as his hair." she said closing her glazed over eyes... alright so she took the bait."God Ayame sounds like you'd know where he fucking lived so you could watch him sleep.""Well Kagome...he is my one and only true love.""But I heard hes a drug dealer...""People only say that because he lives in a bad neighborhood! He can't help it that he lives in that run down apartment building by the old pharmacy. His parents kicked him out with no place to go." she said furiously."Well I never said I believed it. I mean you can't always believe what you hear right?" I said quietly thinking of my own past."Right. I hate people who do that. And thats why I'm such good friends with you!" she smiled at me before walking off to class, leaving me alone in the rush of all the people.I felt so isolated right then, and when I looked around me it was as if I was in a bubble...because as everyone walked past with there text books in hand I stood perfectly still...not even knowing why I wasn't rushing. Pretty soon though this feeling was disturbed by a shoulder roughly coliding with mine."Watch it wench!" "ME?! I was standing perfectly still! You're the one who ran into ME! YOU JERK!" I screamed at the platinum blond boy."Well you shouldn't be fucking standing in the middle of the hall doing nothing then should ya?" he replied rather rudely, though I was starting to think he didn't have a polite sense in his feeble mind."Fuck you." I spat at him before walking off. "I know you want to! But please keep your sick fantasies to yourself!" he yelled after me and instantly I had a deep hatred for him, only a miracle could change the way I felt now.I walked to my class a scowl set on my face and tried to keep away from my friends opting to sit in the front of the back. I didn't want to answer the questions I was sure they'd have when they saw the expression on my face. Luck wasn't on my side though because when they saw me up front they decided to move there too."Hey Kagome whats wrong?" asked Ami."Yeah you look so pissed right now." exclaimed Yuka."Oh nothing just had a little trouble in the hall. I can never get my damn locker open." I smiled prettily at them and we all shared a little laugh, mine so sweet sounding I was about to choke on it. I can't and I want to so bad and I try but I can't and I want to so bad and I try but I can't and I want to so bad and I try but I can't and I want to so bad The rest of the day went by without a hitch and I found myself thinking about where the old pharmacy was. I had never really gone into the rougher parts of town, because really even though Tokyo has a really low crime rate I was just never interested in taking part with those kinds of people.All the wondering had been worthless though because as I said I found my freedom while walking home, and couldn't be happier. I had seen him pass me by and almost didn't stop and say something to him because I wasn't sure if it was really him. I mean I had seen pictures of him before because Ayame had them taped all over her room, but in those pictures his hair was long and tied in a pony tail, and well now it was short and spiked up in a punkish style."Hey you!" I yelled to his back hoping he'd turn around and be the right guy. "What?" he said turning around, and I smiled hugely when it was who I thought."You're Kouga right?""Yeah whats it to ya?" he spoke gruffly coming closer to me."I need a favor...and I heard you do people favors..." I said hintingly."Oh...a favor?""Mmmhmm.""Okay...what do you want then?""We're just gonna talk about it out here in the open!?" I said spreading my arms wide to extend my point."Well its not like anybody cares enough about strangers to listen. He did have a point...."I....I....I really have no clue of what to get. I've never done anything like this before and...""Look...just come with me to my place." he said turning around...he realized I wasn't following and looked at me. "Look I'm not going to rape you. I don't do that kind of shit. I'm a good drug dealer." he said smiling, and I laughed a little and followed.We got to his place and I discoved it really wasn't too far from mine, it was a good thing I guess. And as I sat down on the couch and waited for him I wondered what exactly I was getting myself into. I was here...in a drug dealers house. I had never met him before only heard about him...he sounded like a decent guy but...could I be sure? "Hey you! Come here, I;ve got things I need to show you.""Kagome." I said getting up. "My name is Kagome." "Alright then Kagome come here. I don't have a lot of time. I've got better things to do."I followed him to what I guessed what his bedroom, for there was a bed and a dresser, both pretty nice looking I noticed, and upon his bedroom were pipes, weed, bongs, pills, syringes, powder...all the works I suppose. "What you should start with really is the weed. Its okay when you smoke it alone, its better when you smoke it with people." "I see...""Next there is heroine. Now I really don't suggest that unless you're into some really fucked up shit. Then theres other stuff like cocaine and and ectasy, and speed." "Well...I guess I'll go with the weed...but...""But what?""I don't have any money, and I well...I don't know how to do it.""What do you mean you don't have any money? WHy would you go to a drug dealers house looking for drugs without any money?" he said looking at me like I was stupid."Well I really haven't done anything like this before..." I said pleadingly."FIne come here I'll give you this first try free. Now you might now feel anything since this is your first time but guranteed the next time you'll be feeling pretty good."Packing a bowl for me he motioned for me to come closer and I did. But before he lit it up, and before I placed it in my mouth I had to know."You...You won't tell anyone will you?" I looked at him my eyes serious."Kagome you'd be surprised by the people who came to me. I never tell a soul, its not like I really get a kick out of seeing people get tossed aside anyways.""I had to make sure...cause if anyone knew.""Alright I promise I won't tell now come on. Put the damn thing in your mouth and smoke it already." he said a bit playfully and with that I smiled and took my first hit of pot. Good sister bad sister You're different from the rest, sister Choke strangle rip twist her Sell me down the river sister I didn't get high the first time, and my lungs burned badly for the rest of the day, and I just ate icecream to ease the pain. It didn't help but damn did it taste good. I went back the next day though with money this time, and Kouga actually showed me how to make a tinny. Thank god for home made devices. I could officially call myself a stoner I guess because I got high everyday after school. I'd just sit in my room, or sit at the park and get stoned. And the best thing about it was that no one knew, and that I could escape from everything. Because when I was high I was aware of the things that bothered me...but they didn't really bother me anymore. It was maybe three weeks after I started that I got into a bit heavier drugs. I didn't do them regularly but every once in a while I'd try ectasy, or speed. Just a little pick me up, though when the high wore down I'd be left in my room with a knife to my arm. No I wasn't a regular cutter. It just helped with the feeling of the heaviness that had been heaped unpon me after feeling so light and happy. I was okay though, for the time being I had everything under control."Hey Kagome..." I heard Eri speak to me, though I was really deep into staring at the tree."Whats been up with you lately? You've been a bit more distant.""Its nothing really. I've just had trouble sleeping. I think its time for a new matress." I said smiling softlyknowing its would sit with them well for now. "Hey I'll be right back though. I need to use the bathroom." and with that I got up from our lunch table outside and went into the cold and empty looking hall. "I need something better...I need something that will help more." I whispered to myself while leaning against a wall. And while sliding down the wall to sit on the floor I saw him, walking in all his glory torwards me. And it was in this moment that the miracle had come and I stopped hating him. See the reason I say a miracle had happened was because he thought no one was in the hall...and let his gaurd down...and I saw his eyes, his stance. They both showed insecurity, and weakness, and I think that was when I realized why he was so gruff all the time, though I sitll wasn't positively sure."What the fuck are you looking at!" he snapped, whipping me out of my musings."I...I...nothing...I was looking at nothing." I said timidly."Good. Nothing is good." he said quietly before walking away. I was confused, but in a way I wasn't. I knew exactly what he meant but I didn't. It hurt my head too much really...Later that day I went to Kouga's and got something new. Cocaine. He explained to me how to use it. Even gave me a few free lines. And instantly I knew that this was what I was looking for. It gave me a boost of energy, a little lurch of happiness and a lot more life. And because Kouga and I were such good friends he gave it to me at a cheaper price. For that I was grateful.I guess that is when I started to hang with Kouga more. No I wasn't romantically interested in him, and he wasn't in me, we were just friends, and I liked how he never treated me cruelly or talked about uninteresting things. It seemed he always had something important on his mind, and I was always willing to pick at it. And soon we started going to parties together, and I became more and more associated with his kind of life. The scary thing was...I liked what I saw."Kagome!" I heard his voice yell over the blaring music."What is it?" I said turning to him."Come on we've gotta go.""What why? I can't go home. I told my mom I was staying at a friends.""Just come one. Trust me. I heard someone just called the police."And with him taking my hand I followed him out of the beaten and old house, walking quietly behing him. Usually I would tell my mom I was going to stay the night at a friends and just sleep where the party was held and go back home once I woke up. Not safe I know but hell, Kouga always left before I could ask to stay at his place."You can stay at my place for the night. And since we really didn't get our drink on, I'll give ya a few lines on me." my face lit up instantly and I ran beside him."Oh Kouga how sweet!" I laughed, squeezing his hand. My happiness didn't last long though as I recognized the person who was walked torwards us, smoking a cigarette, with his head low."Inu...Yasha?" I asked quietly stopping and letting go of Kouga's hand."Yeah." he said gruffly looking up, his eyes slightly going wide at the sight of me. "What are you doing out here so late wench?" he spat at me not noticing Kouga."What do you care? Not like its your business anyways.""Ohh someone is pissy tonight.""Go fuck a tree InuYasha." I said walking away, taking Kouga by the hand again."Ah I see...The school princess has a secret lover. How sweet. So tell me...is she a good fuck?" I instantly stopped at InuYasha's words. Hurt coursing through my body, my hands both now limply hanging at my side. When I turned around and faced him, I saw slight regret at his words form on his face, and I was sure my face was that of pure sadness at that moment."Who the fuck are you to say something like that to her?" Kouga exclaimed getting closer to InuYasha."Me? I'm nobody. Princess over there really shouldn't care about my words. No one else does." He looked at me then, and I turned away, too scared to look him in the eye."I'm no ones whore..." I spoke loud enough for them both to hear, anger spiking my adrenaline as the memories of that day came back to me. "So don't imply that I am, you stupid fuck. I. Am. NO ONES WHORE." I screamed the last part, shocking both men in front of me. C'mere and sit Talk about it Just for a sec please just sit down You're choking on big black bloody mouthfulls of it You left me lying in your dog descent You're choking on your candy flesh "Kagome?" Kouga said queitly."I'm going to go home now. And I'm going to go to bed. Goodnight." and I walked away from them both then, not caring if I got dragged into an alley and murdered, or that I'd get in trouble for coming home so damn late. I'd simple tell my mother I had gotten into a really bad fight with my friend if she asked. She wouldn't ask questions and life would go on. But right now I needed to be alone...I needed to get home to my drugs.When I finally made it to my house I quietly crept in, thanking the God's that we always left the back sliding door open. And while I was taking off my shoes, my mother came into the kitchen a surprised look on her face."What are you doing home?" "I got into a fight with Kira. And basically I didn't think I could stand her the rest of the night.""Well call me next time then. Its 1:28 in the morning and a young girl shouldn't walk around alone.""Sorry. It won't happen again." I said queitly before she turned and left, and for once I was glad I didn't reallt have an overprotective mother. Climbing the stairs to my room I sighed. I really just wanted to go to sleep. Maybe I had some Vikadin left...yeah I think I did. And when I did reach my room the first thing I did was shut and lock my door, and then I went to my little night stand and pulled the little drawer open. Pulling out a little baggy of white pills I smiled sadly. Yeah these would make me sleepy. Pulling out an old water bottle of vodka from under my bed I took the two pills and laid on my bed, waiting for them to take their effect. I thought about things as I waited, thought about how now I was two different people on the outside, and still one broken person on the inside. In school I was what InuYasha implied I was, a perfect princess with all her little happy go lucky friends. After school when I was with Kouga I was the uncaring slightly nervous new druggie, who had a lot of insight on life and how it works. And inside I was still begging to be let out, to show everyone who I really was. And before I could figure out more I passed out.The next few days in school were really wierd and I only went to Kouga's house to pick up some drugs once, not even staying to talk to him like I usually do. But the reason school was wierd for me was because InuYasha kept staring at me, like he did a few months ago after the park incident. I ignored him for the most part, but it did make me highly uncomfortable, none of my friends noticed though and for that I was thankful.He never once tried to talk to me. It wasn't like I'd let him anyways, because even though I didn't hate him because I knew inside he was like me, I loathed him with all my being. He had no fucking right to say those things and he was lucky I didn't bash his fucking thick dumb ass skull in. Instead I just went home took some pills and drifted to sleep.I think now would be a good time to put in that I was becoming more addicted to my drug of choice, which was cocaine. And I did it every single day, before school and after. And it was becoming so much that I absolutely had to have it. And as long as no one knew about it I was okay with that. I mean no one certainly complained about me being happier lately.I know I wasn't complaining... Good sister bad sister Tell me what you want, sister ~~~~~~~~~~~~Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha, nor do I own 'Good Sister Bad Sister' by:HoleI did cut out a lot of the song, it was way too long for me. But please tell me what you think. Am I doing okay so far or what?Alright thanks for reading