InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Drown ❯ Chapter 23: Drag me out alive? ( Chapter 23 )

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Title: Drown
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Kouga, Kouga/Ayame, Inuyasha/Kouga/Ayame, mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/Kikyo InuYasha/OC
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Drown" by Bring Me The Horizon

Chapter 23: Drag me out alive?

I was awoken by soft mewls from beside me that were almost too soft to penetrate my exhausted slumber but my instincts wouldn't let me ignore them. I opened my eyes and looked down at the smallest little thing all wrapped in blankets and furs with tiny tears falling from cherubic cheeks. I couldn't help but smile at her as I began the struggle of sitting up.

I still hurt and as I sat up stings and twinges traveled from my belly to my back and lower down. With the pain I remembered my pup and I wondered where they had placed him. I couldn't think on it too long because the tiny little one who lay beside mewled louder as if the little princess knew I had awoken for her and she wasn't letting me forget her that easily. I looked left and found Kouga trying to sleep and took pity on him and her as I lifted her into my arms. Her cries softened into whines and sniffles as I lowered my robe and brought her to my aching chest. She nuzzled until she was able to latch on.

I caressed her back gently while she fed, her small fists clenching against my chest while she fed like a kitten or puppy kneading for milk. I gently wiped the tears from the corners of her eyelashes and her soft plump cheeks. I watched her nurse until I was secure in the knowledge that she had it down and glanced around the larger room and realized I was in Koname's healing den. The smell of herbs was strong here but it was almost comforting and reminded me of Kaede and her old hut. As I looked around I heard the all too familiar sound of Kouga's stirring beside me.

I turned and watched as he stretched and stared up at me from his laying position. His look was neutral and his cerulean eyes seemed so curious and questioning. He sat up and scooted closer so that he could lean over my shoulder to and stare down at his daughter while she nuzzle against my chest, milk once again gathering at the corners of her tiny mouth.

“I'm sorry.”

The words were soft and laced with pain and my heart clenched at hearing them.

“I would ask why but I know that you're a dumb wolf and you think that you're to blame in all of this,” I said it playfully and tried to put conviction into such simple words.

“Doesn't make me any less sorry,” he said softly.

“I am too,” and as I said it my eyes grew hot.

“And you're a dumb dog,” he said softly causing the tears to escape and run in rivulets down my cheeks.

He leaned in further and wrapped his arms around me, careful of his nursing daughter as his lips came to rest on our mating mark in a gentle kiss. He trailed kisses up my neck from my shoulder and then along my chin stopping to gently lick the salty trail of tears from my left cheek. I closed my eyes and leaned in to his arms.

“I miss her so…much. I can only imagine the pain in your heart,” I said with a soft sob.

He kissed my cheek and I felt the warmth of tears that were not my own land on my bared shoulder.

He held me tightly and sighed deeply inhaling my scent, “I was mourning her and then your brother came into the den and told me you had lost our cub and they wouldn't let me come into healing den and all I could think was that I was losing you as well.”

I let more tears escape as the pain in his words sunk deep into my chest. He squeezed me as if making sure I was still in his arms.

“I'm here. I couldn't protect Ayame or our son but I am here,” as I said the words I sobbed and he leaned in once more kissing my cheeks and turned my head so that he could kiss my lips.

“It hurts for both of us, but we can pull through this,” and as he said it his daughter let go of my nipple and mewled in dislike at her salty bath.

I laughed through my tears and gently lifted her to my shoulder, rubbing her back as she brought up a small amount of air. Kouga leaned in and smiled down at his small daughter where she rested against my shoulder.

“She looks like Ayame with those fiery red locks,” and as he said it he gently played with her short and curling locks.

“She's going to need a name. I can't keep calling her little princess,” I said as I brought her back down into the crook of my arm and rocked her gently, watching as she yawned and began to fall back asleep.

“We will think of one, for now little princess will do,” said Kouga with a smile.

Our quiet was broken by when the den hide was pushed aside revealing Koname with Tensen at her side. Both looked surprised as seeing us awake but they offered us small smiles.

“How does the little one fare?” asked Koname as she came to kneel at our little bed of furs.

“She has a hearty appetite,” I said as I held her up for Koname to see.

“And you,” asked Tensen.

“I still ache but not nearly as bad as I expected. I am healing.”

He nodded at my words and came to kneel by Koname. He leaned in and gently placed his hand on my forehead. He removed his hand after a few moments but nodded and patted my shoulder affectionately.

“You have a slight fever but otherwise you look as well as one can expect. Are you up for some company,” he asked.

I nodded and Tensen grinned and turned to face the hide before he called out, “Come on in boys.”

At his words the hide was flung aside and in ran Ranken and Yuki. They halted to a slow walk as they saw my arms full with the small bundle. As they came near I noted the tear stained faces and felt my heart squeeze.

“Chichue,” and with that one soft word I could all the worry, stress and sorrow held inside my small son.

Koname took our daughter from my arms without being asked and I held my arms wide allowing not just Yuki but Ranken to fall into my arms. I wrapped them in my embrace and squeezed them in the tightest hug I had ever given.

“Okaasan is with the ancestors,” Ranken sobbed out and I nodded and kissed his head.

“She is but she is there with your younger brother and both of them will be watching over us from now on,” said Kouga from beside me as he rubbed his sons back.

“But I want her here,” he cried.

“We all do. There won't be a day that we won't miss her but you know what?”

He looked up at me with his beautiful tear filled green eyes and my breath caught in my throat momentarily.

“She wouldn't want us being stop living and being happy. Its okay to miss her and to cry but you must remember to live and to smile.”

Ranken sniffled as did my quiet Yuki.

“I don't feel like smiling today,” said Ranken.

“No one does and that's okay,” said Yuki softly.

Once I had calmed the boys down some I was moved back into our old den where Sesshomaru and Tensen said their goodbyes with the promise of visiting again. I was laid on clean bed furs and the little princess was introduced to her big brothers.

The boys were enamored with her and it took their minds off of their loss if only for a short time. We were all hurting and with us the entire pack mourned Ayame's loss. I spent that night with the little princess snuggled in tight against my chest and the boys asleep between Kouga and my self. It had been a long time since we had all shared bed furs but it helped somewhat to give us all comfort.

The next morning we had all gathered in the pack cemetery where we laid Ayame to rest, my son swaddled in her arms in a deep hole beneath the bright fall sun. Words of remembrance were spoken by all including myself and there wasn't a dry eye in the surrounding area. Flowers were tossed into the grave and then howls of mourning and sadness rent the air. One or two soon became the whole pack and as the pain in my chest echoed theirs I too joined in. We all trudged back into the caves and a soft communal meal of rice and boar was served.

I had finished my meal and was nursing the little princess when Kouga came to sit down next to me.

“I wanted you to know that Kiba's fate is yours to decide.”

I felt my breath catch and I took a deep breath and looked into those serious cerulean blue pools trying to interpret his words.

“He's…”

“Our prisoner; currently he is secured in the deepest part of the caves with wolves and youkai as he jailors.”

I nodded and looked down at my hands as the nervously stroked our daughters back.

“I wanted to let you have the choice of his fate. If it is too much just say so and I will decide. The elders decided that he was your kill. He has wronged you the most.”

I couldn't find the words the reply so I simply nodded.

To be Continued…

Okay I am once again having a tough time deciding on a name. I decided that since Ayame is a flower name we should stick to the same for her daughter. I am between the following names:

Himawari - sunflower

Renge - Lotus

Tsubaki - Camellia

Let me know which you prefer~!

Kalafina is an amazing group to listen to when writing such melancholy scenes, so beautiful and melodic. You can find their stuff on Amazon's digital music…just an FYI…..

Well til next time~!

Kat