InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Fixing Our Mistake ❯ His Big Mouth, Her Pain ( Chapter 2 )

A/N: I've decided that my updates will be coming on Fridays instead of Mondays. It's so much easier for me to do so because Mondays are very hectic for me and I have no clue as to why I thought I could pull it off. But anyway, this means that this weekend you will more than likely get another chapter after this one. Feel special. LoL. ANYWAYS! In this chapter you'll find out what really happened the night that Sakura was conceived…well most of it. You won't find out why Rin and Sesshoumaru didn't remember anything about it…

Disclaimer: You people don't want me to own Inuyasha. I'd screw everything up with plots like this one. LoL.

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The following Monday at school found Rin standing among her friends, slowly but surely reverting back to her usual cheerful self with their help. It was becoming a pattern to the group of teams. It happened every time she was forced to be around Sesshoumaru. The time the girl spent alone or around him, her mind would wander to the more depressing things that had happened in her life or the 'what would have happened if…' moments.

Bankotsu blamed everything on Sesshoumaru and made it well known just what he though of him and the entire situation and Jakotsu agreed wholeheartedly, while Sango and Miroku refused to take sides, but were always there when she needed comfort. Or as she put it, they were always there when she needed a good laugh and their routing of 'boy gropes girlfriend at every chance, girlfriend beats boy into oblivion sending him closer to being pronounced brain dead each time,' which just happened to be what was going on at the moment.

"MIROKU!" Sango screeched, smashing him over the head with one of her textbooks.

Rin rolled her eyes and fought off a giggle as she watched the now unconscious boy slide to the ground, stars in his eyes.

"Baka hentai," she chided him, her voice filled with contained mirth. "No sex for a week."

Before any of the group could blink the boy shot up, his eyes wide and alarmed. "But it was only a little grope!"

"It's not like you have sex in the first place baka…" Rin started.

"Unless there's something you're not telling me," Sango finished, narrowing her eyes dangerously in his direction.

"Eh heh…Sango! How could you think such a thing of me?!" he admonished.

"Because you're you," she scoffed.

A resounding slam echoed through the hall and all eyes turned to the source. A series of collected gasps and 'oh my gods' echoed through the crowd at the sight of the great Sesshoumaru, looking as placid as ever, pinned to his locker by a raging Juuroumaru.

"Fucking asshole! I'm warning you now, stay away from Rin! She is mine!"

The crowd's gaze turned to the thoroughly confused girl as she stared at the two in shock.

"Wh-wha--?" she managed before Juuroumaru was speaking again.

"You fucking stole her once, you won't steal her again!" he ground out before releasing the senior and stalking towards Rin, wrapping an arm around her waist possessively, and leading her off before she could protest.

The girl blinked and threw a confused look not only as her friends but at Sesshoumaru as well as she reluctantly allowed herself to be led around a corner, hoping to get some answers soon.

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All eyes were on him. He could feel them as he straightened out his clothes. Though his cool demeanor revealed nothing, his mind was raging. His? Juuroumaru's? Impossible! Wasn't it? She was no one's! And even if she was anyone's she certainly wasn't Juuroumaru's! She was his!

Emotions raged through him and he was so preoccupied with them that he didn't notice her confused glance back at him and her friends. Pain, confusion, wonder…finally it all settled on rage. That bitch! How dare she do that to him! She was his damn it! What the hell was she thinking?!

Their eyes kept boring into him, deepening his rage even further. And for the first and only time in his life, Sesshoumaru spoke without thinking about and choosing his words carefully.

"What would I want with that dirty whore? She was a one night stand. A mistake."

He regretted his words immediately, and it wasn't because Bankotsu's fist slammed into his jaw the minute after the words left his mouth. It was because Rin had chosen that exact moment to round the corner again, having somehow escaped Juuroumaru's grasp.

The look of sheer and utter pain on her face tore at his heart. He hadn't meant for those things to come out…he'd said them out of anger. He didn't mean them.

He watched helplessly as she turned and ran off, trying to hide her tears. But it was too late…he had seen them and they'd killed him inside. Every fiber in his being screamed at him to go after her, to make things right. But he couldn't…he wouldn't. His pride wouldn't allow it…and besides, he had another fist heading for his fact at that moment and he need to defend himself.

Snapping back to reality, Sesshoumaru caught Bankotsu's fist and held it tightly, mere inches away from his face. The other boy scowled and jerked it away before getting into the silver haired teen's face.

"If you ever call her a whore again I will kill you. She is not a whore and you fucking know it! She knows she made a fucking mistake but she can't take it back. And you, you fucking son of a bitch haven't done anything to make the rest of these fucking assholes realize that she isn't the only fucking on at fault! You are as well! It takes two people to fuck and make a kid. Not one." Getting close enough so that they were mere centimeters apart Bankotsu's voice lowered to a dangerous pitch. "You have better start fucking treating her better. Stop calling her a one night stand or a mistake, and don't ever call her a whore again or I will not hesitate to cut your fucking dick off and shove it down your throat!"

With that being said, the raven haired teen stalked off, Jakotsu and the other two shoving past Sesshoumaru on their way to find Rin.

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It hurt, more than anything in this world. She knew he didn't love or even care for her, but she didn't know he thought her nothing but a whore, a one night stand… What had she done to him to make him hater her so? It wasn't only her fault that Sakura was created; he had an equal share in that. She hadn't meddled in his life. Hell she hadn't even spoken more than three sentences to him since Sakura's birthday. Why did he hate her so much?

Tears fell freely down the girl's cheeks as she hugged her knees and buried her face in them. Violent sobs wracked her frame as she tried to figure out what she could have possibly done to make him hate her as much as he did.

"What did I do?" she questioned, lowering her voice to a whisper. "What did I do?"

"Rin…baby…you didn't do anything," Juuroumaru soothed, kneeling next to her.

Rin wrapped her arms around his neck and sobbed into his shoulder, seeking comfort from any source that was available to her at the time.

"I don't know what I did! He hates me and I don't know why! I don't know what I did to make him think I'm nothing but a whore!"

Juuroumaru stiffened slightly but wrapped his arms around her and held her close to him.

"Shhh…don't cry. He doesn't deserve to have you cry over him."

"But…"

"No buts," he scolded, cutting her off. "He called you a whore Rin. You don't deserve that. You didn't do anything."

He sighed and simply held the girl as her sobs intensified. He'd meant that as a comfort…not something to make her heart wrenching crying worse.

Suddenly he found himself jerked away from the girl with a command to 'stay the fuck out of the way'. Instead of losing his temper like he normally would, he followed the order and stayed out of her friends' way as they took turns hugging and comforting Rin, assuring her that she was not a whore and filling her with thoughts like 'he's just upset right now, don't listen to him' or 'you guys are gonna work everything out one of these days…don't worry about it', then listening to Bankotsu and Jakotsu's comforts of 'he's just a fucking prick' and 'forget his sorry ass, he doesn't deserve you'.

A smirk appeared on Juuroumaru's features. 'I do believe I'm inclined to agree.'

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The figure's sadistic smile was enough to frighten even Kageroumaru as he reported the fight in the hallway.

"Juuroumaru never fully got over Rin, as I have stated before, and the tape of Sesshoumaru sent him over the edge."

If at all possible, the person's smile grew even more vicious. "Good…my plan is working then."

"What next?"

"We continue to pit them against each other. Once I am completely sure that the love they feel for each other now has turned into hatred, that it when we strike."

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Sesshoumaru sat in his studio, staring down at the floor in front of him. Very few knew of his musical abilities and even those who did know knew nothing about the significance of his song lyrics, nor what they truly meant.

His long fingers sat uselessly against the strings of his guitar as he remained immobile, lost deep in his thoughts. He seemed as if nothing more than a statue, sitting as still and as straight as a board.

Suddenly his fingers were animated and he began to play, coming in with words after maybe 15 or 20 seconds.

"And my words will be here with I'm gone

As I'm fading away against the wind

And the words you left me linger on

As I'm failing again now, never to change this

And I'm sympathetic

Never letting on I feel the way I do

As I'm falling apart again at the seam

And it seems I'm alone here, hollow again

As I'm flailing again against the wind

And the scars I'm left with swallow again

As I'm failing again now, never to change this

And I'm sympathetic

Never letting on I feel the way I do

As I'm falling apart again at the seam

And I'm sympathetic

Never letting on I feel the way I do

As I'm falling apart again at the seam

The same old feelings are taking over

And I can't seem to make them go away

And I can't take all the pressure sober

But I can't seem to make it go away

The same old feelings are taking over

And I can't seem to make them go away

And I can't take all the pressure sober

(I can't make it go away. I can't make it go away.)

And I'm sympathetic

Never letting on I feel the way I do

As I'm falling apart again at the seam

And I'm sympathetic

Never letting on I feel the way I do

As I'm falling apart at the seam

And I'm falling, falling, falling

Falling, falling, falling, falling

Apart again at the seam..." as he finished a small frown broke his stoic mask. It didn't sound right with only a guitar…it needed more instruments in the background. He shoved the thought away and grabbed a pencil, jotting down changes to the lyrics.

As he came to the chorus, he gave an uncharacteristic snort. "Perhaps instead of sympathetic it should be 'so pathetic' because since that woman came into my life that is indeed what I have become."

It was bad enough that he had feelings for the girl, but not communicating them was another weak thing entirely. Why didn't he communicate them? Because he was afraid. Yes, the great Sesshoumaru was afraid of showing his feelings for this foolish girl. Again you ask why? Because she had refused him once before, why speak or show that he had them if she would refuse him once more. It would cause nothing but pain.

"And this Sesshoumaru is pathetically frightened of that sort of pain," he ground out under his breath, standing and setting his guitar against the stool he had been sitting on before leaving the sanctity of his studio.

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Rin had decided that this time she was going to follow Bankotsu and Jakotsu's advice and forget about Sesshoumaru. The more she thought about his words, the more her face burned with embarrassed anger and hurt.

'Fuck him,' she thought. 'If he thinks I'm a whore then he can fuck off. He's the only one I've ever been with in that way and he knows it. I told him so…."

She stopped, her eyes widening at the memory she had just uncovered. 'That's right! I did tell him he was my first! But…"

"Oh Kami…we weren't drunk…"

She squeezed her eyes shut and took deep breaths trying to calm herself. Her head was pounding as all of the memories from that night came flooding back to her.

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The music was loud and the bass was high enough to shake the entire house. People were scattered everywhere: dancing, hanging out with their friends, fighting with their enemies, even passed out on the floor from all the alcohol they had consumed during the night.

Rin was standing with Sango, Miroku, Kagome, and Inuyasha, laughing and discussing whether or not the school counselor was gay or a woman. She was having a blast, but she wished he would show up. She kept glancing at the door and after nearly an hour she looked at Inuyasha.

"Are you positive he said he'd be here?"

The silver haired boy smirked knowingly and nodded.

He was hiding something from her and she knew it, but she wasn't too worried about it because at the moment, Sesshoumaru, the one she had been waiting for the entire night, walked in. A bright smile broke out on the girl's lips as she excused herself and made her way over to him.

"If it isn't my mogami kaonajimi, the ouja no sokkenai hatamata gakkou: Sesshoumaru-sama."

"Was that sarcasm on the '-sama' I detected?"

"Of course it was baka," she chided teasingly.

Only she could read him well enough to pinpoint every small change in emotion, even being able to do so well enough to detect the small change from content to happy to amused such as his mood had done just now. She loved being the only one that could read him so well. It made her feel so…special. Not even his girlfriend, Kagura, could detect such small changes in his moods and emotions.

"It has been awhile since we last saw each other…"

Rin's mood plummeted. "Yeah…it took me awhile to convince my aunt to allow me to live on my own so I could stay in this school system."

Her parents had died 6 months prior and she'd been shipped off to live with her aunt almost immediately afterwards. During those six months she had begged and pleased with her aunt, coming up with and giving every possible excuse as to why she needed to go back to her old school. And finally, her aunt, who had long gotten tired of the fights and tantrums had allowed her to move back.

A small, weak smile turned the corners of her lips slightly heavenward as she looked at him. "I'll be fine…" she replied to the placid look on his face. At least…placid to anyone but her. She had seen the microscopic look of concern in his eyes and knew it was as close as to an 'Are you alright?' as she was going to get.

"I'll talk to you later tonight…save me a dance…even though you…don't dance…ANYWAYS just save me one. I missed you." She stated giving him a quick embrace, then turning and walking off to find Juuroumaru to surprise him with her return.

She had spent nearly an hour looking for her boyfriend before she opened the door to one of the spare bedrooms of the house. What she found made her heart thud, her head pound, and her breath lodge in her throat. There was Juuroumaru, HER boyfriend in bed with Kagura, Sesshoumaru's girlfriend.

She wanted to scream, she wanted to cry, hell she wanted to beat the shit out of both of them but she couldn't, her breath was too short, her chest too tight, and her body too weak and frozen to the spot.

Once she had regained her ability to move, she quickly slammed the door and started to sink down to the ground only to be caught by a pair of strong arms and pulled against a broad chest. She buried her face in it and sobbed. Wrapping herself in the comforting presence that was Sesshoumaru, Rin allowed her emotions to run wild. The pain, the anger, the surprise…all of them were released through her tears and into his shirt.

She allowed herself to be lead to an empty room, still shaking with heart wrenching sobs. He had sat them down on a bed and held her to him, whispering small comforts in her ear for what seemed like hours. Finally as her tears subsided, she unconsciously snuggled herself closer to the silver haired teen, who, in turn, tightened his hold on her in response to her seeking for comfort.

"I…they…what did we do wrong?!' she whispered brokenly into his chest.

"Nothing onnanoko," he chided softly. "They are the ones who have done something wrong. We hold no fault in this," he murmured into her ear.

She pulled out of his embrace and opened her mouth to say something but shut it when their eyes connected. They stared at each other for what must have been an eternity before he closed the space between them and brushed his lips against hers briefly.

Their second kiss lasted longer and was more confident, and as things went on the other kisses they shared soon became hungrier and more intense.

They had made love then…Rin refused to call it anything but that because then it would mean that it had meant nothing to either of them…and while it may not have meant jack shit to Sesshoumaru, it mean a hell of a lot to her. He was her first…and as far as she was concerned, her only.

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A/N: Ooooh ahhh wow….-.- what junk. LoL. Ummm yeah….that chapter was a bit…odd. At least to me anyway. Anywho now on to translations and review responses! YAY! ^_^ (-coughs- caffeine and sugar cubes that's all I gotta say)

~Translations~

Mogami Kaonajimi: Best Friend

Ouja No Sokkenai Hatamata Gakkou: King Of Cold And School

Onnanoko: girl (onna means woman, onnanoko means girl…so…yeah…)

Umm…I think that's it for translations…if there's any I missed just review and tell me and I'll translate 'em in the next chapter. Now for:

Review Responses

Seshura: ^_^ thankies. Here's the update. Not a long wait for you eh? LoL. Hope ya like this chapter as much as the others.

figured shadow: I love this story idea too! LoL. I couldn't resist writing it although I was supposed to be working on 'My Other Self' It just kept screaming at me and wouldn't leave me alone. ^_^ And I love the fact that it allows me to give away a major part of the story and not even have the plot fully in motion yet. XD

GinHasa: Can you now? You'll be surprised in later chapters. So dun think you can see everything about it. LoL. Yes, adults always are trying to improve our minds…dun work too well does it? Heh ^____^ J/K! It's a great song, you should hear it! -huggles Brent Smith, Lead Singer of Shinedown- He's so hot chica! I'll show you a picture next time you get online!

Sesshy/Rin Fan: Thankies! ^___^ I thought it was sweet too. I couldn't resist putting it in! Oh the wonders of Shinedown, giving me ideas for my fanfiction. XD Gotta love 'em. I'm happy that you loved him being OOC. I'm trying not to make him TOO much OOC but it's hard! So comments like that make me feel better! ^_^

SwtLilSakuraStar: Thankies very much! And here's your update! ^_^ Hope ya didn't think it was TOO long of a wait.

New Fan: Again, all the right questions! ^_^ Alright, first off, I'm sorry I didn't mention this in the first chapter, I should have…but I guess it slipped my mind. o.0 They're portrayed as humans, but whereas Inuyasha is in his human form, I couldn't picture Sesshoumaru in any other form than his demon form so he looks the same save for the ears and the markings…which is pretty hard to imagine him without for me but I guess I'll get over it. Second off Rin does love Sesshoumaru in return, she just thinks that the only reason he wants to be with her is because of Sakura. She's just trying to protect him from what she thinks would be another really big mistake. Yes, her requesting him in the room while she gave birth was an idea that I absolutely could not pass up. Sess' family status, well I dunno how much of Sess' family you're gonna see in this fic, hopefully more than what I've got predicted right now, but his status would have to be upper class, but they dun go all out and flaunt it. They live in a modest home, wear modest clothes, and so on and so forth. Nah, like I said, Rin just doesn't want him to make a mistake and regret being with her. He hasn't really admitted that he loves her so she thinks he only wants to be with her because he feels responsible for her and Sakura. Juuroumaru and Kagura were the people in their lives before this. YES, they will have a very significant part in this story as for if it's getting them together or tearing them apart I can't say…it's part of my plot! Shhh! And last but not least thank you and here's your update! ^_^

icyangelbmw: Only wish I wrote the song. Then I would know Shinedown. And then I would know Brent Smith and then if I had my way I would be married to Brent Smith. LoL. Hyperness is a very good thing! I know I'm like that when I have caffeine or sugar. Which I had BOTH of today. I was helping lil kids make sugar cube castles in my A+ Tutoring (see bio for explanation of what it is) and I ate a couple of the leftover ones. Nothing but pure sugar ^_^ It ruled!

Fantasy Cat: I LOVE ALL OF 'EM! But especially Blood Brother and Never Give In. Demon Zoo is beautifully written as well. ^_^. And does this newest chapter answer your question about it being part of Kagome's plan? -cackles- I love plots like this one! ^_^

knbtef: I'm glad you like my story. I'm doing my best to portray Rin the right way, she's mostly based on my sister before she and my nephew's father got back together. Heh…the storyline between her and Sesshoumaru is also partially based on my sister…notice I said PARTIALLY not fully. LoL. ^_^