InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Forming A Dynasty ❯ The Broken Girl ( Chapter 1 )

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Forming A Dynasty

Chapter 1: The Broken Girl

Kagome's P.O.V.

I lay face down on my bedroom floor sobbing my eyes out and hoping that all the pain in my life would somehow just, dissapear. I feel as if there is nothing more to live for anymore. For too long I have tried to hide my feelings, but now... now was the time to let them out.

From down the hall, outside of my closed bedroom door, I could hear the heartbreaking noises of my mother screaming, and the loud clashes of objects falling to the floor. It was my father.

He was beating her again. He was tossing her around as if she were nothing. As if her life didn't matter at all. He was always drunk. Ever since my older brother, Sota, died about two years ago, everything fell apart completely. He died in a car crash while driving back home from a camping trip with his friends. Sota was everything to me. He was not only my brother, but also my best friend. He was older than me by two years (he would be nineteen now, and I am seventeen).

Although I heard my mother screaming from down the hall, my mind was also screaming. Screaming for Sota. This is the most I have ever needed him in my entire life and he was...gone...gone forever.

I don't have the strength to take on my father, though I have tried to in the past. But now it is clear to me that there is nothing I could do. I fear that he would do something far worse if I tried to stop him. Nothing compares to the fear that is racing through my mind right now. I am so afraid. I'm afraid that I'll be next. I can't bear to look him in the eye. They are filled with hatred and anger, as if he hates me and my mother for living. The only way to get away from it all is by going to school.

Not a single person outside of this household know the secrets of my family. My mother has begged me not to tell anyone in hopes that he would change back into the man she fell in love with, and I thought she was a fool for that. It was wishful thinking that I knew would never come true. Ever since my father changed, it has only become worse, and worse. I can remember the first time my father hit my mother.

*~*~*Flashback#1*~*~*~*

It was before Sota had passed. I was fifteen and he was seventeen. Sota was on a camping trip, so it was just me, my mother, and my father. Before this, my father had only mentally abused my mother, and I hated him for that. They always argued and he would make her feel like shit. But mother stayed strong and continued to take the mounds of god-forsaken insults that my father threw at her constantly. I turned around facing the wall because I couldn't bare to see them fight.

I couldn't stand seeing my mother with that hopeless and sad expression on her face. Sometimes, when Sota was home, he would help to break up their arguement before anything got physical. But Sota wasn't there this time. Then I heard it, a loud smack! A scream, and then a thump! I rapidly turned around, and to my own dismay, saw my mother lying on the ground with a bloody mouth, and my father with his hand out.

I knew at that very moment what he had done. My heart filled with rage.

I was sick of it!!

Sick of how he treated my mother!! I looked down at my mother with a bewiledred expression. Then up at my father with an enraged one.

"I HATE YOU!!", I screamed while charging at him with great speed. I tackeled him by forcing my head into his stomach. He didn't fall though. Instead, he grabbed me by my hair and threw me onto the hard wood floor. My head banged the floor hard and I slowly lost concienceness.

And at that moment, I knew everything would change, but not for the better, but for the worst...

I was right.

*~*~*End of Flashback#1*~*~*~*

That night was the end of my life, and the catalyst of an undying nightmare.

*~*~*Flashback#2*~*~*~*

That night, two years ago, when my father was gone, the phone rang. My mother picked up the phone. Her voice still trembled from what had happened earlier that night. She answered...

"Mushi, mushi, Higur...Higurashi residence", said my mother as if trying to keep something secret. She paused. The room went still. Everything felt stange and dense, and nothing made sence...just for that moment, nothing made sence.

I watched my mother stand shocked with the phone againsed her ear and started to wonder what the voice on the other side could be telling her.

I slowly made my way down the stairway, then paused when my mother suddenly broke the silence...

"No! how do you... what if... how do you know!", she said as though denying something. "It can't be! Couldn't it have been some other-", She was cut off. Whatever it was that she was hearing, I wouldn't want to have heard it either.

At that moment, without even realizing it fully, I caught hold of a strange feeling. A feeling that everything was wrong. The feeling of heartbreak, or being broken. Broken into a million pieces. Pieces that would only be restored if someone put them back. It was the most awful feeling, that would stay with me for a long time.

Later, I found out what my mother had been told. My mother took me outside and we both sat in her car. We sat in silence for what seemed like an eternity, but in a way, I needed the time so that my heart would be ready for what she was about to say.

Finally, she began to speak...

"Kagome...Kagome dear. This will be hard for you but...Kagome...", She sounded as though she would cry. I wasn't ready for it. If my strong mother couldn't bare it, I didn't satnd a chance. "Kagome...hon...honey", tears escaped her eyes. It was killing me to see her so... so hurt, and not even know why.

"I just got off the phone...and...(sniff)...And they said... that they found...". Another silence. I hesitated, the anxiety grew and it was silently breaking me down. I couldn't take it, I needed to know.

"They said what mom! What is it. What did they say". I said, almost shaking her. My mother looked at me bewildered, then gave me a staight look as though trying to get the words out by staring. Then she began to speak again.

"Kagome, there was an accident".

That was all I needed to hear. The rest of the words came together in my head at that very moment. After she said those words, all of the rest of the words that followed were all a blur.

Sota was dead

*~*~*End of Flashback#2*~*~*~*

Even after two years, my heart still longs for my older brother as much as it did the night he slipped away from us.

And my father hasn't done anything to help, exept for put us through more pain. But was there an escape from it all? There had to be.

I thought about it for a while and came to the sad conclusion that there was an escape, but it would only benefit for one of us.

Suicide.

But how would I do it. How could I possibly pull something like this off...and...is it worth it? Would I see Sota in the after-life?

No! What am I thinking. I cant leave my mother here alone. Then she'd have nobody. If I did that, I would be ashamed that I ever called myself her daughter. I love her. She and my friends are the only ones I have left in this cruel world.

I especially can't leave my mom. I'm all she's got and she's all I've got.

Also, I promised Sota that no matter what, I would never leave this place. But I must go. I can't take it. I can't stand hearing those noises of pain and suffering outside of my bedroom door every day. It's agonizing! I must leave.

But know this mother, I will come back for you no matter what. I will get you out of here! No matter what I have to do.

Sota, I know I promised you that I wouldn't leave this place, but understand that this is something I have do. I must. I need help. While I'm gone, please watch over mother. Keep her strong and get her through this.

I will always love you Sota, I miss you you more than anything.

Tidal waves they,

Rip right through me,

Tears from eyes worn,

Cold and sad,

Pick me up now,

I need you so bad

~~~Rest In Peace, my dear Sota~~~

A/N: Well thats the end of the first chapter. I don't really like it though. I know it was short. The words in Italics at the end of the story are the lyrics to Blink182's song, "Down". I thought I would fit into the storyline pretty well. Next chapter is inu-chan's P.O.V.. I hope this next chappie would at least be good. Plz,Plz tell me weather it is good or not. Review and thanks:)