InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Heaven and Earth ❯ The Pain of Leaving You ( Chapter 12 )

Chapter 12: The Pain of Leaving You

 

Sesshoumaru opened his eyes, at first not understanding what had happened and where he was. He found himself in the room he had taken for himself in the castle and it came to him that he had been in a fight for the Tenseiga. He couldn't remember if he had won or not but he did remember Inuyasha's red eyes and the blood.

 

As he came out from under the fog of unconsciousness more and more, he realized that everything seemed brighter, sharper. The smallest sound seemed quite loud to his ears. He lifted his arm and saw that his demon marks were again on his wrist. He felt strong, feeling his heart beat fiercely, pushing the blood firmly throughout his body. He was amazed that he had gotten so used to being mortal that being a demon again felt so odd. He sat up and looked around, seeing Inuyasha slumped over the futon at his side. He reached out and gently stroked his brother's hair causing Inuyasha to jerk awake and snap his head up.

 

“Sesshoumaru, you're okay,” he intoned groggily.

 

“Of course, why would you doubt,” Sesshoumaru returned. “I take it I won,” he added, everything that had happened coming into focus for him.

 

“Yeah, but they're not too pleased. You killed Mitsukai.”

 

“That was the risk we both took when we battled,” Sesshoumaru stated matter of factly.

 

“Lady Joshin left the Tenseiga here for you. She wants us to leave as soon as you're able to.”

 

Inuyasha had been so glad when he had seen his brother returning to his demon self. He had been rushing back to the castle when it had happened and assumed it was because of the death of the Tenshinoyounashoujo that the spell had been broken. He was certain that his brother would have died in his arms if he hadn't been able to change.

 

“I'm ready now.” Sesshoumaru said, not wanting to stay any longer. He saw that the dagger was gone from his shoulder and the wounds he had received bandaged. He would maintain a truce with these beings but if they ever tried to interfere with him again, he swore in his mind he would track them all down and kill them.

 

Inuyasha got up from his kneeling position as Sesshoumaru stood. “Uh, Sesshoumaru…”

 

“Yes?”

 

“You are back to your full demon, but Eimai said that a small bit of humanness would always stay with you,” Inuyasha wasn't sure how to tell his brother what the older angel had said earlier.

 

“What do you mean?” asked Sesshoumaru, beginning to feel a stab of dread.

 

“Well he said that you might feel more, you know, emotions.” Inuyasha was looking down and blushing, not really wanting to get into a discussion of emotions and feelings.

 

Wonderful, thought Sesshoumaru as he sighed. “I can maintain control, no human emotions will get the better of me,” he returned arrogantly, wanting as much as Inuyasha not to get into a discussion about this. He turned away and saw the Tenseiga resting on the end of the futon. He was shirtless but still wearing the pants he had on earlier. “Where are my clothes?” he asked, to change the topic.

 

“Over there,” replied Inuyasha, pointing to a low chest.

 

“Leave me while I get dressed,” Sesshoumaru ordered, causing Inuyasha to glower at him. Sesshoumaru softened his voice, not wanting to get into a pissing match either. “I will be right out, I just like a little time to myself.”

 

“Okay, I'll go gather up the rest of the group so we can leave.” Inuyasha turned and went out the door closing it softly behind him.

 

Sesshoumaru gathered his clothes and dressed, he looked into the mirror again glad he was finally back to himself when he noticed with a shock that his eyes were still brown. I see I have been left with a little reminder of what I was. He tried to put his unfeeling mask on his face, and saw that with those warm, brown eyes it didn't quite work as well as with his gold ones. They show too much emotion, I must work to fix that, he thought, picking up the Tenseiga and putting it into his obi with the Toukijin. He went to the door and walked out.

 

The rest were waiting for him out in the hallway. This was the first time they had a chance to see Sesshoumaru back to his demon form, and all were surprised that his eyes had not changed back to their original color. They stood for an awkward moment looking at him. Sesshoumaru could feel his face begin to heat up and tried his best to stop the blush he knew was trying to form. This is not any better than when I was human, I have got to get a handle on these emotions, he growled to himself.

 

“Your eyes are still brown,” Shippo said as he hopped onto Sesshoumaru's shoulder. He gave the demon lord a big smile, “I like them this way.”

 

Sesshoumaru sighed but did not remove the kitsune from his shoulder. “I think it is time we left,” he told the group.

 

Just as they were walking down the hallway the Lady Joshin appeared with Naitsuusha. Sesshoumaru stiffened expecting trouble. “We have come to see you off,” announced the lady. “There are those who would do you harm if we did not accompany you.”

 

Naitsuusha spoke up as they walked, “We also wish to know how you were able to get to our realm.”

 

“The sorceress Mahoutsukai gave us a black pearl, it was able to open a doorway between our worlds,” stated Sesshoumaru.

 

“You will leave that with us after you leave,” Joshin ordered. “It would be better if you were not to return.”

 

“Let this be the end of it then,” stated Sesshoumaru. “I do not wish to start a war with your people, but I will if any of you bother me again. I have won in fair battle, honour your word and leave me be.”

 

“Fair enough,” answered Naitsuusha. He was very pleased at how things were working out. He had been able to comfort the Lady Joshin at the loss of her daughter and knew it would only be a matter of time before he would be lord. He would have hugged Sesshoumaru if he could.

 

They continued walking outside and down the road to find a secluded area to leave. Many of the angels watched them leave, some glad it was over, some wanting revenge on the demon lord for killing their princess.

 

Sesshoumaru and the group stopped in a secluded glen. Taking the pearl out of his kimono, he blew on it and threw it into the air. Nothing happened; it fell to the ground and rolled into the grass. Perplexed, Sesshoumaru picked it up and looked at it. Has the magic that was encased in the orb gone?

 

“Try throwing it on the ground,” Shippo mentioned thoughtfully from Sesshoumaru's shoulder.

 

Sesshoumaru thought that made sense; they had thrown it into the air to get to heaven so throwing it on the ground should get them to earth. The little kit is quite bright, he thought as he blew on the marble and tossed it down. The portal immediately opened.

 

After they had stepped through, Joshin picked up the dark orb and walked away with Naitsuusha. They had a funeral to arrange.

 

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Everyone gave a sigh of relief as they landed back in their own era. Miroku stepped forward and released the seals on the Toukijin.

 

Sesshoumaru took Shippo from his shoulder and holding the little kit in front of him said, “I have to leave now, take good care of everyone, you will be the only full demon here now.” He passed the fox demon to Kagome.

 

“Don't leave Sesshoumaru,” wailed Shippo. He had become quite fond of the demon lord and had hoped he would stay with them.

 

“I have to, now be strong,” he stated firmly, ignoring the fact that Shippo had not called him Lord Sesshoumaru. “Demons do not cry.”

 

“Ok,” sniffed Shippo putting a determined look on his face.

 

“Goodbye Lord Sesshoumaru,” Miroku bowed respectfully.

 

“I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm going to miss you,” Kagome sniffed, trying to hold back her tears as she gave him a big hug. Sesshoumaru stood uncomfortably for a few seconds before untangling himself from her arms.

 

Sango bowed to him, “Take good care of yourself.”

 

Sesshoumaru nodded to everyone, trying not to show how hard this was for him to leave them. He wanted to stay, but his duties had to come first and he had Rin. He was also confused as to what Inuyasha wanted. He had called him mate when he was full demon, but wasn't sure if his brother remembered now. He looked to Inuyasha who was desperately trying to ignore him, and then turned and walked away. A few minutes later Inuyasha ran up behind him.

 

“You're just leaving, just like that?” he asked, mildly irritated.

 

Sesshoumaru stopped but did not look back to him. “Yes, we have had this conversation, I cannot stay.” He began to walk away again.

 

“Sesshoumaru stop,” ordered Inuyasha. Without even thinking he did as his brother commanded, growling at himself when he realized that he still wanted to please and obey his mate. He began to walk again.

 

“You're going to defy me?” asked Inuyasha, beginning to growl, his youkai instincts reacting to the disobedience that he saw coming from what his demon considered his mate.

 

This time Sesshoumaru turned to face his brother. “Stop this foolishness, you know I have to leave,” he said sternly, trying to hide his emotions. This was harder than he thought it was going to be.

 

Inuyasha was hurt and angry. “You are one cold bastard you know that,” he ground out. “Fine, go then, I didn't want you to stay anyways, it's not like what happened meant anything. Good riddance,” he finished gruffly.

 

The pain that went through Sesshoumaru when Inuyasha said that was immense. It meant something to me, mate, he thought as he turned so Inuyasha could not see the wounded look in his eyes. He again started walking off, his very being calling out to him to stop and go back, to submit again to his brother. He ignored the impulse and continued on, leaving Inuyasha behind to watch after him. After a few minutes he noticed that his eyesight had gone blurry. He put his hand to his eyes and they came back wet. Demons do not cry, he admonished himself, repeating what he had told Shippo, as he tried to get his left over human emotions back in check.