InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ In The Mirror ❯ Never again ( Chapter 11 )

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In the Mirror: Chapter ten. Never again.

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`'Oh Inuyasha.'' I moaned as he sucked on my neck. We hadn't gotten very far. I mean yeah he was already naked, but the only thing I had off was my shirt. Okay I know that I sounded desperate, but come on, wouldn't you be? The guy I love is naked on top of me and kissing down my throat and I don't know when he's going to come to his senses and see that I'm not the one he wants. I know that sounds a little sluttish but I wanted him to be my first. Even if he hated me in the morning.

 

His face was in front of mine. He was smiling at me. But when he opened his mouth I got the biggest shock of my life. The voice wasn't his.

 

It was Kikyo's.

 

`'It's time to wake up Kagome. Kagome, it's time to wake up.'' He, or she, kept saying the same thing over and over again until everything went black.

 

But a second after it went back a light was shining in my eyes. And when I opened them I saw the last person in the world I wanted to see.

 

Kikyo.

 

Inuyasha was standing to the left of her and Sango and Shippo were in her right. I also noticed that I was in Miroku's lap. I would have jumped but he had a very tight hold on me, and both his hands were around my waist, no lower. I think he was just trying to protect me, or trying to stop him self from attacking her. I often told Sango and Miroku about the things she had done to me. But only because they made me. I don't fancy the idea of being sucked into a wind tunnel or being knocked on the head with a giant boomerang. I know that they would never do anything like that, but it felt good to get some things off my chest.

 

`'K-Kikyo? W-what's going on here?'' I asked looking around.

 

Well Looking everywhere except at Inuyasha. I tried when I first woke up and almost died. I can still remember the feel of his hands on my skin; his lips on my neck.

 

Nope; definitely can't look at him for the next three days.

 

`'You were under a spell by that youkai Shizuka. I chased him away. The damn cowered just ran off.'' Inuyasha said as he helped me down out of Miroku's arms and off of Kirara.

 

He might have helped me down, but when my feet touched the ground he pulled away from me like I had burnt him. And his voice wasn't the same. It was almost cold, like he didn't even want to talk to me. The others must have picked up on all this to because Miroku raised an eyebrow, Sango looked at me and then back to him, and Shippo looked at him funny.

 

Kikyo never took her eyes off me.

 

And it was really starting to make me nervous.

 

`'Now that your awake, I have more important things to attend to. I will return with news about Naraku's new puppet.'' She turned around and disappeared into the forest. Inuyasha turned back to face me, only I couldn't see his eyes.

 

`'Kagome come with me, we have some things to talk about.'' He bent over and turned his back towards me. I looked at the others before climbing onto his back. I saw Sango and Shippo climb onto Kirara out of the corner of my eyes. I knew that they were going to follow us, but I was to buys thinking about what Inuyasha would want to talk about to think that they would cause any problems after our talk.

 

He ran all the way back to the bone eaters well without saying a word to me, and I was really starting to get nervous. What if he knew about that dream of mine and was disgusted by it? No, he couldn't know about that. It was in my head and he was on the outside fighting Shizuka. He couldn't know anything about that.

 

We stopped next to the well. He put me down and turned away from me. Something was wrong, very wrong. He was never that could to me, not even when we first met and he was trying to kill me. Killing me was his agenda, not hurting my feelings. That part of our relationship came latter. I walked up behind him a put my hand on his shoulder. He shrugged it off.

 

`'Inuyasha what's the matter? What's wrong with you?'' I asked him; he didn't turn around. And he didn't answer me right away either.

 

But when he did, I wished he didn't.

 

`'I don't need you here Kagome. Go home.'' I knew I didn't hear that right. I must have spaced out for a second, because there was no way I just heard that.

 

`'What? What did you say?'' I asked him.

 

`'You heard me. Go home I don't need you here. I don't want you here. Your nothing but trouble to me.''

 

This wasn't happening. Something was wrong with him. He would never say anything like that to me. He told me once through the god tree when we were separated that he needed me. And we even kissed once for god's sake! So what in the world brought this on? Maybe that's not Inuyasha. Maybe it's a youkai in disguise trying to break us apart. Or maybe he's being controlled. It's happened before; mostly to me but it's a possibility. He turned around to look at me, but I couldn't see his eyes. His bangs were covering them.

 

`'What are you still standing there for? Get the hell out of here. You don't belong in this time; you never have and you never will. You stay here because you want to; because you think you have friends here, but the truth is that you're nothing but an annoyance to us. All you do is get your self into trouble and the rest of us have to bale you out of it. You might be able to find the jewel shards but I know someone, someone who could find them faster and you know it. So the only reason you stay here is because you're selfish. You want to be where you think you're wanted, where you don't fell left out because the others are too soft to tell you you're not wanted.''

 

I couldn't think. I couldn't hear. I couldn't see either. Tears were stopping me from seeing his face as he told me he didn't need me anymore. I knew, somehow I knew that it was really him. He wasn't possessed; and he wasn't a youkai in disguise. This was Inuyasha telling me all this. I could feel my heart being ripped out of my chest. Nothing could hurt this bad. But when he got to the part in his speech about me being selfish, I got mad. I got beyond mad, I was furious. How dare he tell me I'm selfish! What right did he have to tell me that? None at all. And I was going to give him a piece of my mind.

 

I looked up, and right into his eyes. I must have had a bad look on my face, because he swallowed. Hard.

 

`'Selfish? Selfish?! Who in the hell do you think you are calling me selfish?!'' I screamed at him.

 

`'I have every right to call you that.'' He said looking back at me.

 

`'No Inuyasha, you don't. You don't ANY right at all.''

 

`'The hell I-`'

 

`'Just shut up! You've have your turn to talk so now I want mine. You want to call me selfish that's fine, but I'm going to point out what kinda selfish basterd you are. You think that because I made a mistake breaking the shikon jewel that I have to spend every waking moment looking for it neglecting my normal life. Which by the way, I have no more. I spent so much time here that my school grades went down to nothing, so I failed high school and I can't go to college, which means that I can't get a good job, which means that I won't have any real future in my world. My friends feel like strangers to me. I missed so much stuff in there lives that I don't even know who they are anymore. My grandfather is getting older and he's in and out of the hospital with all the sicknesses that he told everyone that I had, just so I could comeback here. My mother is dating some guy that I've never even met and she talks about him all the time like he's some kinda god. I might have a new stepfather and I have no clue what he's like. My little brother is now almost up to my chest he's grown so much, and I haven't been around to notice. He has an actual girl friend now, one that he's serous about, and I haven't met her either.

 

`'I spend all my time here with you. I risk my life trying to find the jewel shards so you can become a full youkai. I could have stayed in my time and let all those other youkai have them but I came back, just for you. I make you diner every night, I tend to your wounds, and I never say a word when Kikyo comes around trying to kill you.''

 

`'L-leave her out of this.'' He stuttered a bit. I don't think he ever seen me this angry. In fact I don't think I've ever been this angry. But his comment just made me madder. And I was no where near done with him.

 

`'Why Inuyasha? Dose talking about her make you nervous? You don't seem so nervous when you're in her arms telling her how much she means to you and how I mean nothing to you.''

 

`'I never said that!''

 

`'You imply it! And every time her name comes up you act like we're desecrating her. And I'm not suppose to get jealous when your falling all over her. But the minute a boy shows any kind of interest in me you go off acting like I'm your property or something. You try to kill Kouga and you chase off poor Houjou every time he comes around and your there. I'm tired of not being able to have any kind of life, or love life because you don't want me to. And I know that I have real friends here, even if you don't want to be one of them, and you're not going to stop me from seeing them. I'm the one with the power here. I have the jewel shards, and so help me gods if you try to stop me in any way I will pin you back to that tree, do you understand me?'' He didn't answer me. And I didn't wait to long.

 

I turned around, walked to the well and jumped in.

 

The last thing I saw was Inuyasha watching me. But I couldn't tell what that look was in his eyes.

 

Because my own were filled with tears.

 

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