InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Learn To Trust ❯ Opening Up ( Chapter 4 )

Learn to Trust

 

Chapter 4

 

Opening Up

 

 

The rest of the class went uneventful, the teacher said he would hand back the tests we took on Friday, tomorrow. It didn't matter to me. I knew I passed, I studied my ass off for that test, I had to pass. When class ended, everyone gathered up their things and piled out, most of them looking at the new crater in the wall I donated to the school, and then back at me. I walked out the class, without a word and walked to my next class, Chemistry.

 

Chemistry was boring as usual; the most that happened was a few students whispering and getting yelled at by the teacher. By the end of second period the whole school was buzzing over what happened between Sango, me and the wall. Like they have nothing else to do with their lives, it's really sad.

 

As of yet, no one was yet come up to me and asked me about it. I knew it would only be a matter of time. For some odd reason, the only reason when anyone acknowledged me, much less talk to me, it would always be about my latest fight. People really had no lives. Right now, the most they are doing is whispering and pointing to my bandaged hand.

 

After class ended, I went to my locker, putting in my Geometry and Chemistry notebooks and pulling out my History book and notes. I had History next, then lunch, then gym and English and finally home. This day was turning out to be a normal one.

 

History class turned out to be boring as usual; I'm not really interested in history. Kagome is in this class with me, she sits in front of me. She ignores me and I ignore her, yup, this day was getting back to normal.

 

After class ends, and a revisit to my locker, I go to lunch. I eat the food everyday, no matter how nasty it looks and taste. The only reason I eat it is because I know I'm most likely not going to eat at home. Beggars can't be choosers. Today isn't that bad, it's cheese burger with fries. I take my food outside and eat under the biggest tree in school. I eat quickly and finish off my bagel sandwich from earlier even though it's cold.

 

Looking at my watch, its 12:30, I still have fifteen minutes before gym class. I decided it's a good time to go talk to Ms. Kaede about my grades. I walk to her office and after making sure she doesn't have anyone talking to her, I enter. She was working on her computer.

 

“Hey Old Hag,” I said jokingly and sitting down. She sighed and doesn't even turn around to me.

 

“Always with the disrespect, Inuyasha?” she asked still typing whatever she was typing.

 

“You know when I say that it's filled with the up most respect.” I said smiling.

 

“I would like to believe that.” She replied and I chuckled. “So, what is it today, Inuyasha?” she said turning to me and then gasped at my appearance. “Another one?”

 

“Not everyone finds my humor refreshing.” I simply said smiling. She just shook her head and sighed.

 

“How many were there this time two, four, or five?” she asked shaking her head.

 

“One, he was big and strong, and very drunk.” I answered truthfully, though my smile never leaving my face.

 

“Oh, you have me believe you provoked a drunken person.” She asked folding her hands.

 

“I won't have you believing anything.” I simply said turning to look at this poster on her wall. It was a poster with that yellow smiling face; it was called `Have a Day'. It had smiling faces with all types of days on it. One was have a puzzle day with a smiley face that was shaped as a puzzle. Another and my favorite was have a thorny day, but it was really horny but a t was written in it; the smiley face had thorns or horns sticking out of it. “Besides I didn't provoke anyone, I just fought back.” I truthfully added.

 

“Where did this take place? What about your parents?” she asked me.

 

“What about them? They couldn't do anything. I was out walking minding my own business when this guy just decided that he didn't like me and we fought. They are mad, I think they were going to the police, good that'll do. I don't even remember who did it.” That was a lie, and I think she could tell but didn't say a thing.

 

“Whatever you say, Inuyasha, now why are you here? I know you didn't simply some to show off your proof of your last fight. And you are not getting that poster until you graduate, a deal is a deal.”

 

“You sure do know me.” I said turning to her with a smirk. She knew I wanted that poster I looked at it whenever I came to her office. She said if I pass, she would give it to me. ”I wanted to know how I am grade wise. I'm going to graduate, right?”

 

Without another word she turned back to her computer to look me up. The silence didn't last long.

 

“I heard what happened between you and Ms. Sango Taijiya.” I rolled my eyes, gossiping sure gets around.

 

“And what, are you going to rag on me too?” I asked stuffing my arms in my hoodie's pocket.

 

“Did I say that?” she asked me, looking at me for a brief second, and then turning back to her computer. “Anyway, I also heard about you and the wall.”

 

Damn, if the guidance counselor heard it then that means the principal heard it too. I guess I'm not going to get off of that, as I thought.

 

“How much trouble am I in?” I asked.

 

“None, you teacher said that it was his fault and shifted the blame off of you. Of course no one believed him, but what can be done if he says you didn't do it.”

 

I laughed at this; the principal could have just asked any student. I'm not exactly one of the well liked students in this school, a number of them would line up to rat me out. I wasn't going to point this out how ever, as said before, I don't go counting my blessings.

 

“I also heard you made quite the speech.”

 

“I never took you for the type to be into gossips, Ms. Kaede.” I said hoping she would take the hint to end that discussion. She did.

 

“Fair enough, I've found you anyway.” She answered. I sat back down in the chair and waited for her to go on. “As I say this to you, every time you come here asking for grades; I'm impressed. You keep this up you can make Valedictorian.” I scoffed at this.

 

“Like I would want to be one.”

 

“You should. It's a very high honor. You have the highest average in your junior class, with 98.9.”

 

“I'm not into the whole high honor like that, you know that Ms. Kaede. You might as well give it to the next one. All I am interested in is gradating.”

 

“Think about it Inuyasha, it won't hurt you, plus it would look great on your college applications.” I didn't reply to this, if I told her I'm not even thinking about college then she would give me a life long speech about how college could benefit me.

 

“So, who gets the title after I give it away?” I asked instead.

 

She sighed in defeat, “If you decide to give it up, then the title of Valedictorian would go to Kagome Higurashi, at 97.9 average.”

 

“Give it to her-” I began but was interrupted by some girl calling Ms. Kaede's name and then running in. It was the girl of the hour.

 

“I'm sorry.” She said backing up, after realizing I was in there.

 

“It's alright Kagome, we were just discussing you.” Ms. Kaede said smiling.

 

“Oh really,” Kagome said interested, “about what?

 

“Valedictorian,” Ms. Kaede answered, “we were just discussing that the way grades are going, Inuyasha here would make valedictorian. Yet he does not want it-”

 

“What! Why not? I would kill to be valedictorian.” Kagome practically yelled while standing over me. I rolled my eyes,

 

Thank you, Ms. Kaede for telling my business, I thought but then said, “Well then you can have it.” I said standing up. She backed away from me, and turned to the old hag.

 

“What Inuyasha means Kagome is that you are next in line if he does not want it.” Ms. Kaede told the goddess. Kagome looked at me in confusion, and then held up her chin and still protested.

 

“If that were the case, I don't want it.” She said folding her arms. It was my time to look at her in confusion.

 

“Wasn't you who were about to commit mass murder for that shit?”

 

“Language, Inuyasha. But he's right Kagome, I thought you wanted it.”

 

“I do want it, but only if I earn it. Not because it was giving to me because you don't want it. If I get it then it will be because I have a higher average than you.” She said poking me in the chest. I ignored the pain of my still sore chest.

 

I looked at her, like she grown a two heads, but actually I understood her. The need to prove your self to the world was something I knew all to well. “Fine, then I'll fail a couple of test and you'll be higher.” I offered though I knew she would refuse.

 

“No! I don't want it that way. I want to do it without your help that way.”

 

“Then do it,” I said shrugging my shoulders, “cause if you don't, then I guess I'll go to the third person in row. Who is that Kaede?”

 

“Ms. Kaede,” she corrected me.

 

“Old Hag sounds better.” I said, Kagome gasped. I usually called her that when it was just me in the room.

 

“Inuyasha,” Kagome scolded, and I laughed, “That's horrible.”

 

“Mind him not, Kagome, he means nothing by it.” Ms. Kaede sighed. I looked at Kagome with a smirk on her face, she was smiling. Why, who knows.

 

“Anyway, who is it?” I asked again.

 

“Uh Miroku Houshi.” She said turning back to her computer.

 

“I bet he'll take it.” I muttered under my breath, but Kagome heard and sighed.

 

“Yes, he will, shamelessly too.” She added. All three of us shook our heads thinking about the pervert. The bell sounding class started interrupted our thoughts.

 

“Anyway, I better go, class started. I got gym and I need to get a note from the nurse saying I can't play.” I said walking towards the door and holding up my bandaged hand.

 

My hand wasn't the only reason I couldn't play, seeing how it was football, my body couldn't take any more abuse for the day. I just hoped the bastard would be too drunk to notice me when I go home tonight.

 

“Wait Inuyasha,” Kagome said coming to me in the doorway, she pulled me out the office away from the door.

 

“Yes?” I asked raising one eyebrow.

 

“Um-well you see-I…” She stumbled, playing with one hair. She was nervous, how cute, I smirked.

 

“Spit it out Kagome, some of us doesn't got all day.” I said folding my arms.

 

“Ugh, why is this so hard?” she mumbled to herself, ignoring my rudeness “Okay,” she looked up at me, “First off I was wondering; why don't you want to the valedictorian?

 

Both eyebrows went up this time, that's what she wanted to ask, I thought, talk about an anime sweat drop moment. “Because I don't.”

 

“Why not, any one would kill for-”

 

“I thought we all ready went through the whole mass murder thing.” I said rubbing my temples not wanting to get in this right now.

 

“I understand, not my business, right?” She said softly.

 

“Right,” I mumbled, I really wanted to get out of there.

 

“Anyway, that's not what I wanted to ask you.”

 

“I had a feeling.” I said brushing some of my bangs out my eyes to see her better.

 

She looked back down and started playing with her hair again, that was defiantly a nervous habit, but she didn't say anything.

 

“Well Kagome?” I asked really wanting to get on with my life.

 

“Okay, here goes. That note I gave you, in math class today...” She said looking at the floor.

 

“What is it?” I said intrigued. I knew Kagome Higurashi don't get nervous this easily.

 

She looked up at me. “Did you think about what I said?”

 

I looked at her in confusion, as I thought back to our notes. “I thought I already explained that I don't blame you.”

 

“Not that.” She said shaking her head.

 

“Then what?”

 

“Aboutusbeingfriends,” She said quickly but I caught each word, “and before you say anything it's not for pity. It's more than that. Like I said Inuyasha I don't pity you. I know you're strong, and not just in strength. I hate seeing you by yourself and I know that everyone needs a friend. Someone to talk to, and to laugh with, or to just be with. I really do want to get to know you Inuyasha, for you, and not the rumors that surround you.”

 

It was my turn to look away. How can I deny something like that? If any one else said that, it would have been just plain cheesy. But when the goddess said it, it sounded really passionate. But still the answer has to be the same.

 

“No we can't.” I answered flatly. I was going to just leave at that but the look on her face, like a wounded puppy, I couldn't ignore. I should at least be truthful to her.

 

I looked around us, no one was there but a few people and they just happened to be staring at us. I narrowed my eyes at them and they all hurried off. To tell their friends that the Awful Inuyasha and the Popular Kagome was acting and looking friendlier than what was to be expected, no doubt. Kagome didn't seem to notice the others; she was still staring with that hurtful face at me.

 

What I was about to say to her was for no one else's ears and I hope she realized that. I was about to say more about my life that I had in a very long time.

 

I stepped to her and lowered my head a bit, and spoke softly so only she could hear my words.

 

“I'm sorry, Kagome, it's not that I don't want to be friends with you, cause I do. It's just that I can't afford to be friends with you. My life isn't perfect; in fact it's a living hell. Filled with abuse, pain, drugs and alcohol, someone like you shouldn't be brought into that if it can be helped. I'm barely surviving as it is. If all that gets to you somehow because we were friends, I couldn't forgive myself. I'm sorry.”

 

I turned away from her and started to walk but a small delicate hand grabbed my left and turned me around to her. She had tears in her eyes and I smiled at her.

 

“A-are you a-abuse at home Inuyasha?” she asked in a hush voice as if she was afraid to say it any more loudly.

 

“You know you're the second person to ask me that.” I said squeezing her hand gently then letting it go. Her eyes widened and she covered her mouth with her hands and her tears spilled out over her face. She then started trembling, and I stood there not knowing what to do.

 

I never really had a girl cry over me, besides my mother. And she would do that if I do something that made her look like a bad mother, like running away. My mother never cried for me after my father was finished with me. She would barley acknowledge me, and if she did it was to say not to mind my father. Kagome was crying for me, because of what happens to me, because she was worried.

 

I did something I hadn't done in years, I hugged her. I didn't even know I was doing it until I felt her grab at my hoodie as if her life depended on it. I put my chin on top of her head and rubbed her back trying to sooth her. I haven't been this caring thing in years, it was new to me. I also knew that I wouldn't be this caring again for a long time, so I might as well use it up. I hugged her tighter to me as I listened to her cryful, broken words.

 

“I—gasp—can't believe—gasp—anyone would want—gasp—to hurt their—gasp—own child—gasp—like they do you.” She cried some more before she calmed down a bit and continued. “When I see those bruises on your face and arms and then see the way you hold your stomach in pain, I want to cry for you. I don't know what else to do, Inuyasha. What can I do to make them stop? No one deserves that, not you not anyone.” She cried in my chest.

 

“Shh, it's okay Kagome. As long as you see me coming to school, I'm okay. There's no reason to cry over me.”

 

“Yes it is. If I don't then who?” she wailed in my arms. I didn't have an answer to that, instead I held on to her as I my life depended on it. Ms. Kaede came out of the room hearing Kagome's crying, she gasped at the sight.

 

“What ails her Inuyasha? She asked me, walking to us.

 

“Who knows.” I said softly. “One minute I'm standing here talking to her, the next she busted out crying. I don't understand girls.”

 

“I'm fine Kaede.” Kagome sniffled wiping the tears from her eyes. “Can you give me a minute with Inuyasha; I'll be in there to speak to you in a minute.”

 

“Of course, Kagome.” Ms. Kaede said and disappeared in her room.

 

Kagome looked up at me, our eyes locked, and spoke in a whisper, “All those times you came to school hurt?”

 

“Yes.” I said not being able to lie to her when she held my gaze this way.

 

“When you talk about it being those street fights.”

 

“Mostly lies.”

 

“Why are you telling me all of this? Why not lie to me?” She asked staring into my violet eyes with her dark brown ones.

 

“I don't think I can.” I answered truthfully. I needed to break this trance that she had over me. I shifted my eyes down and then looked away.

 

“Inuyasha, we have to tell someone this. You can't live like this.” She said holding my right hand gently in both of hers.

 

I looked at her and shook my head. “Listen Kagome, you can't say anything to anyone about this.”

 

“But Inu-” she began but I stopped by placing my hand over my mouth.

 

“Let me talk.” I whispered, “You can't tell anyone. I already tried to do so once before and that didn't work out. If you do tell someone and if again nothing happens for me, I may not walk again. You may never see me again.” Her eyes widened in fear. “He may even go even further and kill me; I can't let that happen yet. And what if he knew you were behind it, he may come after you. I won't be able to protect you, if I he gets to me first. Promise me, you'll forget this entire conversation. You have to, both of our lives depended on it.

 

I removed my hand and pleaded her with my eyes. She closed her eyes and sighed.

 

“I don't like it.”

 

“It's not for you to like.” I answered. “Just promise me.”

 

“Okay, I promise.” She reluctantly said. “How do you know I'll keep it? Do you trust me enough?”

 

“No I don't,” I answered, backing away from her slightly. “All I can do is believe and hope that you won't.”

 

With that I turned and walked away not looking back. I felt a headache coming on and I needed to lie down. I barley looked at Mrs. Paul as I went to the back room of the office and sat down on the bed.

 

“What is it this time?” Mrs. Paul asked me while standing in the doorway.

 

“I have gym, and I can't play with this hand, its football.” I said with my hands covering my face. “Plus I have a headache.”

 

“Just this period Yash.” She said as she went to the cabinet that was in room. She pulled out a cover and a small cloth that goes over the pillow. I took both of them, and thanked her. She turned and left closing the door and turning off the light. I took off my Timberlands and pulled off my hoodie. I laid down on the bed and closed my eyes, pulling the covers over me.

 

For a moment, I just sat there thinking about the conversation me and Kagome said. That was the most we spoke since high school started, and I opened that much to her. I knew I liked her but that was way more information to be given to a person just of liking them. It also made me wonder why she even worried about me in the first place. And I really do hope she don't say anything.

 

Thinking about all of this only intensified my headache; I pulled the covers over my eye and soon feel asleep.

 

 

 

 

 

 

A/N::: There you go, some more In/Kag stuff…I hope that wasn't too sappy, next chapter or the one after that will be more angst for those who like that stuff…lol…. I'm not sure if anyone got this but I'm going to say it; all of that that happened between Inu and Kag gives Kag an understanding of why he so lonely. But they are not friends not even acquaintances just that understanding is the only thing that's between them. (Even though the understanding is one sided). He made it clear that he doesn't want anything from Kagome

~~~***Much Love Story***~~~

 

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