InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Learn To Trust ❯ Leave it Alone ( Chapter 5 )

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Learn To Trust

Chapter 5



“Come on, Yash wake up.” I heard for the fifth time and tried to ignore, but since it wasn’t going away anytime soon, I decided to answer it.

I opened my eyes and looked up into piercing blue eyes; I smiled realizing who it was.

“I wouldn’t mind waking up to this everyday.” I smiled up at the nurse.

“As flattering as that sounds Inuyasha it won’t get you a few more minutes of sleep, your late to class as it is.” Mrs. Paul said smiling and pulled the covers off of me. “And besides, I’m a happily married woman.”

“I can make you happier.” I said flirting. She shook her head grabbed the pillow that was on the other bed in the room and hit me in the face. “Ow, there are rules against that you know.” I asked sitting up and pulling on my Tims.

“No jury would convict me seeing how I was protecting myself against a horny teenage.” She said and walked out. “I’m writing you a pass now, you got a minute before it gets ripped up.” She yelled out to me.

I chuckled to myself. I was in a good mood and my body got some more sleep; even it was for an hour. I pulled on my hoodie and walked out the room.

“How late am I?” I asked the nurse yawning.

“Almost 20 minutes.” She said holding out a pass for me so I can give to the teacher. “How’s your hand?”

“Could be better,” I said flexing it but that cause pain so I stopped.

“Do you even take my advice on not using it?” she asked although knowing the answer.

“What do you think?” I said taking the note from her and then started for the door.

“Why do I even try?” She called out to me.

“ ‘Cause you love me.” I yelled back. I walked to my locker and pulled out my English book and headed toward class.

“Late again Inuyasha?” the teacher, Mrs. Adams asked, as I walked in the room.

“Cool it, I have a pass.” I said holding it out for her to take. The second it left my hand I went back to my seat, and sat down. Kagome was on my left this time and the window was to my right. But unfortunately Sango was to her left. I however ignored them both and turned to the front.

“You know I hate interruptions I’m going to soon stop accepting these passes.” I just gave her a look that told her I basically didn’t give a shit. You can tell she doesn’t like me.

“Anyway, before we were interrupted we were discussing the book ‘The Giver’ by Lois Lowry. Everyone should have finished the book last night.” I looked out the window, but keeping an ear out for Adams so she doesn’t try to embarrass me. The second I turn to the window, she decided to call me out. “Well Inuyasha, I hoped you finish reading.”

“Yeah.” I said looking outside.

“So, do you think you can tell the class on your thoughts on the book and the ending?”

“Do I have to?” I asked still not looking at her; I can feel the glare I know she is giving me and smirked.

“Oh yes. Otherwise I can mark you zero for the homework.”

“Wouldn’t want that now huh?” I said finally turning to her, and forced a smile.

She smiled the same way (forced) back at me and said. “Why don’t you come up to the front of the room to tell us so we can all hear you.” I sighed but however stood up. Some students snicker at me but I ignore them.

In front of the room I leaned against the table that was there and picked up the teachers copy of the book and held it up showing everyone.

“The book is good, the ending was good, the end.” I said flatly, a few students chuckled thinking I was serious. I put the book back down and moved to go back to my seat but of course the teacher stopped me.

“Hold it Taisho.” She said, from her desk, which was in the back of the room. “Elaborate. I know you can do better.”

“Fine, besides the sooner I can get this over with the better.” I answered back. Half the classed laughed at that, the idiots. I looked at the book again and sighed, I knew this was going to lead to an hour long discussion and I didn’t want to go there. What the hell, I thought, I’m in a good mood, might as well us it up.

“The Giver is one of the most truthful books I read in a long time.” I said still looking at the cover that had the picture of the old man and the forest on it.

“Why’s that Inuyasha?” Mrs. Adams asked me.

“I’m getting to that.” I answered, “This community that these people lives in, is a whole world of lies. They believe that everything can be perfect if they do what they are told. But the thing is life can never be perfect no matter how much you work at. They created their own world of a make believe, where there is no pain, fears, or anger only happiness and love exist. Actually they don’t have love because you can’t love without hate; it’s a whole balance thing. They think they are in love because that’s what they are told to do; they think they are happy because that’s what they are told to believe.

“Jonas figured that out, he figured out the need of the balance and that’s why he left. He figured out that they had no choice in their life. So he took Gabriel and left the community, leaving them to have their memories, both painful and happy ones.” I stopped and looked up at the students listening to me with wither interest or boredom.

“What do you mean balance?” asked one student before I continue with my explanation.

Here it goes, I thought but answered anyway. “It’s the whole Ying and Yang thing; you can’t have good without evil, up without down, left without right.”

“But they were happy with how they were living.” said, another student.

“They were told that was the way of life, it was tradition, you don’t mess with tradition.” I said thinking about my dad and the whole hair thing.

“I think I understand,” Kagome volunteered “see we have choices so we can either be happy or mad with the choices we make. But these people don’t have choices, they have to live with what they are told to do, they are told to be happy with their lives they are.” I nodded in agreement.

“Very Good Kagome,” Mrs. Adams told her and then turned to me. Of course she wouldn’t be done with me.

“You said earlier, Inuyasha, that this was one the most truthful book so. Care to explain?” I opened my mouth to say something but she stopped me. “Without the smart response, Taisho.”

Damn, she knew me well. I smiled and nodded. “These people were quick to put the burden of their own problems onto someone else, and then praise them for it. They never thought about the weight The Giver had to carry because of them. That’s very much like our own world.” I said putting the book down. I sat on the table and looked at my hands.

“Explain, Inuyasha.”

“I’m getting to that.” I gritted my teeth in answer. I sighed and unclench my hands that formed a fist at the teacher’s remark. “Today people are so quick to blame others for their own actions and problems. They don’t care who hurts as long as they are happy. As long as they are living in their own make believe world.”

“You mean like a father who wants his son to play a sport because they think it’s a sure-fire way to get them into college, or it’ll give them ‘back bone’ and the son doesn’t want to play but does so he won’t disappoint his dad. ” Asked Tan Anderson, some guy from the football team.

“I guess, I think in situations like that though there are usually deeper means on why the father wants his son to play. Like if the son is too pansy and not macho enough, if he thinks his son may not have the brains to get into college. Or he could just try to live through his son, because he never succeeded in the whole sports theme thing.” I answered shrugging not really knowing too much on that subject.

Kagome raised her hand and the teacher called on her.

“Inuyasha,” she began. I turned to her and looked in her eyes, it was filled with defiance.

Shit I thought to myself, she was about to bring this into a more personal lever, God I hope I’m wrong.

“Isn’t that called abuse?” she asked looking at me.

Fuck, sometimes being right is a bitch, I thought as I smiled. “Why you say that?” I asked instead.

“Well pretty much the father isn’t realizing what or what isn’t good for his son based on his needs not on his child’s needs. In that case he’s mentally abusing his son, neglecting him too. What happens if it turned to something worse, like the son spiraling into depression, get into drugs, alcohol, and then commit suicide. Just because he doesn’t feel he can live up to his son’s expectations.”

I massaged my temples trying to rid myself of the headache that I thought I got rid of when I napped in the nurse’s office.

“No.” I simply answered not wanting to go in it.

“Actually Inuyasha, Kagome’s right, it is a form of abuse.” Mrs. Adams said.

“Of course it is.” I mumbled sarcastically under my breath and chucked at it. I looked up at the class and stood up. “Okay, it is a form of abuse.” I answered refusing to say anymore.

“Why wouldn’t he try to get himself out of something like that before he spirals?” asked some quiet girl who name doesn’t really matter.

“Because he feel’s like it’s his making his father proud of him, or probably doesn’t want to loose his father’s respect. Maybe he doesn’t realize what it’s doing to him.” I answered with a sigh and leaning back on the table, wishing I was in my own seat.

“What if he does?” Kagome asked, “what if he does know what it’s doing to him but chose to ignore it over his own pride.”

“That’s stupid.” I said folding my arms, I knew where she was going with it, but it doesn’t mean I have to take bait.

“No it’s not.” Said a voice I really didn’t want to hear. I looked at Sango then out the window finding that more interesting, but I listened to her instead. “Some guys would let their pride get in the way of something that could destroy them. They refuse help because they believe that they can handle when in truth they can’t. They are just afraid to accept help.”

“It’s not always about being afraid.” I snapped at her. I stared angrily at her, I could hear some students pushing their chairs out of the way, they had heard the events of what happened earlier between me and her. “Why is it that when someone mentions a guy standing up for his pride it always get categorized with him being afraid?” I asked her.

“I didn't say that. Don’t put words in my mouth, Inuyasha.” She snapped back.

“COOL IT.” Mrs. Adams yelled out, that shut me up before I could retaliate against Sango. “I will not have any holes in my walls. Do you think you can solve this without yelling? Or do we have to finish this after school?” A few students snickered and I fisted my hands.

“I can handle it.” I answered

“So can I.” Sango added.

“Inuyasha,” Kagome started, we all turned to her “Sango didn’t mean the way it sounded. Okay, look in terms of the book. Jonas left after learning the truth about the world he knew that if he didn’t get out of there he would survive without tasting real life. Plus he had to get away from the lies that the community fed him. What I think that Sango means is that some guys, not all, and some girls too just like The Giver, wouldn’t have left, because they truly believed they were serving the community. They didn’t think of their own survival, or of how much they were hurting the community by keeping with the lies.”

She was really trying to turn this on me, I decided to give in. She won’t leave it alone till she understood; fine I’ll make her understand. She want to play with things she shouldn’t, I’ll tell her just how much it can burn by messing with fire.

“As poetic as that does sound Kagome, it’s completely a naïve way of thinking.”

“Why would you say that, Inuyasha?” Mrs. Adams asked me intrigued.

“Again, I’m getting to that.” I wish she would stop interrupting me. “Life isn’t all black and white with some shades of gray as many of people were lead to believe. It’s full of colors, bright ones and dark ones.”

“Now who’s being poetic?” Sango said I ignored her, keeping my eyes locked with Kagome.

“As the community in the book shows, people don’t want to know the truth, and they would very much like not to make choices. Why do you think so many of us ask each other, ‘What you think I should do?’ We are afraid to make choices because we don’t want to make the bad ones.

“The Giver chose to stay in the community, because he was aware of the consequences. He knew that if he were to up and leave, there would be repercussions in which everyone would have gotten a whole bunch of memories that they weren’t ready for and could kill them. He didn’t want that on his shoulders, he already had one death on his and didn’t need a bunch of others.

“Jonas was young when he made that decision, he knew what would the consequences were if he left but he didn’t really understand them. That’s why he had no problem leaving. The Giver was older and wiser, he knew. I believe that if The Giver did choose to leave, he would make sure people didn’t suffer because of his actions.

“It has nothing to do with pride or being afraid to go. Maybe he was just ‘serving the community’ as you so put it, but sometimes you have to put other needs before your own. If I were in his place, I would have done what he did.

"But then again, those people didn't want to know the truth. Just like people in real life, they don't want to know the truth. Why tell people things they don’t really want to hear, they’ll just ignore you and later forget what you said? It’s a waste of breathe.”

My eyes never left Kagome’s and hers never left mine. I couldn't read her expression, which was very un-Kagome. Finally she turned away. I looked at the teacher.

"May I sit down now?" I asked her, not really caring who had their hands up to discuss what I just said. Mrs. Adams walked to the front of the room and nodded at me to go do so. I went to my seat and sat down without looking at Kagome though I felt her eyes on me.

As I suspected some students disagreed with what I said, while others agreed. Kagome spoke when the teacher asked for her opinion on the subject, and not much ro my supris, she disagreed with me on the subject of people don't want to know the truth. I said no comment when Adams asked me.

It didn't take long for the bell to ring singling the end of class and the school day, at 2:15 p.m. Without saying anything to anyone, I left the room. I went stright to my locker, pulled out my bookbag, stuffed the books that I needed for homework in my bag. I slammed the locker closed, and left the damned school.

I looked around the streets, looking for my ride. I finally saw Bank sitting on the hood of his car waiting for me. I smiled and walked to him.

"Took your ass long enough." Bank said putting out his cigarette.

"How long you been here?" I asked shoving my bookbag through the front window.

"Not long." he said hoping off his car.

"Where Jake?"

"Home, rolling some dutches. We got the good weed, you know the shit from Damien."

"He do be selling some good shit." I nodded opening the passenger door.

"You smoking with us?" he asked going to the drivers door.

"Nah, I gotta work tonight. I don't need to go in high as fuck." I laughed.

"Well-"

"Inuyasha!" called a voice the I recognized all to well. I turned to Kagome, she was running to me.

"Now that's a hot piece of ass, you fucking that?" Bank asked me.

"Nope, though I should for all the trouble she putting me through today." I answered back, I was lieing though. I would never disrespect Kagome that way. I knew she was trying to do good, but sometimes the best thing to do is leave well enough alone. She however didn't understand that.

Kagome stopped in front of me, "Can we speak please, just for a second?" she then looked over at Bank and back to me. She wanted to speak alone.

"Bank..." I began not looking back in.

"Do you, Yash, just don't take to long. Jake will start lighten up without us." he said opening the car and getting in. Kagome narrowed her eyes at Banks comment. Damn it, I knew she was about to chew me out.

I took her hand and dragged her towards the side of the school. "What is it?" I asked turning to her.

"First off," she said her anger rising, "who was that and what did he mean by lighting up? I hope he didn't mean what I think he meant."

I chuckled at this, the goddess was cute when she was mad, "First off, who he is is none of your business, I owe you no explinations. I have no commitment to you. Second what do you think he meant Ka-Go-Me?" I asked pronouncing each syllible slowly.

"Drugs." she said, I just smirked. "Your right, you don't owe me anything. I'm just worried about you. Which reminds me, how dare you?"

I was thrown into confussion with this one, I have no idea what she was talking about. "How dare I what?"

She walked to me and pinched my right arm luckly it was high enough away from my cut, but it still hurted. "Oww, what the fuck was that for?"

"That was for calling my idea naïve. I am not naïve. And not everyone don't care to know the truth. Some us want to know, and even help if needed be." she yelled at me. I backed up a step in fear. She calmed down a bit before she spoke, "The reason I came to talk to you is to ask you again, let me help you. We can go to Ms. Kaede, I'm sure she'll know what to do. I don't-"

"Stop it Kagome." I said angrily. She really was skating on thin ice right now. I asked her to leave it alone, she promised she would. The next thing she would do is talk to someone behind my back causing trouble for me. This girl would get me fucking killed and herself hurt, if she kept at it.

"Ex-excuse me?" she asked quietly.

"Stop it Kagome." I said again. "What the fuck do you think think this is? This is not some project that you can work at it, hoping to succeed.There is much more to lose to this than you think."

"I-I understand that." Kagome said backing up against the wall.

"No, no the fuck you don't understand." I yelled slamming my hands against the wall on both sides of her head, locking her in place. I planned to get a point across and I will even if it's the hard way. "I tried pleading with you, asking you the nice way, even I tried to explain things to you in class, but you don't understand. I guess I'm going to get have to do this the hard way."

Kagome eyes widened in fear as if I was going to hit her, "Stay the fuck out of my life Kagome, and stay the fuck away from me. I don't want your fucking help nor be your fucking friend. I will not risk my life because your ass wants to play hero. Get a fucking clue, not everyone wants you to be in your circle of friends."

"Its-its not about that." she said in a quiet yet fearful voice. "I-" I slammed my palm in my against the brick wall, making her flinch in fear and shut her eys.

"LISTEN TO WHAT THE FUCK I SAY" I screamed at her. Her eyes became glossy and a tears fell down from her eyes. I hated doing this to her but she needed to know, I was doing this for the both fof us. "Clean out your damn ears, bitch. Stay the fuck out of my life." I growled,

"HEY!" Someone yelled coming around the corner towards us. "LEAVE HER ALONE YOU BASTARD!" Kagome and I turned to see Sango and her boyfriend running toward us. I backed away from Kagome and she slid against to the ground, I could imagne how it looked. The school's fighter hovering over a scared Kagome. I really didn't need any of this shit.

Sango ran to her friend and instintly put her arms around her Miroku stood in front of them both as if blocking me from them. Keh, as if he could win against me.

"What did you do to her, Jackass." Asked Sango who glared at me, Kagome wiped her tears and stared at me with sadden eyes.

"What's it to you?" I asked.

"I think it's time for you to leave, Inuyasha." Miroku said sternly. I looked at him and rolled my eyes. I wish he would try something. My gaze fell on Kagome, she looked up at me, our eyes locked. I wanted to tell her I was sorry, but she would never understand if I go soft on her.

"Kagome, it would do well for you to remember what I said." I said in a cold voice. Her eyes shifted down, but she gave a small nodded. I turned away from the scene and walked away.

"I told you not to mess with him Kagome, he's dangerous." I heard Sango say to Kagome.

"No, he's not Sango, just misunderstood." I heard her answer.

"I think it would be wise to stay away from him-" Miroku said, I didn't listen to what else he said becuase he was out of earshot. I walked to Bank's car and got in without a word. Bank drove off.

"What happened?" Bank asked me after we got a block away from the school.

"I'll explain later." I growled at him. "Is that offer still up for smoking?"

"You know it."

"Good. I need a serious stress reliever."

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"Ah man, I wish I had seen her face." Bank laughed out loud. We was sitting on the floor eating pizza, smoking weed and laughing our asses off.

"She looked so fucking scared." I cracked up. I was telling them how my day went at school, ending with the confrontation with Kagome.

"What I wish to see Inuyasha put the hole in the wall." Jake laughed. He took a hit at the blunt and passed it to me. I inhaled deep and long, breathing it out with a sigh.

"I still can't believe you told a bitch like that." Bank said taking the blunt from me.

"She figured it out, she ain't stupid you know." I answered back. "Though I probably should have just lied."

"Probably?" the two brothers asked. I smiled and we all busted out laughing. We were fucked up, on our third blunt, and our second large pizza.I took the blunt back from Bank and finsihed it off. "What time is it?" I asked putting the out the blunt that was the size of my fingernail.

"Uh--" Jake said looking at the clock on the wall, he finally focused in on the time, "about 4 o'clock."

"I gotta go to work in an hour." I said standing up. "I'm going to take a nap wake me up at 4:40." I walked to Bank's room. There was no way in hell I was sleeping in Jake's room. I shuddered at the thought of what happened last time I was there.

"Shit, you might as well set the alarm." Bank said picking up the pizza box and taking it in the kitchen. I nodded at him, shut the door went to his bed.

I looked at the alarm clock that was on the small table on the side of his bed. I managed to focus my eyes for a second to set the alarm. I pulled off my Tims and long sleeve shirt, my hoodie been off since I got there. I didn't pay attention to my bandages that were wrapped around my torso and layed back on the bed, pulling the covers over my body. It didn't take a second later till I fell asleep, only one thought running through my head.

Damn I was getting lazy with these naps.






A/N:: How's that? It took a longer time than I wanted to upgrade but since it being ThanksGiving Day tomorrow, I couldn't finish sooner. I should upgrade soon, but I'm not sure. I'll try, maybe in two days or three, who knows. Happy ThanksGiving Everyone!!!!!
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