InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love in strange places ❯ Deal with the devil ( Chapter 16 )

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Chapter 17

One month has passed. It was full moon again. Kagome was standing out in the gardens carefully hiding her aura and scent. She stared at it's pale beauty as it symbolize the nearing of her decision. Her stomach was bulging now and it was getting harder and harder to hide it from Sesshomaru. An illusion spell helped her but still she worries for her children.

She sighed in sadness. Her unborn children will never know the world of living, she owed them so much. Her heart ached for them, not a day passed without her crying at the moon. Not a day passed that she had not asked for forgiveness. Not a day passed that she had not reminded her self to not be a coward and let Sesshomaru parish.

Yes Sesshomaru. Her one true love. Her heart painfully thumped at those words as she replayed them in her head. She truly loved him, but fates have decided they were not meant to be. A single tear slipped down her cheek. For the past month she had been battling with herself to come to a conclusion of what she should do. She loved Sesshomaru that she was sure. But…

Kagome's shoulder were slowly dragged down by an invisible force as she glanced at the moon. But.. he would one day abandon her. She thought sadly. She did not blame him, who would want her when he could have a child of true noble blood. She was nothing to him. Sure she was the object of his affection now, but it was all an act to let her gain her trust and devotion for him. When the time came he would eventually take in other mates. Once again her heart was broken.

"Oh mother…. Why must we share the same fate…" She cried as she slumped down into the grass. She leaned against the cherry blossom trees taking in it's peaceful scent. Then she remembered a song she heard her mother play when she was alone. It was a song her mother wrote after discovering her father with another woman, the same night that her father sent youkais to kill off her offspring.

She plucked a strand of beautiful white hair and it turned into an instrument. It was made out of cherry wood with seven white strings and it sounded like a beautiful harp except it was flat. She plucked a string as it's sad and sweet note hang in the air. Tears stung her eyes as she started playing a sad melody. Singing her mother's word wishing for a solution.

` there you were last night'

` sitting close to her by candle light'

` I couldn't' let you see my crying eyes'

` but I wanted so bad to run to you'

`how could you find some one with so little time'

`I can't understand it happened so fast'

`six months have past'

`and suddenly your over me'

`it hurts when , I thought I had gotten over you'

`cause it hurts to know you are'

`I'm trying so hard not to care'

`but your happy now and its not fair'

`just when I thought I was getting strong'

`but when I saw you with her I was wrong'

`now I can pretend losing you didn't mean nothing'

`and I can deny this whole thing is not happening'

`to hold it aside it's hurting me'

`it's killing me'

`it hurts when, I thought I had gotten over you'

`so this is how it ends'

`cause it hurts to know you are in love again'

`it hurts when I thought I had gotten over you

`together forever won't come true'

`one broken heart is how it ends'

`cause it hurts to know your in love again'

Kagome's eyes were filled with tears as she played and sang her mother's song knowing soon this will be her memory too. She poured her heart into the song hopping by hearing her mother's song will give her strength to do what ever she needed to do to save the future of her kits and Sesshomaru. No matter what price she shall pay, she will make sure Sesshomaru will live. She sighed at the end of her song now knowing what she must do. But her heart cried out to her begging her not to do this. Her heart told her there was another way to save him. But Kagome just shook her head as tears streamed down her face glistening in the moonlight.

A sudden sound in the trees startled her as she spun around to face a pair of ruby eyes.

It was Suki. She wore a smirk of victory upon her face as she took in the broken image of the girl.

" why did you resssurect me?" Suki questioned her eyes narrowed into dangerous slits as she surveyed the girl for any kind of deceit. Kagome sighed as she knew what she must do though it hurt her.

" because…" her voice broke off as tears threaten to spill she gathered her courage and promise that she shall not hesitate to save Sesshomaru. " because Suki…. You are to be the Lady of the Western land.." Kagome whispered as her whole body went numb with emotional pain.

"Of coursssse I alwayssss were." Suki gave a satisfied hiss. But she was curious at why the girl was willing to give up the title for she knew all demoness sought after the land and power. "why girl.. why do you give up such enormous power" she questioned not caring to disguise her curiousity.

Kagome was shocked. She never thought Suki would ask because Suki only cared about getting what she want. " because … I…I don't love him." She turned to stare at the moon afraid Suki will see through her lies.

"You lie." Kagome sighed she might as well tell her there was no harm in telling her for Suki did not care for her anyways.

"because…if I stay Sesshomaru shall die." She said so quietly that Suki could barely hear it with her superior Youkai hearing. She looked up at her and gave her a small sad smile and continued " if I do not do something Sesshomaru shall die. And no matter what I feel or not feel it is in me to save him." She started to walk slowly through the garden signaling Suki to walk while she tell her. Funny they were about to kill each other, but she knew Suki did not care if she died.

"One month from now I must save him and change fate." She said as her bangs covered her eyes to hide her sorrow. Suki was impassive as ever but in her mind she was questioning why the girl would give up her title if all she had to do was save him.

"I sssstill do not underssstand why you mussst abandon your title" Suki was almost smiling as she knew she would be the new Lady of the Western land and she could make it sooner if she killed this unexpecting pitiful Youkai. But she haven't satisfied her hunger for knowledge yet.

Kagome stopped walking as she whispered into the wind " because I must sacrifice my self to save his life. It's the rightful balance of life" Sorrow radiated from her very being as Suki finally came to realize Kagome's plan to save Sesshomaru. It saved her a lot of trouble to send youkais after her. She'll die on her own and leave Sesshomaru all to me. Suki smiled with malice.

" whatttt are you pppplanning to do aboutttt the pupsssss." Suki asked. She could see right though Kagome's illusion. It was her families gift to see though lies or illusions. Kagome's eyes widened as she desperately tried to mislead Suki.

"Shippo and Manei will take care of Sora, they'll be fine it'll be better anyways" as she desperately hoped Suki bought it. But she was no fool.

"Foolissssh womannn. I wasss ssspeakingg of the unboornnnn onessss." Suki laughed as Kagome paled. How could Suki have known. She put her hand protectively on her stomach. But she knew they were to parish with her.

"They shall remain a secret… for they shall never take a breathe in this world." Kagome stated as guilt stabbed her heart at the thoughts of her pups. She could never forgive her self but she knew if she did not act on that day exactly one months from now Sesshomaru shall never find happiness. As much as it pained her to see him love another woman, her love for him ran deep into her very soul.

"Sssssesshomaru doesssn't kknoww?" Suki was surprised to say atleast. This woman had kept it from him for months now. "no…"

Suki smiled "good" She turned to leave but a small hand stopped her. She turned her crimsom gaze upon Kagome who was pleading with her eyes." When i…leave please take care of my children…and never tell Sesshomaru about anything I have told you."

Suki smiled again one of pure joy and evil " I wouldn't dreammm of it." She then faded into the darkness once again. Kagome collapsed onto the ground holding herself and cried into the night for the loss of her love. Two small golden eyes had observed the whole thing. Tears streamed down the creatures face as it turned and fled towards the castle leaving the grieving Kagome under the moonlight trying to piece her heart together.