InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Mai Aikou Taishite Maro ❯ Oite Goshujin Ichi, Warawa Ageku Kankin ( Chapter 2 )

Mai Aikou Taishite Maro

(My Love For You)

By: Jazmin Turner

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Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha…whatever

Thanks To: InaseNeko aka ShesshomaruLuver1723. You're an awesome beta reader!

Translations: I found the translations for the title of the story and for all of the chapters from Free Dict

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Chapter Two:

Oite Goshujin Ichi, Warawa Ageku Kankin

(In Your Place, I Finally Realize)

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I can't believe it! I thought that maybe...just maybe Inuyasha would have cared if he thought I was in love with someone else! Kagome thought sadly as she fought back her tears. But I was wrong! Why do I torture myself with thoughts of him proclaiming his love for me? WHY! WHY? She couldn't hold it in anymore. The dam broke and her tears flooded free. They streamed, unbridled, down her face and dripped off of her chin and onto her clothes. Stumbling through the dense forest, she fled from the embracing couple that was Inuyasha and Kikyou.

I have never stopped thinking about you. Not for an instant.

~I was worried about him. After telling him about Yoshiro he fled in the forest and didn't return like he said he would. And I found him with Kikyou~

I desire you, Kikyou. I miss you so much. No one and nothing will tear us apart like before.

"Not even Kagome?" Kikyou asked quietly. Inuyasha shook his head quickly.

"No."

~He doesn't care about me! He doesn't care~

Kagome sprinted through the forest, oblivious to where her feet were taking her. The only thing that she knew was that she was flying as far away from Inuyasha as possible.

~I feel so betrayed! But why? It's not like he was taken from me. He was never mine to begin with~

Fatigue began to slowly creep up on her; her lungs were protesting for air and a stitch seared her side. But she wouldn't stop, she couldn't. She wanted to be as far away from the pain as possible. And if that meant leaving the Feudal Era forever, so be it.

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"Kagome!" she was greeted with a big hug as soon as she stepped foot through the door.

"Mama!" The young miko took comfort in her mom's strong, loving arms as she enjoyed the warmth and security they offered, as well as the sweet scent of jasmine that her mother always carried with her. Ms. Higurashi gently took her daughter's chin in her hands and studied her features. Tears streaks lined her face, her hair was mussed, and her eyes were pink. Kagome did not cry well.

"What's wrong?" Ms Higurashi gently let go of Kagome's face and put a hand in her hair.

"It's nothing, mom."

"If it was nothing, you wouldn't be crying," she cooed in her soft, sweet voice. Kagome felt her tiredness slowly melt away as her mother's voice, sounding sugary and filled with honey, soothed her aching soul. "You don't have to tell me about it if you don't want to. Now come. Lunch is almost done and Grandpa and Souta are...somewhere."

She waved her hand around vaguely.

"Thanks mom. You're the best," Kagome mumbled, wiping her sore eyes before tucking herself under her mom's arm. Ms. Higurashi shot her a warm smile before leading her into the living room.

Buyo was rolling around on the floor, batting at his long, brown-splotched tail, giving Kagome a meow of recognition before he continued playing around. Souta was in the family room, struggling to defeat Seymour of Guado in Final Fantasy X. Gramps was the only one who wasn't in the house. He was probably outside sweeping the steps, stocking up on the mutated, pickled feet of frogs, or working hard to seal the well so Inuyasha would no longer 'plague' the Higurashi household.

And that was something Kagome wouldn't mind at the moment.

Kagome took off her shoes and sat down, crossed legged, at the low table. Ms. Higurashi poured some miso soup into her bowl and moved on to Souta's. As Kagome stared at the brown broth, she slowly lost her appetite. She didn't really feel like eating...not at a time like this. Maybe she did need her mother's advice.

"Mama."

"Yes, Kagome?"

"Have you ever...known a...a guy and you sorta...you know...had a BIG crush on him, maybe even loved him?"

"Like you and Inu-kun?" Kagome's blushed.

"H-How did you..." Ms. Higurashi smiled.

"Mother's intuition. Continue." Kagome swallowed and struggled to regain her courage.

"W-Well…what if…Inuyasha was already in love with someone else?"

"That would pose as a problem." Kagome rolled her eyes. "Who is he in love with?"

"We'll...it's kind of hard to explain…Kikyou used to be a priestess, who guarded the Sacred Jewel, that I so skillfully broke into a zillion pieces," Kagome said with a wry smile as she plucked at the nearly completed Jewel around her neck. "Inuyasha and Kikyou died hating each other because of the skillful manipulation by the demon Naraku, who we are trying to defeat. Inuyasha made it seem like he hated Kikyou, but when she was resurrected by a spectator, Urasue, I figured out that it was all a lie. He is still in love with her and he continues to play around with me like I'm some...toy!" Kagome wiped wet eyes on her sleeve. "What should I do, Mama?"

Kagome expected her mother to laugh at her or become scared after she poured her heart out, but all Ms. Higurashi did was pause in thought, before taking a seat next to her daughter.

"I don't think that is the case, Kagome."

"How would you know?" she snapped. "You have no idea what he put me through!" After gazing upon her mother's shocked expression, Kagome mellowed. "I'm sorry, Mama. I didn't mean to lash out at you. It's just…I've been under a lot of pressure lately." Ms. Higurashi smiled once more.

"It's okay, Kagome. What I think is you need is some fresh soup, a warm bath, and a nice, long rest."

"That's all!? No advice?"

"Oh, I have advice."

"Which is…" Kagome drawled.

"Put yourself in his place," Ms. Higurashi chirped as she stood up. "I'm going to go run a bath, okay?"

Kagome nodded dumbly as her mother disappeared upstairs.

"Put myself in his place." Kagome muttered, finally letting her mother's words soak in. "Hm."

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As Kagome curled up in her bed, warm and snug under her covers, she thought back to what her mother had said earlier.

"Maybe I'm taking this whole thing the wrong way...Mama's probably right. If I were Inuyasha....hm." she began before slowly drifting off into deep thought.

Inuyasha was abandoned by the time he was six - he was still a defenseless pup. He was scorned by humans and demons alike because he was neither. He never knew his father, who died when he was born and he missed his mother dearly. Growing up in the wilderness would be difficult, especially with everyone after your blood because you're different. Kagome felt tears prick up in her eyes. Now that I think about it, Inuyasha's life was rough from the start!

Meeting Kikyou was probably one of the worst and best things that could have possibly happened to him. She let him live and they started to like…and eventually love each other. Inuyasha was prepared to become human to be with Kikyou.

He would then fit in and be able to have a family - with children and the perfect wife...But on that fateful day, when Kikyou was supposed to bring Inuyasha the Jewel, he was pinned to a tree for fifty years. He 'died' hating her and she died hating him, though it was all a trick. Naraku had skillfully devised a plan that bought them each to their doom. And when I pulled the arrow from his chest, he thought that I was the same girl who had betrayed him.

For him, fifty years didn't pass, only a minute...and the pain was still fresh and his wounds hadn't yet healed...I thought that he despised Kikyou, but when she came back to life…I knew different. He died hating and loving her at the same time. After loving Kikyou and being without her for so long, of course he would be overjoyed to see her again.

Now it's time to put myself in his place.

I know that I am in deeply in love with Inuyasha, but what if we somehow betrayed each other and I lived on and he died? Then in my time I met his reincarnation. They looked the same, but were totally different. His reincarnation would probably be sweet and gentle, but I was attracted to Inuyasha's rough, callous demeanor. And what if Inuyasha was brought back to life? Of course I would be happy to see him! Even after being with his reincarnation for four months, seeing Inuyasha would make me happier than I had ever been before.

Now I see.

Kagome whimpered.

No matter what, I would think that the true Inuyasha was better than the reincarnation. I would sneak out to be with him, but I wouldn't toy around with his reincarnation's heart. I would tell him straightforward that I wasn't interested in him. But then again...it would be hard…but I wouldn't two-time.

Even if the reanimated Inuyasha was mean and calculating, almost nothing like the original, I would cherish what time we spent together. I would be happy to finally see him again. And if I had to choose between Inuyasha and his reincarnation, I would choose Inuyasha. The first one that I fell in love with.

Kagome's head dipped sadly and she pulled her pillow against her chest in a stifling hug.

Is there no room in your heart for me, Inuyasha? Kikyou is the better girl for you, I just want you to be happy. So I'll step aside. I wouldn't butt in anymore. Once the Jewel is complete, you'll never have to worry about seeing me ever again.

In your place, I finally realize.

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It's not as angsty as the last chapter, but not as bland as Decisions of the Heart. To tell you the truth, I really don't like this chapter. You'll be shocked, appalled, and ready to beat me senseless when the next chapter rolls around, which will be pretty soon.

Expect more overwhelming angst, fluff, shocking revelations, and surprise appearances from Kouga and Sesshomaru (but I guess they aren't surprises anymore)

Please review! It would make this girl very happy!