InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Mental ❯ Visits and Temptation ( Chapter 9 )

Kagome crossed her arms as she walked dejectedly throughout the empty hallways, winding around to the visitor stations. Most of the decor was cracking plaster or shades of jade. With sprigs of browns and dirtied oranges lining the building's interior. Surprisingly enough, this was the brightest, most welcoming facility that she'd been placed in, sure the orderlies were more strict with the patients, yet they still held humanity and sympathy for them. A more social outlet, rather than complete confinement, better than the last place anyway. Ridge View held the one thing that made her want to stay calm, for some reason during this reverie on her way to see her sister, she realized that Yash wasn't all that bad. But surely he thought of her as she had him, just there for disposal.

"Well, if it isn't Kagome. The insane factor in my life." Kikyo spouted as she saw her younger sister blindly pass by her staring at the grey tile pattern on the floor.

"Huh? Oh.Hey Kikyo." Kagome, blinked shaking off the last fleeting thought of that boy with a sigh, her hand meeting her forehead wiping away a layer of cool sweat.

"You look better than the last time I saw you. " The older girl commented, shedding a slight smile. Her brown depths scanning over her sister then to the bag she brought." I hope you like what I brought from home, I mean it was the quickest thing I could throw in the bag." Her thin hands reached through the loop in the bag, lifting it towards the shorter girl with a wink. "You got a present in there too."

"Thanks. I need to get out of these clothes." She grinned pensively, taking the black and green stitched up bag, rummaging through the contents. "Did they check everything out in here? Cause I don't want to be sedated again over something like an eyeliner sharpener." The youth smirked, her long shimmering black hair tumbling over her shoulders.

"Yeah, I was harassed by this one Orderly when he was taking out this one kid who grabbed my ass and told me that I looked like you." Kikyo snorted, running her fingers through her thick, silken midnight hair. "Everything in that bag is safe, and I bought you the clicky stick eyeliner so you wouldn't kill yourself with the sharpener blade that couldn't cut skin." A low laugh came from her chest, glancing at her sister with a mixed expression on her pale features. "You know, you're really quiet Kagome. Normally you would have at least had a remark or possibly a threat by now. You sure that you're not sedated now?"

"I'm fine, I'm just on my meds okay." Kagome mumbled barely above a whisper, her mind still stuck else where. Obliviously taking a seat on the Vistor Room couch, playing with her clipped finger nails thinking about earlier. Not daring to look her older sister in the eye.

"You little tramp!" Kikyo teased, her hellacious eyes went wide with a realization of why her beloved little sister was acting so timid and tame. "It's because of that boy you told me about!!" She grinned wrinkling her nose. "So, when do I get to meet him?"

"Fuck not this shit again." The younger girl spat, rolling her silver eyes. "Look, there's nothing to tell, nothing to say, I don't have feelings for him. I just need to fuck the hell out of him so i won't be horny anymore, okay? Need I say more?" She spoke sarcastically, going limp against the couch glaring at her sister now leaning against the door frame with an orderly walking by.

"Well, Kags. I'll call you tomorrow and wish you a good day. But from the looks of it I gotta get out of here before they lock me in with you." Kikyo sighed, giving her little sister a sympathetic look before walking over to her wrapping her arms firmly around her beaten body."Sota, and I miss you. Mom said that she's sorry. We all hope you get outta here soon sis. So, Love you."

"Love you too. Tell everyone I'm still as crazy as ever. You can go around telling mom that I've got tubes hooked up to me and I need sedation every time I open my mouth." Kagome winked, hugging her sister back. "Well, I gotta head back to the lounge soon anyway. I'll talk to you later. and I'm opening my present when I get back in there so I can call and tell you how much it sucked." Her tongue stuck out of her mouth, showing a small indention and closing hole to where a tongue piercing used to reside.

Kikyo pulled away from the embrace with a cheap grin, reaching into her pocket pulling out a safety pin and new tongue ring. "By the way, as requested. Part of the Christmas gift." She smiled, turning to walk back out the door. "Bye Bitch."

"By you slut bag." Kagome waved, screwing the ring back into her mouth, searching around to make sure she was clear of staff and orderlies. Finally satisfied with her stealthly performance she leapt up and headed into the bathroom with the Dr.Kaede whom at the moment was ready to head out for her two days.

The old woman hinted and tried to pry at the reason Kagome, herself, had cooled off the past week. And why Yash had been anything but in his normal character, even though he had to be sedated after he left the girl today for some how getting a hold of some amphetamines. The thought alone of that child doing harm to himself, made Doc feel nervous about leaving but she felt as thought Kagome could keep him in line, or at least stable for a while anyway

After a good ten minute chat, and clothes change, Kagome departed. It felt good to be in her own clothes, even though it was just a pair of faded torn apart flares, and a plain red t-shirt, and her trusty black zip up jacket. She felt normal, and clean. A feeling that had been absent for the past year of her life. Half way back to the lounge, she decided to find out what her sister had gotten her, and stopped near the activities hall. Leaning against the barred up glass window, and reached in her bag pulling out a small box of condoms and a pack of cigarettes, with 'I know you ho beast, You need this stuff.-Kikyo' inscribed on a small post it with some fucked up drawing on it.

Kagome sighed, tossing them back in the bag, turning her body around her delicate fingers ran over the thick glass peering into the room. Her stormy eyes drifted through the near empty confines seeing Yash curled up in the corner with a guitar playing some depressing song that made her heart sink, even a warm blush crept upon her flesh. The mangy haired boy looked up feeling eyes watching him and smirked devilishly, and walked over to the door watching her getting increasingly nervous.

"Hey Kagome..you have real clothes." He snickered, tilting his head in the direction of the lounge. "Looks better than the facility wear." The youth's eyes never fell back on the girl, he was too caught up in taking her some where so he wouldn't completely have to hide his blush and curiosity.

"Yeah, I finally get to wear my own clothes and have my own smokes." She grinned, brushing her loose blacken tendrils from her eyes, "I finally got my tongue ring back from Kikyo. Maybe I'll show you a thing or two this weekend. If you're a good boy." The girl smirked, fighting away another wave of blush. In an attempt to be bold like always.

"Huh?" Yash's deep pools widened nervously, showing off more of the heavy bags beneath them. As a steady glow heated his pale skin into a blanket of burnt crimson."I-Kagome..Why do you keep doing this?" He stammered, shoving his hands in his pockets thanking God that the lounge was the next room on the right and cursing it all the same because they would be for the most part, alone.
Kagome grinned to herself, not being able to contain all of her urges. Her frail hand reached up pulling Yash's face down to be eye to eye with her. Even though she held a blush on her cheeks she leaned forward, dragging her tongue over the right side of his smooth neck. "Remember you're the one that started it. You kissed me." The devious girl bit her lip, breathing heavily onto the shuddering boy's flesh. "Well, I'm going to watch tv, you take care of that hard on yourself." She winked, prancing past him into the lounge.

InuYasha blushed continually avoiding eye contact with the girl sitting to his left on the dusty, blue couch. She had a way of
crawling under his skin like no other, not that he 'really' minded. He just contently laid back with his feet brought up to his chest, his arms locked firmly around them paying attention to his surroundings, mainly the cartoon on the television. Although the feel of Kagome's slick tongue pulsing up his smooth neck, with that cool metal still sent shivers down his spine. His body reacted towards her against his will, but he had to admit she was the only one that had ever intrigued him.

"Hey Yash?" The dark headed girl abruptly whimpered, her hands searching for her temples. Massaging them roughly, trying to fight off yet another break down.

"You okay?" He answered nervously, gnawing on his bottom lip. Intently watching her sudden change of personality from the earlier sexaholic he knew thus far.

"I'm sorry." She muttered, glaring at the floor with her vast silver pools on the verge of spilling over with warm liquid.

"Better be you fucking wench." Yash spat not thinking about the way her head was held low, how her hair tumbled over her shoulder masking the obvious pain in her eyes, either from recollection or menial years of being locked away. All he saw was the bitch that had teased him till no end, appearing to finally make amends.

"Fuck you! I thought that maybe you would accept it and I would be able to build my pride back up! But no! You're just like Muso aren't you?! no concern for the well being of someone else!"Kagome yelped, closing her tired eyes. The rest of her body tensed, clenching her small fists within the cuffs of her black jacket sleeves.

"Kagome..What are you talking about? I mean I have feelings. Well..Sorta. But that's no reason to fly off the fucking handle with me! You do that anyway though so there's no sense in talking to you!" He retorted, huffing into is bent knees. Long strands of black seeping over them as he placed his head down.

"I'm so fucking tired of this." Kagome stressed fighting off another strong wave of tears. He'd seen her cry once, and she hoped it was the only time, but she knew better. Everything she'd pent up for years finally needed to be released before she killed herself trying to relieve the suffering.

"Kagome.." InuYasha's voice softened, reaching a hand out to her. Placing it firmly on her shoulder, he swallowed hard trying to regain his leaking mental composure. Everything she'd done to him, didn't seem to be a bother. Perhaps now she'd break down that barrier around her. That's all he hoped for while he shed a weak smile, tussling his flowing black hair back.

"What?!" She snapped, pulling out of his soft grasp, wriggling her way to the opposite side of the couch. Her face buried in the arm, while her arms wrapped around her waist.

"Tell me why you're here in the first place, hell tell me anything at all. I mean all you do is tease me till I can't stand it anymore, and you have no reason for it." The boy mumbled, sighing in exasperation.

"Is that all you want to know? Why I'm like this? Why I tease you? Have you ever once paid attention to the place that we're in? Why the fuck do you think I do those things?" She inquired, now losing her battle with the raging river of tears welling themselves to the brim.

"Dammit Kagome." He gritted his teeth, tearing his gaze away from her to stare at the plastic plants, reminding him of where they really were. Although his large, paranoid eyes couldn't stay away from the sullen girl. "Please just, if nothing else, tell me what you're feeling?"

"Why not read it?" Her stinging silver eyes flashed back at him through the forest of raven locks. Her small hands reaching down beneath the couch for a worn out notebook that her sister had left in the bag for her. Yet another reminder of how unsure she was about herself, not to mention life it's self.

"You kept a journal of everything eh?" He arched a remorseful brow and continued his gaze over the haggard girl, wishing at that moment he could take her pain away.

"Only one entry before my mother, that bitch found it and took what I had of a life away." Kagome smiled weakly, feeling the cool surface of the black, empty notebook. Her emotional eyes flickering so much fire and intensity back at the boy next to her as she extended the book. "I know I shouldn't do this, but it's the only way I know how to let anything out with out crying or lashing out like I normally do. No one's ever offered to listen before." The girl's eyes fell back to the floor, her moods changing drastically every so often. "Take it."

InuYasha, licked his lips and heaved a sympathetic sigh as he reached an unsteady hand forward around the object. His fingers grazed the surface while the rest of him shuddered at the mere brushing of her skin against his in passing. The dark eyed boy grimaced as the pages flipped open past sketches in ink, until he reached an entry and a poem at the bottom of the tattered page. He skimmed over the contents, reading each word out loud, while Kagome shrank back in the corner of the couch, biting her lip nervously, never letting anyone she just met venture this far into her life.

"I first took a glance at my life thus far,only this morning. Nothing more than a shadow of what it once was. Filled with neither love nor the fleeting existence that could souly be described as a 'life.' Devoid of any truth or relivance, is that my future? A meanile walk through the bleak fields of what once was, or what could be? Perhaps it's just the sheer thought that I have finally come to terms that I'm alone. Reculsive, humble, crestfallen..etc. Negativity may have finally slit the throat of fate to bleed upon my body, and taint in with melevolance. I suppose that the reality of growing into the shoes that were at one time too big, is that you will experience a wave of rough, unrenounced tides to take you with the undertow of rationality. Therefore there can be no garauntee of sucess, calm shores, or the perfection of passive ideation. Only in the furthest reaches of death will you find the everlasting grip of frost bathing you in it's excellence. Even then is it safe to say, that you shall walk again in the star lit groves of rebirth? To live through the same distilled, motions until you finally complete what was assigned to you with the birth of your soul. Perception grieves as another mistake is made, breeding the succession of fallacious hope. In the depths of my soul, will, and/or spirit, I'm torn at the thin seam. Indecisive of the choice I am ready to make. To live or to die, only one will be right. I hope I am. Watch for the night to fall, when the time comes, if nothing else. Run." His voice shaded and haunting reading the scriptures of her thoughts, now leading to her poem she'd folded up within the pages, finally feeling at ease with another suffering soul. "Embrace the dead, drink their cadaverous wine, taste the flesh that bleeds chaos, murder the wounds, left open and unresolved, savor in the moment of rebirth, deception is finalized. "
Kagome's eyes closed, finally releasing the fighting flow of tears, listening to her pain wash over her, as a warm body reached to hers pulling her into his chest.