InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ naked and alone ❯ i wish i were dead ( Chapter 15 )

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chapter 15

I wish I were dead

"Let me see what is the name of the maidens grave you seek again?"

"Kikyo." Said a rather sad InuYasha.

"Oh yes lets see..." He went over to the monument and opened a small door on the side before entering. None of us could get threw so we waited...and waited...and waited...and waited...and waited...and waited. 3 hours passed...most of us were asleep except me and Inu. Both of us were thinking rather hard about one thing or another.

"Here we go..." Everyone was startled by the voice that came out of the door with a small book to fit the small man in his hand. "I've found it the women shanio was..."

"What the hell!!!!!" Said Inu standing furious. "we are looking for the women Kikyo you dumb ass!!!"

"Sit." down to the ground he went in a buff of dust. "Sorry he has a temper problem sometimes...but he is right where looking for Kikyo's grave not...shanio's please look again if you will."

"Yes certainly Miss." He went back in right as Inu pulled himself off the ground.

"What the fuck was that for?" I looked at him dryly and stated.

"You where being mean to the nice man looking for the grave location for us." His ears dropped then went back up at the sound of the old man coming out again.

"Here Kikyo." This is so screwed up...!!!! 3 Hours looking for a person we didn't need and 2 seconds for the one we did. What a waste of time! "Lets see there are 2 graves."

"What!!!! how can there be two graves?" The flee shrugged and looked the file over again.

"Looks like the first one is in the village of Bashily. then there is the other..." We all were hanging on the edge of our seats. "hum...that's funny I don't think this village is around anymore."

"What how can a village disappear!!!!" The old man sighed.

"It was destroyed...But the name is Terugan...it was destroyed 40 years ago by Naraku." Naraku what he destroyed it? No way...it was to weird for me and so I did the only logical thing any human would do...Ignored it... "So any way you guys what do you want with the location of the graves anyway?"

And like so many other times before we told him the whole story...well we left out the juicy details...^_^

"I see that quite a tale...but what are you going to do...from there I mean after a wish is made on the Shikon no Toma it is said the jewel will disappear forever if the wish is for a noble cause...but if it is for a bad one the earth we be destroyed and no one will excise anymore..." A gleam of hope came into me...I could convince then that me going home was a bad idea and might destroy the earth...that way I could stay here with Inu and everyone else forever...I decided to start convincing now...!!!!

"So if my wish is bad to get home then the world would be destroyed."

"Yes but your wish is a noble one...not a soul in the world could be condemned for wanting to return home." Another planned clogged up in the drain...where's the plunger?

"I see...then we best say are thanks and get going on our mission." Everyone agreed and we left the tiny flee man in such of the jewel...

~Later in the day~

We all walked in silence, man I was being to hate silence...in my own true world silence was like a blessing to me but her it was like a disease...slowly eating me alive driving me to insanity slowly forcefully...and no matter how hard I tried to no matter how much I whimpered it stayed in silence in till I killed myself just to here the sounds of my screams. that was silence that was life that was my torment my pain...I wished that for once I could be happy that I could stop and be me for all the world to see the Kagome that wanted to met life head on...that Kagome was strong, me on the other hand...I was a little weakling, a baby...Why me why me...*sigh* life just wasn't my forte...but then again what was...?

"Kagome wake up, anybody home?" Inu's hand was in front of my face breaking me from my thoughts of misery. He was smiling at me and I knew by the smile that we were alone.

"I'm hear."

"What's wrong you seem so lost." we began walking together.

"I'm lost Inu..." He was confused I could tell by his face. There is a really big sign of it to...the ears dropped.

"But I know exactly were we are...so your not lost with me." that was sweat I have to admit but not right.

"no Inu I'm not lost like I don't know where I am it's just that..." Star's were beginning to show themselves and I looked up with me hands behind my head. His gaze followed mine and for a moment it was just me and him no world no problems no worries just me and Inu...no that wasn't the case...there was a world to put up with and I had to live in it... "Inu?"

"Yes?" His gaze returned to mine and I looked in his eyes deep before returning to the star's above us as they appeared one by one flickering to life before my very eyes.

"Do you ever fell like you know exactly were you are and yet at the same time have no idea."

"What do you mean."

"Inu I wish I were dead sometimes." His face was full of worry now so I contained when he didn't speak. "I had no life before I came her I was lost to the entire world and even now I wish I were dead so that the world could forget about me and move on...do you ever fell like that Inu?"

"I did once but then...I...met you..." We both stopped as he looked at me with his eyes burning in passion love and worry. "you taught me something Kagome."

"And what was that."

"that I need to live...for you and the rest of my friends because they need me..." I smiled this side of Inu was nice and comforting. "Kagome a long time ago a wise man told me something a word of advise that he said to tell my pups when they were old enough."

"That word would be?"

"Well it was more or less a sentence that was a reason to live."

"And what was it? Come on tell me! Your killing me." He looked a little worried at that. "It's an expression in my village to mean hurry up all ready."

"Ok but it went like this Kagome...dieing is easy living is truly hard...I believe that Kagome...It takes a truly courageous person to live."

"Why's that?"

"Because you have 2 seconds of pain when you kill yourself but in one life time there is more pain than you could believe, yes?"

"Right but that makes you want to die to get away from the pain.."

"but without pain Kagome you have no enjoyable moments that you remember in the bad to cheer you up."

"I don't really have any enjoyable moments to cheer me up."

"Then let's make some why your here with me..." He bent and kissed her neck. "for as long as your with me Kagome I will make every moment even the bad enjoyable for you...that I promise..."

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