InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ New Beginnings ❯ New Beginnings 5 ( Chapter 5 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

The house phone's shrill ringing assaulted InuYasha' sensitive ears and snapped him back into the present. Weary of phones after his most recent experience, he made sure to check the caller I.D. before he answered this time around. Seeing that the caller was actually someone he expected, he answered it on the next ring. In a voice that portrayed his exhaustion from the intense strain of the night's events he greeted his best friend and true brother, “Hey Miro.”

Relieved to just hear his friend's voice, Miroku missed the defeated tone that was laced throughout it. “InuYasha, what's going on over there man, San and I have been calling you and Kagome on your phones for the last three hours. What's up?”

After taking a deep breath, InuYasha answered, “It's done man, she's gone. I kicked her out.” For the last hour, InuYasha had replayed every scene of their argument in his head, and he knew it was over with. But saying the actual words to a third party made it all seem much more real. Holding back tears, he barely caught Miroku's frantic response.

“What do you mean `it's done'? Wait, hold that thought, we're on our way over. See ya in 10.” With that, Miroku hung-up the phone, leaving InuYasha to mechanically return his phone to its cradle after he realized that the sound of the dial tone was playing in his ear.

Sliding down against the wall, InuYasha ran his hand through his hair and sighed for the umpteenth time that night. Staring out of his panoramic windows, he let the bright city lights distract him enough so that he wouldn't keep reflecting on Kagome, particularly on that video that the bastard sent of her and him…Before InuYasha could go down that path again, he heard the distant ding of the elevator and watched as the two people he trusted most in the world step into his living room.

As soon as Sango saw her brother looking so forlorn against the wall, she rushed over to him, wrapped her arms around his shoulder, and whispered that it would be alright. Neither she nor Miroku had ever seen InuYasha look so utterly broken before, and the sight killed both of them.

After about five minutes, Miroku broke the silence with a quiet “InuYasha?”

Understanding well the question his name implied, InuYasha responded with a defeated, “She lied to me.” Knowing that InuYasha was not done speaking, his two companions waited for him to continue. After several minutes he did so. “She told me she loved me. She told me that she wanted to be my wife, my mate, the mother of my pups, but she betrayed me.”

After his statement, Miroku and Sango waited a little longer to see if he would continue. When it became clear that he wouldn't, Sango began to stroke InuYasha's thick mane, and asked what Miroku could not, “What happened Inu?”

Her soft voice broke him out of his trance, and he began to quietly shed tears once again. Wiping off his cheeks, Sango looked to Miroku when her cell began to beep, signaling that she was receiving a text message. Shifting her weight, she eased the phone out of her pocket and saw that the message was from Kagome. Making eye contact with Miroku she slipped him the phone and he moved to the guest room to find out what was going on. As he waited for the call to go through, he tried to make sense out of InuYasha's words and the events of the night. “Clearly he and Kagome argued over whatever Sesshoumaru said tonight, but what did Kagome do?”

Hearing Kagome's soft, “Sango?” he immediately let her know that it was him she was speaking to, and asked her what happened. Still unsure herself, Kagome didn't go into detail as to what the argument had been about or her history with Sesshoumaru, but she did confirm that they had in fact broken up. Concerned with her admission, Miroku had a list of questions to ask, but before he could do so, Kagome stopped him and asked if he could get her a plane ticket home. Surprised at her request, he asked incredulously, “You're serious? You're leaving, just like that?”

When Kagome didn't respond right away, he continued, “Kagome, what happened?” When about a minute passed and she had still not answered, Miroku began to get frustrated. In a stern voice that didn't leave room for argument he told her to meet him at his place so that they could talk.

When InuYasha first brought Kagome to be approved by Sango and him, he knew that they would last. So watching his friend fall apart because of something she did had him on edge, and he wanted nothing more than to get to the bottom of it. However, even though he was pissed to see his best friend so wrecked, he considered Kagome a friend too, and wanted to at least hear her side. Walking out of the guest room, he caught Sango's attention and signaled that he would be back as soon as he could.

Watching Miroku get on the elevator, Sango returned her attention back to InuYasha. InuYasha had been her rock through all of her rough times, and it was hurting her to see him this way. Hugging him close to her, she thought of the multitude of times InuYasha had been there for her over the years. Chuckling to herself, Sango thought about how InuYasha had taken her out to one of the most expensive restaurants in the city after her first date stood her up. Sighing, tears clouded her eyes as she remembered how he held her all night as she cried relentlessly after her brother committed suicide her freshman year of college.

Letting a wayward tear fall, she recalled how Inu beat up Miroku after she found out that he had been seeing another girl while he was trying to convince her to give him a chance. After Inu's intervention, Miroku and her decided it would be best to remain friends, and she had to admit, their “break-up” did in fact bring them closer. They had even started to room together after she began her residency and couldn't afford an apartment close to the hospital on her own. But through it all, InuYasha had been her constant, and being a witness to his pain had never been easy for her. The last time she had seen him cry was the first day she met him; the day he found out his mother was murdered. Now almost 15 years later, seeing him sitting here with the same lost look on his face was causing her physical pain, and she wanted to do whatever she could to make him feel better.

Shifting from her position by his side, Sango moved in between his knees and set her hands on his broad shoulders. Lifting one hand, she placed it on his cheek, and wiped a few delinquent tears that dared to fall. Lifting his chin up with her fingers, Sango looked deep into his golden eyes and lightly kissed him on the lips. Realizing that she had his completely and undivided attention, Sango in a soft but resolute voice said to InuYasha, “She doesn't deserve you,” and attached their lips again, but this time with much more fervor.

Confused, InuYasha didn't know what to do about the woman now straddling his hips and kissing him breathless, until Sango's persistent tongue coaxed his out of his own mouth and into hers. Remembering that he did have arms, he wrapped them around her petite waist as he drew her closer against his hard naked chest. He knew this was wrong, but it felt too good to stop, especially after she made her way down in between his knees. Her head game was hella tight, because he doesn’t remember having a coherent thought until she settled herself back onto his lap and whispered a sultry, ‘I love you Inu,” into his ear.

InuYasha's hand immediately stilled against Sango's back as the weight of her words finally registered in his brain. Pushing the woman slightly away from him, the hanyou searched her eyes, and realized that they needed to talk this one through. Pulling her closer, he settled his head on her shoulder, and breathed into her ear, “I know we didn't think much about it earlier, but you know that Miroku loves you.” Feeling her head bob, he continued, “Tell me what you want me to do huntress and I'll do it for you.”

Smelling the scent of her tears, he twisted her around in his arms and kissed her forehead. Wiping the streams away, he told her, “I'll do anything to see you smile love. Just tell me what you want from me.”

Shaking her head furiously, Sango told him, “You've already done so much for me Inu. With Kohaku and my father, you've been so good to me and I can't ask you for more than your friendship. But…” At her pause, he pulled her closer to his body and asked, “But what baby?” Garnering enough strength from his voice, Sango continued, “But I can't ask you to love me more than as a friend.”

Sango had always been there for him, and despite his best efforts to keep their relationship purely platonic, it was true for them that a girl and a guy just can't be friends, because over the years their relationship can be best described as buddies. Thinking about their history, he was beginning to feel like a complete ass for letting it go so far just now, but he and Sango had crossed the line several times before in the past. When they were younger, long before even he was aware that Miroku was as serious about Sango as a man with a “cursed” hand could be, he and she had “messed around” quite a bit. He was many of her firsts, but because he loved her so, he really didn't intend on being that first. However, for whatever strange reason, InuYasha always seemed to earn the trust of V-Club members, and his best girl was no exception.

He was a sophomore when Kohaku died and even though Sango went to a school in another city, when she called him late that night, he left campus immediately to be with her. When he found her, she was cuddled up on the floor and he held her close to him the entire night, offering as much support and strength as he could. He stayed with her and her father until they buried her brother and it was that night that Sango asked more from him than he thought he could ever give her. He gave in, but afterwards he made sure that they both understood that the act was more for comfort than anything else, but Miroku's bullshit always brought her back to him and a man could only resist so much. All sorts of intimacy ended however when Miroku finally seemed to get serious about committing to her. Both of them went back to “platonic” and it had worked out for several years. Him being with Rin for a while and later Kagome of course made it easy, but he truly had thought that she was over her hero-worship complex with him. He loved her and seeing her happy filled his heart with warmth, but he had never been in love with her. He was also pretty sure that while Miroku knew he and Sango were close and perhaps physically so, his brother most likely didn't think that they had gotten down like that. And to be honest, he wanted to keep it that way. For he was sure that eventually the two would work out their differences and make each other very happy. And knowing from his own experience how difficult it is for a man to get over a woman's sexual past, especially when his “brother” is part of it, InuYasha had no intention of letting him find out.

Looking into her eyes InuYasha stated more resolutely, “Miroku loves you Sango, he has always been the one.” At her head shake, he continued, “Yes Sango, he has always been the one for you, not me, Miroku.” Grabbing her shoulders he spoke to her soul, “He loves you so much that he doesn't know what to do with himself and it's about time that you gave him a chance.”

Shaking herself from his hold Sango screeched out, “No, no, NO! Miroku knows that I love you, that I've always loved you. Why do you think we broke up? He tried damn hard to get me to open up, but I just couldn't knowing that you still didn't know how I felt about you. I drove him away because I couldn't love him like I love you Inu. Because he couldn't mean to me what you mean to me.”

Gripping her forearms, InuYasha halted her movements and asked her, “You told Miroku that you loved me?” At her nod, he continued, “Why Sango? Why would you do some dumb shit like that. You're not in love with me Sango.” At her dissent he went on, “No you are not, Sango. You’re just afraid of being in love, so you have settled for holding on to me because I have always been around. I'm safe because you know I will never return your feelings, but that I will always be there for you. Because no matter what goes down, I won't ever leave you since I am not in love with you and therefore can never be hurt by you. You love the fact that I will always be there, but Sango that is not being in love. You are not in love with me. You do not want to be with me and you know it. So stop being such a brat about it. I know you love Miroku.” Raising his voice in response to her resolute, “No” InuYasha sternly said, “I KNOW THAT YOU LOVE MIROKU! Stop trying to deny it because you know you do. You want him with you all the time, but you are too afraid to make the commitment because you don't want him to leave. I'm telling you, if he can help it, he won't go anywhere Sango. He loves you and wants to be there for you any way he can, but you've gotta let him. You have to let go of this false image of me and try. Not for me or for Miroku, but for yourself. Don't you want to be happy?”

Taking in InuYasha's passion filled words, Sango lost her will to stand and fell to the concrete ground. Sobbing into her hands, her tears increased tenfold when her best friend didn't try to comfort her for the first time in her life. Looking up, she cried out, “Why won't you just let me love you?”

“Because I love you Sango, too much to let you settle for a dream, when the real thing sleeps in the room right next to you.” Turning around, InuYasha opened the glass door and stepped back inside of his bedroom, leaving the broken woman to sort out her own tears this time around.









A/N-  I’m not sure who remembers this, but I have completely changed this chapter and mixed it with a few of the later ones so that there is no real Inu/Sango lemon. I want to take this story down a more realistic path, so I hope you enjoy it.